Sunday, May 11, 2008

Nature God

The greatest journey is those which are close to your heart. It is not just a journey but the feeling that you get when you reach to the desire of your destination. The journey gives you lots of pleasure. The pleasure is by changing atmosphere. The place you visit, the people you see, the food you eat, the smell of you take. Everything is dynamic, every thing also seem very dynamic and it gives you pleasure-Once there is pleasure there is feeling of satisfaction. Once you get the feeling of satisfaction you rejoice with eternity.

Life is a similar journey with the taste of finding the same pleasure. Some people get it and some miss it. Some want it but despite the desire they do not get it. It has to be the real desire in you. It has to come from inside you. It will ask you that come on I have to move on in life now.

The words are difficult to merge into a sentence. Often we think many times before even making a sentence just to give the meaning to the sentence. What if we forget the meaning and just try to make a sentence ? Then Our mind will ask us that the reader will not read the text or sentence. We might even think that it will sound stupid to the readers. But what if again- we just make an impression that who cares ? Who cares if no body reads what you have written- or let us say, Imagine No one is reading what you have written. Just write and do not see the consequences or the outcome. Write to show your real desire or feeling or whatever you want to put into but do not judge what others will think about it. ? It is some what said in some religious text books too.

I am doing the same. I do not care as long as my words do not form a meanigful sentence. I do not care as long as the the sentence has no meaning or people even wil think in such a way. It is the judgement done not by me but by others. My hands automatically moves to the keys that I am pressing and my mind automatically thinks over some thing which is visible in the monitor as a sentence. I do not know what I am writing but I think i am writing.

Journey is similar, we do not know where we are going but we are going, moving, exploring, finding and researching what is the next, what will happen, what kind of people we will meet, what kind of food we are going to get, what kind of views we are going to see and what kind of smell of nature we are going to taste.

We are so small- see the mountains, when I see the big mountains in front of me, I really feel that I am very small, then I feel that how strong is that mountain, the mountain with heart of stone, it can resist everything, all the natural calamities, all the natural disaster some times even it can produce something which we call volcanic eruption. Why is nature so different then we really think it is.

We are very close to nature despite that we avoid it many of the times. Many of life lessons comes from the observation of Nature. All the scientific disocery are the gift of Nature, all of the knowledge are of Nature and all the testing people do are also for the benefit or drawbacks to Nature. It is very stong. It can take all our worries, it can even take all what we do. It do not complains, it also do not says anything to us. It is silent all the time. It sees what we are doing. Some couple of weeks back, I saw some video and people said that God is unknown, why do not GOD replies to our messege or prayers ? I assume Nature is GOD. and GOD resides in Nature only because it is very much similar.

May be GOD do not wanted to live inside the human just because it will not be justified to other in whom he cannot reside- Either he has to live in every one or no one. May be he decided to live in Nature therefore no one will see him but every one will see the Nature.

Nature is silent so is GOD, we pray and our prayers are heard based on our own soul and our priorities, it directly goes out in Nature. The nature decides wheather to really answer our prayers or not. If it is not heard that means it is some where there in Nature where one day it will come back and it will be heard but by then we will forget that we really wanted that thing in our life.

Some times in our life too we are really deeply motivated to want or get or desire for something in our life but that desire is pended. It is kept pending by the Nature or GOD. He do not want to give you very easily. Only because it is important for you. Once it is important for you, it become important for Nature too. Most of the times the things you desire or want, you do not get it easily only because you want it and the those which you do not expect you get it easily just because those things are unexplored and unknown or unexpected to you.

Welcome to Nature GOD, a place where you will explore the unexplored, a place where there resides the GOD, a place where you will find the moment of peace.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Smile in trouble

You are smiling but you do not know what you are smiling at my dear heart. I am talking with you. The you inside me, Why are you smiling in the situation where people cannot stand it anymore.

What is worng with you. The people who are close to how would they react if they smile without any reason. They will think that you are mad. They even might think that you are stupid. But as long as they do not know me inside you why should you worry.

Do not worry about any thing since you know what you are going through. You are travelling with time. You are doing what your heart is saying. It is good. Why are you thinking too much. It might seem to people that you are smiling but you are hiding something which no body is interested in, no body wants to care and no body would listen to. It is good that you are showing the smile which is the gesture of happiness or good feelings.

Your eyes speak a different language where as your face shows that you are smiling. I think you are hiding some information which is very touching, deep and heart killing. Why are you thinking of drinking alcohol. What is that brings close to your life and drink or alcohol. It is not the remedy of the problem but despite that also you want to drink it.

The wonds will heal one day, it will be healed by the time. Those wonds who are already filled by the time why are you trying to again play with the same old wonds.Despite the fact that you are facing loads of wonds these wonds will be fulfilled. Do not take any tension. I know you are not feeling well, I know there is no body besides you to tell you what is good and what is bad. I know that people are playing some good games on you. But why should you worry. Let them play their own part. You do what it is good for you.

Do not worry you will not starve to death. There is always one person whom you can turn into when it is deep shit. It is your Dad. Do not worry my dear lovely heart. No pain, no gain. You got to face the problems and remember once when you were kid, you asked GOD that-"GOD please give me all the pains in life so that I will know the life better and I would be very close to it." How can you forget that. You are getting that, you are really getting all your wishes comes true.

You are in your late 20's. It is the time where people do many crazy acts. Look at you, you are just like a old 97 year guy. Who always sits in the room, thinking, giving lessons to people and telling what is good and what is bad.Don't you think you are very ahead in the future.

Feel happy that people will really spent there entire life for the lessons that you have already. It is not because of overconfidence inside you but it is because of your wish, It is the gift from LORD to you.

Sadness is good, it gives load of pleasure once the sadness is into your body. People will never care and have you realized the fact that every body is trying to solve their own problems. Those person who has time to listen, give some suggestion or even help to other person problems are great person.

I wish I could do many more times the same but as far as I have I will do, as far as my life is there I never give up such activities. It gives a kind of satisfaction by seeing some one smiling by your deed.

Therefore I am telling you dear- Go ahead, Do what you feel, Listen to people and do not worry if some one is really doing worng to you. Later by the Grace of GOD it will be judged by him. Let him take the decisions for you. Let him give the results for you. You be yourself and do what your heart and minds says to you.

One day the ray of hope from the bright blue sky will fall in your black long hair passing through your head showing the colors of miracle. By then you will realize that you are really taken care by the allmighty.




Have a good weekend !

Friday, May 9, 2008

Present and Past

Welcome to the world of the competition where thousand of people like us fight. We come to the world formt hemoment we come we fight. The moment we come we begin to fight and we begin to work out with many difficulties.

Fight is the not the answer to ther real problems. It is the fight between the race, country, religion, education, sex, and many more things. It is the your life where you make the decision and your decisons are the final decisions. EVerything is not perfect and no body will be perfect. Even machines cannot become the perfect. Once I read the article by the a person and a legend who just talked about and gave one single statement stating that "Can machine think" ? How can a machine think ?

The biggest quest for finding the answer is today we have a new topic for the research in the field of finding that really a machine think or some how we can make a machine think ? How can a person or human make a machine think ? Can a computer which runs on the basis for the programs written in some language really think ? It is evolving and it will evolve.


Now today we can make many Roborts, we can make them work on the basis of ours demand. It is also that we can make them work and do all the labor that previous some 100 years from now were done by animalas and the humans being. Some time I even think that it is because this consequences we are loosing the jobs. The jobs are getting reduce just because of that reason.

