Showing posts with label mybheja. Show all posts
Showing posts with label mybheja. Show all posts

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Nice to meet you.

Some times we try, some times we have many stories to tell and no one is going to listen to our stories. Who have the time in this world ? Who belives in what you have to say ? Who will tell that whatever you are doing is correct ? No one will tell you correctly what you are doing is right and what you are doing will give you what you desire in life.

There is one person who knows the reality and the answer, its you ! The answer of the most important of the questions in our life is known by only us. The search more search, do as many search and ask to thousand of people what is good for you. They will only give you the comments. They will give you the suggestions but it is your duty to take it the best answers for you.

It is your responsibility to answer the best of the answers. It is you to decide what is good for you and what is bad for you. There will be times when you will feel down and under. There will also be times when you will feel with joy and happy. But these times are just the journey and in journey you try to learn.

The life is full of excitement. We expect we do not get, we do not expect we get. We want we will never get what we want and when we do not want we have to take it. When we walk-we see peoples, we see trees, we see sea, we see sun , we see birds, we see flowers but what we do not see is what we are looking for most of the times.

We also see the beauty, we cannot descirbe it we just want to make it ours. When we want to acquire it, then it becomes a problem. When the flower is their it looks beautiful but once when we want to pick up the flower and make it ours. We kill it. We kill the flower. We commit a crime for Nature. We will not be penalized, we will not be taken to Jail but we will surely be given punishment by Nature.

Imagine a situation where you are a young guy of mid 20's and you are really looking for a women, a kind of your type. A sweet and beautiful. A nice looking. A tall dark beautiful lady. You then suddenly see her in the garden. The same type of the girl you were searching for.

One approach would be you will go near that girl and start talking with her. you approach tells you that you want it, you want her in your life. The process to acquire the beauty of her is by knowing her, by talking with her and by making her yours. The approach you use is the decison made by you.

You visit her and suddenly you reach to her, talk with her ask some thing stupid and try to make her laugh. Want to put some good impression of you on her. Suddenly when everything was going perfectly you saw a man approaching her. He kissed that girl with whom you were talking. You did not feel well, you are jealous, she said bye to you-and she introduce the man stating that he is her husband. You are spell bound, you do not know what to say, what to tell- You said to him- Nice to meet you.!

Did you really felt Nice when meeting some one whom you never expected. Surely you did not. But as those are formal messege we deliver even though we did not feel what we are speaking it comes automatically in our mind and we say . You feel bad you come back from the garden, in your room sleeping. Realizing that how beautiful the lady was. What would have been if you were her man and Not the guy she intoduced to you.

You felt bad and suddenly you are thinking about same kind of girl and one of your friend she approached to your room. She liked you very much but she had never had courage to say or speak to you about it. She came and she is talking to you, she is making you laugh, she is doing whatever you wish her to do. She prepared a good food for you. She came to discuss about the assignment you both were doing for some course.

You guys are just a good friends that is what is their in your mind nothing else. You do all the activites as a normal friend but you do not have any feelings of personal attachement with her.

Some of the peple might have gone through same situation. It is the process of life. We want but we do not get and when we get we do not want. Expect the unexpected. Realize that whatever comes your way is just for you. You take it as thinking a gift of Lord. You take it with your both hands. Thanking him. Saying that I never expected this to happen but since it is a gift from you my lord I will take it.

I wanted something which I did not get only because the "wanted" was my desire and my desire does not have to get fulfilled. Thank you for not giving what I desire. Because some body else has already asked for it and you have given it to him/her.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

The unexplored road

Life is struggle and it will be. Love is difficult and it will be. Money is hard to earn and it will be always. Nothing comes easy. It is the power of our mind which can make everything easy. It is our life which we have to make easy. How ?

Life is easy and it will always be easy. The things we do, the work we do, the life we spent thinking, working, waiting for something. The life is spent and we never realize that we have really spent our life. When we spent life working on the matters what we assume are most important in life we miss small and beautiful matters.

Time is the important aspect in our life, time can break our life, time can change our motto, our goals. Time is the most important aspect of life where people will change. People do not want to change easily but they do just because of the time.

How would you behave with complete stranger ? Will you treat him as if the person whom you do not know or would you treat him as a human, a person who looks similar to you.

The thinking you carry and say or speak a lot about you. It is you who will decide about the other person. You may assume that the person will not be enough and the person is not suitable but at the same time you can think in many different ways. Our brain is such a creative ball which is constantly looking, constantly searching and constantly wants to connect to the heart.

Connection of heart and mind is one of the brilliant techniques a humans can learn about. We work and we decide, we work on a official, academic project and we decide which is totally based on our decision of mind. What if we combine the heart and decide?

Will it make any difference then ? The answer I do not know. If you know please let me know. Their are times when you are wanting something but that something is never going to happen. You die for it but still you are alone and you are not satisfied with the decision done for you.

Who is the most important decison maker in the world ? Are you the one or Is it some one else doing it on behalf of other ? If the other is unknown what is the name we give ? Shall we call it as GOD. Shall we tell that GOD is unknown and it is our basic assumption, our believes and our thinking.

Science and conscience is the good aspect of combining both heart and mind. If a person understand both the Science and Conscience then one can easily understand what decisions are made by heart and what decisions are made by heart.

I have written something which I don't know. People ask me why on earth you do not know what you have really done ? What is wrong with you. ? Everything is wrong with me. I am a person who is mad, a person who decides based on his mind and heart. I am not telling that I understand it completely but I do and most of the times I try to prove it to many people

It is difficult but not impossible. Say a positive to a people you will get the positive answer. Say a negative to people he will not feel good about you. If we talk good, people always like it. They will be impress despite the fact that you do not like the person.

However, life has many more lessons to teach you. I want to learn, I want to learn as th learning never stops, I want to explore the learning and want to spread the message of every stories, every essay, every book and every other basic ideas that are stored in my memory to all those who needs them, to all those thirsty minds which are waiting to fulfill their thirst.


