Press Release: Happening: Poems by Santosh Kalwar published by Gita Press

Dear all, It is my great pleasure to announce that, book with collection of some random poems. Please do not hesitate to download and read. The first book in 2010.

                                         Figure: The cover page for the book.

Happening: Poems by Santosh Kalwar published by Gita Press.

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Thank you ! and God bless you all !

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Some weired thoughts....

Simplicity has no complexity. More complex we become the more difficult and higher the impact in on everything surrounding our lives. Let me give you an example of what the above statement means. For e.g. In early civilization of human species, we were uneducated, underdeveloped, technology-less, uncivilized and without any society or any great leaders. I am talking about long before the Bible evolved or time evolved. Or any scripture ever written evolved. We were just a group of people or cavemens and cavewomens, living a very happy and simple life. Slowly, our needs became higher and we started to become more selfish. We then selected our leaders among our society. The leader got praised and he worked for our well-beings. Later, we created “values for exchange” which is today called “money”. Slowly and steadly, we evolved into a society where we created religions, laws, rules and many things which resulted into many sins. The human evolution has many stories written on this kind of evolution. Many of the stories are still hidden and unknown to public knowledge. Simply because, if everything the public will know now, they will like to live forever. There are mysteries for many stupid question for which we do not know the answers. For example, why do we exist and many more…these mysteries are kept hidden because once we will discover them we will not want to enter inside the “system of earth”. The system of earth is the entrance to suffering, pain and sorrow as well as happiness, pleasure and delight. The system of earth works on duality. The duality in a sense, where there is something right, there will be wrong and vice versa. There are two major reproductive body either in animal or human beings such as male or female and few related exceptions. The truth that when we are born, we have to die is absolutely true and no one can deny it. But just try to deny it for some period of time and then you will see that your death is coming very near you. It is because, once you are denying that you want to live, then you will start to loose living. The point is, the more you expect something out of life, the lesser you will get and the less you will expect something to happen to you, the more you will get. This last hypothesis work perfectly fine. Just try it and you will see the results for yourselves. I am not claiming anything here but I am just trying to tell you the fact that, never expect anything from life and the most important thing in human life is being satisfied without criticizing any body or anyone. Just be satisfied with what you have and what you will get. Be it your partner, or your job or your bank account or anything else. Once you will be satisfied with what you have, you are ought to receive more from the universal forces. But once you are not satisfied with what you get, you will climb the ladders and may get hall of fame but you will not be feeling inner peace or find so called taboo term happiness. Happiness is not the result from your material world, happiness comes from the inner peace of you.

Even after you death, you will still exist in the universe in forms of some object. You still have life in different forms and format but nobody who will be living around you will recognize you, the most funniest part, you will know that you existed in some way or another but you will have different form. Let us say, for example, your soul goes into a soul of sparrow. What happens then, you will have your soul inside a sparrow but nobody around you will give a damn attention to you. You still will exist but nobody will care about you so much….this is how the cycle of human life works….don’t worry about what is going to happen in your life….just be satisfied with what you have in your hands and the day will come to you,,, the day which will take you from “system of earth”. I know this is little difficult to understand but it will be easy if you will try to understand yourself much more better way…..how many times a day you watch yourself in a mirror, just watch it everyday….and see deeper inside your soul you will get all these answers written…..be happy….

Who is God?

God is not HE or SHE or IT.
God is God.
A Mysterious body existing in every human unknowingly.
A good side of every creature on this planet.
Feminine side or Masculine side is just our conceptions
The fact is, no Tom, Dick and Harry knows about HIM/HER/IT
A cosmic energy which revolves beyond our imagination.
God is our discovery of unknown
God does not only live in duality (0 or 1, male or female or…)
He possibly lives in singularity (Seeing everything as good)
There is no good side or bad side of god
He is us and we are him
He live in each of our voice and he speak the language of love
Ask a child who will smile at you without any reason
talk with priest he will give thousand stupid lessons
The fact is there is no side of GOD
there is only one side of HIM/HER/IT
that side is called “LOVE”

God bless you all !

Quote of the day

-life is short speak your mind.

-Every thing has limit for example, Universe, Nature, Man, Creatures and even Computers. You never know when they will be gone !

-It does not have to be fear which will make us shear or share,
It does not have to be short or long, all what we will have will long gone.

-Take away my golden jewelery, take away my beautiful castle,
Take away all my money, you can also empty my banks
But please don’t take away my books, My breath are hanging in them for millions of poor souls, Frank!