Life is changing and everything is changing. We are getting poorer and rich are getting more richer. Their will come the time in the near future when everybody will become biased in such a way that there will be the fight with the Rich against the poor.

Who can predict the future ? No body can predict the future but certainly we can invent the future. We can think what our childrens and our grandchildrens. For there safegaurd and there future it is only in our hand.

Some 15 years down the line we never knew that we would have a small gadget like the mobile phone which will do all our business and educationa and all other relevant activities. Look the time now and see the time then. Our future were based on some imagination that we were thinking some people at those times were thinking about today.

There are always people who can really predict the future. Those people are not generaly accepted by the country, soceity or any religion or any people only because those people can think beyond any other people. They are different. Please do not assume the same for me.

Thinkings can change, people can make many different thinking but everythinking should not necessary be logical. It should help in one way to another to those who are in need, for those which can help country, society, people and even any human beings.

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Nice to meet you.

Some times we try, some times we have many stories to tell and no one is going to listen to our stories. Who have the time in this world ? Who belives in what you have to say ? Who will tell that whatever you are doing is correct ? No one will tell you correctly what you are doing is right and what you are doing will give you what you desire in life.

There is one person who knows the reality and the answer, its you ! The answer of the most important of the questions in our life is known by only us. The search more search, do as many search and ask to thousand of people what is good for you. They will only give you the comments. They will give you the suggestions but it is your duty to take it the best answers for you.

It is your responsibility to answer the best of the answers. It is you to decide what is good for you and what is bad for you. There will be times when you will feel down and under. There will also be times when you will feel with joy and happy. But these times are just the journey and in journey you try to learn.

The life is full of excitement. We expect we do not get, we do not expect we get. We want we will never get what we want and when we do not want we have to take it. When we walk-we see peoples, we see trees, we see sea, we see sun , we see birds, we see flowers but what we do not see is what we are looking for most of the times.

We also see the beauty, we cannot descirbe it we just want to make it ours. When we want to acquire it, then it becomes a problem. When the flower is their it looks beautiful but once when we want to pick up the flower and make it ours. We kill it. We kill the flower. We commit a crime for Nature. We will not be penalized, we will not be taken to Jail but we will surely be given punishment by Nature.

Imagine a situation where you are a young guy of mid 20's and you are really looking for a women, a kind of your type. A sweet and beautiful. A nice looking. A tall dark beautiful lady. You then suddenly see her in the garden. The same type of the girl you were searching for.

One approach would be you will go near that girl and start talking with her. you approach tells you that you want it, you want her in your life. The process to acquire the beauty of her is by knowing her, by talking with her and by making her yours. The approach you use is the decison made by you.

You visit her and suddenly you reach to her, talk with her ask some thing stupid and try to make her laugh. Want to put some good impression of you on her. Suddenly when everything was going perfectly you saw a man approaching her. He kissed that girl with whom you were talking. You did not feel well, you are jealous, she said bye to you-and she introduce the man stating that he is her husband. You are spell bound, you do not know what to say, what to tell- You said to him- Nice to meet you.!

Did you really felt Nice when meeting some one whom you never expected. Surely you did not. But as those are formal messege we deliver even though we did not feel what we are speaking it comes automatically in our mind and we say . You feel bad you come back from the garden, in your room sleeping. Realizing that how beautiful the lady was. What would have been if you were her man and Not the guy she intoduced to you.

You felt bad and suddenly you are thinking about same kind of girl and one of your friend she approached to your room. She liked you very much but she had never had courage to say or speak to you about it. She came and she is talking to you, she is making you laugh, she is doing whatever you wish her to do. She prepared a good food for you. She came to discuss about the assignment you both were doing for some course.

You guys are just a good friends that is what is their in your mind nothing else. You do all the activites as a normal friend but you do not have any feelings of personal attachement with her.

Some of the peple might have gone through same situation. It is the process of life. We want but we do not get and when we get we do not want. Expect the unexpected. Realize that whatever comes your way is just for you. You take it as thinking a gift of Lord. You take it with your both hands. Thanking him. Saying that I never expected this to happen but since it is a gift from you my lord I will take it.

I wanted something which I did not get only because the "wanted" was my desire and my desire does not have to get fulfilled. Thank you for not giving what I desire. Because some body else has already asked for it and you have given it to him/her.

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Poor English

My English is very poor, teacher said it today. He said that it is unclear, unstructured. Well, In this whole world who is perfect ? I received a big four pages comment from a teacher where I never expected to get. A long 4 pages comments.

Wow, It is good, It is nice that you get loads of critisism and it from the lecturer and it is not very short. I went to see him, asked about what I did wrong in my academic paper. His answer was-It is essay, it is not an academic paper. You should write an academic paper not an essay.

Wow, I really thought and then I finally realize all the hard work that I did for the same. Finally the product that I had in my hand is school essay and not an academic paper. Isn't it great news. Good work done to me. I tried my level best to get the best possible out of it and I got nothing.

It is good to learn and good if people give you negative or positive comments but some times I believe people cannot see your progress, some times I think people really hate you rather than hating your work. They hate you just because you are not like them. Their were some good points that I have learnt from writing that paper and it is a good motivator for me.

It is good to know that we are not perfect human beings. We are here to learn and we will always learn through entire our life. We will learn only because we do not know anything yet. We will come to know only when people will respect you of being Old.
You mix your tone with the Asian tone and you are not good enough to deliver it. It is the only thing I know. Yes, Sometimes we do and some times every body do. I am not born in England, It is not my mother tounge so what ? What is that I will do ? What is that I got to do then ?

Do I have to get depressed just because I do not have proper English tone or do I have to feel regret that I never was born in England and did not get and English tone. What is the use of it if you can properly communicate and the other person clearly understands what you are saying or what you are giving or receiving from them. What if you are born in England and your mother tounge does not help you to speak a proper English ? What if the person whom you are trying to give the messege do not understand what you are saying ?

Culture has a great impact on the way you are born and the way you do your work or the way people behave. Some times people do not want to see your face and then they will ignore everything-despite the fact that it is good. What if the teacher gives one good comment and gives 99 bad comments ? In such case, students wil get depressed surely but still he/she will be happy thinking that well, atleast Teacher said one good think about my work.

In my scenarios, their were 100 comments and all were negative. Wake up ! I am still sleeping. I have to show to the people like my teacher and to the world that it is not really bad as he thinks it is.

How is the big question ? Well, it won't take long, time is the valuable thing in this world we have- One day everything will be fine. The days of glory will come along your way too. The days of the past where everything does not go well should completly stop and everything else should come up as the days of rising sun in the early morning blazing the guns in the harbor night.

I do not care about the comments, I do not care about what people have to say only because I know what I am doing is good and I have the confidence to tell people that it is good enough. It is not that I am over confident about the work I did. It is becuase I am just confident and feeling happy, satisfied with the work I carry out. People might think or critisim will always come from every corner in life.

It is the responsibility of you, to take the good ones for you and leave the bad ones. I have made my decisons alredy and I will try to correct the mistakes that was pointed out by great English Teacher. I will try to show that everything is correct by next time. Hope it works. If not then, God will give me another way to do it. He will surely bless me with some alternative. I am hopeful and optimistic about it.

Cheers !

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

The unexplored road

Life is struggle and it will be. Love is difficult and it will be. Money is hard to earn and it will be always. Nothing comes easy. It is the power of our mind which can make everything easy. It is our life which we have to make easy. How ?

