Thursday, June 19, 2008

Magic or Risk ?

In Brida, a book that Paulo coelho wrote back in 1990, there are two ways to recognize soulmate. Through Magic - meaning : entering a state of transe in which you can see a bright spot over the shoulder of your soulmate - or, by taking risks, by making mistakes, by being with the wrong people until you find your soul mate.So he asked the following question: Would you try to find your soul mate through magic or by taking risks, making mistakes?

In response to above question of great Writer Paulo Coelho here is what I have to say- the article presented down has been approved by an administrator of Paulo Cohelo in his blog. You can find a copy of same article under his blog too.

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It is very easy to take the first step that is to go through the magic and just wait to see if a person is really a soulmate. But at the same time it is difficult to go and check, do mistakes and try until a right person is met at the end.

One will surely chose the first step and think something automatically happens for him, I think if I was the person to choose the soulmate I will rather go for the second and take risk because once I take the risk I will be doing the mistakes and at the same time I will be learning something new from each and every women I try. It is a process to find the right person in life.

I do not believe there is any soul mate or black mate or white mate only because there is only one thing existing in this world and that is a mate. The rest is to us, by which name we call them. We can call her as a soulmate but what is the proof that a person will really be a soulmate and not leave you after a while.

A man has no mate except a mate who is himself. A girl in his life just bring a momentary joy which we can with some name. However, even though the magic is easy I will not suggest anyone to go and see the white bright light over the shoulder just to find a true partner in life rather go and talk, enjoy, fight, laugh, weep, get angry, feel sad and feel happy by taking risk in life.

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Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Finnish Lake

A country of thousand lakes and all the lakes look similar. The early morning rise with the darkness and rain falling lightly just to touch the earth speaks a lot in itself. Early morning rise from bed getting more difficult with the cold of the rain to rise up. Despite these, a mind fights with the enemy deep inside it which is not trying it to make it wake.

A mind suddenly wakes up and now its time to do the morning activities. One beautiful lady at the coffee house asked me how do you feel about the Finnish people ? What is your opinion about them ? Being close to the lake teaches a lot in itself. I just told her that they are very similar to a lakes. A lake can take anything with the deep, silence and flowing smoothly like ever before. It is silent and cold. It is very chill and cool. It blows when the wind ask them to blow and it shines when the sun rays falls into it.

A lake reminds me of the Finnish way and Finnish people. I do not know if that is correct but this is what I thought. A lake can take many things into it. It has a lot to learn from it and you can learn a lot from it when you go and take a dip into it.

A desire of getting what you want and a desire of thinking what you do is really worth a value to it makes it more interesting in life and more fascinating about living a life. It is that the moment of life goes on and on. Some body would rather say that these words are useless but these words are not as useless as it looks because these are valuable. It will be there till the very end. Each letters form to make a word and a combination of these words form to give the meaning to a sentence. It looks so simple but ask the creator who creates these words he will tell you.

Anything right from the building of a house to a any architecture to any book are the combination of small things. All these small elements, cells, and parts combined to form a big thing and that big thing has a value in real life. Many people those who cannot see the progress of others are those who do not have ability to learn from others. Once you get into the habit of learning from many different people life will be much more easier to live.

A place where I am now is called Finland. A place where I can tell you 1000 good things about it but I can hardly find any bad stuffs or any personal bad taste of this land till date. Always remember that- "I live in moment not in time". People those who spend their time living will take a long deep look at the quote provided above and think what does that mean. The meaning is very simple and the statement is as simple as you can get. Moment is NOW. The time my hands are pressing these keyboards and making an sweet sound of joy which is giving my mind a delight that I am seeing these letters forming a word and a word forming a sentence and a sentence trying to find some logical connection to give a meaning to my readers.

I do not want to make a follower nor do I want to attract the attention all that is I want is to put whatever is there is my heart and mind to the world and see what they think about it. A life worth living is similar to this. Well, a good day is the day which bring good smile in your face despite you have lot to do and many more thing to overcome. A day is long only when we think we are tired and think that we have done nothing or something stupid happened.

Everything is first created in our mind and it then invokes from there to onwards. Well If ever you get time do visit Finland and see the beauty of lakes and do not forget to take a famous Sauna naked and dip yourself after a Sauna in lake. A brilliant experience to be done once at least in life time.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Improve your desire

Is it a thinking that makes the event happen true. True does not merely mean the intention but the reality in the search of destiny. How do you think ? Can we think about something in our life and the thing happens exactly as we anticipated or expected or wanted or thought of.

Many of the times such thing happens but some of the times it does not happen like that. Is it then gets delayed ? What happens if it does not happen as we expected ? Again, it depends on our thoughts-how long you will search for the same thing and remind in your mind just about the same thing time and again, how many of the times in earth you keep on remembering the same thing time and again and all those things give rise to some kind of pattern.

Just as I am writing the article here, I saw a beautiful girl outside my window she is walking in her own way. She has a black dress and I could not see her from front but why should I care as long as I can see her. My eyes followed till one corner in the road where she disappeared completely. She is gone and I am left with unfulfilled desire. The very time when my eyes went outside the window it gave me an expression that she is a women, a sweet girl and amazing build creature.

The moment it gave some impression-my mind thought of sex nothing more. When my mind thought of the sex it really wanted her in my bed naked jumping and pumping all the part of body and doing all those physical exercise just to fulfill a faction of desire. I do not know how other Man minds think when they see very young, energetic, beautiful lady going on her way and when they can in-fact see her ass.

I believe many men do the same as this ordinary brain of mine. It is the exactly what we think when it comes to women but what does a women thinks when she sees the man ? Does she think the same ? I think- No. May be some women will do but many of them will not think as we men do. However when I am trying to explain such phenomenon it will not be explained since whatever I will write is just negative of what we experience and what we do.

The point of putting this women in the context of this article is that, it is our mind once we think we will want her in our bed, we will get it but the big question is how ? How can you do it ? It is very easy-the very moment I saw her, I should have stopped writing and go and apporach her try to talk with her say hi/hello. Would have talked something funny and rather would have explained the problem that I was currently facing that of seeing her in my own room. It would have drawn her close to some extent towards you.

The other approach would be after a some period of the time the emtion that was raised in the mind of mine will automatically vanish. It is momentarily created and it will automatically go off once you will concentrate on something else. Well, it is not easy as it looks but it is really very easy too. Desire are the problems said by Buddha. He says that once you remove all your desire you will reach to the stage which will lead you to total satisfaction and peace a phase called as nirvana. How much do you agree on it ?

