Thursday, November 12, 2009
The good part of my story is that, I am living a stub-born life with good job and my sweet dreams.
The bad part of my story is that, I am going to be deported soon. Yes, please don’t feel sorry for me. I am going to get deported for being normal human being in Neverland. I have never committed any crime in my life of 30 years. I have never even dared to hurt someone knowingly or unknowingly. I have just lived a normal human life. But Tomorrow, I am going to get deported.
The problem is I was living in Neverland with illegal status. I was called as an alien. I don’t know what that means but it really hurts when the officer calls me, “an alien”. For God’s sake, why am I being called an alien? I am just asking a simple question, not to that officer and not to the politicians or diplomats who make stupid useless rules and protocols but just to me. Why am I being called an alien?
What is wrong with the people nowadays? Everybody is being anxious about terrorism, being black, does not makes me criminal? What is wrong with the color of skin? I have been discriminated number of times and I am not going to talk about it. The rules of society are not flexible enough with the intellectual growth in human population. There has been no upgrade or change of the major rules. Once they were made laws, they have remained law forever. I am feeling so pity for the next generation, how are they all going to deal with these stupid man made laws? I have number of question in my head, countless of them but none of the authorities have satisfying answer to my simple questions. Yes, it is sad that I have to go back to the place I belong but I wasted all my life working for this country, Neverland. Now, when they don’t need me, they are throwing me. A human life has become useless. It has become like garbage, there is no value for living.
Ted Nelson said, “I am not an alien in Neverland, Sir". The officer said, "Yes, that is what you are, a third world alien, you have no rights to live in developed world like ours. You must go back to your country." An immigrant replied, “I have lived here for 30 years and now you are sending me back, anyways, thank you, even if I am called as an alien, I am proud to be an alien rather than immoral alien."
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Death is not working of biological organ in human body. The input of oxygen and output of carbon dioxide is major event which drives our life. There are many types of death, one which is caused naturally and others with specific reasons such as accident, crime, violence, suicide, bombings, and many more which are termed unnatural. More than 90% of living humans are fearful of death. In my own life, I have not found any one who does not fear death. One question which drives me to write this article, why are we so much fearful of death? What will happen on the day, I will die? The major reason behind being fearful of death is because we cannot overcome addiction of love. We cannot overcome self and personal attachments. We are tightly linked with love of our family, of our child, of our wife, of our country, of our religion, of our society and so on. The fear is also because the lack of our own self in order to fail to surrender. Most of the times we are escaping from our self. The missions, goals and dreams which we develop may come true or may not but the time will come when we all have to go someday, living everything behind us. Religion will teach us to believe in afterlife, reincarnations and science will deliver us the fact and stats behind the reasons for death. One wise man once said, “To understand death, you need to understand life and go beyond the death, living life for only one day.” I was greatly touched and influenced by that wise man. Maybe he is right, how can we understand death without first understanding life? There are always the things which we want to accomplish tomorrow, if we cannot live for today, how can we live tomorrow? These statements are absolutely true.
Now, what will happen when I will die? I have my personal life, I have done something and I am trying to do something more but will it make any difference to my family, or, will it make any difference to my material life which I have gained, what will happen to my blog which is updated every day?, what will happen to my secret passwords, my secret love, my secret bank account, my secret username and password in e-mails, my secret stuffs and many more such secrets.. Will it make any difference, I don’t think so. Those who are public figures will get high attention and the whole world will know that personality is no more and I understand this, because they are the people whom we trust, society trusts and country loves. I asked the same question to the wise man stating, “what will happen on the day I will die?”, the wise man said, “don’t worry; you will take a nice long break from this unhappy materialist world and you will wake up when this materialistic world will be happy again.”
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Have you noticed that you are putting your own words and one of the blogger in this blog, ‘karen’ is ill ???
Come on fellas, pray for her–She is sick as she has written, look on the top of the comment section with her post.
May God bless ‘Karen’ !
May she overcome her illness…
I don’t know what is collective worship, I don’t care about other’s fucking opinion and I don’t give a damn on any books on worship, all are nonsense and stupid ideologies. I care to those who are close to me and I care to those who are in need of me, I care to those who knows me. I am worried about their’s problem and I am depressed if they are depressed, I am happy if they are happy because that is only thing which is important to me.
(If you will put the above statement line by line, it will become poem, if you will put those sentences in paragraphs that will become short article/opinion/thoughts… and if those words will be written or said by prophets or gurus then it becomes scriptures.)
To: Karen for her wellness…
Come on human being, wake up
I made you, you didn’t made me
I don’t ask you to pray me
I never did, Instead
You did and still doing it,
Wake up and rise to rising sun,
pray for other like you,
I am happy if you will help others,
around you, for you, with you,
dance in the occasion
rest in the sensation
worship for humanity
you will get instantly
God bless you all !