The quench of thirst, hunger, life and material possession only ends at the time when you are very old, satisfied with every other things and when you do not see the connection among any of them. The fulfilled and satisfied person then starts visiting churches, temples and Mahzids.

Welcome to the journey of life. !

Monday, May 5, 2008

My First Proposal

Oh my dear, I am very far from you. The moment I saw you I felt the deep sense of feelings for you. I didn't knew that I would really fall for you but Now I cannot imagine my life without you.

The life is like hollow, single and always needs a partner for the sharing of the ideas or thoughts in life. I am very much alone. I am lonely. I know the day I saw you-the day was perfect, with sun shining and blaze of glory being cherished from every rays that I saw fell in your beautiful hairs.

I know that you are sweet, you are careful, you are beautiful and you are the best of the creation the god has ever made. Their is no doubt in that. I will never doubt my entire life. I know that I have felt some deep love for you. I have to say it now. I know that you are the one I will never live without. You are the one without whom my life is empty. It is the dead end. I want to move forward in my life. I need some one to take me to the other side. I believe and trust you. I like you. Despite we have not talked I trust you.


My beautiful lady,From today onwards I promise that I will never ever live without you. I promise that I will be taking care of all your difficulties, all of your problems would be my problems all of your burden will be my burden, all of your pain will be my pain and all of happiness you will like to share I will their standing and smiling as you would like to see me.

I am alone, I want to you. I need you. The "want" is not only the desire but the destiny. You are my destiny. You are my love,I believe NOW, I believed the day I saw you and I will believe it till my death.

It is my life I can give you in return. It is my happiness I can give you in return. I will never ever try to give you my pain until and unless you will want to share it. Please Today- I am on my knees standing and asking you one big question-
"Will you marry me ?", "Will you be my love for entire life ?"

I am afraid, I am shy and at the same time I am feeling deep joy that you will say "yes". I am afraid because if you will say "no". My heart will be broken. I will not love anyone then afterwards. I will be alone again. I want you only because I can cry for you. I want you because I will give my entire life just to make you happy. I am ready to die if you ask me. I am ready to kill some one if you ask me. I am ready to do what you want my dear.

Please tell me do you feel the same ?. What if I ask you now that I will be loving father of your child. I will try my level best to become best father. I like you ....

I cannot live without you and I hope their won't come any days in our life when we have to be separated. Please I am here in Dubai living alone for your answer. Waiting for your response. Please let me know. Please tell me if you really will like me. Please let me know. I am in love with you.


I know it is difficult to know when a person is in love. I ask with myself and it gave only one answer. It is you. I have any friends who are girl but my heart choose only you. I have always seen you, always liked you and will like you forever and forever. I know you will like me too.

I know our relationship has not started but it does not matter because If you agree I will give you a call right now. Please tell me if you feel the same.


Here is the last three letter words that I would like to say again-

"I love you".

I will always love you and I will always be only yours,I swear, I promise and I promise from the bottom of my heart.

(Dedicated to friend and his love)

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Bless them.

When most of the times you are feeling lonely and alone, when most of times you are not being part of anything, you are with your self- It will seem to many other people that you are lost. You are no anymore. It will be the moment of complete silent. The moment of peace and the moment of vanishment.

The people around you will be curious about you. The people will ask about you, want to know more about you. The more they want to explore about you the more you will show your mysteries to them. The mysteries not is to show, your nature does not automatically will deliver the mysteries but it will be seen to many people that you are kind of mysterious person.

The life is simple-Every body if you watch carefully are in rush. We all want to reach to final destination. May be the project, the work, or even the end of the day, it can also be what we were thinking, we want to get to the destination very soon, very fast. We are in rush. To all those who are in rush-One thing I would suggest, Slow down. I do not mean that you should not work or should not do what you are doing but slow down with your rush, your pace, your speed.

Once I remember I asked one guy to watch his steps. I still remember that. People always want to get everything in life very quickly. May be it could be big house, a good blue color job, nice and beautiful wife, childrens and many more money. Everything that we need and we want to get, everything that we want-will come. It is their but it will need lots of patience and courage to slow down our speed. The speed does not mean that you should not work or you should not do what you are doing. The speed means- Keep it simple. It is upto us to control our daily activities.

Nothing comes ahead of what we think. Whatever we wish, are our just wishes and it will be their somewhere in queue lined up one after another. We make loads of wishes. Even far more than us, girls pray a lot. All our wishes are collected by GOD. He keeps them in his book. He then process all our wishes one by one. Every now and then when we see, we listen, smell, observe and learn we make loads of wishes.

All these wishes are kept according to our own priorities. We wish and we prioritize them. These all wishes are then kept in his book. The GOD decides when, where and how to deliver all our wishes. It is the duty of GOD to do the job for us. He does but he never lets us know that he did the job for us. We humans, think alright. I got what I wanted in my life. All the I, MY makes us egoistic and will create lots of chaos in our life.

We tend to forget that one day we have to visit GOD's home. We are selfish humans living in earth, thinking most of times about our own life. See how many people are hungry at the time you are eating-Bless them before you start your meal. See how many do not have clothes to wear at the time you are wearing fancy clothes-Bless them before you wear them. See how many people are in stage of diaster, unhappiness, fight, war and total chaos at the time you are doing parties and attending fantastic meeting-Bless them before you start your work.

Have any one even tried in their life of blessin those mentioned above ? I guess very few or none. We never do that. We are lazy. We do not want to change ourselves why should we ? What we do not have ? We have everything that we need. When you have everything you need, you become careless. When you are in the other side doing and needing a help you will see what I am seeing.

Blessed are the peacemakers and blessed will be the peace makers and blessing to all those do well-being for peace.

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Brain and Heart

Some times, When you expect something to happen for you. It does not happen. When you least expect the thing to happen to you at that very period the things happen. Today was quite a surprise day to me in some manners.