-You always came alone and you will always go alone. It is natural phenomenon, all these years are just a beautiful ride, Enjoy your every day as it will never come along.

What is in your hand?

What is in your hand?
A poor boy watched his hand and said,
"Nothing, it seems to be empty"
See it again
"Well, nothing"
Use your rubber brain
"Hmm..."
OKay, you can see there is nothing in your hand but think
what can you do with your hand?
I can write, I can paint, I can create
Good, that is what is in your hand
Then, Just do it.
Rest is imagination !

To do

I am going
Where?
To do
What?
Struggle
Why?
Survive
Till when?
Today
Why only today?
I wished for it
So?
Now is the time
For what?
To do

Worries and Trouble

Worries, worries and worries,
Trouble, trouble and trouble
She won’t understand, my trouble,
She won’t care, my worries,
Worries and trouble,
They won’t ever go,
The day I was born,
Till the day I will breath,
They won’t ever go
Worries and troubles

Nothing lasts forever,
Love is what binds us forever,
But trouble touches us,
A worry makes us insecure,
Trouble and worries,
They won’t ever go
Till the very end
They won’t ever go
Till the very end
Worries, worries and worries,
Trouble, trouble and trouble

I know

I know you are having problems,
I know you are alone,
I know you feel sad,
I know that you are in love,
I know many of the things,
That you don’t know,

I know,
I know that sometimes love doesn’t last forever,
I know that sometimes life is more miserable,
I know that you are in love with some old man,
I know,

But I also know,
That you like me,
I also know that you need me,
I know that, life will be just fine, fine, fine,
Someday, One beautiful day,
I know, when I see into your eyes,
I see a sweet little girl,
Smiling, perfect with utmost beauty and trust,
I know
I know those trusts for someone is not alone,
In those trust lays togetherness,
In those imagination lays dreams,
In those dreams lies reality,
I know, what you don’t know,
I know, that you don’t know about yourself,
Because, I know

Don’t ask me, “How do I know?”
I know because I feel I have seen you before,
I know because I feel magical about you, my soul,
I know because I am with you always,
Though, I can’t be physically with you for so long,
I know,

I know that love has no distance,
I know that loves lies close to heart,
How can I convince you when,
Both of our hearts are so close,
Yet you think it remains so far

I know,
I know what future holds us together,
I know what we have done in our past,
Whatever will be will be,
I know, I can’t let you go,
I know, you are made for me
And you don’t should feel alone,
Please don’t feel so-so,
I know
I cannot provide you with your needs,
But I know, I will work every day and even in week-ends,
I know,
I am not alone anymore,
I know because your heart is just like mine
I know, because somebody said, “Love is blind”,
I know
I know that we both need just to wait, little,
I know that someday I will hug you,
I know that someday, I will kiss you,
I know all this, because I know me,
I know who is in me,
Please don’t be mistake,
I know all this, because you are in me
I know all about you, because I am in you
So I say, “I know”, I know, my mysterious soul,
I know,
I know

When I

When I talk with you, I feel little strange,
When I speak with you, I feel little weird,
When I think of you, I am more clumsy,
When I
When I imagine of you, I am little scared,
Of my reality will someday disappear,
When I,

When I am with you, I feel more secure,
When I look into your eyes, I feel pain,
When I am with you, I feel satisfied,
When I,

I don’t know what it is,
I don’t know how people feel,
When I am with you, I feel
When I am without you, I feel sad,
When I am with or without you,
I dream, I imagine, I

When I talk with you, I feel little strange,
Some people call this, love,
I ain’t got any definitions on love,
I don’t know what love is,
But I know, I feel,

When I,
When I see you, touch you, kiss you,
I feel you are so close,
I feel life is you and you are everything,
When I,

Whatever it might be, whatever writers think,
I am you and you belong to me,
I know we are living at far ends,
But I am hopeful, I will see
When I,

When I dream, I dream of waking up with you,
Even though, I have walked up without you so many times,
I am hopeful; I will wake up with you,
When I,

Someday, When I will be old,
Someday, when you will be old,
I am hopeful; together we will belong,
When I think all about this, I feel
When I, When I,
When I, When I