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Happy Easter to you all (human beings), and to all animals (birds, lions, elephants, ants,...) and to all other living beings (plants, objects, nature, climate, rain, lake, sea, stars, universe, sun,..)
"I am in pain and I know how it feels to be in pain. I bless you, you will never have pain in your life, after me." -Mybheja
Below is the poem which states that,
An old man is begging Lord, to take away his life. He cannot commit sucide because he is very old and he does not have love in his life so he is begging from lord to give him death, as soon as possible. I hope his prayers will be fulfilled.
(Afterwards, the poorest guy in earth will never appear anywhere...)
I beg you lord
I am begging for god to take away my life
I do not want to live, without love
Man who lives oneday and dies the same day
I am powerless, without energy
Oh love, why is it so difficult?
Differences dividing us
When would world understand?
Love is beyond any culture, age and religion
Love is very simple, beautiful
Your face with early morning sunrise
Your love for love
I do not want to live any longer
I don't know, why I am alive?
I am without you, you are without me
We need each other,
World is dividing thee
I am hoping beyond hope
You might just change your heart
Road ahead is difficult
Trust me, I am your only one
I am your only happiness,
Time will tell
There are two ways that you can choose
Easy is very easy and difficult very difficult
Easy will lead you to sorrow and pain, the end.
Difficult will ask you,"Kill yourself.", the beginning.
Mr. Happy and Mr. Difficult are best friends,
True loving friends, they live together, forever
Mr. Easy and Mr. Happy are enemies
False loving friends, they hate each other, ever and ever
Decide from your heart
I beg you lord, take away my soul from this useless body
I know now, the meaning of pain
Every time, I wake up I beg you to take away my life
I beg you lord, life is useless without love
A smile, a touch, a kiss, a hug
All are missing, for so long
I am begging you lord, to give me death
For so long,
I hope she will be happy
I know she will not be
Between "hope" and "knowing"
I am nobody who should decide
Her fate and her life
I am in pain and I know now, meaning of pain
I want to die but I cannot kill myself
I am too coward who fears death
O dear lord, I beg you to give death
I beg you lord, I beg you.
This human life, is for moment
In this moment, is my story
I am living in this moment
My story is living with me
Oneday, I will fade away
My story will fade away with me
I beg you lord, take away my life
I don't need this flesh, without soul
I don't need this world, without her love
I hate, cry, feel pain, suffer than
your sons has ever suffered,
Jesus, Krishna, Buddha, Mohmaad ...
I beg you lord, please take away my life
I beg you lord, I beg you...
© Santosh Kalwar
God blesses you !
God bless you, all !
Thursday, February 19, 2009
With curiosity and passion of reading your ideas and opinion, I, one among you all would like also to give some words to this question, "How to tear down walls?".
May be, My explanation will not give any insights or great ideas- Please excuse me for this.
Let us get started then-
Tearing down a wall or breaking wall or breaking boundaries are simple stuffs to do. These are physical entity created by us and could easily be destroyed by us.
Many of us around here are discussing on the issue related to tearing down the walls within your self such as greed, race, religion, sex and so on.
How can we even think this could be successful? Well, those elements which are inside us are never going to change and those which are outside us are already broken.
We live by opinion and ideas, with our own philosophy of life. All those elements such as love, race, religion, life and culture etc. These are all part of every individual. These elements are different and we have our own personal "definitions" based on our personal "experiences".
When we try to listen other people's opinion and their definitions about these factors we tend to disagree and to some we agree.
Those who can lie can gain popularity easily. I do not know if there is something which called "believe". As said by Oscar Wilde, "Experience are mistakes", are we really gaining experience of are we just committing the mistakes?
A civilized society is formed when every individual in that society are bound to obey the rules and regulation which is for the benefit of their own society.
How much civilized society we have in this world? And, why do we think we are civilized? We might think that we are civilized society since we have power of intellectuals, full of resources and big fat rules which strictly has to be followed.
I feel pity for such society. The best rule in the world is No rule.
Once you start to follow the rules and regulation of your society you are bound to have "differences". When you have self differences within yourself, how can you have civilized society?
There are many examples and theories which are piled up in the dust of some libraries around the world. Those theories and books are food for rats and insects. At least some form of animals can sustain their lives with those rotten theories.
We are living by Scriptures, opinions and demoralizing elements which are root cause of our own self destruction. When will our tiny brain realize that, "We are all equal".
Difference is religion and culture has become mirror illusion. There is nothing popping up without the knowledge of others around us.
How can you break the barrier of relationships? We still are fighting for it, don't we? My first wife, second wife and so on...