Life is easy and it will always be easy. The things we do, the work we do, the life we spent thinking, working, waiting for something. The life is spent and we never realize that we have really spent our life. When we spent life working on the matters what we assume are most important in life we miss small and beautiful matters.

Time is the important aspect in our life, time can break our life, time can change our motto, our goals. Time is the most important aspect of life where people will change. People do not want to change easily but they do just because of the time.

How would you behave with complete stranger ? Will you treat him as if the person whom you do not know or would you treat him as a human, a person who looks similar to you.

The thinking you carry and say or speak a lot about you. It is you who will decide about the other person. You may assume that the person will not be enough and the person is not suitable but at the same time you can think in many different ways. Our brain is such a creative ball which is constantly looking, constantly searching and constantly wants to connect to the heart.

Connection of heart and mind is one of the brilliant techniques a humans can learn about. We work and we decide, we work on a official, academic project and we decide which is totally based on our decision of mind. What if we combine the heart and decide?

Will it make any difference then ? The answer I do not know. If you know please let me know. Their are times when you are wanting something but that something is never going to happen. You die for it but still you are alone and you are not satisfied with the decision done for you.

Who is the most important decison maker in the world ? Are you the one or Is it some one else doing it on behalf of other ? If the other is unknown what is the name we give ? Shall we call it as GOD. Shall we tell that GOD is unknown and it is our basic assumption, our believes and our thinking.

Science and conscience is the good aspect of combining both heart and mind. If a person understand both the Science and Conscience then one can easily understand what decisions are made by heart and what decisions are made by heart.

I have written something which I don't know. People ask me why on earth you do not know what you have really done ? What is wrong with you. ? Everything is wrong with me. I am a person who is mad, a person who decides based on his mind and heart. I am not telling that I understand it completely but I do and most of the times I try to prove it to many people

It is difficult but not impossible. Say a positive to a people you will get the positive answer. Say a negative to people he will not feel good about you. If we talk good, people always like it. They will be impress despite the fact that you do not like the person.

However, life has many more lessons to teach you. I want to learn, I want to learn as th learning never stops, I want to explore the learning and want to spread the message of every stories, every essay, every book and every other basic ideas that are stored in my memory to all those who needs them, to all those thirsty minds which are waiting to fulfill their thirst.


The quench of thirst, hunger, life and material possession only ends at the time when you are very old, satisfied with every other things and when you do not see the connection among any of them. The fulfilled and satisfied person then starts visiting churches, temples and Mahzids.

Welcome to the journey of life. !

Monday, May 5, 2008

My First Proposal

Oh my dear, I am very far from you. The moment I saw you I felt the deep sense of feelings for you. I didn't knew that I would really fall for you but Now I cannot imagine my life without you.

The life is like hollow, single and always needs a partner for the sharing of the ideas or thoughts in life. I am very much alone. I am lonely. I know the day I saw you-the day was perfect, with sun shining and blaze of glory being cherished from every rays that I saw fell in your beautiful hairs.

I know that you are sweet, you are careful, you are beautiful and you are the best of the creation the god has ever made. Their is no doubt in that. I will never doubt my entire life. I know that I have felt some deep love for you. I have to say it now. I know that you are the one I will never live without. You are the one without whom my life is empty. It is the dead end. I want to move forward in my life. I need some one to take me to the other side. I believe and trust you. I like you. Despite we have not talked I trust you.


My beautiful lady,From today onwards I promise that I will never ever live without you. I promise that I will be taking care of all your difficulties, all of your problems would be my problems all of your burden will be my burden, all of your pain will be my pain and all of happiness you will like to share I will their standing and smiling as you would like to see me.

I am alone, I want to you. I need you. The "want" is not only the desire but the destiny. You are my destiny. You are my love,I believe NOW, I believed the day I saw you and I will believe it till my death.

It is my life I can give you in return. It is my happiness I can give you in return. I will never ever try to give you my pain until and unless you will want to share it. Please Today- I am on my knees standing and asking you one big question-
"Will you marry me ?", "Will you be my love for entire life ?"

I am afraid, I am shy and at the same time I am feeling deep joy that you will say "yes". I am afraid because if you will say "no". My heart will be broken. I will not love anyone then afterwards. I will be alone again. I want you only because I can cry for you. I want you because I will give my entire life just to make you happy. I am ready to die if you ask me. I am ready to kill some one if you ask me. I am ready to do what you want my dear.

Please tell me do you feel the same ?. What if I ask you now that I will be loving father of your child. I will try my level best to become best father. I like you ....

I cannot live without you and I hope their won't come any days in our life when we have to be separated. Please I am here in Dubai living alone for your answer. Waiting for your response. Please let me know. Please tell me if you really will like me. Please let me know. I am in love with you.


I know it is difficult to know when a person is in love. I ask with myself and it gave only one answer. It is you. I have any friends who are girl but my heart choose only you. I have always seen you, always liked you and will like you forever and forever. I know you will like me too.

I know our relationship has not started but it does not matter because If you agree I will give you a call right now. Please tell me if you feel the same.


Here is the last three letter words that I would like to say again-

"I love you".

I will always love you and I will always be only yours,I swear, I promise and I promise from the bottom of my heart.

(Dedicated to friend and his love)

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Be open.

Good morning, beauty of the morning can not be explained. The beauty of women as is indescribable similarly beauty of beautiful morning early sun rays gazing through your windows and falling like a drop of water in your face in very hot summer days.

Fight against race will continue and it is the hot topic for discussion. Obama is fighting against the race whereas at the same time Hilary is fighting against the Gender. The gender issue is almost in the stage of development but the race issue has not even raised with concern. The issue needs some solution. People are getting tired with the same kind of rules being applied. We need to update or change the rules.

Those rules which we follow are the rules which are not valid anymore. The updated rules and procedures are needed in this world of globalization. People have forget that we are making things worse and it will become more worse if we do not take the initiatives as early as possible.

It is good that we have the freedom of speech and expression. We can express what we feel, we can share our views, ideas and thoughts but it is not good that this rules is also used in practice in many different countries. What is going on is not going on correct. What is happening is not happening for good and what needs are not enough.

It is good and it is bad at the same time. People are moving, people are afraid and people at the same time are terrified. These are those people who know or who can sense that sooner or later world will change. I always stick to my sense of believe that it is not world which is changing, it is the people who are changing. It is the people mind which needs the constant change. We live in the world where every day habits become the routine and every day routine becomes boredom. We feel bore and are most of the time fed up with the same face, same culture, same office, same routine, same wife , same sex, same food, same ... and many more.

When everything that we were doing is the same now and was same then; It become the useless. We then slowly start to change our mind. We go for the change. Which is only thing that is permanent in the world. In search of change we do many things. We build cars, we build buildings, we run, we make roads, we dig the earth in search of something and we find Ore, we move and later we explore new territory, we do many things and we evolve as humans. This gives us the complex, dynamic and total virtual world which is the world of today.

Machines are ruling it now. Computers does the work for you. Why do you now need the people ? The days are not very far when everything will be done or managed by the computers. It can also be done with machines. We created it but now they will rule over us.

We should not stop our changing behavior, the result we will get from the changing behavior is the total satisfaction and peace of our mind. If we do not change then we will be the same old stupid guy doing the same old things all the time. Kind of old fashioned typical, stereotypical.

The fight will continue as long as we build guns we create wars, as long as we build machines we cut the jobs and as long as we visit one religious place we will create differences in religion.

I do not ask you to do what mentioned over here I ask you to think over it. Imagine you visit all the religious places, feel the experiences of visiting different places, feel the experiences of visiting different countires, feel the experiences of travelling not only by plane or by car or by bike or by sea just even some times walk.

