A happiest person alive in heaven

Today at this moment-

Let us assume that the story that I wrote yesterday (Today Thursday at 17 hours-) is Fiction. Then at least my readers and friends could and will relax a bit.

Thank you Paul for letting me know that, "Don’t try to be all things to all… women… it’s impossible, and… it’s not our responsibility… this one belongs to a higher intelligence… and the universe holds the answer…"

Thank you Jessica for your heart touching article. I think I know the answer and I will try to put words to your question. ("how I can sort my feelings out").

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Women is the source of every energy in the Universe. They are not impossible but our intelligence does not let us understand the possibilities in them. We are limited by our knowledge to understand the vast range of possibilities a women has and carries every day.

There are no right answers or wrong answers but all of the answers are just answers. Some of those answers satisfy us and some of them are just words.

Life is a lesson which should be learned in every moment and in every path we take. There are lessons that we learn from our family, from our friends, from our school and others. But a lesson women teaches us in our lives are far more important than anything else. A women if wants can create the universe and destroy the universe. She has the potential which I feel very little to describe.

In marriage- she is the one who should decide weather to stay with the person or leave the person.

In life- she is the one she should decide how to care her children and husband.

In love- she shows how she can care more than her life about her partner and she is ready to accept him at any given time.

In Career- She is the blessed to give the direction and motivate her partner.

So and so forth. There are many ways a women is vital human without whom a existence seems impossible. Well- W O M E N .The five letter words have great meaning. The last three letters means us- MEN. But has any body ever wondered why there are two additional letters in front of the MEN.

English language experts might tell us why? If I have to make a guess then I would say- W and O these two characters could represent many things and many words.

Love is not the destiny.Love is just love. Tomorrow if I have to leave the person whom I love then I will have many reasons in front of me and these "reasons" will force me to take the decisions against me. These reasons will ask me to take the decisons which I do not like but again, I have to make the decision.

A human nature is very childish. When we get something in life we are happy and we do not get that particular thing or person in our lives we are bound to be sad. We regret and we feel the guilt we are thinking thousand times what did I do wrong? What is my fault? Why did she left me? Did my words does not come out right?

A person is wise when he understands that not everything can be gained easily. For example love- A love is a fresh feeling which is momentary just like a smile.

See for example the differences in culture, race and religion but smile has a common form and presentation. WE all smile and when we all smile it is same despite any culture, race and religion.

Feelings cannot be easily suppressed. When Miss B saw Mr. A for the first time they fell in love. They wanted to be together but Miss B was raped and tortured. Miss B felt that she is not eligible and good enough for Mr. A she decided to go away from Mr. A and live her own life. While she decided she will go away, she thought the distance would shorten and lessen her pain from what she had encountered. She knew that she cannot now give fresh love to Mr. A. She wants to quit her life but some how she lives and marries with other person. She has couple of kids. She has a family. She has children but she lost her love.

She wants to know about his life, what is he doing or where is he? How would he feel when I feel something? She has questions which concerns her life and mostly about "his" life. She wants to know about him.

Because once she went far away from him. Now even though she has family she thinks most of the time about him.

Mr. A came back in her life when her sister somehow stayed with him. Mr. A is alone and he does not yet have any girls. Mr.A still has the feelings for Miss B but Miss B is married and settled.

How could Miss B happy? Is her happiness means watching others around and feeling the same? Will she ever forgive her about the decisions she took on his own while departing from Mr. A?

What if she would have told the story just after she was tortured to Mr. A? Would Mr. A accept her then? What would have happened ?

Many of the times women are very negative in the decisions they make. It is because they are thinking always good for US (MEN). They do not want to hurt our feelings or even go away from our lives without any valid reasons.

However there are people and women who take such decision.

1)Some women might think that, Mr. A's are not good and they cannot make her happy through entire live.
2)Some women might think that, Mr. A's are too good and easy, let us try those who are little difficult and non predictive.
3)Some women just cannot be with Mr. A simply because they are now tortured or raped and they think they are impure. They cannot give pure love to Mr. A's.
4)Some women just wanna have fun.
5)Some are going through difficult situation because they have sufficient valid reasons in front of them to leave Mr. A's.

