Sunday depression.

Every day is not a sunday, and every day cannot be a holiday. We work 6 days in a week and the sunday is the time we sit back home and enjoy with family and friends. What if, you do not have a family and friends with you. Some times we just feel as if we are alone and no body is around us.

Although, there are the presence of the people near you, far away from you and you can communicate with them despite that also you are far away from them and you think you are alone. You are just simply alone. You cannot see the presence but you are alone and you are rally feeling the pain of being alone.

Why do you feel the pain ? What is the reason behind the pain ? you know it but you do not want to explain it to others. You know beside you no body will cure your pain. No body. The pain is not physical but the pain is mental, the pain is caused by not any disease but the pain is caused by the pain of living a life. It is not good to live a life with just a pain or simply the pain. Some times the pain will try to make you feel that you should leave a life and live without any pain.

Why do we need a food every time to eat ? Cannot we survive without it ? The main cause of many weakness in the present world is food and living for it. We need food and we go for work for getting it. After work we come and we eat but can we really survive without eating it ?

I am really depressed not with anyone or anything but with myself. The word "my" is so selfish. It always reminds me of only me. I just want to get something in life which is meaningless and useless. I do not want to do everything for myself but even i have a thinking of doing it for others how can i do it for them ? What can I do it for them ? I always ask the question to myself that am I giving enough to them or am i really hiding something from them.

Some times I go into the state of silence and some times I am really very excited to take the whole world in my arms and feel as if I can really touch everything present in this earth. As there are always two sides of coin, may be the life gives us depression and joy one after another. Some times the alcohol does the work and some times the words which are very meaningful in life does it.

The unfulfilled desire can lead us to depression, the distance between two people can some times lead to depression too, a simple error done in work can lead us to depression. The causes are numerous but the cure is very less, or in-fact none.

A simple cure would be to take a medicine or drugs but the medicine is not the cure. One has to visit the root cause of it, once you visit the root of the cause then a person will be able to take a deep look at the thougts and then one can really take care of the depression. A cycle continues till the death. This cycle is driven by time and moments. The cycle of unpredictable moments in every one's life.

The point of view may vary depending upon the personal experience and personal taste of life and beauty of it. I often tell to people everything is tasteful only thing is the mind which some times make us think that it is not.

A person who cannot leave in silence is not a person. He has all the time problem with himself and he will face the consequences about it all the times. I have to deal with all those moments and all those precious ones which have taught me a wonderful lessons in life. A lessons which none of the book can teach. It is said that, people should learn from others mistake and others people, through observation of one kind. I am in the process of learning and really hungry for it.

I do not have answers to all the problems in life but I can certainly tell you or give a try based on my personal experiences about the problem and the lessons that I have learnt from them. I do not want to hide any of the things that are with me. Life should be like an open book, where every one can read them and take a wonderful lessons from them. What is use when we make our life a closed book ?

After all, we are giving nothing in return to the world where we are living. Once we are living here one should think of what we can return to it. Have you ever felt the dance of the trees or the leaves of the trees, have you ever seen the rain drops and felt it coming in your eyes, have you ever seen a sparrow bird which was shot by some stupid person and saved by a small kid of 9 years old, have you every seen a rainbow with the different colors and shining on top of your house, have you ever tasted a taste of food that you dream of, if you have not done any of these please go and visit it and do it.

Once you fall in love, there is no rising. You only fall, fall and fall. It is just like going deep, deeper and till the very core of it. It is a total mystery once you fall in love. It is totally negative, it will not teach you how to rise but it will teach you to rise in falling in love. It will take you to very core and will not ask you anything in return. It will put in problems that you have never seen or felt or will feel ever in life.

All problems can be solved easily in life but the problems with love is one of the toughest thing to solve. It is ultimate problem. A problem which takes entire life to understand the core and get to some solutions to it.

Something to think

Life and wife are two different words but they are so simple to make, replace "l" and "W". L has a great meaning in the world, it means-life, love, laugh,longevity,length,lust and many more such words. All these words have meaning attached to it.

The meanings says that what the word means. The meaning of let us say word life can vary from person to person. It can vary from a person with different culture, background, personal interest and such factors are the in effect to make them different.

The difference in these words makes us one clear understanding of the phenomenon that we have different taste. We like to taste differently in our life. Now The change in environment is seen. I am in the new place, new room and new people to meet, share, talk, discuss and think together.

The old still remains and it will remain always there. It is not the place that moves, it is the people who move from one place to another in search of better future, better life and better everything. Reaching near to university is good in the sense that I can wake up late and go to university late. It also gives me less time to travel. It is easier in many more ways.

It can be difficult in the sense that friends are now far, but the distance does not matter as long as relationship matters. It is just an effort that will take you to the place you want. Not the excuse.


Two beautiful women, two different ways of thinking but if I explain my situation to both of them they feel the same. They both do not want to talk about it and they are really very upset when I describe that I may not live longer. Am I doing emotional blackmail or Am I explaining my situation to them.? Am I really thinking of my longer period of life or Am I afraid of death ?

None of these can I answer because these are the thoughts that have been generated in my mind. These thoughts explain me that I do not know. I do not know if I am right or wrong or If I have said something good or bad.

A women is needed to care you, guide you and love you entire life. You cannot move alone in the race of life if there is no support of women. It is difficult and almost impossible. Sigmund fraud said that he has developed the model of finding the unhappiness and this model will help human to recover from unhappiness. I believe a person who could not understand about the women cannot make such model easily. It is not useful and it is fake.

His model is wrong and I can prove it is not worth full in both the species. It cannot be true to both male and female. Even if the model he claims would not be useful in one way or another.

I am not commenting on any body's great ideologies but I want to tell you the fact that there is not happiness state. It is temporary and it comes and goes. It cannot be achieved or it can be created or destroyed. It is just a phase a process and it is generated by those cells in bodies which are very lazy. Which does not want to act upon the stimuli. It acts only when it feels it has to wake up and get some entertainment.

Welcome to new changing world of new dynamics and something that could be explored by understanding you, me and every one around us.

I like you but our relationship will not work out.

Well, This is what happens in many relationship. People will surely like this statement. The statement which they have heard. It is not a good statement when once you have gone through this. What happens when you like someone ? The first day or the very next moment you like some one you start to hate that person. Why ? Well, It is because From that very moment we start to see the differences among each others. This is the main reason why the differences starts or starts to come in the relationship. I don't know weather it is true or wrong but I think this is what happens. As a man or women we have multiple identity, we are father, engineer, writer, worker, daughter, son, child, husband etc. But the main thing is that we do not see it in different ways we see all of these identity as one. When we see all our identity as a single we loose. We then create some kind of difference among each others or with our partner or with some one who we like. We start to see the same kind of attributes that we have in the person you like. Every individual is unique in their own ways. Every body has different taste, different smell and different way of looking to different things like world, knowledge and life. When we like someone we relate our liking with his or her. Then if we see that we both have many things similar to each other we just think well- he is a right person or she is a right person in my life. After that slowly we start living together and when we start living together we start to find the difference that person has with yourself. When we start to find the differences the relationship starts breaking. The statement is very depressing and ver encouranging as well. One thing every one should remember is that when we expect something in our life and when we think that we have got what we wanted the very next moment their is a chance of loosing that. Yes, It happens most of the time. Do not get over excited about what you have and what you will get in life. Always expect least and do what you do the best, This way you will achieve what you do not expect to achieve. Cheers !!!