I have a white t-shirt again

Yes, I have a white t-shirt again,
I was wearing black every days,
But now, I have a white t-shirt again,
Here I am talking about Religion,
Can we manipulate our religion?
Is this a question or advice?
What is the color of religion?
Is it white, black, green, red?
What is the color?
Whatever it be,
Yes, I have a white t-shirt again,
No new theories can change old religions,
Christianity,belief, belief, belief
In god, son of god, Jesus,
Belief, disbelieve, accept, reject,
Faith, hope and love for all the shake,
Then came a man who liked another man,
Priest said,”you ain’t right!”
We cannot change our religion,
Forget about change, we cannot update our religion,
How far we can go?
Change the scriptures,
No No, that is not allowed,
Change the priest,
Maybe,
Accept the man who likes another man,
Put amendment into your act,
let us Say, Jesus love is equal and right,
for all those who like or dislike,
He is here in each one of us, bright,
weather you like or dislike,
He loves all of you,
Although, he was hated because of TRUTH,
truth is bitter and spicy,
nobody wants to taste going deep inside it,
Anyways,I have a white t-shirt again
I have white t-shirt again

I am in love (with man)

Theme:

Here is one poor guy who is living in difficult times, He is gay by nature and he is in love with another man. He is asking his mother to leave him alone and let him live his life on his own. He is also begging not to judge him, just simply because he is gay or homosexual.

Enjoy !

************************************************
I am in love (with man)
************************************************
Who is complaining that love does not exits?
Why are you saying that I could not exit?
Your society keeps me away,
Your morality says, ‘I am gay’,
I was born like this, why don’t you care?,
Every individual are different,
I am born physical different,
When nobody cares in busy world,
Why are you keeping me away?
Homosexuality is an act of sex by homo sapiens,
I am not gay but I am born to do it different ways,
Love is same everywhere,
I am desperate to live on my way,
Please leave me alone,
If possible, don’t give me your stupid advices
To carry on,
Yes, Even though I am discriminated
I will like to live on my own
I am homosexual,
Open up your legislations,
Open up your Scriptures,
Put me in their too
I am homosexual,
Jesus come back again,
Show that you like Men,
Tell us, humans could born different,
Mother don’t hate,
I am no different than Brother who most care,
Please let me be me,
Please don’t piss on me,
Please don’t show disrespect,
I am feeling very deep pain,
Even though, I was born different,
Every body has purpose to fill on earth,
For me, I am just in love with another Man
Forgive me, Bless me, love me too
Don’t kill me with your judgments
I hope one day, every country will make it free,
Love has no limitations,
Of age, sex, boundary, culture, country or territory,
I am in love with man,
Most importantly, I am in love
I am in love
Feel my deepest of deep feelings,
I am in love,
So please let me be me,
Leave me alone and let me live on my own,
Mama, I am in love
Love, Love and Only love
********************************************

Have a nice weekend everyone !

God bless you all !

What to do in Lappeenranta?

The day I visited from Kathmandu, Nepal; where the population is around 1.081million to small city of in Northern Europe belonging to European Union city called Lappeenranta, Finland where the population is around 70,500 inhabitants. Now, the first thing which came into my mind was- Am I in heaven? Or, am I in hell? I was confused. Later slowly I realized, to adapt in new and different set of environment is the key. Now after staying for couple of years here in Lappeenranta, There are few pointers which I recommend:

1. Don’t get frustrated: Most of the times when we see darkness all around us and no light either in day or night, especially in cold freezing winter, stay inside your room and don’t get frustrated. Hope is the key, just be hopeful that the day will pass and there will be summer coming soon.
2. Be polite: When you are polite you will benefit a lot from Finnish people. I have seen in my own life, Finns are most helpful, shy and honest people found on this earth. Personally I can claim that, nowhere can you find such types of people.
3. Work hard: Hard work always pays off. . The primary focus for the international student should be always study especially of those who arrive here in Student Visa. So work hard, if you are student like me, then work harder especially in winter because during those times you can score more credits and later when summer arrives in Finland, you can relax. I could be one example where I managed to finish Master’s degree in about one year.
4. Discover yourself: My grandfather told me one story long time ago, he said, “Once upon a time in a village, young married couples were walking with donkey. At first wife sat on donkey and husband walked by her side. Seeing this scene, villages pointed the finger at wife saying, “She is disrespecting her husband by sitting on the donkey.” Husband agreed with villagers. After walking few miles, wife insisted husband to sit on the donkey. The villagers dishonored husband for allowing her wife to walk in the blaring heat. After receiving ridiculed comments from villagers, husband decided to walk along the donkey and wife. After walking again few miles into another village, villagers laughed at couple for not using donkey for the support. Now, the couple decided both to sit on the donkey thinking this will satisfy the villagers. After few miles, villagers felt pity on donkey for carrying couple and luggage. Now after so much of guilt, couple decided to purchase stick and rope to carry donkey, the couple now decided to carry donkey in the stick and rope, after they had entered the final village, villagers laughed hysterically at couple. How many times do we have to make adjustment to live our life? To conduct work, to make decisions and to make changes. Although the intentions maybe great but who is the right judge? You, you are the best judge of your own decisions and circumstances so discover yourself.
5. Be happy: While there are many theories on happiness, I would suggest get social with friends and family, talk with those who are close and those who are far, don’t resist you with limitations, explore yourself and smile even in worries because smile is same in every culture and country.
6. Learn Finnish: Either you are here to stay for one year, two year or several years. Learning new language always helps. Locals will find it interesting when you would be able to talk and speak in their own mother tongue. Apart from “Tervetuloa, Kiitos, hyvaa paivaa ….” Try to get in touch with Finnish people and ask them to teach you Finnish (Suomi).
7. Explore Lappeenranta: Visit the Church, Museum, Harbor canal, and many more interesting and beautiful places. I would recommend not only sitting idle in home but to come out of room and explore the beauty of Lappeenranta which is very close to Nature itself.

