Showing posts with label struggle. Show all posts
Showing posts with label struggle. Show all posts

Monday, June 16, 2008

A diary of monday 16th june 2008

A early morning rise at around 2 am with a thinking set to travel a new horizon with early rise of sun. It was amazing experience today morning with very light dark sunlight giving some sign of rain but again with total in confusion of delivering either the sun to their children's or a joy of tears in total summer fun.

Imagine a situation where you work in early morning the time when nobody would wake up easily from the bed but you are not the only one who does it, there are many like you and there are people who have mastered it before you. I was with my drunken teacher today. He was smelling like a hell and telling me most of the times what to do and what not to do. Where to deliver the paper and where not to.

Coming from the work it gave a total satisfaction of the work and the time you spent doing it. It gives much a relieve after when you finish something but every time you finish it; you are relived. It give a feeling to you that the same time and the work is not going to come again. You have done what you have been asked for. It is a good feeling after anything is completed. But everything that has been completed again comes in different ways too.

My father used to say-Son, you will realize the values of money when you will start working. Whatever I achieved till date and whatever you are wasting so easily is not easily earned. It is all hard owned and every single rupees that you are taking in negligence is a process of very hard work.

Today couple of years later, I have realized that It is not easy and whatever he has said is absolutely correct. It is not easy either you have to loose something to gain something or you have to really work hard. It can be mentally or physically. The pain will be there in your mental phase or in your physical part of body. It will again go after only you will take rest. Therefore after a long hours of doing the early morning work came back to my lonely bed which was just waiting for his master to occupy it in total joy.

As I respect the bed, I would really be thankful to it in many different ways. After sleeping for some four hours then it was the time to go back to University and do the official part of the work. It was noon then, I took a tea and started another phase of the life called University Work. A tea was really strong enough to keep me alive till the 6 pm in the evening, can you imagine that ? A guy can really survive from early morning tea to late evening tea without eating anything. I was also surprised. There is always something to do and very less time to think about eating.

Just after coming from a university work then immediately went to Shopping for the foods those were not present in the kitchen and it was to my suprise that a friend who lives next door-Arjun cooked something really delicious. A tasty south indian daal. A taste of which reminded me of "banglore". I do not know how people rate an indian food but they are really fantastic if you taste them yourself. If you listen from others then you have had no experience of saying anything on them. This guy is great in cooking. I wish he was a beautiful lady, I would have propose and married with him. I say, the same thing for whoever my room mates are previously it was Teemu and he too is brilliant in cooking.

It is by situation people learn to cook and it is by luck or fate that I met these outstanding people who helped in many different ways in my life. This is what makes the life more memorable and wonderful experience to live. Now, the time is around 8pm and I have written this whole blog about my own life today. A diary of monday 16th june 2008. Well, why should I be worried may be there is something which people can get from it too.

1. Do not waste anything just like that. Think before wasting or you will automatically learn a process of earning a money once you will work for it.
2. Do what you like to do most, do not think about anthing except it.
3. Take care of your health. (Not for me)
4. Appreciate people, things and nature around you.
5. Love eating Indian Spicy especially something cooked by local boy of that county.

Since the breath is still going on, I must keep on breathing till the time I will forget to breath. However, do cherish your life too and have a great weekend ahead. A kind of blessing for everyone who is reading it right now.

Friday, June 13, 2008

Friday Supplements

Wake up early in the morning at around 2 am and just get ready to start your work. It is not easy. It is not difficult too. Once you make up your mind- you got to go for it. A guy who is working for a delivery work- paper delivery.

The deadline to submit all the papers are within 3 hours-nothing can stop you. Rain, Storm and Snow. Despite all these you got to finish your work and do it in proper manner. Imagine waking up first and then putting all your energy to doing the work. Second think of doing it. Third you got to relax for the work you did and you got to feed yourself very nicely.

People who have not done the work before will take it for granted. They can assume it as very easy task but once you do it. You know it better than anybody else. How you feel, experience and suffer with the pain of doing it. There are no alternatives despite doing it because it took 9 months to get a job.

A job in Finland which has been applied by the time I came to till date. Almost 9 months, after such a duration you get it and now you are left with your own self decision of doing to not doing. Either you struggle to survive or you die.

People who cannot see your progress are always worried about others. They will never have time to look at themselves and realize the fact that in what level of water they are dipping. A person who wants to think about himself and wants to make a dispute about others are those who you might think is close to you. He will do it for you, he will be good in front of you and at the same time he will tell thousand different things which will put you in trouble against others.