Everything we do, everthing we see, everything we feel, experience,learn and think are connected to our past, present and future in some manner or some way. Once I remember one of my friend he said- Every person near you will either tell you about your future, your past or your present.

Now it is your time to figure out in which category you want to put yourself. Good luck and Keep always a positive frame of mind set and most importantly be open.

Fight against Race

Thank you for the comments in the previous post. It is cleaned it up. I did it. Actually not only I but we did it together.

The reason are many in world.The problems are many in the world. People are not happy with you despite the fact that you are happy with them. The only suggestion they have in their mind about you is suggestions. Only advice, some times those advice are good. Some times those message are good. It helps a lot. Some times those message are unacceptable.

What is the problem with race in this world.? What is the fault of that person who is born in one place and wants to live or work or do something is other's place. The problem is not with him. The problem is with the people who are not being open. The problem are in their mind, their some part of brain which is not working and will never work forever.

It is not realized until and unless it really needs to be realized.Race, color of skin, place of birth and the country of origin has an great impact in today's globalism world. People do not accept you with who you are but they want to know more about from where you are.

People want to know about your place of origin, language you speak, your culture and your native place. The most important is if you are not a person from Nordic region, Scandinavian region or UK region or even the person from First world or from USA, it is better for you to die before making any future plans.

Please do not be afraid of killing yourself because you will not be acceptable for whatever reasons anywhere. People are still fighting for race and race will ever long continue the journey of fight. What is the difficulty of accepting a black guy in an white place or society ? What is the reason of accepting any black or brown people in the country of white ? The reason is when a person from that place comes to visit the white territory people of that region get frighten about the competition, people get vulnerable to see the color, people even will not accept with the fact that you are real and you are better than some one who lives in that place.

It is difficult to accept some stranger in your territory only because you do not know the person, you do not trust the person and you do not want to believe the person. The world is changing my dear friends. What if one among that black brown guy will teach you the new way of living your life, living close to nature and living with peace and harmony ever after.

What if you are really tired, depressed in your own life and their is one brown guy who will heal you through his own tricks. What if the man is truthful and trustworthy ? What if- Next reincarnation of GOD even if we do not belive or we do not want to belive resides in his heart.

Jesus was born somewhere in some place but if it is mentioned that every time their would be problem in this world I will take birth and the guy belongs from some third world country. Will you still accept the fact or neglect with the statement that it is nonsense.

These are just assumption. The fight will continue and will continue ever after the life. The fight will continue because the every person is not same in earth. Their are people who easily get motivated from what their leaders asked them to do for and they are ready to be killed.

What if you are in place and you are being fooled by bunch of guys who are whites and you are only brown guy who is present. What if you will think that only once I get the chance to kill of them and kill myself I will do it now.

Terrorist are not born from Mother's womb. We make them terrorist. We are creating them every now and then. We are the culprits. Their is no one to blame. The way we behave has a great impact on society,people,country are religion also many more things.

We do not even care, do we remember how long have we used the right words and how long we have been using something ridiculous and stupid which has no impact on the other person. It is not acceptable to accept only the good comments. People should have a capabilities to accept the bad comments too.

It is difficult to accept which you do not want to accept or expect. Some times life is just like that-we do not expect but we get it. We expect but despite we expect we never even reach closer to it.

Life is journey unknown. The unknown journey in search of which we will travel, and travel and travel. We will travel only because we want to learn but we will not have enough of what we really desire of. This is called total satisfaction. Every things we do is totaly connected with the satisfaction.The level of it and the search or quest of it.

Race is one big issue which is really needed a big attention in this world to be solved. People will not like to solve it only because we know that we really hate that person who visits our place and become our competitions. What if we think he is just a friends, a messenger, a person like a post man who will deliver a message and then go away.

But why in world we will think like that- We will not think like that only because we do not accept those person easily who do not speak what we speak, who do not know culture aspect of what we respect and who looks stupid by the color of skin which does not makes any sense in our resentful body.


The race is not against only one country or two countries, It exits even between one single countries. The race is the next big issue that people should really think about. Really wipe it out from this world.

Come on people, here is the time to walk, talk, speak and share ideas hand in hand despite separating some one with differences but by mutually realizing in someone yourself.

Friday, May 2, 2008

Unacceptable

Are you awake ? Good-Now go to the bathroom and do your morning activities. Ok, So you are on your way-Prayed GOD for the beautiful bright sunny day and now you want to go bathroom. But suddenly some one called you. Wait.

Hello, Kalwar- "Either you clean or else you will be kicked out of this place".

Wow !

Good Morning in this place. I know it is good to speak the truth, I know it is very nice to speak the reality and say that you are not good at what you do. I know it. I am not trying here to say that I am right or he is right or some one else is right.
The reality is that Early in the morning before even going to bathroom and brushing your teeth your mate asked you something or says you something that really hurts.

The truth hurts. It is not acceptable by any standards if we do not clean and do not save if you are in other countries. We should always respect the people, energy, whatever like culture, religion, sex, and whatsoever of that country only because that country has give a lot of things to you.

When their are bad times in your life-more bad times comes. It is the phenomenon where every door gets closed, every friends become your enemy and every person you believe would help would not.

In the process of learning we do mistakes, I have not seen any one being perfect. The man who said the words even he does many mistakes but he never wants to accept it. Ok, I did the mistake of not cleaning. Now, Please do not throw me out of room only because I would not afford it and It is difficult times I am going through.

Why should I listen to you ? You are suffering that is your problem. The problem is not mine. The problem is yours and you should solve your problem. Wow. Isn't it so nice. You see others problem and you do not even want to give comment or suggestion or some words that might heal the persons problem you just want to say something that every unknown person would easily say.

Bad days are the days when you do not anything to do, you have skills, education and everything which can easily support your work but only problem you face is that you will be man full of problems. You search here and you search their which gives you nothing. You are a man with emptiness.

It is very easy to complain. Before doing any complain put yourself in others man situation. I know why should some one do it ? But it would be nice to think like that. It will give you some realization that you are being killed every moment. Why the hell in earth you exist ?

Now after getting a very hot Good morning news you go to bathroom do your all activites and think that well, this is life. You got to face it whatever way it comes. It is harsh, it really hurts but why should you worry. Problem you face always get multiplied when you are in deep shit.

It is easy to complain we always do that in our life. We have complain about food, about religion, about GOD, about life, about our car, about study, about whatever we get. It is easy to complain because complain will give us excuse. It will makes us feel that we are superior. Whatever we do and we did are best. We are the best and we have supriority over whatever things or humans or earth we complain about.

It is very easy to seat in drivers seat and complain about some one who is walking in long long highway. The seating in drivers seats means you are comfortable, you have money, you have all the necessary things in your life you want. Now you can easily do what you want.

I am worried in the first place I thought my prayers were heard couple of days ago and I was really happy about it. I thank to GOD for his quick reaction. Now, I would be able to sleep with some good gratification and satisfaction. But the problems multiplies if you are in real problem. Some one just said it that either you do it or you are out. Therefore I have to do it and make that everything is alright and satisfy. If in case I am out- It will really be problem then.

Let me see, we are not perfect said once a friend-Yes we are not. We do mistakes we learn and we should be direct about it. But some times when you are get bite early in the morning before even having taken your morning coffee it hurts. If I were the guy who was angry then probably I would have waited for the right time and would have said in different way. It is easy to make some one cry. Very easy. Say something that is hurtful and the person will get hurt.