These are just few pointers which could help not only International students, worker here in Lappeenranta but also to local Finns. What do you say?

Poem on Homosexuality

Homo=same, sexual= (an act) sex + ual (Usually)

Same sex, with different taste,
Try it once and you will never fade,
Kiss the same person once, try it out
Who does not like to be sexed?
Same or different being,
Sex is in, in
We get one life, different voice,
opinions and suggestions,
try something different,
to look what causes shame?
Nothing, some become homosexual,
some are born with such taste,
Either you agree or disagree,
they are just like us ordinary
Humans,
No religion describes homosexuality,
It remains in all holy book as mystery
Mr. Kalwar’s theory is simple which states,
Love is in being together, who cares?
love those who loves you,
Be it human, animal, plants, nature
We are of same sex
Only in different forms and in different factors,
Laws we create will always change,
Life is what remains,
Kiss HIM, HER,
Love HIM, HER,
Go on and touch the beyond,
Live your life and be HOMOSEXUAL

Quotes and Poem of the day

Dear all,


-"What is impossible and what is possible?
When love is in heart, and only in imagination
Giver are blessed by Universe,
Receivers are honored by Nature,
Love is all what we need to take us further."

-Nothing is impossible because impossible simply does not mean I M Possible but also means imagining possible.

-"What love is, sex misspelled,
Or,In between legs
What hate is, inner peace
Or,In loneliness
Love is unexpected life long journey,
Throughout which you will find many Honey!,
Just try and move on with your romantic journey."


-"I don't want to explain love, nobody could but I am trying to give you the knowledge of how I feel when someone is in love, When I would."

-" We are nobody when we grow on out of ordinary,
But when we are discovered from all of ordinaries,
We then become somebody, love is in being found
love is in beig cared, love is in being nurtured,
like mother feeding babies, like trees sucking rain
Far deeper in the earth, far deeper in the human soul,
love is not in physical intimacy, love is not in finding differences,
love is love, love is required to move on,
love is when we grow out of ordinary,
impossible or possible, immobile or void,
love remains the same with each and every one of us,
In plants, in animals, in birds, in tables and desk,
In the keyboard which I am typing,
In the computer monitor, which is dancing,
In the begger who is asking,
In the streets crowded in some places and silent in others,
In the volcano eruption, in the anger of mother,
In everything and every non-living things,
Wake up and see, love is everywhere
In the words which are magical, In the books which shows multiple directions,
I must stop now, although love will never stop,
I must stop this poem, although my mind will never stop
To love, To like and To view everything as love,
What is that drives us, what is taht makes us wake up,
what is that makes us move, Come on- you know by now?
Love, only love and only love, So love,
Give love, take love, see love, kiss love, wake up with love,
move on in life with love, nothing is impossible when you have love,
life is love, love is life, and love is in finding love,
Come on please get a sweet delight, Come on,
Smile, smile, I can see you smile, Yes, I can see you smile,
Thank you, love is in smile too, love is in everything you do
Take care, with love, from love and by love,
This is the poem for love, thank you, love love. "


God blesses you all !