In the world with many difference it is not easy to find the similarity. It is not worth anything even if you try to find the similarity. It is just a periodic. A friend you think can be your greatest of enemy and the enemy you think can be one of a good friend. It is unknown till the known comes in your mind.

A "sorry" will not make a dead man come alive nor will "thank you" gives the pleasure of most pleasurable moments you want to see or the satisfaction you think you desire. A person either born in one land or no land is a just a person. A life is just to live and to think what else you have done for others. At the very end you will not know what has been done or will be done.

When a pain is given to you by the Nature, a pleasure will also be given. When a Nature wants you to see you happy at the same time it will also ask you to get depressed. A unexpected can bring you expected but the expected will not bring anything for joy.

A moral of life just goes something similar like that. Well, It is the Friday again, Many of people will think it is end of week but do not think it is the end of entire world. There will be many more Fridays to come just sit and watch. One could be pleasurable other could be even more pleasurable.

Friday, June 6, 2008

kalmagnatism

A good day,A good hope and a good way to start writing what you feel about things in general. A start is all that is needed. A ray of hope will only give you the best of the results in life. A good way of becoming one among all of us.

Our mind is just like a magnet said once a friend. A magnet which will attract those things that we like most. A magnet which will need something and will be attracted to get it in one way or another. A magnet which will pull the things you like most towards you.

It is just a simple desire of magnet. For e.g. Suppose you like a horse. A animal which is very beautiful and you just want to ride it and you really need it. Now, to get the horse you will be attracted towards it.

The first phase of work starts with the attraction. It will give you the setup environment where your mind will now be focussed to get what you desire. It will be in full concentration. Slowly you will do the things that will give you the horse. Let us say, you do not have enough money to buy the horse then first you will start earning money-then slowly you will collect every penny with you.

Later some day you will get the horse you desire. The process is called "kalmagnatism". A name give by me for the working of brain as a magnet. Believe it or not later some one will find it or some people will discover the phenomenon but today on this date- I am the first to give it a name for this process.

Our body is full of magnet. It attracts and it distracts all those particles which are in need or in no need. Why do we like this or that food, this or that clothes, this or that things... It is just because we attract the things we desire and we repel the things we do not desire or the things which we like is attracted toward us and the things we do not like are repelled towards from us.

The same things holds true in many form of life. Mybheja is all about understanding a process of mind. A single mind of human can do many such events. Right now I am writing the blog but at the same time my mind is in United states of America talking with the future president of America- Barack Obama on the big issue of how immigrants problem could be solved.

There are millions of neurons which work to lighten up the even of consciousness. It is total awakening. It is called as waking up process. A process where a person wakes up and then does the activity.

Friday- is for many of us a good day just because we feel glad that we do not have go to office tomorrow or we feel happy to get relax or feel glad to make weekend plan. But if we think that we have to work in weekeds too then the feeling will be automatically changed and we will feel boring. the process is there already in our mind. A rule is set up which will tell us when it is good and when it is bad.

Imagine a situation where you have enough money and you do not have to go and work. Many of us will like to be in such situation but such situation will also become boring after some period of time just because we will feel bore of spending money and doing nothing.

All the activity that is repeated most of the times becomes boring. But remember that these activity repeated can be done in many different ways to make it interesting. It is called loving the things you do not like most. A feeling which needs to be changed when it does not want to change. A process when a person do not want to go for work but he will love to go and do it to the best of this abilities.

It can be achieved very easily by doing the same things all the time but in different way. A different way does not mean, you do your work differently but it means that you make your work your friend.

Have a great weekend !

Sunday, June 1, 2008

Living with Sarcoidosis

A disease for which the cause is unknown. It is good that I do not have to blame my gene, or my parents or to anyone around me for the cause of the disease that has in me. Experts suggest that, it could be nothing and it could some time be everything. It will go automatically without needing any treatment or anything and it will some times in some cases remain more than 7-to more years.

What would you say when you have defect in your lungs ? A place where you are responsible for the breathing. Suddenly you have pain and it is hardly so difficult to take a breath easily. It is very difficult most of the times.

Self strong is an act of being strong. It does not matter to me if I live for today or I live for 70 years of my life. Most important thing is live a life. There are people who are living with HIV, there are people who are living a life with so much of pain, strugle, and prespiration. Why not me.?
It is not difficult but it is not easy to them, it would not be easy to me either.