How many people in day you hurt ? Every thing is words. If you are polite and at the same time direct then it won't hurt that person but when you are not polite about what you say surely the people get hurt. I am not proving that I am right or worng. I am just explaining my situation.

Hopefully by the grace of GOD everything goes fine and I would not be the victim. Yesterday another nice thing I heard that was in company in UK they ask for traineeship only those person who have valid EU,EEA and UK permit. Those who belong to first world.

Since I come from place where we are looked as minorities and thought as if we are helpless, poor, underpriveliged, uneducated people more importantly the people from third world where people believe that we do not have good rules and regulation, do not have proper manners, and many more. How could someone get a permission to even get traineeship. Their is no opportunity for the people like us.

I am thankful to the country where I am getting opportunity to study. I am thankful to all the people in this country, culture, religion and environment, Nature Thanks for atleast beliving in my or our potential and giving us life changing opportunity.

But I am not thankful to those who makes rules. Those rules sucks. The rule which states "you come from third world, go to your place." In the world where people are measured with the power of their mind still people measure you from the place you come from. Every body wants change, do not worry as longs as we want the change we will get it because it is humans(us) who wants to change.

If nature changes-the whole of human kind will be go in trouble. The days are getting shorter for that. One day, Even the Nature will change. At that time we all will realize that we are and we should be "One", without any discrimination of caste, culture, country, religion, sex, ethnicity, and many more differences.

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Without you.

Once their was a beautiful girl, living in Nepal her beauty was similar to the beauty of Nature and Nepali scent of flowers. She was perfect girl with all the blossom and smiling face every now and then. The guy who liked her was in foreign land. The problem was that the girl had never seen this guy before.

The guy always had seen her, the place she lives, the timing of her office or school and the wherever she goes in the country. The guy was very cute and was very nice too. The girl had no idea who the guy was and she never noticed anything about this guy. Girl was living in her own life.

She has a pleasant life of her own. The guy loves the girl so much that he could not express his feelings for her. The guy is shy, has a deep impact of the girl and always thinks for her. He is in love-the state of negativity the state where he is blind. Everything is fair in love and war.

The fairness of love he could not understand. He wants to express but somehow he could not express it at the right moment. It was dark and snowy day the day when he has to leave her dream girl without even getting glimpse of her. He was not feeling well. He did not want to go away from her but the situation demanded him to go, the situation asked him to visit the foreign land. He never felt a kind of love for her before.

Especially when he was in the moment of being separated. Especially when he was leaving her far behind. He is worried now. He think will it be same ? Can I see the girl in the same way I had seen her. Will she be like a morning first rays of sun that falls in sunflower and looks as if it is soon going to glow. Will it be like that ? What if she is gone and she is not anymore ? What would I do with my one way of liking her.

I could not express my love for her only because she is so far. The greatest obstacle now in my life is the journey that I am traveling. The time is the most valuable thing, it changes everything-especially people. Nature will always remain same. Oh my love, I would do anything for you. Just to see you or get to see your face.

Oh my love I would do anything do listen to your voice. Oh my love why did not or why could not I speak what I am feeling for you. I know you do not know me but what is that keeping me that feeling for you.

I am really shy, I am really feeling deep love for you. The love which no one can understand the love which will remain for me ever and ever inside me. I am not worried about you being with others but I am worried about will I be able to see the same smile on your face.

Today people are changing, will you be same my love. I do not know how people define love-every body says it is two ways it can only happen in two ways- I do not belive in two ways or one ways. I belive in simplicity of my feelings of my heart which always remembers you, your smile your tone.

I always am worried about you. I am alone without you. Only I had your number to call you , I could have done it long before. Now I realize that I should have talked with you. Now I realize that I should have shown you the feelings that I was going through.

Now I really felt that I can even die for you. When some body can give a life for the person whom I have never seen-you know that is special feelings. I am not the creator of my life but I can certainly be able to destroy for you. Why am I feeling such a stupid feelings just for you.

I hope you will be the same and our story will end up being a happy ending. I am also afraid at the same time it won't happen like that. I know that we live in real world where reality is always different then our imagination and what we think most of the times. I hope and pray even you will not be able to see me or even you will not be mine- be happy and smile as i saw you like never before., be happy and cheerful as I saw and wish you never did before.

May we meet in heaven and by the grace of GOD I would have power to express my real love for you. The way I felt for you and reality hidden in my heart which is not coming very easily outside as a expression. Oh my love- I love you as if people will never imagine the quantity, my love for you is full of sky, full of stars you see in the sky and full of flowers present in this planet. I am waiting to see you again, I am waiting if I would be alive by then the first thing I would do is visit you and say that how much I felt deep inside me for you.

Oh my god, please give me power to stand this moment, please bless me with the power of being alone and lonely Now. Without you, it seems life would end. Without you life it seems that I have reached a dead end. I hope my dead end will soon explore the new way.

Hope is all I have dear as I am patiently waiting to see you.


(The article is especially for one brother, who lives in Dubai and the girl lives in Nepal.)

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

My Old Shoes.

When their are moments in life to enjoy, I am not enjoying. When their are millions of people in world who live life very easily and are dependable on others. I do not want to be. The saying of "I do not want to be and I have to be" is very different.

Some times you have to be dependable on others only because you are not doing anything and life, circumstances and situation does not allow you to do the same. What will you do. If I want money whom I will first go for ? Obviously the person who created me. It would be nice, if I were working and doing things myself. I want to happen the same in my life.

When I say "I want". It does not go by the way I say. The want is the desire, the need, the process and it takes loads of time, desperation and perspiration. The funny thing is that we do not know what is their in future or what's in store for us. Ha Ha ..
Smiles are their which says it all, the smiles which always remind me that we are not perfect. In the process of being prefect we do thousand and one mistakes every day, still we do the same mistake. In the process of learning we try to get new ideas and learn but still one day we forget what we have learn.

I am smiling that is the good news to many around me. It should make them happy. I am smiling in pain that I am going through. We all have problems till we are alive that is part of life. No humans beings exit without problems. The priority we give to the problems in our life is based on our feeling, desire, need and our own quest for life.

It is good that I am smiling because many of my dears and nears want to see me smiling. I am wearing the same old shoes for 9 months which is slowly showing its colors. I have not cut my hair for the same old 9 months which always reminds me that I am growing with time. I have same old habit of writing and maintaining my blog which asks me that I have to put something in here while I am enjoying my morning coffee.

Life is just like this, close to Nature. The GOD who lives inside us is taking care of all my dreams why should I worry ? I have to smile only because it will remind me that I am having fun time in funny world with funny people and creatures.

My old shoes always ask me to wear it only because it really likes my legs. It says that Sir, you should never leave me only because I know how to fit in your legs. Even I am broke and I am going to leave you soon please do not ever leave in alone because I am afraid some one will burn me. I do not want to leave you alone, Sir.

My old grandfather used to tell me that- Son, Miracles happen in life. I never realized and felt it happens but slowly as I grew and I learn I start to believe that it really happens.

For those who have similar problems consult me, only thing I would be able to give you the suggestions and advice. I can give you suggestions and advice that much till the single drop of water left in ocean. It is up to you to decide how much you want to take it from poor me.

"My pockets are empty but I have ideas full of pockets."

I do not know what that means because as I am the creator of the quote. I will try to explain. The explanation is based on the idea that despite you do not have anything in your pocket you have tons of ideas that fill your pocket. It is up to you to take it. It is up to your needs and your desire to take it from me. I am flowing like river. You can drink from any corner or side of the river you want. You can dive into it, see it deep inside it and explore the unexplored territory with everlasting experience from it.