Self differences inside us creates self destruction. We are destroying our destiny by creating the difference all around us. WE have walls of communism, race, relationships, religion and many those factors where our understanding is very limited.
Wake up people, please wake up....
Live the way you want to live but try to listen what others have to say too. You can always disagree but try to find what is the alternative of disagreement.
A week ago, I was watching a movie based on Jesus Christ and his life. I do not know how many times he has said, "I tell you the truth..."
When a person says, "I tell you the truth..." Is he really telling the truth?
Well, that is another point of discussion and let me not open it here. But, let me go back to the same question of how to tear down the walls?
Physically, Very simple-
1. Hire some machines which can be operated by human.
2. Use the machine to tear down walls.
3. Remove the walls
4. Now, you are successful. Good luck.
Mentally, Very Very Simple-
1. Accept everything which comes in your life.
2. Be truthful not to others but to yourself.
3. Life a life full of simplicity, the beauty will blossom along the way.
4. Respect, Obey, Follow, Give, Share, Encourage, Motivate and Smile to yourself and those around you.
5. Be like a child.
6. No human should claim he is God or (he is son of God as done by Jesus), or I am God itself. (Allah, Krishna, Buddha ...) Let us call them "Pure humans". A human with no self motives.
7. Live one day and die the same day. (How?) Do not care about yesterday and do not over think on tomorrow because you are not living in past or future, you are living now. (As I am writing this comment, I have started my day. After the sunsets and darkness prevails, I am going to end my day. I am going to die, Please do not worry because hopefully, I will be awake again tomorrow But again, hope is not with me it is for your satisfaction. I only hope to live only one day.)
Let me put it in a loop now.
Could any one of us follow 1-7 steps?
If your answer is Yes, then you are in Human civilization group.
If your answer is No, then ask yourself why not?
The Human civilization group is the world of "no difference". A world of complete peace and no walls. Where there is people and all those live are god. A pure humans existence.
(I am sorry, I have to wake up from this dream)
Alright now, I have to stop typing because I think these seven point steps will clarify what the writer ones to say.
Sorry I am still working on those seven points. Therefore, Let me put my greed attribute here-
-Author of the self published book "Nature God" and "Human behavior on the Internet".
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Today is the day when many womens are giving birth.
Today is the day, many people are dying.
Today is the day, women and children's are crying.
Today is the day, some are happy and some are sad.
Some feel the pain and some feel the pleasure.
Some are writing poem and some are reading chime.
Whatever be the case, we all are down to re-climb.
Oh, What a beautiful day !
Should we celebrate or should be mourn ?
Should we pray or should we dine ?
Anyways, Those who believe in Christianity
Merry Christmas, those who don't Merry Christmas too.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
But here I come again, with words full of ideas and these ideas with illogical connection between them. I hope to some it makes sense and to some it makes non-sense. Anyways, I do not have any motto to impress or inspire any one.
"Come together and love together", Any thing that we do should be part of showing up with group and bunch of people who find your stuff interesting. Therefore, just open up your diary as usual and start blogging. Something like this knock me- out and I am here again with my laptop and me alone in the room. With the flow of words and no restriction what so ever with my flow of these words to the application that I am using to write into this blog.
When we were child, we did not care much about what people around us has to say. Now slowly, when are grown adult we just keep on thinking on what others will think about the things that we often do. This level of our maturity is called "Adult". A true Gentleman way of working and behaving in multicultural world.
Culture should be understood as not the way of medium which divides people but the culture should be understood as the medium of brining people together. There has to be no difference. I understand that people have differences, so do the cultures but think on the basis of minimizing those differences. Do not try to say that, In your culture you do this and in our culture we do this so are far superior than you are .... or something similar.
The point is- there is no point. The word which is useless are the word which will be useful later sometimes. These words are not written without any consent/. These comes from the mind. The mind which is capable of thinking. These thinking are based on knowledge gained from the experiences. The experiences can vary and the experiences of not a single entity is valid enough to make any generalization in the real world.
Any thoughts can be expressed based on person feelings or by reading a great book. But we should not prove who is right or who is wrong. Every body knows that they all are right. The point is- we should try to step back and see the whole world as we can currently see.
When we see the world as we are watching from our eyes currently then we can surely close our eyes and tell the forecast that, world economy is looking gloomy like never before.When the world economy is going down and the IRAQ war still progress with United states then there are more things to worry at the state.
The future needs to be better. The biggest question now is not when or where or why but the biggest question is "how" ? There are problems and problems will never end. However, one can resolve the problems not by working on the problems on hand but by thinking on how can we invite far greater problems to solve.