Who want to have a disease and live with the disease every body wants a perfect health, a perfect wife, a perfect home and a perfect lifestyle with space and happiness. Who gets these pefectionism. Who achives it at the end ? Hardly anyone gets it. Even if I am a Prince of some country I would not easily get what I am looking for.

It is good to know that you are also effected in some way or another. It is good that we all are effected if not by disease then by the disease of lust, gain, richness, anger, sadness, anxiety, pressure,and many more.

A medical disease can be or has a cure. It occurs in the human body for some period of time and it goes away after medication or treatment but what about the disease that the world is occupying.A disease that cannot be cured easily or it cannot be cured at all. I am happy that I believe I do not have those disease less and medical disease more.

It is good to explain with the people around you that what you have been suffering with and what you have been going though. People will give you suggestions, advice and comments. It is good that you will find out the fact that you are feeling better once you explain the situation to everyone.

Doctor said that I still have to go through some procedure before to make it confirm wheather or not it really is Sarcoidosis. A disease explored some 100 years ago.A perfect treatment still is not found yet and it is really a subject for research for many medical practinoners. Well, I am ready to become their subject.

The act of living a life is not going to say that I am going to die but going to say that I have lived my life. Lived my life means that you have really done what you have wanted to do and you have really worked yourself into every bits and bytes of life.

Human wishes does not come true and all wishes if will come true, everyone will become rich and famous, King and Queens. Who wishes to be just like me-a simple ordinary human living in simple apartment paying bills every month, dreaming about a good fruitful life, imagining about the promises to make them fulfilled and remembering love of your life all the time.
A wish which becomes reality everyday. A wish of not becoming rich and famous or Kings and Queens but a wish to live a life of with joy and happiness.

Let us see how long I could hang on to it.

Monday, March 31, 2008

Creators and Creation



Creation is an art, creators are the legends and creation takes lot of brain, I do not know how can you say one is creator as I do not see the any proper definiton that suits to fit in my this article.

How many of you will agree we are the creators of our own sufferings ? We suffer because we create those suffering for us. How many of you will agree we are the creators of our Uniqueness and we are the one to be given honours.

Creation is beauty, see the creation of the world, nature, women, sky, earth, technology so on and so forth. See means you got to see and see it through your eyes. After you see something what do you ever think ?

Seeing will give you the image in your mind, this image will try to find some meaning. When your mind tries to find the meaning of what you see then the description of the image is stored by your brain cells.

As the number of brain cells cannot be counted or is almost impossible to measure. Imagine how much of information one can store.
Every event, every people you meet, every speech, every sound and almost whatever you did in past will be stored. It is the creation of making your brain a storage machine.

Politics will never lead to peace. The aim of playing politics is to bring violence, to tell people that "I am the best" My country is "Best", My party is "Best". It will create difference and it will always create the difference. What will then create the peace ?

It goes by saying that Peace cannot be created nor can it be destroyed. We already are in peace. We are in peace but our needs do not let us live in peace. Our basic needs are creating violence too. For our basic needs we want to "get" something which result in our inner violence. For example food, shelter, clothers, fashion wear etc.

Can any one tell me what is innovation ? People think and say that innovation is art, innovation is creation but it is totally different. Creation is far bigger than Innovation. Innovation is result of human, creation is result of before human. If I would say that Alien gave rise to creation- Every body will laugh at me. !

Creation is the result of producing something outstanding, simple and elegant. It is not for purpose, it is not for cause, it is not for well-being, but it is result of huge constrution, work and hard labor. It is the drops of blood which give rise to creation. It is the effort you put each and every time to think that results in creation. It is by the virtue of your brain cells trying to struglle. When your brain cells struggle they collide with other brain cells and they form a statement. The medium for two brain cells to communicate with each other is nothing. It is empty.

I am not a biologist but I think these brain cells mate with other brain cells to give rise a pieace of information to you.
Creation and creators will always exit and will live as long as earth will live.They do not want to tell who they are, It is because they are far ahead than any human beings existing in this planet. Creators will be hidden, creation will be shown. Without Creation you will be dull, your mind will be dull, you will never progress and entire earth will be dull, unstable, immovable and blast like an atomic bomb.

It is creators who are driving the earth to 24 hr circle. Creators are movable and They make entire earth movable. Welcome to land of creators.



(Picture taken from: http://images.salon.com/news/
feature/2007/05/31/creation_museum/story.jpg )

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Closed

Life teaches you thousand lesson at every moment of the time. We do not actually realize it. It is just the matter of self-realization rather than asking with some one else about it. Every doors are closed for me. I am alone. I am empty and hollow.