Desire is not the problems or pain it is those that is remained when the words are no longer existing to explain them what it is. It is not what I write or what some body have said it is a want, need and fulfillment. It is created in our mind when we observe. It is through our eyes that we have seen and now we want it for us. Once you close your eyes you will now feel there is nothing except a darkness.

Put yourself with a towel or something for just a minute or two and now see the world outside. You will see nothing except darkness and you will now try to create a imaginary picture of the real world outside which matches somewhat to the real world in your imaginary picture but it is not real. Same is true for our life to some extent when I am explaining you the meaning of improving your desire not totally killing it.

Monday, June 16, 2008

A diary of monday 16th june 2008

A early morning rise at around 2 am with a thinking set to travel a new horizon with early rise of sun. It was amazing experience today morning with very light dark sunlight giving some sign of rain but again with total in confusion of delivering either the sun to their children's or a joy of tears in total summer fun.

Imagine a situation where you work in early morning the time when nobody would wake up easily from the bed but you are not the only one who does it, there are many like you and there are people who have mastered it before you. I was with my drunken teacher today. He was smelling like a hell and telling me most of the times what to do and what not to do. Where to deliver the paper and where not to.

Coming from the work it gave a total satisfaction of the work and the time you spent doing it. It gives much a relieve after when you finish something but every time you finish it; you are relived. It give a feeling to you that the same time and the work is not going to come again. You have done what you have been asked for. It is a good feeling after anything is completed. But everything that has been completed again comes in different ways too.

My father used to say-Son, you will realize the values of money when you will start working. Whatever I achieved till date and whatever you are wasting so easily is not easily earned. It is all hard owned and every single rupees that you are taking in negligence is a process of very hard work.

Today couple of years later, I have realized that It is not easy and whatever he has said is absolutely correct. It is not easy either you have to loose something to gain something or you have to really work hard. It can be mentally or physically. The pain will be there in your mental phase or in your physical part of body. It will again go after only you will take rest. Therefore after a long hours of doing the early morning work came back to my lonely bed which was just waiting for his master to occupy it in total joy.

As I respect the bed, I would really be thankful to it in many different ways. After sleeping for some four hours then it was the time to go back to University and do the official part of the work. It was noon then, I took a tea and started another phase of the life called University Work. A tea was really strong enough to keep me alive till the 6 pm in the evening, can you imagine that ? A guy can really survive from early morning tea to late evening tea without eating anything. I was also surprised. There is always something to do and very less time to think about eating.

Just after coming from a university work then immediately went to Shopping for the foods those were not present in the kitchen and it was to my suprise that a friend who lives next door-Arjun cooked something really delicious. A tasty south indian daal. A taste of which reminded me of "banglore". I do not know how people rate an indian food but they are really fantastic if you taste them yourself. If you listen from others then you have had no experience of saying anything on them. This guy is great in cooking. I wish he was a beautiful lady, I would have propose and married with him. I say, the same thing for whoever my room mates are previously it was Teemu and he too is brilliant in cooking.

It is by situation people learn to cook and it is by luck or fate that I met these outstanding people who helped in many different ways in my life. This is what makes the life more memorable and wonderful experience to live. Now, the time is around 8pm and I have written this whole blog about my own life today. A diary of monday 16th june 2008. Well, why should I be worried may be there is something which people can get from it too.

1. Do not waste anything just like that. Think before wasting or you will automatically learn a process of earning a money once you will work for it.
2. Do what you like to do most, do not think about anthing except it.
3. Take care of your health. (Not for me)
4. Appreciate people, things and nature around you.
5. Love eating Indian Spicy especially something cooked by local boy of that county.

Since the breath is still going on, I must keep on breathing till the time I will forget to breath. However, do cherish your life too and have a great weekend ahead. A kind of blessing for everyone who is reading it right now.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Open, close and Control

How do you feel when a weekend starts and the weekend ends ? It is totally different feeling when a start of the event. It can be anything such as giving a birth of new born babies or starting of the week on Fridays, or lets say one simple example of a friends party or just a simple get together.

Anything that starts brings joy in our life. It creates a kind of excitement and it is in total good to us, our mood or our thinking. We feel we are going to start something new, something which is going us will let us give a pleasure or adventure or excitement something which is totally new. When we think in such a manner we become very excited to ourselves. We then reach to the state called total happiness.

The closing or ending of an event has totally opposite feeling to this. We suddenly feel frustrated, disappointed and even get angry some times with ourselves. Why do it has to end ? We have only such question in our mind. Imagine a simple example of a closing of and weekend or the ending of weekend. Once we end it, then we start to feel or we start to connect it with our past experience of starting a weekend. We know that, this is new weekend but we start to compare with the past weekend beginning and the closing or ending of the weekend.

Suddenly all the pleasure or rest we have done during a weekend has to be stopped. Again we have to think that well, from tomorrow onwards I have to go to the office or start my work as per the routine. It feels as if we are doing it for some body else and not for others. Many of us get disappointed by thinking of early Monday morning and late Sunday evening. Why ? Just because we do not want to go to the office or just because we have taken a lot of rest and we want to keep on resting in peace for longer period.

A mind is the best player and a captain in any form of game of our life. It does everything as per our experiences, future expectation and events. It knows exactly when to stimulate a good and happy mood in your self. It also knows to make you depressed in most of the situations. A great artist I would recommend are those who can control their mind. It can be easily controllable. It is not difficult and it does not look easy.

A simple techniques of controlling your mind is doing exactly opposite of it directs you to do. Sometimes it becomes very difficult to differentiate between the decision taken by mind and heart. When a heart makes a decision it is one direction. It will not ask you any question. It will not put you in the dilemma and say you that "if", what if ," just because, why or something like this... When a mind makes a decision it will be judgmental it will always ask a feedback. Either from you or from your friends, neighbors, your family or some one near you.

A decision done by mind can be controlled by a simple techniques called as "Control your mind". It is a technique which require you to do something different than it suggests. For example. You have to go today and shop in the market, you know exactly when the shop is going to close that is let's say-7 p.m.. Now you have 30-minutes remaining and let's say you do not have food to eat for the evening. Now, if you decide to go then surely you will think that you will reach the shop within 15 minutes and you can easily buy the food before 7 p.m. But some how you controlled your mind and said to yourself that you are not going to buy the food because I am controlling my mind.

Now the problem you will face in the future is you will have nothing to eat + you will have to wait the next day until the shop gets open and you may feel really hungry before going to bed. How will the nature help you in this circumstances you may ask for the food from a friend just for the evening-( First )he may or may not give you. (Second) A friend of yours invites you for the dinner party. A good chance of expecting an unexpected and many other ways.