Welcome to the world of exception, the unexpected journey where we move like a random particles constantly in motion. We just move, meet new particles and then we share values, emotion, culture, religion, food, fun and everything else that has needed to be fun or we think we should enjoy or share with them.

In the journey we are excited, we do not know what will happen next. the beauty just lies in not knowing what is going to happen next and that is the true beauty. The beauty lies in the eyes of beholder. How can some one even judge it through the eyes ? Just only eyes are not enough to judge a person or see the beauty of other person you need to communicate through the others person eyes to your eyes and slowly from that person eyes to the your heart.

When you communicate you will know that your brain is making some king of communication with your heart and it tries to talk with the heart but the heart does not allows it to talk with the brain because brain always thinks about the basic stuffs. It thinks about the food, the money for weekend party, the job, the work load, the things that are on in your mind, the work you are going to do in the near future and so on.


Whereas the heart does not think about the money, not about the religion, not about the culture or nor about race, sex, anger or whatsoever. When you take your thoughts close to your heart than you realize that you are being the victim of attraction. You are being close to yourself.

Some times people get puzzled about my how I think, I write but I do not worry about what others are doing beside me only because I work both with my mind and my heart. When you will be able to work both the parts of your most system, you will realize the true beauty of being alive.

The brain always is the way it is and it will not change. It will ask you to pay your bills, it will ask you to think about your career and it will ask you to look after you life in controlled manner. The heart does it in different ways totally different.

What heart does is the true beauty. Listen to your heart be close to what you feel, because these are important than what your brain asks you or always demands from you.

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Happy New Year 2065



Happy New Year 2065. We are humans from future. Many people in the world can learn a good lesson from us. HOw ? We can teach people how one can be very close to Nature and learn a lesson from the its environment and surroundings.

Nepal is soon going to write consitutency assembly which is vital for whole country. I would like to say that- Indians we are no longer, Chinese we do not want to become so Let us be true Nepali.

People generally kill the the things they love most. We like something so much that we cannot live without it but generally we do kill those things. It is easy. It is easy to kill the things that you love. We should kill the old political rule, autocratic rule of King and we all know the fact that Nepal was only Hindu Kingdom in the world but we kill that, Now we are secular kingdom.

That was just an simple example. Happy New Year 2065 to all the people in the country, May GOD gives you what you all people desire, want and deserve in life, in society and in country.

One thing we Nepali lack is we need to think beyond we can think. We should not be limited to our thinking. We like our friends, we like to gossip, do chit-chat, have fun with friends, drink, dope, smoke but are we doing any thing except just following the stupid trend ?

Why is it difficult for us to change ? It is very easy.If every Nepali citizen belives in "doing" Our country will surely become "developed". We like the way we are. We are lazy, we do not want to work, we do not want to fight and to some extent it is good not to do anything however it is only good when your brain really needs such moments. It is not good when you make such acitivites as your hobbie.

Playing politics is good but let us leave it to our leaders, we should not play politics among ourselves. It is not good practice. Their are people who do not want to accept the fact, do not want to liste, the biggest problem those people will face is that they will not be able to give. Which means that, It will be easy for them to fake.

People always wants to show off. When I was 15-16 years of age I too was going through the same phase. I liked to show to people that I am the best, Whatever I do are good and whatever I say is correct, whatever others are saying is not correct-I do not want to take what they are saying to me. When you will not accept what others are saying to you or some how you will listen for a moment and you will try to avoid it afterwards then you are being a victim of yourself.

Do not try to destroy yourself, do not be some body else. Just be yourself. Do what you like to do, talk with those whom you like to talk, whereas one thing you have to remember is that-Listen.

Learn from what others have to say. Always remember that we are following the path which has beeen already followed by some one else. The name of those who already have followed the path before might be different, their body, religion, caste, culture might be different but they already have achieved what we are trying to achieve.

Therefore Just don't try to be imitator. If you see Buddha in the street Kill him. Only because "do not try to become Buddha". Try to be yourself.

Nepal is my birthplace where I was born, the land which gave me my space to be what I am now. I like that land. Every body does. Only thing I am trying to say is that do not just focus on your own land. Respect others people land too. Every country is unique, every person is unique and every religion is unique. We do have to respect each other only then we will end war.

My opinions might seem stupid, might be absurd, might be useless but these are my own thoughts and I do not want to blame anybody for that. If you do not like it, do not read it if you like it read it. We all have freedom of speech, space, silence, whatso ever.


This new year let us change ourselves, our mind, the way we think and the way we behave. Let us be true Nepali only by beliving in "doing".


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Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Human Behaviour

People are so strange and it is very difficult to understand other people. Why should we even care ? When it is needed it is again difficult to understand other around you. Their are many kinds of person and they have many indifferent behavior's.

We can take an example of one person who is very outgoing, friendly, wants to help others and always gives support, help to others and their is another totally opposite of the person I described. People like those who are outgoing, friendly and the first one kind of person but again their are those kind of people too who like later one.

It is proved that based on our thoughts, our feeling and our emotion we make our group and we want to share with them.It might be true to some extent. I do not know much about it. Playing a politics with other people is very easy.

One should always remember that when you play politics with other people or your friend for an example you may even fall in trap of being a victim some time around. It is just the matter of time. In the age of information where every individual wants to share the information or at least is happy sharing info to other around him, how would you feel if your close friends are not telling you the reality?

We can make loud cries and have thousand big thoughts on various topics that we like to such as politics, education, research but one should first realize its importance. People who cannot some how see the success of others are the ones who are full with ego hassles. The problem is not with their thinking but the level of thinking they posses.

Those people are not silent but they would not even tell you what they are doing with others around you. Being alone is not being loneliness or feeling loneliness, Being alone is the first lesson of love.

I can say thousand things on thousand different matters but why would i say if some one does not have any interest to listen it and if it is not beneficial to some one. We have to do good to those who does good to you.


Remember in live, we learn by knowing people by your own country men, by your friends, by observing the things they do around you, by observing any other people around you and by experiencing through events they create.