I do not want to blame others because I know I have learn some lessons in life that is close to me and my heart. I really want to thank from the bottom of my heat to those who are helping me for my cause and will help me (as I need them badly).

Today I will give you an example of going to the shopping mall. Me and one of my friend we decided to go to shopping mall but the unfortunately the shopping mall was also closed. I think it was the time of evening at around 6pm and it was the closing time. Therefore It was closed. I was trying to connect my laptop to the local visible network available for all but it was also closed.

Everything that seems to me which was open is closed. No doors open for me anymore. I am alone and hollow, empty with me and my loneliness. I am being some kind of pessimistic because of my lack to maintain the relationship. I could not some how maintain the relationship with any one around me. I don't know any reason for it. I am not good at maintaining any sort of relationship Sometimes it makes me even more nervous and afraid.

I am going into deep silence because I know my problems would be with me and me alone. I am going into deep silence because the problems what i am facing is created by me and i am the one who has to find some solutions for it. Others around me will give me advice which are like giving lecture in boring Monday morning.

It does not mean that i am trying to focus or hurt on any body or any person but it means I am alone and i do not have anything to tell anyone. I am living in darkness and the sunlight yet has to show up to me. Only thing I know now is-" I don't know when ?"

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Depression Consular

We have International, National Coordinators in the university. We have big guys or one of the major person in the university like Professors, Rector and various top level people but we do not have depression consular. The idea of having the depression consular came into my(our) mind when we were discussing something in the kitchen. Teemu, Daniel and me were among the conversation about why not to have a derepssion consular in all the university around the world. In west, students are getting depressed very easily.

We can see the example of many such events happening now a days. Students are loads of pressure, they are suffering all the time lack of food, job, proper care and depression all the way. Students are the one who gets depressed very easily because of so many factors and constraints. The pressure gets inside the head of student very easily. There should be some kind of authority who handles it with due care. Not just passive authority but the one who is active, the one who listens very carefully to the problems faced by the students in daily rigmarole.


Based on the informal observation and no scientific data I would suggest that it is very good idea to keep some kind of authority who can take care of various events and various activites of students. Not only the students from home land but also from the International. It can also be seen in some countries that students are sleeping in garden because they could not afford to have their own house to live. The situation is even worse when you have to be stranded in the airport for days to find some suitable place to survive or live.

The biq question is who is responsible for this ? Is it a student itself ? How can we blame on ourselves. If students keep on blaming to themselves then will start getting more depressed and do some unusual activites. There should be some mechanism to ensure the proper care and open a depression consular in every authority.

Well, It is a idea which needs some proper care and should be implemented but the big question is when ? If it is not going to be implemented soon then we should be ready to face the consequences in near future.

Thursday, January 3, 2008

Curious Struggle

I have no special talents, I am passionately curious. I do not know about life, about love, about romance, about this whole world. Is life a struggle, what is this word called struggle. My friend always hates this word called struggle. What is the real meaning of the word struggle? Is struggle something to do with faith? Is it survival of the fittest by Darwin or is it just living a life. Well, if I have to ask my mind about the word struggle, I would rather say struggle is way of living a life normally. Or rather specially. What I mean to say is struggle is living the way of life just like that. We wake up every day, we do our morning duties, we start preparing a tea or coffee then we just get ready for the job or something and we begin to live. But don’t you think that the time we wake up the time we start struggling the time we go to bed the time we get satisfaction of struggle. I do not know, my friends back home always say to me, “Santosh, you are very talented. Well, I do not have any special talents nor do I have special skills I am just passionately curious about the thing that I do not know and the things that I always want to know.
Life is full of struggle and why do we struggle like for a good job, good car, best husband or wife and may be for a good life. Darwin says we struggle for the existence but is he true? I do not think so, we do not struggle for existence but for the existence we have to struggle. Meaning, to live a life is to live with struggle because life is to live and to live we struggle. There is no one to blame for this, it is just us and us alone. No body decides our fate and our decision it’s only us. We should not blame anybody for our cause, because it is always us who decides to do what we wanted.
Some times I think even I struggle to find the right words, yeah may be that is true because the thoughts are so connected and my own lack of English as a native speaker makes me struggle to find the right words but this is what I am passionately curios about that is why I like the word struggle and the way to deal with it. Let’s stop this article here. Let’s start the journey of existence for struggle and be curious about it.