Next case you decided to follow your mind and could not go beyond your mind in such case-the best possible will be you will reach exactly in the shop within 15 minutes and go and get the food, come back home and prepare and eat. As directed by your central part-brain. Other case would be that, you are some how late for the shop and the you could not enter inside the shop. It is boring because you travelled 15mintes from your place to a shop to fetch a food but unfortunately you were not able to get it. Another case would be you were going to fetch a good but you caught an accident. It is very worst case where you were trying to go and do one thing but it happened to something different based on fate.

Controlling a mind is not as easy as it really looks but once you start controlling it you will feel lots of excitement and pleasure only because it will make you do many unexpected things and it will bring loads of pleasure in your life you can ever imagine.

MAN

Some times you are empty, you do not feel anything, you do not have great ideas to talk about but instead it is not the habit you should develop by not doing anything or the things you like to do most.

Just carry on with doing what you do most, if you feel of writing then please go forward and do it. If you feel like making love do not stop at that moment just do it. It is the very moment which is very close to you. Everything else expect that is useless. It is worth nothing. The second you are reading this or you are doing whatsoever is the best moment in your life.

It is this very second that makes you feel that you are alive besides so many people struglling to live a life. It is this moment which reminds that you can do whatever you wish, in this moment you can travel thousand distances just by imagining. Never leave this moment.

Early in the morning, waking up with the new hope of seeing something great or hearing a good political progress in the country but nothing changes in overnight. It is the same. It was well expected to me that some of my work were not going to be success and it happened just as I expected besides that also it gave some pain.

This is the life, everything if wished becomes success then who will make a pleasure of living in the pain. A relationship as said by my wife is just like a mirror. It gives the reflection and nothing more. It can tell many things but I do not know much in detail why she said it as a mirror. I think it will be better explained by her. I wish I can ask her and deliver the message but sooner I get I will write why a relationship is similar to as a mirror.

Everything we do, act or react to is just a simple gestures which speaks a lot what we are going through, A person after watching a good football game gets excited to see his personal favorite team win but at the same time other person who is supporting his team looses and he is depresed. Meaning, there is always two side of every coin. A person can be happy or sad but I think there are some person or human who can do both at the same time. You can also be happy or you can be sad. You can be happy that you supported one team and it win and you can feel for the other person who supported the team which loose. It is his lost that gave you win.

One has to win and other has to loose that is the nature of Nature itself. Two cannot win, No gain without pain. In this mother earth, It is taught well to us that nothing comes easy and you to work very hard to gain anything but do not store your gain such as money. It will make you rich but it will not necessarily bring you happiness.

A man who works hard and at the same time utilizes what his money for the right time, right work and in right situation is the MAN. One has to learn to be man- it is also a process. Every one can be regarded as Man but not every is man.

Well, I wish every one to become and set an example of being a man by doing all the goods to Nature, country and society. Cheers !!!

Friday, June 13, 2008

Stop Complaining.








Friday Supplements

Wake up early in the morning at around 2 am and just get ready to start your work. It is not easy. It is not difficult too. Once you make up your mind- you got to go for it. A guy who is working for a delivery work- paper delivery.

The deadline to submit all the papers are within 3 hours-nothing can stop you. Rain, Storm and Snow. Despite all these you got to finish your work and do it in proper manner. Imagine waking up first and then putting all your energy to doing the work. Second think of doing it. Third you got to relax for the work you did and you got to feed yourself very nicely.

People who have not done the work before will take it for granted. They can assume it as very easy task but once you do it. You know it better than anybody else. How you feel, experience and suffer with the pain of doing it. There are no alternatives despite doing it because it took 9 months to get a job.

A job in Finland which has been applied by the time I came to till date. Almost 9 months, after such a duration you get it and now you are left with your own self decision of doing to not doing. Either you struggle to survive or you die.

People who cannot see your progress are always worried about others. They will never have time to look at themselves and realize the fact that in what level of water they are dipping. A person who wants to think about himself and wants to make a dispute about others are those who you might think is close to you. He will do it for you, he will be good in front of you and at the same time he will tell thousand different things which will put you in trouble against others.

In the world with many difference it is not easy to find the similarity. It is not worth anything even if you try to find the similarity. It is just a periodic. A friend you think can be your greatest of enemy and the enemy you think can be one of a good friend. It is unknown till the known comes in your mind.

A "sorry" will not make a dead man come alive nor will "thank you" gives the pleasure of most pleasurable moments you want to see or the satisfaction you think you desire. A person either born in one land or no land is a just a person. A life is just to live and to think what else you have done for others. At the very end you will not know what has been done or will be done.

When a pain is given to you by the Nature, a pleasure will also be given. When a Nature wants you to see you happy at the same time it will also ask you to get depressed. A unexpected can bring you expected but the expected will not bring anything for joy.

A moral of life just goes something similar like that. Well, It is the Friday again, Many of people will think it is end of week but do not think it is the end of entire world. There will be many more Fridays to come just sit and watch. One could be pleasurable other could be even more pleasurable.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

[What's going on.....]

A person when lives his own life is living no life. A person who lives outside his life than lives a true life. It is not easy to get outside your life and than start living a life. One great example of the great person in world would be Che Guvera. A person who worked for the well being of society.

[A person and a girl]
A person who was involved with a girls now is not involved with any of the girl. He is a single now again. He was thinking that he was in love or was involved with a girl but suddenly one day the girl said to him that NO, she does not like her and she wants him to forget her. When she said a statement that A person should forget her than he made up his mind not to start talking with her and not to talk or meet or chat with her. As she asked him not to remember her anymore now he is trying not to remember her.

It is very difficult to understand these girls. A girl is always a girl she will never be with you but at the same time she will be with you. She will tell you a good and fantastic stories about her life at the same time she will not know what she is talking about.

[Back in Country]
A Nepali media couple of days ago said that the king has sold his crown in London. Yesterday, King asked for the press conference and declared in the statement that he has given the crown to the Nepal Government. What a crap a media is doing ? Every body and every media needs publicity. A publicity and mysterious news which will attract the attention of people.