Now Among these five mentioned points depending upon the women and there inner self they choose it. These points can vary depending upon the time, circumstance and many other factors.

Therefore, The decision is about how to live a life with happiness after not getting the love of your life?

What would you do? Should you leave every day with compromise or should we try to find other women or men in your lives. What is your mental state of mind currently saying? Would you take the initiative and be brave with yourself and fight with every single period in your lives thinking about the person who would have been perfect partner?

There are few steps if you want happiness-
http://www.kalwar.com.np/2008/12/7-things-to-do-to-be-happy.html

(I would suggest to think about these because I have been testing these steps with people and I still do not know if they are really going to be the final seven steps in future. A valid theory for every one of us. Just try to ponder on them too. )

Now if you want to get love that is Mr. A back in your life--

Again, there are reasons in front of you. These reasons will not let you decide against you. If you go against your reasons then it could result into problems. Such as (Your family members might say you something bad, your culture resists you, etc)

Now at this moment- Think if you are Miss B what you want? I know you cannot resist the feeling because your sister is close to Mr. A. If you are really a sister then wouldn't you want your Mr. A to come home -- May be he is interested in your sister and he might even want to get married ?

But again, His decisions are important. After hearing all these happenings if your partner understands how you are feeling then he might just let you go.

However, it all depends on the way you want to live.
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Well, I am not alive. I am not human and my life is the life of an angel. I can see the pain and sorrow. I can feel what Miss Y feels about love for her life. I am a air which can just be felt. Nothing else.

I want to touch her. I want to sweep her tears from her eyes when she is feeling the pain. But I know even if she could see me, she will not feel the touch of human in me.(Because I am a angel)

I wish I could come down to earth and live for a day. I wish I could come down to be with her for a day. I wish I would touch her and kiss her. I wish, the feeling of her first touch and the first kiss. I want to experience only once. Can I?

I do not know what is happiness but I wish if I am on earth with that loving memory of her first kiss and first touch I will spend my rest of life.

I wish in finding pleasure to those feelings are called happiness then that is what I am.

At this moment and on this day -
A happiest person alive in heaven.

9 hours to death.

How would you survive when you know the fact that you are going to die today ? What will happen then ? Now, think and imagine that you are surely going to die today and what would you do before its 9 hours of your death.

The situation is more complex and it becomes more complicated when you are far away from home living or studying in some place and you have not seen your parents for more than a year. Now, Think. Just take it seriously and think. The last statement will not make you serious just simply because you are not going with the same difficulty as the the person who really is going to die within 9 hours.

Will he make a call and tell every one that he really missed them or will he just feel afraid of his death and visit church or temple or some religious organization just to pray for his life. ? What will be good for him. Will he get back his life ? Should he visit a doctor and ask for help or should he visit religious organization to ask for help ? He also knows that none of them will really help. He knows the fact that nothing will help and none of them will give him the life.

What is that you are going to do ? Death is certain and we do not realize it many of the times. The time when we do not realize the time our death is very near. Some times a person wanting to die will not die and survive more than he really thought of living. And Some times a person does not want to die, does thousand and one thing to make himself, fit and fine- cool and nice suddenly he is no longer present.

Many of the times we are afraid of death just because we know the fact that we will loose our relatives, our parents, our loved ones and many such things which are temporarily ours. Nothing is ours and nothing will be ours. We came alone and we are going to alone. Every body who is connected with you are just connected to show the world and the beauty of it. The relationship is an emotional bond which makes us realize that they are with us forever and they will not leave us entire our life but that is not true.

It is good that emotional bond is present which helps people to make some connection between each other besides that nothing is true. Now, coming to previous Person who is going to die within some time period what is your answer ? Should he visit religious places to ask for his life or should he simply live a life and wait for the death.

What would a person do ? He is afraid, scared and very worried about his life. He do not want to die just like that. He has not seen his family for a year. He is really worried. He wants to meet his lovely sweet girl who is far from him but he could not only because he has only 9 hours. Even if he tries to fly and visit her he could not because it takes couple of days before he reaches to the place.

He is thinking a lot and worried that what will happen to his sweet girl after him ? Will she be shocked with the incident that happened with him or should he just inform the girl and tell her that he is really going to die. Should he tell his parents that he is going to die or should he hide from them.