Learning is the best way to know what you are currently doing. It is an art, an act which is indescribable. It may have theory but it is not concept.

Their are times when you are depressed, feeling that you have not made right choice and thinking that you should pack your stuffs and return these all times tell us one thing- You are fighting.

When you fight with your-self you will know that you are becoming strong and when you will realize you are in process of becoming strong you will become alone, lonely and silent. Welcome to the land of thousand lakes just for the sake of experiencing it.

Friday, March 28, 2008

Good, Kid and Women



The last friday of the week, or the month. Friday is good day why ? It is good for many people around the world because every body is relaxex, every body think well, Next day we don't have to go to office again. It is good day for those who also think well- We have a holiday tomorrow !

Good is not the day but your mood, good is not the stuffs. If we put good in every objects around us we will feel good. I believe in the statment and I truly support the statement too. Did I do the research on the above statement. If you ask me- I would say yes.

Good day, Good morning, Good afternoon, Good meal, Good dance, Good sex, Good article, Good relationship , and so on. We some how do not do it like I said. Why ?
We do not do it because we want to differentiate and we would rather say, This is good, that is bad. Good should be attached in your mouth. I saw a kid yesterday he was smiling just like a sweet good kid would do after seeing a stranger.

I waved a hand at him and he thought for a while but soon he also waved a hand to me saying bye bye. The connection between me and the stranger kid did not took long. It just too few seconds. See, How it is easy to make the relationship, See the connection. Wow ! This is called the relationship. We can easily make the relationship not only it but a good relationship where we smiled together, we knew each other in just few seconds and we waved hand to each other to say good bye only because we knew we are going different places.

Let the kid do what he wants, Let him decide what is good for him and what is bad for him. Let him judge himself, let him fall down, let him wake up, let him do what he think is good for him. If you will ask the kid not to do some stuff, the kid would do it. The kid wants to know, wants to find out, discover and innovate.

Do not stop him, embrass him, encourage him, let him decide and do what he wants to do. Leave him to his own. Somewhat similars are the girls too. Opposite are the girls-When you want to get close to them, they will run away from you. Their mind does not allow to think more than Sex. Their thinking directly leads to the thinking that "this person -WANTS- ..." from me. It is so narrow thinking.

Let all the women in world disagree with me but I do not care because this is the reality for women. The women will always neglect or try to avoid you if she is an total stranger and you go close to her. Women give birth to kids but women are opposite of kids in the level of thinking they perceive.


Why do they behave in such a way ? They behave in such manner because they are afraid, they think they will loose the most precious thing they have. They think in a way they should not think.

As the matter of the fact, Women will always be women. Let it be stands exactly true in case of them. Sometimes we try to get what we want but we do not often get what we want only because our want is some body's loss.

Have a good weekend !

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Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Nature, Desire and Destination



The nature of wind is to blow, the nature of water is to cool, the nature of sun is to glow, the nature of sky is to show and the nature of nature itself is Natural. Every entitty living in the earth has some kind of nature. Some sorts of natural phenomenon which makes then different.

Women fall into the darkness of trap of desire and destination. Can someone please suggest me what is the nature of Women ? Ask a women, Even she does not know. Ask the professor who is teaching women behaviour, even he will not give the exact or correct answer. The nature of women is desire and destination which fals into unknown mysterious land and some women goes to pick desire mostly but some they pick destination.

I was reading an article by PETE MacDONALD "Mom its me, your son, finally" Which describes a true virtue of being a women and being "alone". I don't know if it will be right or wrong to say that women are those sorts of animal who needs either constant support of Man or Man's trust.

I believe every women in this planet needs both-support( legally, financially, socially, emotionally, family+lly etc ). I am not saying this is the fact and I know no one will believe me if I say so, only because I am alive. People give credits to other people only when they are dead. When they are alive no one will or try to give the credits.

I, the very self or I is something which always demands of you all the time. It asks you that you have to do this, you have to do that and so on.Talking about desires and destination we never know what is our destiantion or what might be our destination only because we are living in destiny. How can we predict the things ? Can some one tell me that I know what is going to do next but the output will be exactly the same as I wish, not barely output but "goin to do" will be "done".

How can people be sure that they can handle their life, they are the best and they are the creator of their sufferings. We cannot. We cannot determine what is going to happen or who is going to do what. We are just like a random particle constantly in motion, meeting together, sharing values, emotion, interest and falling apart. We are vast sea of ocean deep unfulfilled with emptiness.

Some times it makes me feel that we are always a player or the script which is given to us. We do what people called GOD tells us to do. We are playing the script written by some one else.


Now, to end the start of un-interesting and boring words let me tell you that we are not what we think we are and we think we are only because we are not what we should be. Don't get confused. It might look confusing but the confusion comes in your mind only because the words enter inside your brain and these words are difficult in your brain to process. Your brain is limited as people think my brain(bheja) is. We invented the computers which can do thousand task and we are creating program which can make computer do thousand stuffs but at the same time we are loosing one aspect which people might not agree with me- We are loosing what we are destined to do most. We are loosing "our brain".

Brain and Mind is two different things which can be discussed later. I hope you got the point of this article the point is- Don't worry be cool, calm and relax ! Enjoy what you like most. Do what you feel good and listen to your inner (GOD). Don't fall into trap of listening too much of only him. Control him rather than he controlling you.

More to come ... I don't know when ...


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Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Doing



Life is all about doing,We do, We do and We do ! Don't be afraid by seeing the 3 repetitive lines stating the word "we do". The time when we realize the fact that we have to "do" the time we will feel that we are living.

If we observe our parents, we see that they are always doing something. They too are engaged in some work, they won't bother about their ages. They might be very old and they might seem stupid to many of us but they are engaged in doing. Till birth to the death. Have you ever thought why ? Why are we doing rather than not sitting idle just like that.