Their are people who will never learn, their are people who learns and their are people who have learn and they have many things to tell. It is up to you to decide which category I fell into.

The two ways to presentation of my personal approach to real world problems that I encounter in my personal life. One is my maintaining personal diary and putting in indirectly into this blog and another by approaching directly to people. When I do it indirectly their are people who read it and get hurt and their are people who get hurt despite being hurt they will suggest you with improvement, their are also people who will completely ignore what my point of views are on my personal life. May be those people who completely ignore my indirect perspectives are more concerned about direct approach then indirect approaches.

I am not great writer as their are in Market and in World existing. I am just write who writes. Either it is my personal feeling or whatever that comes in my mind and heart. As I writer I thank and appreciate all the positive and negative comments written and given to me.

The story continues because story is interesting and it is getting more interesting with the movement in life, journey never ends simply because it is journey. Asking for help and giving help is two different phenomenon. Asking help is not begging. When you are in trouble you ask for help, when you are in state where your body is not working and you are not able to do yourself anything besides giving blessing is begging.

Both can be similar and a good topic for discussion. It is my attitude to ask and to listen. I want to listen to strongest of sound that my ears won't allow me to. I want to feel the deepest of rain I will fall trap into. I want to walk longest of journey that my shoes will be capable to travel.

Thanking you. See you soon in next beautiful and awesome day.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Bless them.

When most of the times you are feeling lonely and alone, when most of times you are not being part of anything, you are with your self- It will seem to many other people that you are lost. You are no anymore. It will be the moment of complete silent. The moment of peace and the moment of vanishment.

The people around you will be curious about you. The people will ask about you, want to know more about you. The more they want to explore about you the more you will show your mysteries to them. The mysteries not is to show, your nature does not automatically will deliver the mysteries but it will be seen to many people that you are kind of mysterious person.

The life is simple-Every body if you watch carefully are in rush. We all want to reach to final destination. May be the project, the work, or even the end of the day, it can also be what we were thinking, we want to get to the destination very soon, very fast. We are in rush. To all those who are in rush-One thing I would suggest, Slow down. I do not mean that you should not work or should not do what you are doing but slow down with your rush, your pace, your speed.

Once I remember I asked one guy to watch his steps. I still remember that. People always want to get everything in life very quickly. May be it could be big house, a good blue color job, nice and beautiful wife, childrens and many more money. Everything that we need and we want to get, everything that we want-will come. It is their but it will need lots of patience and courage to slow down our speed. The speed does not mean that you should not work or you should not do what you are doing. The speed means- Keep it simple. It is upto us to control our daily activities.

Nothing comes ahead of what we think. Whatever we wish, are our just wishes and it will be their somewhere in queue lined up one after another. We make loads of wishes. Even far more than us, girls pray a lot. All our wishes are collected by GOD. He keeps them in his book. He then process all our wishes one by one. Every now and then when we see, we listen, smell, observe and learn we make loads of wishes.

All these wishes are kept according to our own priorities. We wish and we prioritize them. These all wishes are then kept in his book. The GOD decides when, where and how to deliver all our wishes. It is the duty of GOD to do the job for us. He does but he never lets us know that he did the job for us. We humans, think alright. I got what I wanted in my life. All the I, MY makes us egoistic and will create lots of chaos in our life.

We tend to forget that one day we have to visit GOD's home. We are selfish humans living in earth, thinking most of times about our own life. See how many people are hungry at the time you are eating-Bless them before you start your meal. See how many do not have clothes to wear at the time you are wearing fancy clothes-Bless them before you wear them. See how many people are in stage of diaster, unhappiness, fight, war and total chaos at the time you are doing parties and attending fantastic meeting-Bless them before you start your work.

Have any one even tried in their life of blessin those mentioned above ? I guess very few or none. We never do that. We are lazy. We do not want to change ourselves why should we ? What we do not have ? We have everything that we need. When you have everything you need, you become careless. When you are in the other side doing and needing a help you will see what I am seeing.

Blessed are the peacemakers and blessed will be the peace makers and blessing to all those do well-being for peace.

Monday, April 28, 2008

GOD inside us.

New lesson is always their to learn, Visited the church today-felt like I am close to god. People often say that god is repulsive, imaginary and unbelievable sometimes. I do not know.

My answers would be-I think GOD exits in all of us, the way we speak, the way we think, the way we give our opinion, in our emotional, personal, recreational and all other activities. We should not search for him. He resides inside us. He lives inside us. Every breath we take-he gives us that breath. The ounce of breath that we breath is provided by him.

The bread that we get to eat, the food we always taste, the smell that we smell, the beauty that we see, the love that we share-is the GOD gifts to us. He shares everything with us but we never figure out and we think he is invisible, repulsive and make some thought that he do not answer.

It is not about one single religion, one nation, one person-He exits in all religion but in many different form. He exits in each one of us. He offers us whatever we want. He is the best provider and he plans all our future.

He loves us more than we can think of what love is, we are a treasure to him. He is great curator, he cares us, We need not have to delight him, he is always delighting us. He is the one the greatest encourager.

We may some time suffer, We may have million reason for cry but during all those moment he is taking care of us. Nothing will separate his love to us. He resides on us as our father. He is their in silence watching us, teaching us, taking care of us all the time.

He has a big diary for each of us, He knows our future, he also knows what we are going to do next. He is not worrried because he also know we are getting worried to know what next in our life. He will make us feel better every step we take.

He is the greatest of great, he is the simplest of simple and he is the truthful of truth. In him lies every thing that we can even think of. He will show us the path we need to walk, if we fall in the path he will also pick us up and take us to the exciting journey of our life.

Do not ever feel alone-just because you are not part of church, some organization, some religion because by not being the part of those aspects or in such activities you are not being like others but you are being yourself.

If you become yourself-that is the first lesson of love. The aloneness will teach you many different things when you need them. When you are alone do not ever imagine you really are alone. The GOD resides you at the very moment inside you. Every help you need, ask him. He will find some solution for you.

You may loose your all friends, all your family, all your people near you but you will be very close to your self. The self is your spirit. The spirit of GOD. He will tell you, direct you and give you the suggestions. Whatever suggestion that he presents you are the suggestions from the GOD. Those will never change, those are for your benefit, those are for your future. Those are direct gifts from him just for you.


Oh Jesus, Oh Allah, Hare Rama Hare Krishna, Oh ... , Oh GOD ...,

Help those in need, give us the blessing that we can serve those in need. Bless us with the power of love, lessons and whatever it takes to serve others who are dieying at the moment, those who are starving for food, those who do not have place to go and those who are facing complicated problems in their life.

It might not seem good to mix all the GOD, but my religion is no religion. I follow all the religion. I do not hesitate to eat the beef, at the same time I can also fast for one day and visit Hare Krishna temple. At the same time, I can go to Allah, and pray to him. All the people associated with different religion are just a messenger of GOD.

It is not the messenger I pray, I pray the lessons that they presented during their existence in this earth. I pray to those divine and holy message. I pray to those scriptures, those sentence that they create for the well-being of society and in the name of GOD.

Every body comes naked and has to go Naked. It is only when we get into some age we start to wear clothes and do not show our body inside those clothes. It is similar, we all wear the choice of clothes we like, we all pray and follow the religion we like. Because our real "I" knows that after we have to go Naked and we came Naked.