"Any fool can know. The point is to understand". The quote said by Einstein. A quote which has a simple meaning of understanding the things. There are many people in the world who will say that I know this, I know that. but knowing does not make you smart neither does it make you great. Every body knows something. Only thing then difficult becomes is that to understand what you know. Suppose I know the computer. My dead grandmother would also know if I tell her that this system is called as a Computer. But does it make any sense, I think it does not to any of the extent. Knowing and understanding are two different things and knowing does not take any time. If I saw something than I will say yes I know that thing or place or city but making it understand will ask me of more time. It will consume more of the time from me. It will certainly ask from you a greater depth or search, information and findings.

It took some days for Newton to understand why the apple falls or why is it not going up instead it is coming down. Today who will try to understand such event. Who will try to learn from the nature. There are very less people who will have time to find anything from the around the world. It is not easy. A person if he does- people will just make a funny statement or laugh at him or her or he might think himself of being watched.

Well, the point itself will not be justified even though I write thousand statements on the quote. Therefore, Everything is based on our mind. We go, we see, we eat and we do any sort of activity is based on our thinking. The thinking is result of our experiences. The experience comes from the past habit and current action. The current action determines the result and the result is again kept into a storage bank or in our memory. The memory remembers the event happened. The event happened after some period of times become experience.

The above paragraph could be explained with a clear simple diagram. If you draw it, it will be easily understood then. However, in simple statement- Just live a normal life and always keep your dreams or your most important goal in your mind in the top most priority. One day that goal will turn into reality only because you are attracting the smaller smaller events related to your goal from the Nature and from the environment you exit.


Welcome close to nature ...

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Women Vagina

A good news for those women now who wants to go back to the virginity again. Reading the article posted in New York times, I laughed many more times than the words in the article.(http://www.nytimes.com/2008/06/11/world/europe/11virgin.html?th&emc=th). It describes about the Muslim women can go back to the virginity again by simple operation in the private clinic and many more cool launches has been done for the sake of it. It is now affordable in a cheap price.

Some times it makes me laugh and some times the same topic makes me feel as it this is not good. Once you loose your virginity what is the use of doing all drama and going back to do the operations for the sake of nothing. It means that you want to live a life with your new partner with a sense of insecurity. What if one day the person finds out the truth and knows that you already had loosen your virginity by sleeping with some body else.

It is very difficult topic how we see the sex and women in many different places of the world. In europe, it does not matter a girl can sleep with those she wants to and the next day she can go and sleep with some body else. Despite the fact that a women has a son or daughter it is not the problem of another men accepting her as a wife. In contrary, in Muslim or most of the Asian world this fact is not accepted as it is seen here in Europe.

Most of the men from those part of the world will not tolerate is a women sleeps with other men or have loosen virginity just like that. It is important to keep the virginity in tact for many women. Some times I feel myself being a women and I try to feel the pain. Men will always feel relaxing or they get total joy in the pain but how about the women. Do they really feel the joy in the pain. May be to some extent but what if the extent is not extended ? What if the pain in not bounded to certain limit ?

Why do a women have to remain her virginity ? May be the question will not try to find the clear solutions but the answer to the question will also not give the proper valuable solution only because Men like to feel the pleasure through pain. I have seen very few who does not see pleasure through pain but many men does.

In europe, a women is respected in all aspects. She has the rights to decide with whom to stay and with whom to divorce. A men just follows what she think is right. A women has equally power on decision making whereas in Asia or Muslim world Men are the leaders and power is not equally divided among women. Most of the women are working in home as a house wifes or doing some minor jobs but most of the time the breadwinner is Men and he is the decision making body.

Well, Virgin or no virgin does not matter as long as a true love between both the species exits. It does not matter a vagina used by one penis or more than one as long as you know those are physical part of the body which exits in every human beings living in this planet. The most important things then comes to are we going to accept it in our lives ? Possibly not or is almost impossible to many of us.

Wake up, escape from ...

A early morning cool bridge blowing just to make sure that you feel lazy lying in the bed and do not want to wake up to start the day. However, as you are determined to start and see the day through-you put all your energy to wake up. Some people find it very difficult to wake up and some people wake up just naturally. I have seen many around me wake up with the help of machine that is an alarm clock.

Without an alarm clock many find it difficult to wake up. Why ? Why are you waking up with the help of alarm clock and not my yourself ? What is the reason ? The most simple answer is- difficulty to wake up. Some times it is not good for health once you make yourself routinized like a machine that you are going to wake up at this particular time. The simple techniques to wake up is to relax when you sleep. The relaxing does not mean anything-in sleeping mode also you can go for the meditation. This kind of meditation is called unconscious level meditation. You just have to think nothing.

The brain will try to think many thousand different things but do not let your brain go anywhere. Try to focus and sleep. Once you sleep and you do know know you are living or breathing then the state will start. Before going to bed try to remember the last important things that is to wake up early. Just ask your mind that, I have to get up at this time in the morning and then try to go bed without putting alarm clock on. The habit once formed is very difficult to change but once you start slowly changing it, you will find it much more easy to change.


Girls are always girls to me. They will show every bit of them to tell you the fact that they care, but once you are fed up with the carefulness of them-you will then try to ignore them. There are thousand different ways to ignore the girls you are involved with. You can just simply do not receive the calls or just try not to send any text or just ignore her completely. One of my friend was going through the same phase and I asked him not to worry. "As long as you have legs, you will get the shoes of your size". No wonder we are different not only physically but mentally.

The overall complexity of their physical and mental body part allows them to think in different ways-do this, do that, go for this, go for that, make this, make that, do not do this, do not do that... all these then to men may seem like an rules. One thing is sure for the men is that, men do not like to be in the rules and do not ever want to follow the rules. Most of them hate the rules.

A sense of security is good to some extent but once it cross the level than that starts becoming like a burden. Many of the men do not want to be in room playing hide and seek with their mates. They just want to explore the world, want to go outside and see what's going through. When such kind of freedom is taken away or when men start to feel that such things are going away from them, they start behaving in different manner.

Two different entity cannot be same but they could be same for some period of time. There are also an example of two entity living for the entire period of life. In such cases, it is because they are really determined to take any sort of excuses, promises, any pain together. Such kind of relationship last than one life. It is for the infinity. It last more than ever and ever. Such relationship are very difficult to be made or just difficult to find. It is not only about the commitment but also about the promises. It is not only about the living a life but about living a life by sharing pain and sorrow or happiness and sadness together.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Things and Desire

Some times in the process of living a life we just follow what others say or ask us to do. When there are crucial moments to make a decision we do not let it go, we just listen to others rather than ourselves. When we listen to others or one could say-a mind is also the other being which is separate from a self.