We are doing only because we cannot be stable. We are movable animals we move from one place to another in search of food, sanitation, health, etc When we move from one place to another it means we are "moving" Now, you might think "moving" is different from "doing". It is same not literally but yeah it is same. You are doing first and moving next. "Doing" comes in your brain. It asks you to move from one location to next and english term you say you are moving rather than doing only because your grammer should be correct.


The very first lesson of life is to do. Next lesson I have not figure out yet. Life is difficult only because we see it in difficult way. Our vision, perception and mindset determines the day. One day you are doing something next day you are doing somethind different. Every day every body is doing something. This little effort of every individual living in the country, Makes the country to do something. We are pulling our country. It is like big ball and it needs effort of "doing" my its men for it to progress or move.


If one person feels lazy, he will make thousand of them lazy. This is the situation in the many developing countries. You got to be enthusiastic. You have to realize the fact of "doing". However, their are many consequences of what is reality and what is virtual world. To sum up, Wake up and start doing the things you like the most. It is never late and it will never be late !


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Monday, March 24, 2008

Try

HOw is the word try linked with the interest ? Now, People usually say that you got to try something before you know something. How do you suppose to do this- Can you try by yourself to know or do you ask for the help of others ?

Try is to hope that you will succeed doesn not merely is the success that will be the result of the input you put into but some times might also result in failure. How is the it linked with the interest ?

What I think is that Try is the first thing you get into if you really are interested in doing something. Doing also means that you got to fight, you got to really work hard and you have to take all the initiatives to make it happen. It does not matter if people tell you that you are addicted. You are into the pond.

If some one say's to you that you are addicted do not hesitate as long as you know the conneciton and you see the connection between the pond and your life. If a fish is living in a pond will you tell the fish is addicted ? Obviously not !

Try is something related with your mind. What is goin on in the today's world is computer memory is becoming cheap at the same time human mind. We are being dull and we are soon going to be ruled by the machines. The days are not very far.

If we do not stop controlling the things which are contolling us one day it will control you. Try is something which is link with your persoanlity which is link with the path or road to success but the dark side of the road does not seem visible, It will only be seen visible only when we stop wearing the black glassess from our face.

Try to make what you desire, try to achieve as we often do try to "test" your skills and try to achieve the end result. The desire or satisfaction comes only when you overcome the path of try.

Good luck !

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Research your-self.



Mr. X is far from Miss Y. He has a desire, desire to see her but that is not possible. They are both very far from each other. The geographic boundary separates both of them. They want to meet, see, feel, hear and taste each other but some how they could not do so.

The presence of one person close to or feeling of one person being close to you can not be acheived. Scientifically do not exist today. Researchers are working on it and It will take them thousand of years before they will come up with some ideal implementation.

The significance of such activitiy is really remarkable if can be achieved. Mr. X do not have to travel to see Miss Y. Imagine such thing happening in near future. Wow, Their are thousand of negative points also which comes into consideration while making such system. Some of them are "will it really be like the reality ?" Again, It will also how we define the term reality. What is reality ? All our senses working in tact. Is this a reality ? If we say that all our sense can work in tact then we define the term that we are "alive".


We define the term "death" only when none of our sense are in tact, or are not working. We cannot smell, taste, see, hear,feel etc.(if their are any more). This definition is very old and traditional we need to change it. Why ? We all individual are not dead. Whoever borns in this planet are not dead. It is us who define that "that person is dead".

Don't get excited. It only means that our sense are not working. that's it. We all are alive. how can i say that ? We are alive, only problem is that our sense do not work. The problem is that we can bring a person from death phase to alive phase but that is very easy task but it won't be suitable or good or for well being of society.

The cycle continues and cycle will continue as long as we name the word as "cycle". Which means "circle", continuity, movement etc.. Researchers should not concentrate on how a person can be bring to life after death but they should concentrate on why our sense do not work ? What is the reason that we become immobile and our sense stop working ? It is my way of giving you the path. Their will be difficulties in walking the path and it is good, more of these difficulties comes, sooner you will reach home.

Research is findings, research is knowing, understanding, well-being, thinking about society, people, for the world, It is good that we have already taken the path of good. If we think something is good, if we imagine and put this in our mind or if we have impact of "good" we will forget "bad".

I don't know I started with one but I again went on to describe something which might not be useful to many. However, Mr. X can only meet Miss Y if Miss Y wants to meet Mr.X and vice versa. Mr. X will not have geographical boundary with Miss Y only if both do not see the difference in time. Mr. X will see, feel, taste, smell, hear Miss Y only if Miss Y will do the same to Mr.X.

To sum up, we are dual, biased, we always talk about "two", first lets find out "one" then we can jump to find out "two". Which means know yourself, know who you are, try to find out your self, you as a human first then only you will some how manage to find out others person as human too.


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images/Absence%20and%20Presence.jpg )

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Lesson from a movie.



I was watching a movie yesterday, I learn a quite a good lesson from this movie. The movie is all about the relationship especially in east. That part of world where women are treated minority, where women are dominated highly by males. Not actually dominated but Male has higher advantage then Women.

The movie was about one sweet couple.These two couple were very nice to each other. They were happy in their life, married also had a small daughter of their own. The guy in the movie is a lecturer in a university. His survives and gets his basic stuffs by giving lecturers and earns which is just enough for a family. The Female in the movie seems not so satisfied with what they have, things they have in their home. The stuffs she wants to are missing because of lack of money.

One day she goes to buy a pair of shoes for her daughter what happens is the pair of shoes were little bit expensive then she expected. She decides not to buy them but one fat women who was present in the shop lends her some money to buy the shoes. She takes it. Now, That old fat women takes her to her place, shows her the city with big malls, and outstanding beauty of whole city. Later she takes her to her apartment and she calls her customer to get involved with her. The lady could not stop her and she does the mistake of being involved with the another Men.