We all face some sort of problems in our lives. We are in constant need of support, care and well-being. After all, we are called homo-sapiens for that. In future, when our conciousness will loom and we will have no more abilites to think. We will then be controlled by machine which will be called .... A giant machine which will have ability to think on its own.
A machine which will make us a servant and we will work on behalf of this machine. There are some researchers who think "Internet" will become a giant brain in near future. I think why not ? Everything is possible. When no one once imagined, the growth of media is will lead to this tremendous benefit to the society. I think- well, surely one day something like Internet could perform the job of "giant brain". We may be capable of making such machines but what if we loose the control of taking the care of the machine then ?
Anyways, presently that is not going to happen is some years. Therefore, there has to be the many elements which will work together to make out life better. These elements could be care, could be a simple phone conversation, could be a blog without any meaning like this one for example.
Whatever it is, or whoever it might strike- the point is that, there is no point. The meaning is that, there is no meaning. Whatever goes will come back in its normal form one day. There is nothing above or below. There is only one thing all around and that is called- "Nature".
Sunday, October 26, 2008
How much seriousness is necessary to become happy? Is happiness depending on our personal Life? How can a person laugh and smile? Do you have to be serious enough to smile? If we take things very seriously, then smile will not be lasting in our face. Smile is very smile. It comes naturally. It comes when most often we do not take matters very seriously. Most of the precious things are free. For example "Google search engine". Just kidding. Now days, when we do not know anything. Most often what we do is, open a browser and search the Google. It is very amazing that, we are quite bonded with this technology.
Most often when we do not know anything we use the Google. We are so depended on it. I cannot understand why? Smile is a phenomenon, a process which comes automatically. Nobody says, you smile or no body will tell please smile. It comes from you. It has to be real. You cannot fake it. Even if some people can fake it but the observer and the person being observed can easily trace who is smiling on whom.
Smile comes from total satisfaction of certain kind. It is flow, it is simple and when most often we taken the matter worse then it does not appear. Smile has to be realistic and please the matter casually because nothing is going to last for longer period.
Life is the way we want to make it. There are no straight lines in the human body. There are no straight lines in the nature too.
It is all our imagination. Most often we think about our self but when we think the matter more seriously we make it worse in our life and even around us. It is better if we can take it loosely. Once you start smiling some one who is looking at you also will smile on you.
It is a good question to ask sometimes- what is the price of smile? It is the same as asking what the price of being happy is. How often do you smile in the day? Are you taking everything too seriously, if yes then you are making something uncomfortable for yourself. Most often we think about tomorrow, but shouldn't it be good if we try to make our today better. Why on earth one has to think about the day which has no relevance to the present?
Whatever it is, whatever it will be- no body will care. One thing which is very important is to keep your spirit up and live with joy. Imagine a situation where there is nothing to worry but take everything very lightly. Nothing is yours and nothing you are going to take with you. Learn to give, learn, share and listen to your stupid friend. He will tell you where to go. Just follow him and he will make sure you reach the right destination at the end. Have a great weekend! J
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Or, the Death of an Innocent. I do not know who created it. (?). Whoever did, have done a good work. Take a look. It worth’s reading once.
Here it goes-
I went to a party, Mom,
I remembered what you said.
You told me not to drink, Mom,
So I drank soda instead.
I really felt proud inside, Mom,
The way you said I would.
I didn't drink and drive, Mom,
Even though the others said I should.
I know I did the right thing, Mom,
I know you are always right.
Now the party is finally ending, Mom,
As everyone is driving out of sight.
As I got into my car, Mom,
I knew I'd get home in one piece.
Because of the way you raised me,
So responsible and sweet.
I started to drive away, Mom,
But as I pulled out into the road,
The other car didn't see me, Mom,
And hit me like a load.
As I lay there on the pavement, Mom,
I hear the policeman say,
"The other guy is drunk," Mom,
And now I'm the one who will pay.
I'm lying here dying, Mom....
I wish you'd get here soon.
How could this happen to me, Mom?
My life just burst like a balloon.
There is blood all around me, Mom,
And most of it is mine.
I hear the medic say, Mom,
I'll die in a short time.
I just wanted to tell you, Mom,
I swear I didn't drink.
It was the others, Mom.
The others didn't think.
He was probably at the same party as I.
The only difference is, he drank
And I will die.
Why do people drink, Mom?
It can ruin your whole life.
I'm feeling sharp pains now.
Pains just like a knife.
The guy who hit me is walking, Mom,
And I don't think it's fair.
I'm lying here dying
And all he can do is stare.
Tell my brother not to cry, Mom.
Tell Daddy to be brave.
And when I go to heaven, Mom,
Put "Daddy's Girl" on my grave.
Someone should have told him, Mom,
Not to drink and drive.
If only they had told him, Mom,
I would still be alive.