A mind makes decision based on the previous and future experiences, it makes decision thinking and taking care the precaution in mind. It is worried more about the consequences than the result. It is worried more often than not by going through the path of total unknown. It is always worried. But when you make a decision by your heart-it is not worried than. It does not care where you are going or about any result or any circumstances or whatsoever.

An enlighten being is one who listens to his mind but also controls his mind. Gautam Buddha is one example, he made a tradition of controlling a persons mind and many followers started to follow him. However, any one who follows the path of Gautam Buddha could only hope to achieve the state that he achieved. Buddha described about Karma, he also made an statement on how to control mind, body and soul. During those times, people those who had knowledge in Northern India were Brahmins the top or superior caste and the knowledge was passed to only those who were Brahmins or descendent of Brahmins and to others no knowledge was passed. They were treated as the most educated of all.

Buddha changed it all, he followed his own route and discovered that any one can become or control the mind and reach the phase that is described as Nirvana. It is not so easy but it is not as difficult too. Only thing you need to do is-first give up your habits of smoking, drinking, or any such habit which you have. Second, forget about Maya(love) or I would say-Physical love.
Once you forget a physical love you are in some stages as described by the Buddhism. How many of us can leave our girl friends or our wife and leave a lonely life ?

Not only being lonely but also not committing sex for some resonable period in life. How many of us can control our little things that is hanging in our middle part of the body ? This is the process of filtration, many of us cannot and those who can cannot hang in there for longer period.

Everything is within us, we can make them work according to us. If only you remove "desire" you will remove greed, dissatisfaction, sadness, horror, disgust, anger, pain and many more such elements. The greatest virtue of living a life is removing the "desire". It is not easy. Many of us live a life just to get to one point in life. This one point would be getting a good job, a stable life, a good bungalow or a good car but these all are material possession. We are not going to take them with us when we would be taken in the graveyard on our death ceremony or we are not goin to taken them with us when we are burned during our death.

Things and desire would never give you the real peace in your heart, never. It will never make you reach the final stage of where every monks desire of reaching-"Nirvana". A complete peace. It will only give you the problems. All these problems in our life are with the things and desires. Once you can remove them from your mind-you will reach a phase where you will be alone-no one will be with you. Most of the people follow those who have somethings or some desire and talk about them most of the time but once you leave these you will fall in the category of some other human being. In those category, you will not be heard by these people, you will transform yourself into a man of wise. A process of reaching to wisedom is the process of removing from your mind "things and desires".

Just try for a day-Early in the morning when you wake up-Start your day by looking to the beautiful Trees, flowers and the sky. See the climate-ask a question with the climate and Nature that are you angry today ? Are you going to give me pleasure with hot and sunny warmness or are you going to give me cool bridge ? you will get an answer. Once you will get an answer just start your day as a normal day. But remember not to go for the early morning sex with your wife or girl friend. Just completly ignore her. Do not go for controlling your desire just forget about your desire. Then do your all the activities that you do in your regular work but do not think in the entire day by looking the things around you-to get them.

Do not think that-This thing is so nice, I wish I could buy them or take them or I wish I will have them. No, No and No.
One of your greatest enemy is your desire. So, Now you have removed the desire of having, getting, earning, or gaining any thing. You have a reached a process of peace, a complete peace. Now your mind will ask you a thousand of questions- Hey Mr.XYZ, I want this, I want that-The boobs of that girl is so big, the thighs are so nice. I want to have sex with her or I wish I had a car like that.

These question are the problems, and you will reach the process once you will realize that your mind has not asked these questions at all. You mind says to you that, Oh ! that thing is good but it looks good where it is. I do not want it. I know it looks beautiful but the beauty is there where it lies.

Just try it once you will feel the total peace and harmony. Have a great day and enjoy the life.

Monday, June 9, 2008

Morning shows the day

Morning shows the day, Today morning with the black dark clouds in the sky seems that it has some effect on my own personal mood. It really feels as if I am going through bad mood. If I am going through a bad mood that means I am not feeling good. When I am not feeling good, it is my personal self feeling that I need to control. It is not as easy to control the feeling as it looks.

A day when I need something, I want something to happen based on my thinking but It does not work like that. It feels as if I am not happy or it feels as if I am really depressed or going through sad moments. A friend of mine-she said, just try to ask yourself what is that making you unhappy ? There most be something which you are dissatisfied with. I asked with myself and I know I am not happy with something. I know the answer. I also know the cause and the precaution for it.

My heart does not get satisfied with the feelings such as this. It always ask me something, It is very demanding. The mind do not want to think when heart is taking the lead. When heart is not taking the lead-most of the times then mind thinks and when mind thinks then it makes a good decision many of the times.

My life is just like a big unsolvable mystery, a statement of puzzle that I do not know how to solve. It has both the happiness and sadness involved in it. You can get either both or one at any time. Even if I am not solving them I will get these moments in the course of life.

Today I asked one angel to marry me. I just simply asked her to marry with her-and I was not surprise to hear the answer directly from her NO. She said that she do not have such feelings for me. What would I do in such case ? She said, "It is not possible". I hated the word that she said. I asked her what makes her think that it will not be possible. I was trying to know her feeling not whether if we will meet or if the marriage will be possible or not. She just said no. But I think she has the feeling for me. I know it. I know that she do not want to tell the truth just because she is afraid of saying it the reality. She is thinking ahead of her heart. I know that she made the decision from her mind not from her heart.

The decision made by heart will never lie and it will not think about anything else. It will not think about the consequences. It will not say, if that is right or wrong. It will not say about the possibility. Either you like a person and you say-yes or you just say no. When a women says NO and then she says it is not possible then that means she is in two minds. The decision she made is from her mind and not from her heart.

She knows it that if she will say-yes, how will it be possible to be in touch ? How can a person from one place who lives North in the geographical map can come down to the South in the earth map.?

May be she do not really have the feelings for me but I do not care. I know that she has the feelings. May be sooner or later she will say- Yes. Let me see. Hoping that she will say yes. One moment I felt as if she really said yes. I thought wow.. is it a joke ? then again, I asked her but she said NO.

It is not easy to ask a girl that you want to marry when you are not sure of your own life. It is very difficult. But the person who does something do not think and the person who thinks will never do.

The feeling for now is so much that I will be ready to accept any challenge. I know she will sooner or later surprise me. I know it from my heart. She also knows it. She is not willing to say it now but one day she will say. I know the day will come. The feelings she has for me, will force her to make a decision from heart not from the mind.