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Whenever I see into your eyes

Whenever I see into your eyes,
I feel love; I can feel your pain,
Untouched beauty, honesty and truthfulness,

Whenever I see into your eyes,
I see faith and hope,
Fantasy and romance,

Whenever I see into your eyes,
I see how deep they are like ocean,
How still they remain like early morning sunshine falling in lake

Whenever I see into your eyes,
I feel love; I can see someone’s inside,
I see angel who could be like caregiver,
I see untouched beauty, honesty and truthfulness,

You are never alone and you will never be alone,
You are never loose and you will never be looser,
All those you have gained will be lost someday,
But whenever I see into your eyes,
I feel love; I can feel your pain,
Your love, pain, beauty, honesty and truthfulness

So don’t worry and start to live again,
Life is like flowing river and you should move on till you will remain,
Kiss the sky, touch the birds, and hug the lion,
Do whatever you want to do,
You have only one life to make it true,
Whenever I see into your eyes

Will always shine like waves of ocean kissing the beach,
They will transcend into horizon and say, “thank you”
Whenever I see into your eyes,

Saddest lines

I am feeling sad, you are feeling glad,
Honey, I don’t know what went wrong,
When there was nobody besides us but you’re Dad,
Separated we are, divorced we remain,
Life is nothing without you,
Only pain,

These saddest lines will depart,
Hoping to see your glimpse,
When I return,
But, life goes on,
May you will find another handsome someone,
I will wait beneath six feet under,

Please Come back, I promise will never hurt
Your feeling, which makes us depart,
I wish I could understand,
I wish I could feel the same pain,
But, I am Man with stone heart

Tonight, I am writing these saddest lines,
When we both stand out far behind,
Our dreams to remain forever,
Remains closed and blind,
How can we fail, when we don’t give up?
But looser I remain,

I’ve lost any hope to find a new one,
I’ve lost any hope to see you come back,
Tonight, I am writing these saddest lines,
Departed, Frustrated and Hopeless so far,
Separated we are, divorced we remain,
Life is nothing without you,
Only pain,

But, I will wait, I will hold on my breath,
I hope, Someday you will come and knock on my doorsteps,
Nothing remains, just poor hope and faith to sustain,
Tonight, I am writing these saddest lines,

What I feel only matters to me,
Everything is falling apart,
Winter’s coming and I see leaves falling apart,
Every breath is poison to inhale,
Without you, my only soul mate

But, I will wait, I will hold on my breath,
Till the day, when I will no longer see sunlight,
I don’t want to wake up lonely, my life,
Well, Well, Well,
Let me say, “Sorry,” If it helps,
I know, I have done nothing which will make you hate,
But, I still will wait, I will hold on my breath,
Thinking you will smile back again,
Come back to your soul mate,
These saddest lines will no longer remain

Distances, these long distances

Distances, these long distances,
Between you and me,
Distance, these long distances,

Why someone is so closer yet so far?
Why someone is far but yet so close?
Distances, these long distances,

Your feelings, memories, emotions,
Tortures me, these distances,
Distances, these long distances

I won’t live, don’t want to live
If you are not close to me,
Only lies distances
In between us,

Yours and mine, Distances
Distance will someday get shortened,

Why someone is so closer yet so far?
Why someone is far but yet so close?
Distances, these long distances,

Long, very long distances,
Between you and me,
Kill these distances,
Invisible, untouchable,
Distances, these very long distances,

Quotes and Poem of the day

Dear all,


-"Each man creates the thing he loves,
Some do it with hand,
Some with a flattering words,
The coward does it without effort,
The brave man with a pain in heart."

-"Everybody in the world is criminal, those who are not found guilty have pockets full of money."

-"Life is very long journey which never ends, only thing that comes to an end is destination."

-"Imagine a day without suffering,
Now, imagine a day only with happiness,
Which one is better?Suffering or Happiness,
To most of us, Happiness
Stupid, total stupidness,
Happiness is son of Suffering.
Now, which one is better?"

-"Sometimes it feels as if I am dead,
Sometimes it feels as if I am dead man alive,
When I visit poor countries, it feels as if I am in hell,
Not me, but those who are like me,
I feel pain not for me, but for them,
Not everyone is fortunate enough,
To get pleasure of both heaven and hell,
Being dead at some point and alive at other,
In Mother Nature, Mother Earth alone.
Before complaining, look below yourself
Above is unlimited, below is very limited,
Poor countries, poor life, poor vision,
lies below, deep below
Stop complaining and Help each other !"


God bless you all !