A person then suddenly sees the butterfly hanging around the tree and he sees the flower. The butterfly approaches the flower and it reaches to sit in the flower. Suddenly, an insect engulfs the butterfly. He is amazed to see such an incident. He thinks now that, a butterfly which did not knew that it is going to die a very next second it sits in the flower, he has 9 hours before he is going to die.

He has lot of time to live a life. He then madly laughs. He shouts very loudly and he just starts to do the things that he has never done in his life. He has never swim in the lake. He goes to the lake, starts to swim. He has never said, hello to the person who walks in the street. He says, hello to all those person he meets in the street. He sees the one beautiful old women who is selling some cloths, he goes and stars to buy some clothes. He just behaves totally like a crazy guy who has gone mad.

Every body whoever looks at him thinks that a person has gone mad. He dances in the street. He has never tasted a Cow meat, he goes to shopping mall and buys cow mean, prepares it and eats. He is living in total joy and happiness. He is living in the moment. He is not worried simply because he knows the very next second that is given to him is not his.

When a very next second presented to him is not his, why should he worry ? He does not make any plan simply because he do not have anything to loose. Now, he has 2 hours left at this time he calls his sweet girl.

He has never said that, how much he loves the girl. He proposes her. He says,he loves her than his life. He has loved her the moment he saw her. He says, 100 times he really loves her and he has never felt such love for anyone except her. He has never betrayed her and he will love to love her till he is alive. Girl is surprised and shocked, she is very happy to hear such pleasant words that she always wanted to hear from her ideal husband. She is so happy that she cannot express in words. She gives load of kiss to him. She says, she will wait till he comes and picks her up and gives her a wedding ring. Tears flows down the person eyes, still he does not show to her and happily hangs on receiver of a phone.

At last, he calls his family. He talks with both mom and dad and finally says that they were the best mom and dad he ever had. He will if there is next life, will love to be there child again. Both Mom and Dad are surprised to hear such a statement from a Son and asks if anything is wrong but he says nothing.

Finally its a minute left before his death. He is going to die now. He sits in a position of some Guru with his bend knees and head upright. He closes his eyes and takes a deep breath. he knows the countdown has begun. He remembers all those things that he has done in his life, he remembers all those pleasant moment that he has spent in his life, finally he remembers his future wife and family. At last, he is silent. He falls from the position he is sitting. He is breathing no more. He is no more with us.

Ladder

A surprise in the early morning with the music of bhajans and "hare rama hare krishna" just after coming from the work. It was then pleasant to listen to the song from the movie called "ugly and pagli". You can download the song and listen to it. http://www.songs.pk/indian/ugly_aur_pagli.html

The song is "Yaad Teri Aaye Jaaye", the lyrics of song is absolutely nice and brilliant. A good song or good movie can make your mood brilliant or can change it very quickly. There are times when we do not feel good and feel very bad but all those moments are just reminding that we are becoming stronger.

Life is a process of living in very fine and brilliant way with smile on face despite you may feel bad inside you. It is like a ladder. The every step you take, you have to put an effort to climb the ladder. The next step is much more difficult than the earlier one. Every step will take you to one step closer to the destination. It is in search of the final step you have to climb all our steps. Last step is the final step that will take us home. The very first step starts from our childhood when we are born and then we slowly start climbing the ladder of life.

It is just a simple step that we take makes our life easier to climb the next one and so on. We are always worried about our next step but when we are worried about next step it will gives us clear picture and our mind will then get prepared for it. It is like taking a practice session before going to real match. It is good to worry and make yourself stress full with all the tension of next very step. But too much is not good and one should not over do it.

I went yesterday, to the police station it was funny story again. I saw people as we see every where around but one thing one very important that I noticed. There was one man who had two kids and they were wearing the same dress besides that also one wanted to sit in one side of his father and the next kid also wanted to sit in the same corner where the father was sitting. Both the kids wanted the same place to occupy but later father decided that one should sit just left of him and next kid on right of him. The kid has to agree on it and later they agreed. I thought there is no difference between the kids from any where in the world. They are the same. They want the same thing. The love of father and in equal proportion. They both wanted fight for the same place but one has to compromise to agree on the being comfortable to themselves.