A test of mind decision is already done in her. I thought of putting this as a serious decision making process in the women and test it. I know the first decision done by women in case of emotional pressure is done through mind. I can be sure that any women in earth makes the decision through mind not from the heart, especially the first decision. If she will think, is she takes some time and start thinkings from the heart and will make the positive decision then she is thinking from her heart. If no, then I can conclude that No women in earth can make the decision properly. The poor in decision making.

I do not know. I am worried about my life. I think I will no longer be alive till she will say, yes. Or may be I will never hear from her. I do not know. May be she cares a lot about me but she says she do not have any feelings. May be she do not to marry me but she is worried more than I am when I am sick. I do not know.

As always, many of the Monday sucks for me as it was sucking me from deep inside. As the day goes by, my minds starts to settle and I feel more better. Hopefully the next day is the best day and I like the day which is Tuesday. Hopefully the darkness will go soon and it will soon be beginning to new day for me.

Sunday, June 8, 2008

Best burp in 9 months

I always believe in the unexpected event happening to the people in the life. When something is going to happen, it is the blessing in some people that they come to know already that the what is going to happen next in their life. A prediction is based not only on the past experiences but also with some divine force running in a person that divine force is ability to speak truth, and trustfulness with the nature or environment.

After coming from a nice walk with the Teemu near the Saimaa beach, a small beach surrounded with nice beautiful sandy volleyball court together with green grass, shiny sun and hot ladies all around in bikinis. Unfortunately I could not see the many hot beautiful ladies as described by my friend may be that was just because of unpredictable climate in Finland. It is said that, "Do not trust Finnish Weather nor do trust Finnish Women" Very Unpredictable. I do not know if this statement is hurtful but it is not based on my personal experience but on the people's saying around me.

Well, then just coming from a nice and good beach near Saimaa was a good overwhelming experience. The place is exotic, once you feel lonely or get depressed buy some drinks and go down out there. You will learn a lot from the silence of the lakes and also from the cool bridge that touches these lakes which make a wave so stylish to look.

There are many more lessons to learn from the Saimaa beach, a country of thousand lakes will teach you a lot from the lakes. It will not only tell you about life, love or beauty if you go deep into your own thoughts and together with the company of lakes. Now after a pleasurable journey of beach it was the time to come back in the room again.

I was wearing a jeans pant and a T-shirt. Many of the times whenever I come back from the any journey I just take them out and wear a normal dress like Underpants and T-shirt or I would say-change them immediately but here I do not know what struck in my head I was not changing the clothes.

It was amazing to myself and to my self. I was not feeling as if I should change my clothes. I was wearing the Jeans and sleeping now in the bed. In the bed I was trying to search some movies. To my dismay, I found out one sweet movies-"Graduation". I thought well, why not to just see the movie for a good refreshment. I started watching a movie. I was about to finish the movies then a phone rang in a friends mobile. He asked me that we should go and visit Bal Krishna another friend who lives couple of kilometers from my room to have a dinner together or kind of get together dinner party.

I smiled and I usually do when people around me may thing in their own way about my smile. I smile not because he called me but because of my predictive nature of not changing the clothes. I smile that I made the right decision some 3 hours ago before the phone rang. I was smiling and thinking miracles happen. You just have to know how to make them happen.

Now, we went for a dinner party. It was good to see all of the Nepali friends together in a single room. I like the idea of inviting and get together. We were now together in Bal Krishna's room sitting, chatting and it was now the time to start having the dinner. A surprise again, they cooked a fish especially very costly but a kind of famous in Saimaa. Now it was the time to taste a fish cooked by friend so we started our dinner.

A debate came into rise between those who do not eat fish and those who eat fish. A small talk was about the which one is better ? A vegetable or a fish ? A fish guys said, " A fish is better than a vegetable". A vegetable guys said,"A vegetable is better than a fish". Now if we assume this as a problem how could some one say- which one is better ?

Can we based our result on the basis of learning, experience or just based on our feelings ? It would be better to judge a result based on experience- despite I was among the person who was eating fish I did not make any statement during those period. A person cannot say-this thing is good or bad until and unless he himself have tried it. A person also should not just say- this thing is good or bad just because he wants to show to others it is really good or bad.

If you are confused, do not worry here is what I mean-

The things are always things. A food is always food and it does not speak on its own. It will never say to us that I am good or I am bad. It is not the food which we eat that is good or bad. It is our taste. It is personal taste. The taste could be good or bad based on our personal experience. Therefore, those who have experienced the vegetable could say-Vegetable cooked today is the best I have ever ate and those who have experienced before the fish could say-Fish cooked today is the best I have ever ate.

One thing is for sure I do not know who is right or wrong, just because there are no hard feelings to any of the parties involved. My own personal experience suggests that I have tasted both of them and both the tastes were fascinating, delicious and mind blowing. It was just after I finished I had best burp which gave a good smell of fish that reminded me that Fish was better cooked and I had eaten it long after 9 months also for the first time here in Finland. Thank you for the guys for the invitation.!

Saturday, June 7, 2008

Beating the heat

Yesterday, I had lot of work to do, I was about to move for the work-suddenly I felt the serious heat in my body. When a body was not able to adapt to such a climate I changed my mind. Today we are facing heat stress that may cause illness and it is recommended by Doctors and Researchers that main source of UV radiation, which can cause eye damage, premature skin disorders and sometimes skin cancers. Some of the operations which radiate heat sources should not be kept in direct physical contact with hot objects.

According to Gaffin, a researcher for NASA earth observation- he believes that In developing countries, people often migrate to cities because of crop failures, natural disaster, or armed conflicts and not because cities have robust economies capable of supporting more number of people. He further explains that in coming decades, city dwellers would desperately be poor with less access to air conditioning, refrigerator or proper medical care. He also accepts that scientific community’s findings of earth are heating up, pushed in part by human activity. He suspects, “I think mitigating global warming is important,” he says, “but even with mitigation, all these people living in cities are going to experience some warming.” Based on research he conducted for the U.S. Global Change Research Program, he expects a warmer climate to worsen heat waves. “Right now, we average about 14 days each summer above 90 degrees [in New York].

In a couple decades, we could be experiencing 30 days or more,” he says. According to CBS news service and from Dr. Emily Senay she explains that prolonged expose to heat and insufficient body fluid can result in heat exhaustion. The main symptoms are heavy sweating, paleness, muscle cramps, tiredness, dizziness, headache and sometimes nausea or vomiting too. If you think someone might be suffering from heat stroke, visit the nearest doctor as soon as possible.