My breath is getting shorter, Mom.
I'm becoming very scared.
Please don't cry for me, Mom.
When I needed you,
you were always there.
I have one last question, Mom.
Before I say good bye.
I didn't drink and drive,
So why am I the one to die?
Thursday, August 21, 2008
I hope the book will provide loads of information to those who need to understand the way of living the life and to the encouragement in one way or another.
As the world is growing with the technological expertise and excellent achievements and none of the people are interested to experience something new. Every body wants to read the content of those who are famous and no body is really interested in trying something new.
I have started writing something and I have finally come up with the new book. "NatureGod". Why did I choose the name "Nature God". When the word is separated it will become Nature and God. It means the nature of nature itself, nature is physical what we can see and what is visible through our eyes, Nature is in our inner self too.
There are two ways the world is heading, one is towards the spirituality and other is towards the technology. When there are technological advancement there are also spirituality advancements. Both science and conscience are two different things which are going to have one final meeting point.
Although both the point coincide to the final point and the result should be benefited for the human race.
I hope the combination of spirituality and technology there would be new thing coming up in near future.
Here is the book if you would be interested to buy-
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
"During a full week in Myspace, I changed my mood from mischievous to nostalgic. Once done that, I started to receive messages from readers asking me what was wrong - given that some considered that being nostalgic was a bad thing in itself.
But I don’t think that being nostalgic for a week is such a problem.
So, here is the question of the week: how do see nostalgia?"
In response here is what I have to say-
When I googled the word “nostalgic” I got following definition-
“a wistful desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one’s life, to one’s home or homeland, or to one’s family and friends; a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time”
The desire of being in the past or former time in one’s life. Many people go in that phase, and most of the times I become nostalgic too.
It is the wish of going home, reaching to the past very good memory one had and now in the present he cannot find such memories again. Being myself so far from the experience which I had achieved is asking me to become nostalgic too.
Too much of everything is bad, that is true. However, I think I like being nostalgic many of the times in my life. I remember old days and want to go back in those days or remember going back in time.
It has nothing to do with being sad, being sad is different then being nostalgic. Sad is just like feeling unhappy, sad is not in the present, sad is something related with worry but nostalgic is remembering the past or want or desire of going through the moments in the past.
We always want to remember our past and want to go back in our past simply because it is good for us too, to learn from our past and see what is going on in our present moment. It gives an impression to the people that being nostalgic the person is feeling sad but eventually that is not true.
Having sad that nostalgic is not being sad, I would rather add that, When a person is being nostalgic he goes in the moment of silent and thinks or remembers his experience about the event that happened, he sometimes may even remember those memories; it can also result in the laughter, it can also result in pain, it can also result in smile.
Sadness is always with us, it is the integral part of our day to day life. Happiness is something which a human will dream to achieve except me. I have the proud feeling that, I am some kind of happiness but again, that is wrong.
Being nostalgic is true to many of us, and we go or become nostalgic which does not mean we are sad but it means we are feeling little bit about our past and we want to cherish those memories once again in the near future.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Sunday, August 3, 2008
It was amazing when I came back from the place which was much more crowded and people all around. I thought I had really made a good decision to come to study in this place called Lappeenranata. A city of beauty and beauty which signs like the early morning sun heating the drop of water in the leaves of trees.
Thousand things in the head to be done and every time there is something new coming up once in a while. Got to do this, got to do that... It is really amazing when you have loads of things piling up at your desk and you do not find yourself being committed to do all.
Lazy Sunday, as it is. Watched a cool movie called "Raise your voice". Amazingly written and nice story. Truly inspirational.
Sipping a cup of coffee and writing this blog about me feels good. I do not know for how long but this moment is mine and truly mine. No body will interefere me, no body will ask me anything, no body will pull my legs or no body will bother me. It is truly amazing place, a city once must visit in a life time.
Outside my windows there are green trees and calm sun light gazing and a smooth breeze blowing. There is no heaven and hell simply because everything is here; just in front of you.
Everything is infront of you, either it is heaven and hell. Maintaing this place requires loads of effort and support from all those who lives in this city. I salute to all those people who take care of the city garden, city parks, city roads and everything else. I truly appreciate their hard work even in cold winter with temperature going below -30 deg. celcius.
Feeling cannot be expressed so easily, it has to be felt. Just come once if you can and feel the experience. I wish I can stay longer than my desires will let me to. Let me be hopeful and hope is all I have.
Have a great weekend !
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
The bureaucracy and official stuff is very annoying. In the world, a student is same every where. Then some stupid divided the world into three phases. He called them First world,Second world and Third world. According to the economy, infrastructure and many others factors. What is the fault of student who is in third world or is in first world ? The fault is that- He does not get any benefit from his home country and he has to show that he has enough money to feed himself in Finnish land.