Now, The sequence of movies goes on like this way. Every now and then the old fat women comes her home or asks her to satisfy her customer in big hotels, big malls and apartment. The story goes on. Since the girl is married and do not want to live her husband because they are living very happy life. The girl do not wants to hurt her husband somehow but could not tell her about the whole situation she is going through. She satisfies her daughter by buying small things that previously she somehow could not buy it for financial reasons and so on.

Now, One day one of the student of the lecturer sees the lecturer's wife in the big hotel. She then wants to know what is going through. What happens is, The women tells her story to this student and the student manages to tell about the this story to the lecturer in indirect way. She ask the lecturer about "what will happen or what will be the end of such story". The lecturer says- Many things can happen, It all depends, depends upon the kind of person, the person might divorce her, might kill her, might get angry and will not contact her forever and so on but he also says that their will be one person who will ignore her ignorance. That person will not forget but he will give the excuse.

That type of person will understand the situation about the women and her life. He will feel what women is going through, he will understand that- depsite being a whore or satisfying the fat women customers she is also managing household chores without showing her difficulty. That kind of person will also exits.

The students learns the lessons and at the same time the wife of the lecturer also understands what her husband was trying to say.They all are in one common room discussing about this story which the student some how indirectly says to the lecturer. During the night period, the women of lecturer appreciates the answer he gave to her student. Now she puts the question and asks weather he will give the excuse if the women was not somebody else but herself.

Lecturer knew what her wife was up to, they both start making love and the story ends. Lecturer does not replies with the answer, it means he have already given the excuse. Wow !

Relationship is not only about sex, not only about the sharing the skin with each other. Love cannot be described, it is not smell, it is not the answer to the question we ask about the love.Love is not so simple at the same time it is not so difficult. Love is the statement of question which has been remained unanswered for ages and will remain unanswered ...

(Picture taken from:http://www.rediff.com/
entertai/2003/may/17rekha.jpg )

Friday, March 21, 2008

Welcome Spring !



Fight is not between you and me. I am not alone. I am with one person inside me who controls me, takes me to what I want to go and again asks me or reminds me that whatever I am doing is right.It is not with any body outside me, it will never be any physical person outside me. I do not want to fight or talk or give importance of my words, my writing, my articles all the stuffs that start with "my" or some how is attached with the "my", I do not want to give values to these stuffs. I know these are temporary and they will be temporary forever for me at least.

From today onwards, it seems that Spring has started in Finland. Today morning when I woke up it was bright sunny day with a temperature of +10 degree centigrade. I suddenly felt the heat in my bed which I was not seeing for last 3-4 months.

The heat of sun was missing, the brightness was missing and everything else that was useful or that I think is useful was missing. I don't know why it is like that but I do not care as long as I think it is useful. I am watching movie right now and typing. It does not make me some kind of genius or I am not imitating some one. The early blossom of flower, the sun rays falling in the flower and the smell of all these events remind of deep breathtaking silence of life, culture, values, trust and truthfulness.

I learn one good thing today, It was that I have a good friend with whom I am doing my many of the courses together, He is very helpful and helping me a lot. On a discussion, We talked about the Surname of Finnish Men. The Surname of Finnish Men has great meaning attach to it. Previously their do not used to have a surname in a Finnish name. It makes sense to me. It is somehow similar to what I usually think about the surname. Why is whatever I think or have thought in the past are all correct and matching a lot in Finland.


Was I previously somehow connected to this place ? Is this my next re-incarnation. Is this my second life ? Why some times I feel that whatever I am experiencing here has been already done by me. May be My mind is not working or wants some rest. Why I think I want to learn more from Finland, every time I wake up in the morning till the time I go to my bed.

Their are thousand of questions every day in my mind. I like to think because I do not think their is another things in world left for me to do without thinking. I think because I live in imagination, I imagine, its one of the difficult things for others and easy for me. Welcome to the Spring climate in Finland, I welcome the Spring Climate with my both hands. I would like to invite the birds chirping, sound and presence of beautiful flowers, kids playing in hot sunny melting snowing day and so on. Welcome to Spring climate in Finland...

(Picture taken from: http://en.wikipedia.org/
wiki/Image:Colorful_spring_garden.jpg )

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Why not me ?

When the going gets tough, the tough get going...
[Joseph P. Kennedy (1888-1969)]
 I am what I am and not what others make of me...
 Give me a bread to eat; I will give you idea for research ...

A firm believer in the above, last two quotes are my own creation... I am a man on a mission; eager to script his own destiny with utmost sincerity and hard work. I believe there are no shortcuts to success but there are definitely smarter ways of getting there. From here onwards

I hope to gain some valuable work experience in a global environment. I seek to work in the most competitive of organizations and in a result oriented setup. By applying to your organization I seek to imbibe in myself a global work culture and international corporate practices which transcend all geographical boundaries.

Every individuals in this earth is unique and every body has rights to live, freedom of speech and expression, rights for food, shelter, clothes and basic sanitation but My life is filled with emptiness because I do not have job any more. The lack of JOB (read it as J, O and B). It is good to read it like this, makes it more complicated and complex. Every body now a days have B.A, M.Sc, or even PhD but they lack  JOB .

We are humans and we need food to eat, some work to earn for the food that we consume and some to save for future. Is it possible to survive in complex, dynamic world without a JOB, I lack a JOB crossing every streets and passing every small to big companies in every corner of streets of Lappeenranta, but not reaching to the place where I wan to be. I could not see my own days of glory. The decision of coming back to Foreign Land for the purpose of study and some work experience does not seems to be justified.

It not having all its part adjusted in proper manner or is incomplete.I might not have a recommendation letter from a Minister, might not have my own family linked in some of these companies but I have one thing that every ordinary citizens like me have and that is One keyword which pushes my own life is,  hope .I am Expecting the Unexpected. Believing in my own faith and dreams.

I know the dreams I have will one day give rise to the hope, hope will turn them into actions and action will deliver the result. As my sweet lovely wife Padhmawoti said,  Budha,(Honey)Be yourself, as long as I believe you are here for some special purpose,as I am here for you. As I think now; By 30, I have to become Strong and I know I am already in the process of becoming one.