My intepretation might be great matter for discussion. We can always discuss. GOD is the holy spirit inside us who will take us with him to his home oneday after we finish our work in Earth. His home is very beautiful, one of the best place, the word best might be limited to some extent depending on the way of visulalization, I would say it is the perfect place.

Smile, even you feel lonely, even if their is no one around you, even if you are thought as if you are no one just an ordinary guy from some third world country. Smile is the answer. A simple smile will answer most foolish of question people ask you.

A simple smile will tell you that no one is perfect, a simple smile just like a new born child does when he sees his father does. It is so perfect. The simle should be simple like that. Every thing we do, everything we see, everything we want to perform are mind thoughts our mixture with the earthy matters which always tries us to take away from GOD.

By being close to him, one can imagine a life which just might seem magical. When I say that I was returning from the church- I saw one small kid riding a bike, he was moving in very speed in his bike. He crossed just as we bunch of guys were walking or coming from church. Then the guy applied the brakes and I thought in my mind that "Is he not fallen from the bike ?". I saw the guy at that very moment he was not fallen from the bike-he was still in his bike but just after few seconds he fell, and I smiled by seeing all this event that was happening around me.

No body took care of it. I was surpised to see that. I was thinking is it just a concidence then I thought well-It might be but again I thought Their is never an concidence in our life. Because of our earthy matters we think it is concidence, we find reasons where the reason will just give us excuse. Nothing more.

We all look different, we all have some task in our life to perform, we work every day and night to make our life success, to get good job, get a bungalow, earn good money and make life comfortable. In the process of doing all those events we forget that we should behave just like simple humans. Help others, see if others are smiling or not. Look on their faces, try to find out the reality, try to see, guess and understand what others are feeling at the same time.

It is not the big things that you need to do in order to make some one in need happy, just a simple words. Just a smile, Just a words that do not ever cost anything to you will do the trick.
Welcome to the world where nobody gives damn to what you think, every body is very busy, every body is so busy in their life that they do not have time for even their own kids, even their friends and family.

It is not just bounded by one country, one religion, and one community it is everywhere. The context might be different but the story remains the same. It might be told in different language, and different ways of delivery but the message and impact is the same.

Big question is how to change ?

Change should be brought within ourselves, if we change our country will change, slowly people around us we change and even the religion, sex, cultural aspects everything will change.

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Open the door.

The art of living is the way of living itself. One needs to go through many different phases of life. When you travel, you get to see many different things, you see the tree, people, other cars, other vehicle and many such things that too move. When many other things move, you move.

The ideas that travel should be adopted in many different case.The idea that do not travel should not be adapted.Most of the people in today's world do not just want to sit in one place and live a life. One point in time we would like to move.

The moment brings the journey, it creates the journey which might be very useful to many of us in many different ways. The joy of journey is immaculate. It is so joyful that you feel very comfortable. Sometimes even it reminds that why not if I was a flying bird. Move from one place to another, always in constant move.

Visit new places, see many new things, learn from many things that I never have seen before, heard before and watch before. What are the ways we learn or how do we get input in our body ? The input we get are probably from Eyes-we see, from ears-we listen, Nose-we smell, mouth-we taste, and what are others-next input could be touch-we feel.

The basic stuffs will always be their we will always do the basic stuffs but some time some point of time we get fed up with our daily routinized life. We then start looking for change. When we start to look for the change-we slowly thing the best way to se the change is to move.

The moment gives us both adventure and the pleasure. The both part are exciting in the journey of life. Those who are afraid of move, they are afraid of learn. While I am writing this one of my sweet fly is coming very close to me-again It is getting very closer to me, after getting closer to me I showed it the way but it could not go anywhere. It is trapped inside the room. It wants to move but it has no place to go. It is desperate to move, only because it wants to explore the real world. It has its own life, its own family and its own children.

Now, as I have to open the door to let it visit where it wants- I will open the door. Every country-should do the same for the people.

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Welcome to reality.

The reality is not far when we see the reality very near. Words are not my creation, it is the creation of my thoughts-It might be ilogical, it might sound stupid, it might also be worng but I do not care.

As long as words come in my mind I write, It might be some times useful-at least to some one or some body somewhere in the world. It would be, Hopefully. Those who think it is not useful-It will be not useful to them.

My words are just the simple experiments with my self, my own knowledge and experiences, understanding the process, phenomenon, Nature and Environment. My is bounded to one single. I can even make it unbounded by making it Ours.

The bounday does not divide people its the people mind that is dividing people. We are living in world where we like to travel to many places see many culture, religion, people that is the real beauty of life. The more you travel the more you learn.

I always want to generalize many of the aspects and activites but that is just my personal opinion. It has nothing to do with any body or any community or whatsoever.
People fall in trap only because they want to fall. I may be bad at many things, I am not perfect. The beauty of life does not lies in being perfect, it lies in making mistakes which will enable me to learn, which will teach me the lessons which I also further can pass to others.

The way of proving who is right and who is worng in not the way that we alway end up. It is my the look you can tell. It is by the smell you can judge, it is my Nature you can learn.

Welcome to reality-not only to others but to me myself, Welcome to real world.

Thank you.

We born, we start to observe day to day activities around us. We listen to what our elders have to say, then slowly we start to judge what is good and what is bad in our life.What is truthful and what is untruthful, which words are emotionless and which are not.

The process is the stages of learning from one phase of life to next. It continues. It runs with the same common way by seeing, listening, smelling and taking taste of many different activities or events around us.

As we grow, we start to make friends, we share our values, common values and many other activities that are good or bad or whatsoever with the other person. When we share ours to theirs we begin to learn that their is more joy in combining these values, joy and ethics that we only have with others.

It gives us more pleasure, afterwards slowly we begin to realize that we need some body really to take care of us. We then start falling for those person who will take care of us. It can be either male or female depending upon the situation and our choices.

The process continues-and it will always continue just like that. It can be said that-you talk positive people will talk positive, it will create positive framework in your and others around you. One does not want to see the progress of others only because one cannot stand to share his own progress with others.

The war is not answer, it is simple. I can easily kill the person I want to but is that my answer to the problem ? Obviously not. The person who wants to win the battle win before the battle even starts. Only thing is you got to know when it started.

It is not my country that I hate, it is not my people that I hate it is the people with ego hassles that I do not want to see, talk or speak with. Sometimes I wonder, In the process of learning we have to learn how to remove it.

It is not aimed to one single person neither to any group or country it is aimed to those who think it is meant to them. I do not want to make anything personal despite it looks very personal.

Thank you to all those who have done very hard effort to help me. Thank you to all around me. By the grace of GOD-My best wishes are with you all. Despite it might seem non-worthy. You can take it as you want.

My level of thinking might be worst, or it may even be clumsy and narrow because I am separated from all around me presently. I am thankful to those who think I am separated. A fool learns from one single mistake whereas a Gentlemen who think he is really doing good,never learns.

Welcome to the real world- What I believe does not matter, and should not matter to those around me as long as we are bounded by certain boundaries we think only about our own culture, own country and want to talk more on those aspects.

What we do is that we are divided, we are born in one country and we like that country, we like the culture, we like the religion and everything after that becomes "MY". We will all the time like to speak only about that particular aspect- come out of the box and think beyond the boundaries and religion.

Welcome to reality, Once upon a time a child piss on the head of father only because father was carrying the child his on his head. The piss fell in his head and Father was not surprised, he started to clean it up and did not said even a word to Child.

The morale of story is that- It is easy to talk big, make loud cries but the impact matters. Whatever it might be or whatever it would be-it is just a words.