Most importantly stay calm or just try to maintain exposure. Get them to the shade or an air conditioned area or near the cool place. Spray them with cold water, or immerse them in a tub of cold water. To avoid heat-related illness, drink plenty of nonalcoholic fluids, pace yourself when working outdoors, replace salts and minerals, wear lightweight clothing, seek air conditioning, and take cold showers.

In conclusion, if you feel heat the best economical option I would suggest is- take an umbrella with you, drink a lot of water or juice or some fruitful drink and try to relax your mind. A psychological way of dealing would be-a simple mental exercise of saying-“Today it is not hot!” Will also make you feel comfortable- it helped me today.

Friday, June 6, 2008

kalmagnatism

A good day,A good hope and a good way to start writing what you feel about things in general. A start is all that is needed. A ray of hope will only give you the best of the results in life. A good way of becoming one among all of us.

Our mind is just like a magnet said once a friend. A magnet which will attract those things that we like most. A magnet which will need something and will be attracted to get it in one way or another. A magnet which will pull the things you like most towards you.

It is just a simple desire of magnet. For e.g. Suppose you like a horse. A animal which is very beautiful and you just want to ride it and you really need it. Now, to get the horse you will be attracted towards it.

The first phase of work starts with the attraction. It will give you the setup environment where your mind will now be focussed to get what you desire. It will be in full concentration. Slowly you will do the things that will give you the horse. Let us say, you do not have enough money to buy the horse then first you will start earning money-then slowly you will collect every penny with you.

Later some day you will get the horse you desire. The process is called "kalmagnatism". A name give by me for the working of brain as a magnet. Believe it or not later some one will find it or some people will discover the phenomenon but today on this date- I am the first to give it a name for this process.

Our body is full of magnet. It attracts and it distracts all those particles which are in need or in no need. Why do we like this or that food, this or that clothes, this or that things... It is just because we attract the things we desire and we repel the things we do not desire or the things which we like is attracted toward us and the things we do not like are repelled towards from us.

The same things holds true in many form of life. Mybheja is all about understanding a process of mind. A single mind of human can do many such events. Right now I am writing the blog but at the same time my mind is in United states of America talking with the future president of America- Barack Obama on the big issue of how immigrants problem could be solved.

There are millions of neurons which work to lighten up the even of consciousness. It is total awakening. It is called as waking up process. A process where a person wakes up and then does the activity.

Friday- is for many of us a good day just because we feel glad that we do not have go to office tomorrow or we feel happy to get relax or feel glad to make weekend plan. But if we think that we have to work in weekeds too then the feeling will be automatically changed and we will feel boring. the process is there already in our mind. A rule is set up which will tell us when it is good and when it is bad.

Imagine a situation where you have enough money and you do not have to go and work. Many of us will like to be in such situation but such situation will also become boring after some period of time just because we will feel bore of spending money and doing nothing.

All the activity that is repeated most of the times becomes boring. But remember that these activity repeated can be done in many different ways to make it interesting. It is called loving the things you do not like most. A feeling which needs to be changed when it does not want to change. A process when a person do not want to go for work but he will love to go and do it to the best of this abilities.

It can be achieved very easily by doing the same things all the time but in different way. A different way does not mean, you do your work differently but it means that you make your work your friend.

Have a great weekend !

Thursday, June 5, 2008

She

A desire of Women is just like a pain. A pain which is not easily healed. Despite he fact that she wants something it cannot be fulfilled until and unless she gets really satisfied.

She is satisfied when she fulfills her personal desire. A desire then leads to "want" or "need", She is feeling the pain most of the time in her heart. The pain is not the physical but it is similar to thinking a thought. A pain in the thought-which desires a person to fulfill it. It is hurtful to many of the times but at the same time it is not hurtful.

It exits and if you will ask them then they will not say-they really are feeling it. A feeling is generated in some corner of heart. A feeling and emotions are different. An emotions could be controlled. A feeling is difficult to control. It is not easily controllable.

Feeling leads to desire, she is there somehwhere she remembers you, she thinks every day and night about you. She needs you to be with you. She most of the time thinks about you. She wishes you to be with you. She is the one who really cares about you. Despite she might have a desire which could not be fulfilled without you, she promises that she will keep her desires with her. She promises that she will show up her desire only when you will be with her.

She is there all the time waiting for you. She knows when you are exactly feeling depressed or when you are feeling good. She knows that you do the same as she has been doing for you. A man on other hand will misinterpret the messege. He will feel the "desire" as the "sex". He will most of the time think only sex on his mind.

A man's mind is just like a dog. He wants to fulfill the desire by doing it. He knows only one mantra and that mantra is to fulfill the desire by realsing the sperm. Either it is in women or anywhere else.

Many men will not agree with me, as I would not also. It is same like saying that- I stole something but I would not accept it. She is the one who is there and she will take care of you but do not forget to understand her better. It would not be difficult to understand if you desire to do so. To understand a women is very difficult and it would be impossible as long as we will thik the word "difficult" is really difficult.

To some people "difficult" is very simple and the simple many of the times seems difficult. A beauty of early morning sun falling in the lake saimaa with resilent flower blossoms. A women desire remains unfulfilled just because the sun has not shine on her.

A sun shines in her when a man she feels will fulfill her desire will be with her most of the times, when she needs it and when she thinks about him. Till then a black cloud is not making her seen. A cloud which does not make a person visible-how can her desire be visible ? Forget about the other people, a husband or a lover will also not find it easily or see her desire.

To fulfill a womens desire does not mean you only satisfy only the physical needs. It is more than that. It requires your part of commitment. It requires dedication. It requires more out of you. It is not her desire you are fulfilling, you are satisfying yours most of the times.

It is upto you to decide, want to be or do not want to be, Feeling to live with her or feeling to live without her. Behind every person they say there is no one. But Behind every successful Man there is women. A women who will understand her man, she will take him far far away from others and she will give her man support, care, and most importantly satisfaction in physical, personal and emotional level.

Womens knows the path or destination you are travelling. She knows exactly where you will end up or where you will reach. A man knows nothing about the destination but he will try his best. A women will take her man to the destination he was willing to visit. Try to understand your women in your life. Try to learn from her. It is easy. Do not ask her or do not let her know that you are trying to learn from her but just ask her if you do not understand any minor of the details. She will surely let you know. If you are not involved with any women then do not worry-every dog has its day. It will come sooner or later. Do not hurry up but just do not slow down too. Move in your rythm, in your pace and by enjoying the music in your life.

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

where are you ?

Why are you gone from my life ? Where are you now ? I am searching you from here and there. I am googling you thousand times but even the Google cannot give any information about you. Where are you dear ?