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Shadow



How can you define a shadow ? A shadow is the image of your body when the visible lights fall on it, you see them.Literally, it is defined like this, isn't it ?

That is very traditional definition of shadow. It is not the shadow but the image of your part of body that is visible. I have watched it several times and figure out that shadow is not only the image of our part of body but it is also of self. It is something that I mentioned in my earlier article about. It is the image of two souls which are present inside us. It is the non-speaking human body or clone or another copy of our body. It might be an women or men visible at any instant. I believe some times we see two shadows of our body.

The two shadows are the representation of two organ of a human body-Women and Men. I think this might be so we see two shadows. If you see three shadows then I do not have reasons to explain them.

Why shadow exists ? It is because we do not care about them or is it because they are their to exit. I think they exist only because it reminds us that we are looked after every moment, every second. It tells us that we are not alone. Even if you might live a lonely life but you are not alone because their is your shadow which speaks a lot about you.


Have you tried any time in your life talking with your own self ? Probably May be or May be not. I do it many times- It is because if you develop a habit of talking with your self then you do not look stupid but you are going one step closer to your self and realizing what you want, what are the most important things you need in your own life and what you should do. It will help you make decisions.

People do many mistakes daily and find it very difficult to make decisions. It is very difficult for them to make a simplest of decisions why ? It is just because we forget to know or talk to our own self. We are living a life for others, when will you think about your self ? It is good that you first know yourself and then start living for others it will help a lot in the process of helping others.

Experience is the best teacher, how can I expect to help or assist other person until and unless me, myself don't know what I am talking about. Whatever I write or whatever I do is based on my personal experiences not from others or may be from some body's else experiences and these experiences are knowledge or advice or suggestions or perception or info to boost your self.


As said by Sir Einstein- If I have one penny today and if I give that penny to you, I will be one penny poorer and you will be one penny richer but If I have an idea and if I give that idea to you , then you will have an idea and I will retain that idea too.

This is the way he lived his life, I am not trying to say that you should be his followers but you can learn the lesson from him. "Knowledge is multiplied not added". It is not added to your self, not to some else's mind or what so ever.

Take an example of 9+9=18 and also 9*9=81.

These are two numbers(same numbers), These two same numbers should also give the same result but some one in the past found out some calculation techniques in such a way that he made + and *

When we add these numbers we get 18 and when we multiply the same number we get opposite of the result of addition of two numbers.(18 or 81). If you will ask my son, Which one is bigger, He will blindly say-Father the second one.

You got to know one thing for sure in your mind, you can think you are one, alone and lonely living a life in depression and being in emptiness or darkness but you are not. Their lives a another person with you, that another person living with you is another number (9) and you (9). It is not the addition of knowledge you get from the person living with you but the multiplication of knowledge you get. You decide based on the knowledge he/she gives you.

However, Sharing is always loving but loving can never be sharing. We do not share what we love. We do not like to share the most important thing in our lives why ? We do not want to share because their is a human tendency to be afraid of loosing.

The topic of the article is not justified with just the name called "shadow". It might means

"Shade within defined limits; obscurity or deprivation of
light, apparent on a surface, and representing the form of
the body which intercepts the rays of light; as, the
shadow of a man, of a tree, or of a tower "

According to the dictionary but it is not a perfect definition some one should change it. I have tried to defined on my own way but it won't be valued because I am no Einstein and I am no Newton. I am an ordinary man who can think, think and just think.


(Picture taken from:http://www.shadowhousepits.com.au/
shadow%20in%20the%20dark.jpg)

Are you only male or female ?



Last night I was walking down the lane, I come up with some thing weired in my mind and I thought well are we male or female ? I may be built up with the physical structure of being strong male genital organ with me but am I really male ? It may be also that I have female protective organ with me but am I really female only ?

The idea is that if we are just a male it is not just only male. We are also female and vice versa. I am not only female because what I believe is that we have two souls inside a human body. One is for the male and another is for the female. Let's defend my idea.

First thing, Let's say I am male. I see other male around me. The very first thing I will come up in my mind is that is this person good or bad ? We make the impression of another unknown person if we see him/her for the first time. It is very natural but often we do that. Their might be some exception to this but mainly people start to judge you by your first impression. It is saying like- First impression is the last impression.

Now, My point is when we make an impression about the person at that instant who judge inside us whether that person is good or bad ? Here is the main idea, The male person inside us will judge the unknown person you saw for the first time. If the person inside you will say, No- This person does not seem so good, is not good, is bad, is negative, ugly or so on. These impression will be transferred to our mind and we will decide on the basis of the message we got the male soul present inside us.


Ultimately, When I see the female passing by me- I do the same, their is a female soul inside us who will decide whether the female whom I am seeing for the first time is good, bad, ugly or what so ever. The message will be transferred to our brain of the impression that female inside us made. Therefore, the point is that we have both the soul inside us- Male and Female Souls.

Why to say that I am just male or I am just female. It is not one human we represent we are two species living in one. We are both male and female. We might look as a male or female but we are both inside us. This is the finding and mybheja ideas.

I do not know if you think so but this is what I believe in. I hope you do too.If you do not believe in this then think once, think twice and then think well, its true. You will.


(Picture taken from: http://www.waterworksgallery.com/art_exhibits/
september6/pettelle/images/
little%20dancer%20male%20&%20female%20relief%20front%206%20tall.jpg )

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Human Nature.



We are unique in way we think, we are different in our physical structure and our structure. We look different to each one of us. We look different to others around us only because we like to see them different.

Imagine a world where every body has same face ! To imagine such situation is very stupid idea. Did anybody ever thought why we look different ? Well, their are thousand writers who might have written about this phenomena with their perspective.
Whatever perspective they have taken into consideration and whatever they have done is based on their understanding, research and their findings. I appreciate their hard work and effort. Now, let us see my imagination on why we look different. The message which I want to deliver through this article is that we are not only different but we have something in our head which makes us think differently.