It will make you feel as if you are really some alien living in this world. It brings lot of psychological problem in the mind of those who come and study. I do not know what others feel but I think I have felt this way. It make me think why I was born in third world and not in the first world.
What is the fault of human living either in third world or any world ? Human is human everywhere. Yesterday, I was giving this interview and a Interviewer she asked me- what is the difference between studying in Finland and studying in your country ? I said to her that- "I do not see any difference because I see only similarities". When we see differences in people we will get divided, that is why we are from different countries and different way of looking at others, different religion, difference in everything. But once we see the similarities we come close to other person and we connect ourselves with others.
There are lot of psychological problem one has to face when one comes in foreign land for the study. First is financial, second is study, third is personal and fourth is dealing with people in foreign land. Financial will always be kind of problem for not only third world students but to any student from any where in world. Until and unless he comes from rich family or have good savings of his own.
Study is based on hard work and effort the student puts in it. He can go miles and he can do what the world sees today as development all are with the effort of students doing hard work to foster technological innovation and for the well-being of society.
Personal is left with personal problems. One can have thousand problems but I would not discuss this because every body has their own problems and they deal with it, in there own ways.
The last one is interesting because, here I am talking about Finland and I have not seen any Finns who are not helpful or not very cool. They are one the best humans you will ever encounter in your life. They are very nice and humble. They love peace and they appreciate it. May be I have been lucky to see only good people or may be I see only similarities in them that is why I have not met any people in this land with differences of my country, religion, race or anything.
It is not good to give Visa to Foreign Student only for 1 year. May be they have to change the rule they have made. They should learn from USA or from other rest of the world where they give permission for students to stay for 5 year at once. But here we have to face the problem of psychological torture every once in a year. I do not know why they have made such stupid system. I think it really needs to be changed. It has to be changed because if one cannot afford to study surely one will not choose to study in Finland but if one thinks he can afford it, why do a person has to go through the psyhological problems of proving each time that he can really afford to study ?
It is my humble request to those who wish to come to Finland for study, please think again. If you are really financially strong then only choose your destination to study in Finland but once you think you cannot afford it please do not come here. Go to USA, as most of the people do and most of the students in our country do as well. At least you will not have to face the problems of proving that you can afford your study.
Those who are making rules to govern the country should update there rules. Those who are doing official bureaucracy stuffs should understand that humans are same everywhere. Those who do not have vision to see a peaceful world should not be given rights to make rules. If I were to make a rule, definitely I would have changed these things for the well-being of students.
Monday, July 21, 2008
All the things I was doing was the mistake or some common human error. I remember when I was visiting more than 100 companys together with my Bhutanese friend called- Subash and we both used to visit all these companies for job interview.
To our misfortune we never got any call from the companys and we were then in total frustration of living the country where we had got some education. Old college days,boozing with alchohol and caring for the native girl was total fun time.
The friends of the same country grouped together sharing emotions and playing dramas were total joy to live. Entire night staying with great alchol and marijauna party. Between the nights some one from the friends will decide to go out for the great fancy hotel for just to take some chicken kebab or some chicken item.
If some body will ask me, "mybheja is there anything in life that you will like to do ?" I would say that I have done everything. Nothing is left undiscovered but however, there would always be some thing that I am missing in my life. To fulfill all those missing I am living and I feel happy each and every breath I take for those beautiful oxyzen what people call makes me alive.
Have you ever thanked those beautiful air that you enhale from your nose or mouth. It is so nice and fresh. It is the only thing that makes our part of the engine work. I have not seen many of people who will every thank those air that they take inside their body.
The smell of air is always fresh, just like early morning breeze blowing through your windows. But when we mix them with some thing else it become awful. It does not matter. In life many of the times we think we are fortunate and many of the times we think we are not.
The reason for being fortunate and not being fortunate is the thinking of something unique happening in your life. If humans belive in miracles then to them I would suggest that it happens by some miracle which cannot be explained in plain scientific way.
It is just the good luck charm you need. Some people, some words, some look, some device, some place where you will find it all. You will think you are the king and you are very fortunate. But the same place to others can also turn out to be very unfortunate only because it is the adaptability factor which makes them sustain in the environment.
I like the place, but have you ever thought the place should also like you. It is always two way around. One has to give and one has to take. Once we live in one place, the place should take all our things that we give it to them and you have to take all that is offered to you by that place. The process is called adaptability. Once a human gets adapted to an environment, everything will work out as per your wish.
Let us be adaptable by giving and taking from the environment. Let us understand how the process works and the best way to start is-learn the place where you are living. It does not take time, it takes more of your motivation.