Remember we had made some promises, we had laugh, smiled and cried together. I am searching you everywhere but I could not find you anywhere. I know the fault was in me, I did something wrong and It was my big mistake but it do not deserve such a punishment. I do not deserve such kind of punishment. Now you have your address changed, your number changed and may be you have been changed.

If the change can bring good things in you, and you blossom like a early morning flower shining in the garden then please go ahead. I do not want to interrupt you. I will never interrupt you anymore. There is no contact with you. I wanted to call you and say hello, how are you doing ? But I could not do it anymore.

By the time I was writing the blog, I tried your number, your mobile number. I knew it long before. I can feel proudy on my memory just because I remember many of the things that are attached to me somewhere or another.

I could not belive that your phone was ringing. To my utmost suprise I went to the kitchen and then I tried to call you but some other person picked up the phone and he was saying something that I could not understand at all.
I do not know where are you, are you lost in some one else's dream or all your dreams have become of some body else dreams. What has happened to you ? What is goin on with you ?

I want to know about it, could you please let me know. I just want to hear from you. I want to hear your words. I want to hear that you are no longer my friend. I want to know that we will not be together anymore. I just want to know why are you going away from me ?

Is it my fault or is it my mistake ? Have I done anything wrong to you. Why are you going far away from me please do not go. I wan to touch you, see you and feel that you will be there just to smile or just to say hello. I do not want anything from you. I already have some angels looking after me. These angels are taking a good care of me and they will take good care of me all the time.

I am worried about my friend, a friend for which I wanted to give everything I had. A friend for whom I would have sacrified all my life. A friend for whom life would have been very easily lesser than the life is now. A long journey of life would have been very short just for you.

Where are you dear ?

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Predict the future.

A good thing is that there is no bad thing. A bad thing is that there is nothing called bad. When I say this person, this things, or this environment is bad what does that mean to me or to some one else ?

To me, it means that that thing should be far from me or that I do not want to use it. or It could also mean that that things I do not like. To others when I say, this thing is bad does not matter just because that is your point of view or opinion. If the other person close to you is your husband or wife she will support you and try to avoid the thing you do not like or is bad or is not good enough.

Mos of the times most of the things are based on our percetion or our way of seeing or looking at the things. When I say, chicken is bad then chicken is not bad it is my mood that ask me to tell that it is not good. I do not want it. I have never tried it or I do not want it anymore. or this chicken has some scar or is expired and out of date.

All these are thoughts that are generated in our mind by the feeling, experience and by our own personal taste. How can a person who have never tasted a chicken make a statement that it is not good. It is similar to relationship, Imagine a couple who never had sexual mating and now when he says that, She was not good in the bed. How will you interpret the messege. How can a person without a taste will ever say thing is tasteful or not. ?

Without a experience nothing will give you the perfect answer to the event or things. When you do it by yourself, it would never be difficult for you to do the same again. When you do not do it by yourself and make a statement then it is difficult then to understand you and believe in you. The same thing holds true in many of the cases in life too.

One can also develop a practical way of learning or predicting the things but it needs constant motivation on the things you are doing. When you do not know what you are doing or what has been done before in some event or during the course of event then how can you think of predicting the things for future.

It would be nice if some one could predict the things and all the prediction comes absoulutely true. He will be granted a term of magician or God. A person who guess and makes it real in many situation.

To detect if a person is really predicting the things you got to accept the fact that some one can really do it. It is possible. All the things that people do not expect or think that is not possible is soon becoming possible. We are getting close to each other in many ways. Despite the problems in govermental effort or some other drewbacks it is really becoming possible.

One example would be of outsourcing, people doing the business sitting in one geographical areas of the person of another area. All these are possible now which were dream in later days.

Imagine one day you will have a system where when you think about something, it will be there in your house. It will be possible if we really think in such a way. One example would be development of intelligent refrigerator system where refrigerator would ask the food missing from shopping market and it will deduct the bills from your credit card. When you come home from the work, you will see the foods are there in your doorstep. Just pick them up and put in the refrigerator.

An intelligent system should act on its own. We can really develop such system which can easily predict or think on its own but first we got to accept the fact and reality behind such event. The fact is that there are human tendency to commit error, there are human tendency to do mistakes and one can overcome it by just learning and learning more.

Monday, June 2, 2008

Something to think

Life and wife are two different words but they are so simple to make, replace "l" and "W". L has a great meaning in the world, it means-life, love, laugh,longevity,length,lust and many more such words. All these words have meaning attached to it.

The meanings says that what the word means. The meaning of let us say word life can vary from person to person. It can vary from a person with different culture, background, personal interest and such factors are the in effect to make them different.

The difference in these words makes us one clear understanding of the phenomenon that we have different taste. We like to taste differently in our life. Now The change in environment is seen. I am in the new place, new room and new people to meet, share, talk, discuss and think together.

The old still remains and it will remain always there. It is not the place that moves, it is the people who move from one place to another in search of better future, better life and better everything. Reaching near to university is good in the sense that I can wake up late and go to university late. It also gives me less time to travel. It is easier in many more ways.

It can be difficult in the sense that friends are now far, but the distance does not matter as long as relationship matters. It is just an effort that will take you to the place you want. Not the excuse.


Two beautiful women, two different ways of thinking but if I explain my situation to both of them they feel the same. They both do not want to talk about it and they are really very upset when I describe that I may not live longer. Am I doing emotional blackmail or Am I explaining my situation to them.? Am I really thinking of my longer period of life or Am I afraid of death ?

None of these can I answer because these are the thoughts that have been generated in my mind. These thoughts explain me that I do not know. I do not know if I am right or wrong or If I have said something good or bad.

A women is needed to care you, guide you and love you entire life. You cannot move alone in the race of life if there is no support of women. It is difficult and almost impossible. Sigmund fraud said that he has developed the model of finding the unhappiness and this model will help human to recover from unhappiness. I believe a person who could not understand about the women cannot make such model easily. It is not useful and it is fake.

His model is wrong and I can prove it is not worth full in both the species. It cannot be true to both male and female. Even if the model he claims would not be useful in one way or another.

I am not commenting on any body's great ideologies but I want to tell you the fact that there is not happiness state. It is temporary and it comes and goes. It cannot be achieved or it can be created or destroyed. It is just a phase a process and it is generated by those cells in bodies which are very lazy. Which does not want to act upon the stimuli. It acts only when it feels it has to wake up and get some entertainment.

Welcome to new changing world of new dynamics and something that could be explored by understanding you, me and every one around us.