The words will hurt, the words will cry, the words will make you angry however one must know the basics that these are words. The words are dividing the world, the words are killing each others. It is easy to kill some one if I say something wrong to them-It is easy to make some one angry. How many of does not get hurt by words ?

Very few, only because we do not accept it. Once we learn how to accept the words we will learn to see the connection.

Last but not the least, Thank you for those who think I am their friends, Thank you for those who have helped me so far and I am really sorry if my words have hurt those around me. It is not for one person or not intended to those who think it is intended to. Please see the Disclaimer section at the end of the blog. Thank you to those who think I am not their friends too...

Stories will always continue ... till the last breath.... The way may be different, style may be different however the process still remains the same...

Friday, April 25, 2008

Love and Life. (welcome to reality)



It is so difficult to live without you, it is the only thing that seems very difficult in my whole life. Is their anything which people call difficult would ever I took as difficult.

It could be understood that all days are not good days, all days sun is not shining, their is darkness but the darkness ends to bring new joy, glory with light. In search of light to live with you it seems I am dieing.

Why do we some times feel that we could not live without the special some one in our life ?
One could have thousand views, many thoughts- It gets difficult to breath, it is even difficult to spread the message when the person you are close to is far from you. When you remember the person the smell of that person comes with inside you. It is the smell that you want to smell, it is the touch of that person you want to feel, it is the care of that person you want to enjoy. The question itself would not give the solution that I am presenting, it is the feeling. It is the emotion or expression. Do not take it personal- It could be different from many of us.

People do thousand and one thing to escape, we are loosing most of the important relationship only because we are not ready to listen. The relationship does not meant only love, it could be friendship, even, marriages and so on.

We loose the relationship because of our commitment, effort, some times forget to communicate, even some times journey, the distance could make you feel depressed. The greatest journey some times traveled is the distance between the people. In today's world it is easy. Many people have different approach, their own personal problems, own interpretation of understanding love- My approach is very personal and I never expected in my entire life that would even match to something.

It might be different to many different people but for me it is quite different too. Love is understanding, learning in every second of life. It is a song which every heart reads. It is the song for life.

The music which never stops till the last breath. We all have to visit the other end only by smiling. Smile and cross the life. It is the experience which cannot be described-broken bridge which always needs the improvement.


Why should I worry if my life sucks and I am fool, even I cannot walk with the person I am intended with, I would rather like to learn, understand and get the core message out of it. I will smile even if I am not thinking of smiling only because love is all about smiling.

Life and love is two different things which cannot be even thought of comparison. I have no clue at this moment how to separate these.

Their could be situation when I would tell that- I never tried to betray you but you left me just like that. Without the reasons. Without even saying Good bye ! From that onwards at least I would have got one word which I could have hated entire my life- "Good bye"

But Now, even I could not do that. What was my mistake ? Was it because I was not the one ? Well, if I was not the one it is only because you never tried to find out more on me. I am still happy and I will always be happy. If I would say that I am satisfaction would you come back to me ?

The unstoppable words could be written, I would not stop to write as I have started till the last breath of my life. I will write. Not to prove anything but to prove myself. I will not stop until and unless GOD ask me to stop.

I would never give my heart to somebody who is not interested in it. I would rather get married with 1000 girls in my life but I will not get married with you.
Wife of men are women and they will always remain wife of men. We can talk thousand words on women rights, whatever but women are always women... One of the difficult species to understand only because they make everything themselves very difficult.

Simplicity only comes with the simplicity of seeing the child, the early stages of every baby. Women will never learn from it. Every thing is difficult but it is up to us to make it simple.



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Welcome to real world.

I am very sorry for all those who read the previous article because I should not have posted it just like that, I really stupid on that point. I do not know, I was just taking too much of stress of myself that I forget their are people who can or who will help me.

I am really stupid and it is good that their are people around you to teach you, tell you and always give you suggestion when you need them. I am happy for all those and I really thank all those who were concerned.

The reality is that reality is just like reality. We all have problems and some times we do not want to tell our problems to others and sometimes we are quite shy aobut it. When I wrote my problems suddenly those who were close to me, who really care about me-became more closer.

The true person or friend or brother or whoever close to you becomes more closer once we ask them for help. It showed, I am sorry for the article yesterday and I could not write anything because I could go Internet.

In real world-we have real people and in real people we have problems, we have solution and we have life. It is quite uniquly placed. One has to sooner or later understand that we all have problems and we should learn from the problems.

It is good that I am in learning process and I am understanding it. The real world is something very vivid, very different and very difficult to survive because we have all sorts of problems like culture, religion, sex, nationlity, racisim and many more.

World is becoming very difficult place to live, more people are concerned about the security issue, machines are doing the work and it also seems that many people are starving. It is just like that.

The lesson from the Nature-is to be strong as Nature itself is very strongest of the entity. It is about choices, alternatives, finding and knowing yourself better. Life is all about the bond between the people that's why it might be that- Today we have lots of popularity in hi5, facebook kind of website.

These website are getting famous only because- We like community we like to share friendship and emotions. It is good to go with the flow.
The days coming by will teach me what is in store for me. I hope if I landed up in a process of helping others I won't go back, if I landed up in a process of asking-I will look forward.



Thank you.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

In the process of being strong.

Life is full of good and bad suprises. We always have two sides of any coin. We see our life also with the same way or phenomenon. Some times It is good for you and some times it is very unpleasant for you.

Now I am in the situation where I do not have any places to go. I have to take help from my dear friends. It is upto my friends who are going to help me or not going to help me.

No place to live from next month, no home, even cannot afford the room because of expensiveness but if GOD created me then all my wishes and dreams are not only my alone but it is his too.

He has to take care of my problems, my dreams and my wishes now.Let me see what happens. I have to sort it out- I will ask help from my dear friends. This is a simple version of my life today. I do not want to elaborate and put more because it will too emotional and If one day I am going to read this-it will me myself, weep.

In the process of being strong-One is being really strong. It happens and these are problems which a people face, why should one go far from the problems. It is good to face the problems and see the consequences from the problem.

Escaping from the problems are done by cowards. Who just try to escape and do not face the problems. We are face problems and we all try to go through it-which is good.

Once if I remember, me and my friends were sitting in balcony of the kitchen and he said that-"Nothing comes easy". As the nature itself is very tough, it teaches all of people and organisim related to it-the same lesson but in different ways.

Sometimes friendship could not measured, some times it is difficult to understand and sometimes it is not good for health. Some body once said that-friends in need are friends in deed. Now a days, who is doing or following the theme. We are becomeing selfish every day, it is increaing in our blood. We do not want to help others or see others only because why should we care about others ? When such an attitude comes in your mind, you think you are being strong and you are doing good but you are not doing good only because you are not helping other human.

Death is certain, it will come but we do not remember when it will come or we cannot say anything about it. After death, some people will remember you. some will forget you and some will even die for you. The person who really cares about those who have been dead are those very close to you.

Those person will not cry for whay you were and what you did but they will also take the lessons that you presented in your journey of life. We should therefore become such peroson or atleast try to beome one among them.

All these are words and words to not value as long as feelings. Feelings are important. It is because of feelings that you fall for other person. It is about the emotional touch that a mother has with a son-she loves him even he becomes a gangster or criminal.

It is because of feeling of your love that she will wait in lonliness of 25 years just in a hope of seeing you one day back. "True love always waits".


Well the story will always continue as long as the write of the story is alive. Thank you for reading it today. Have a good day :)