Monday, July 7, 2008
These are the general conversation when a two unknown person talk for the first time. A person is trying to ask something but the other person is not trying to tell him about himself just because the unknown person is not known to him in one way or another.
Why are we finding the relationship before we want to explore ourselves or want to tell about ourselves to others.The main reason is that-we do not trust the person,who is uknown. We are fearful and afraid of the unknown. Either it is a person or animal. If it is not yours then it is not secure or not trustful. It is unlikely that some one will be open and tell everything to the unknown.
The mystery is that everything in world takes time. Love, Friendship, Marriage, almost many kinds of relationship takes load of time before it puts itself in a good gear and runs smoothly. Why do we admire a couple who are old and walking down the streets catching hand in hand laughing and cherishing a long old memories gone by, kissing and hugging each other just thinking they do not have the very next day behind them and only the moment at which they are present and walking down with a joy and happiness touching every feet like never before.
Time is a journey, a movement- our movement leads to time. Nothing is immovable. Everything moves. When everything moves we are bound to move as well. This is the fact and it do not need any scientific explanation. The movement creates a matter of trust between two parties, two friends, husband and wife and the most important thing that connects these movements is communication. When you are communicating then you are in a touch with the person and the person will be trustful to you but once you loose connection you stop trusting the other person and you tend to judge after a while. You will then ask weather she really needs to be trusted.
There is one story in Indian Epic. A story of Lord who goes to jungle for 14 years and he was the king of the place. Just because he has to leave everything and go in forest to spend his life for 14 years and the main thing was he could not take his wife with him. Now when he returns from the forest after 14 years, he hears a lot of thing about his wife. He hears long long sentences that makes him doubt over his wife. He then looses a trust over his wife. He then starts to think. He is king, he is great human being in those era but now he finds himself in dilemma and trouble. How would he trust his own wife after 14 years. ? Is she really trustful or can you really believe in her, whatever she says. A wife of the king had to do some kind of examination before she really could be trusted again. She had to sit in a burning fire for a while and if the fire automatically stops burning then she is proved that she is innocent.
What happened was miracle that she really testified her trust and finally the fire stopped burning. Or something similar. I do not remember much of the story. Now, the main question that remains in this world is, It was in those days when every body was very trustful and every body really valued what they speak but Today, Oh, my God !
You do not realize how many times in a day you speak lie. You speak lie to yourself, to your friends and to many of the people you may know or do not know. you say, hello Nice to meet you ! when you do not feel nice to see the other person. you say, "I love you". Just because you have to say. you say- "This is great". When it is no longer great. These are just some of the lies that we will not know or we do not explore within us.
The trust building process to build a relationship is a one kind of art and it has to be learn by yourself. It is the just the beginning.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
These questions are very uncommon only because such event does not happen and if it does then there is great reason behind it. A person is normally who eats food everyday but is there any possibility that he can live without it ? Yes, he can but he will still need to eat something other day to survive. Why are we following such habit of doing the things that we have been taught right from our childhood ? Some times, see yourself and do things differently it will give you a lot of pleasure.
Now, the big question is how can a habit which has build inside us can be changed ? A habit is formed by us and no body else. A habit is our daily activity of doing the things same on every day one common example would be- smoking a cigarette, promoting cigarette to cigar and going further with itself. It gives pleasure to many, to some it reliefs from pain and to some it removes the tension from the body or from the mind. You will find thousand different answers from thousand people who have adopted the habit of smoking or drinking or some habit which is harmful but still people do not like to change.
A change people is one who can quit his habit and is very flexible to himself and to others. A person who is born within a boundary will always remain or try to be in boundary just because he has not seen the outside world. He do not know what is beyond that boundary. One example would be- a girl who lives her life typically eats healthy food checking her calories every day, goes for daily makeup, comb her hair daily, is neat and clean and visit doctors every once in week for regular check up. She is very health cautious and is very strict on her own schedule of doing things. Now such person is keeping the boundary or making her boundary of herself-she is limiting herself by letting her do this- and do that- Nothing beyond this should be done by her.
A girl is living in her boundary and she knows exactly what to do every day but one day she is migrated to rural India. Now, Imagine her situation-she is doing nothing what she used to do. She is not going to visit the doctor every once in week because no doctors are availaible, She do not have proper diet food or food with regular check up of calories and she could not comb her hair daily just because there are too much of dust which makes every person look dirty next 30 seconds. Now, In such situation can a girl adopt to such an environment ?
To adopt to such a environment she has to change her habit and she has to be completely free, free her mind and should not care about anything except open sky and deep oceans. The point is to adopt to bigger world you have to leave smaller world. All those people who smoke, who have a habit of drinking, who have a habit of pornography, who are addicted to some thing are living in smaller world and to jump from smaller to bigger they have to change there habit and see how it feels when you do not do the things you like most-just for a day or two and then entire life.