We are all humans. Perfectly OK.
We have different faces but their are some exception to this, People might have similar faces too (very few and limited). Now, What is that triggers us to do something differently every time.

We like one thing and that thing is "change". Everything seems boring when it becomes routine. We like change in our mind,brain( both are quite different) and in our social, personal and daily life.

Big question comes in this stupid mind is why change ? Why not others activities like is it possible to do one thing and continue it forever. As I am asking this question to myself, I would say "yes".

We can make our work as a routine but we can even make it funny routine. The funny routine will give us the change we like. It will tell our brain that this is what I ever wanted. It will bring you the pleasure, you will be passionate about it. How ? The answer to the question is- Change the way you see your life. Change can only be brought to yourself if you think differently not when you are free but when you desire to think, when your brain says I want to change, I want to do something different, At that very moment you got to listen to your brain and mind together. If you resist yourself at that time then you could not satisfy your intelligent brain. and If you could not satisfy you brain you will end up feeling boring.

Every thing, every object and every necessary component of this planet are assigned some task. Take for example clouds-assign to produce rain. Water-drink, provide food to animals and to us. Stars- twinkle in the night. flowers to blossom, wind to blow and so on.

Our brain is organized in such a way that we do not like to see the same stuff, same activities and we do not like do the same thing again and again. For e.g If I was going to one club or pub for a week then usually I will be feeling boring to see the same club or pub every time. What do I want ? Is that pub or club have something wrong ? Is the people in that club not humble and friendly ?

These questions are questions which we would not like to answer and we just need to change and visit new places. We are like in a line of ants. We are good at following the queue or be in the queue. We do not want to be leader in the queue or make our own queue.

Happy Weekend to those who need the happy before weekend. This is simple example of our human nature.

"Change is the only thing permanent in this world"

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images/human-nature-2.jpg )

Friday, March 7, 2008

God is Unknown.



How can you define a term called "GOD". We think God exist, yes he may exists but it is also the case that we do not have any proof to say that we have seen god. Take for e.g If I ask one man in the street, "Hey, Have you seen GOD and he says yes I have saw him, He was in the bar." Now, If I am an ordinary men I will surely say that I am asking him a stupid question and I am at the same time being stupid. Or I can even say that I am drunk and I am talking non-sense.

Some of the basic variables or terms are just the feeling in our life such as love for example or life and so on. God is similar to those feelings. We believe in God because we expect something from ourselves, We think he/she/it exits because we want to have blind faith on something unknown.

The million dollar question is now, Why do we believe in the unknown(GOD) because we are deep rooted to our religion, Christianity, Hinduism, Buddhism, Sikh,Muslim and so on. The person who we say are GOD such as Jesus, Buddha, Allah and Iswor etc are just the messengers, they were ordinary humans and they will always remain humans.

I am not saying that I do not believe in GOD and I do not have faith in GOD. As you know I am also simple, ordinary human as you are but I am thinking is different way. I am curious to find out that-GOD is just the concept by which we live our life.

Their is no heaven and hell, how can I say that their is the place called heaven or hell. No way, Whatever we do and what ever we are doing in this mother earth should be categorized as heaven or hell.

Now, the big research question is who was the first person who created "Adam" and "Eve" in Christianity and who was the creator of a species called human ? Who did it ? Science do not agree on this concept and I do not believe it was the GOD who created it.

My thinking or my idea of creation of first human being in this planet is quite different.What I believe is that, "It was the nature and It is because of nature we are here." Nature has some basic elements- Water, Wind and Earth. These 3 basic elements mixed up to form first species in this planet. Again, I cannot prove it but this is how I think.

It is not right or wrong but I believe in Nature, I believe in the oxygen it is providing it to me, I trust in the wind that blows through me, I can feel the rain drops in my face when it falls and when nature needs some soil it will forget to give the oxygen that I want.

Is their any body who can escape the death ? Death is certain, death is feeling whenever we talk about it we feel danger within ourself because we do not want to leave our material world, we are afraid of loosing everything around us. We are imagining that we will loose our good old friends, our relatives, our family and our this and our that. Every thing that we are doing and everything we are trying to achieve is just well-written verse or script that nature has with it. We are followers of the nature and nothing happens by our wish.

(Picture taken from: http://www.godtalkstoyou.com/God%20bless%20you.jpg)

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Read my Mind

What is the necessity of reading my mind.? I am an ordinary human being living in ordinary earth with ordinary thoughts and vision. I am no VIP (Very Important Person), I do not belong to higher class, nor do i belong to middle class and nor to lower class because my mind says that i do not have class.

My friends, family and people near to me will say that i belong to one country in the north but my mind says i do not have any country. Every body is thinking about the profit in every things they do. I am not thinking about any profit at least my mind does not thinks on that but you will not agree on it, will you ?

My mind is a stupid mind. It is not a man's mind nor can I say its a women's mind. I know it because it is just a mind. People say i am jealous, proudy kind of human but my mind says i am perfect. If i says these words that also means that i say through my mind. Everything is temporary that is what my mind says.

We are random particle in motion their is always two things that is differentiating the whole world. For e.g. good Vs bad, right vs wrong and bad vs ugly, true vs lie and so on. Why are we biased ? What is the necessity of being biased as we are.

Once I wrote an article and showed to a teacher she said, "Kalwar, "you can write without breathing". Why can't you just put some paragraph in between and maintain the blog. As a obedient student I like her way of thinking about me so I am improving doing that. This is the process of learning.Learning never stops, till the last breath we take in our life we will learn and it won't stop there.

Today's world is creating the difference not in every body's mind but they are usually differentiating the whole world, world will not be better place to live until and unless we believe in change and we adopt to that change.

To sum up, Why should people read my mind ? People should read my mind because the mind you are reading is about the ordinary human who lives in ordinary world and a simple human mind will try to give you thousand and one lesson than a mind of a very important person. Know his mind you will find many things similar to your own mind.