Next thing is there are times when we have wasted our energy just because we never learnt to say NO. Just say no, when you think some body is taking your time. You are the one and you have every rights to living a life not for others but for yourself. Just say NO without any hesitation when you think it is not appropriate or not worth full to you. Think about these things and try to figure out in a day how you recover from these things.
Go on carry on life is to fight with yourself than others
Greatest wise is that person who can forgive greatest enemy
Always remember we are no black and no whites
We all come from same place and we will go to the same place
Rituals might be different, custom may be different
Smile is same in every country and religion
You may think this as poem, but I do not know
Live openly, surrender your problem to Nature
Nature will take care of your misery
It will bring you joy when you feel depressed.
Go on carry on ....
Friday, June 27, 2008
This unpredictable nature of life gives us joy to live. A joy which bring smile on our face. A smile is temporarily present. It does not last for long. Look when you smile you smile for the moment and then it goes automatically from your face. Laugh and smile are two different things. When you laugh, you are free and you give everything to a laugh but when you smile you are feeling pleasure and happy.
A world is you and you are the creator of this world. It is you who have taken this journey and you got to do what you got to do. It has nothing to deal with your past or future. It is you and you along the road. No one will ever be changing what you are going to do, every body around will support you. A support does not mean only moral or physical or any mental it can be any. You just have to understand the people. Once we start understanding the people, people will be helpful to you only if they can help. It is by knowing then you will know yourself better.
A gold is gold, a diamond is diamond why is this mind just so frozen like a snow which does not want to melt ? Why are my behavior changing only when the sun light falls into it. What is wrong with my thinking ? All these questions take you to one place and that place is very open, very interesting and very challenging. It is called "mind". A place where you need lot of thing to make clear. A place which makes assumption, thinking, learning, prediction, planning, sensing, visualizing and many more.All these things are done in one place and that place is called mind. More than mentioned are done actually and one who can control what is going or can see if in one's own mind what is going on or taking place then it will be of great help.
Unpredictable things are good for health.It is good that something goes beyond our thoughts and something just happens without our knowledge. It is sometimes good to know how life takes our thoughts in many other places. It is known that we are unknown and we are unknown just because we want to know the known.
Some times a simple statement makes us wary about our life and some times it is just to see if anything is going to happen. A mind which is pure, which is fresh and cool. A mind which needs nothing except the fresh thoughts and a mind which ignore any wrong impression on any body or any living entity is a mind which is capable of learning.
Friday, June 13, 2008
Monday, May 26, 2008
I do not know when would I get an opportunity to meet you, see you and say hello to you. I am worried and I am tensed. I am feeling alone. I want to cry but I could not cry. I even could not take a deep breath as I am having the pain in my left chest. Monday it is and I am really feeling as if I want you. I want to be with you. Together-smiling, talking and doing smaller things that would make you happy.
Why is the distance between us ? Why cannot I bring you in my place ? I know the problem is not the solution but the solution gives me a problem. The decison needs to go rational but I have no idea what would happen. I am worried-I wonder what you have been doing all the time.Would you have been remembering me or Is it some one making you laugh ? Is that you have already found some one or Are you still waiting for me to return ?
How could I tolerate the situation when I see you in some one else's arms ? I do not know- I may never want such thing to happen in my life but what if it happened ? My mind if filled of thousand unwanted questions and I want the answers from you. I want to see you-touch you and ask you that you still are the one I left you some couple of years ago.
Will it be possible that no one has touched you from that time ? I cannot believe it but how would I make my heart believe that you still are untouched beauty. How can I make my eyes believe that you have not been touched by no one. I know these questions does not matter if you showed the same kind of expression and emotions that you showed be two years ago.
I want you, I want to be close with you. I have thousand prayers for you but why are my prayers not heard. Have you done the same to be with me ? Is it me alone who have been thinking about you ? Am I being alone or am I feeling as it is not you who loved me ? The circumstances are made by us and why are we making a situation where we cannot meet. The person who does do not think too much and the person who thinks does not do too much.
The person who makes a loud noise is never heard. It is like he is speaking nothing. There are people whom I have seen making loud noise but whatever they are speaking does not make any sense. It is non-sense trying to find sense. Is my love something like that for you ?
I do not know and I do not want to know but I am eagerly and patiently waiting for the moment-the moment of ultimate truth and ultimate goal, the moment of peace and the moment for which I have been waiting my entire life. I know that day the sun will shine bright and I know that day will be the happiest day in my life-when I will see you. When I will touch you and when I will tell you that you were the one I ever wanted to be with together for ever and ever.