As the government work is slow, it was slow here too. I had to wait for couple of hours before I get my number. I used to think that the government organization of developing nations are slow but now I have to change the idea and think that it is same every where. They get lower wages and they act slowly in response to lower wages. It is the simple fact. The progress of any country is determined by their governmental organizations and it shows why we are still lacking behind.

The services we are using and the facilities that we getting can be improved so much so quickly that one day we could put some device and fly from one place to next just like that but it is not possible due to slow working of government all around the world. Human mind works faster than any machine humans have made ever. If it can work faster then let us feel the experience of doing it faster all most everything.

Rest is rest,,, and it always feels good when some body appreciates your work or give comment on the mistakes you commit during your day. Good is good and bad is never worse becasuse bad will teach you how to make it good.

Keep smiling. "Nothing in life is easy, you have to make it easy in your own ways... write your own script so that one day when you get old you can tell stories to your grandchildren "

You

Well, a great day with a morning showing a great glory. A nice fresh air just outside a corridor with a deep fresh air going down the body and giving a feeling that you are alive. A fresh air and a fresh start of the day.

Many of the times we worry about many of the things in our life and we are not sure about if that things are going to work for us or not. Why do we feel that something should work for us ? What is that keeps us guessing all the time ? Is it just the function of our brain or is it just some hallucination. Is it our desire or is it that we really are eager to get.

When we are worried about certain things then that particular thing does not work as per we want. It is because we will desire of the things but the desire of those things will not bring the success in our life. Every great things are free. Internet is free, I would not say that love is free because love is totally different than what we think love is or love should be or in some form of definition of love. Many of the things are free in the world. One example of free things is- Smile. It is for free.

A golden life that we have is for free, a distance we travel by our foot is free. A mind which is free of values, ethics, religion, authority, differences is the pure form of mind. A mind which is at early of the existence. It will not ask or it will not want or have a desire for the things. It will work accordingly, it will work as per it thinks or as per it should work. It is not directed by anyone nor it is by any organization, religious body or any other events. It is alone and at the same time it is with every one.

It is doing many of the things which we would think of doing. It will be there and it will give the pleasure or satisfaction of being there or achieving when somethings are being done. How do you feel when you finish a hard day work ? It gives you pleasure. It tell you that, now i can relax. now is the time that i am happy or now is the time i am getting rid of this task.

I would call it as breaks. A break or time interval between any task is important. It is utmost necessary. How many of us, take breaks between our work ? Well, Many of us do. We take break and some times we take many of them just to get out from the work. It relaxes the mind. It will give a something beyond what we are doing to think about.

A person should not be bounded by one thing, he should be deeper than the lakes and deep than the deepest ocean in the earth. When you measure a person by his strength than many of the times we see the grades of his degree. It is not correct. Academic judgment and real life judgment of the person is not same. Many great person who created the world as today do not had a good college degrees. A lot of example could be seen. It should not avoid or make you feel that you should also do the same but it should make you relax by giving you a feeling in you- Do not worry. Keep on doing the things you like the most and one day, those things which you like the most will give something in return to you.

Want, desire and all these are just a flick of our brain. A brain triggers every seconds and it demands many of the things from us. There is an influence of brain not only from you but it can be from other brains too. I mean, from your friends, relatives or some one who is near you. One has to learn to handle his/her brain then you could start behaving a brain which comes close to you.

Well, it is just a process and it is not as difficult as it might sound. Welcome to the world where you handle your activity and you are the creator of your sufferings, you do the changes in you which make you look inside you and finally you become a light for yourself.

A diary of monday 16th june 2008

A early morning rise at around 2 am with a thinking set to travel a new horizon with early rise of sun. It was amazing experience today morning with very light dark sunlight giving some sign of rain but again with total in confusion of delivering either the sun to their children's or a joy of tears in total summer fun.

Imagine a situation where you work in early morning the time when nobody would wake up easily from the bed but you are not the only one who does it, there are many like you and there are people who have mastered it before you. I was with my drunken teacher today. He was smelling like a hell and telling me most of the times what to do and what not to do. Where to deliver the paper and where not to.

Coming from the work it gave a total satisfaction of the work and the time you spent doing it. It gives much a relieve after when you finish something but every time you finish it; you are relived. It give a feeling to you that the same time and the work is not going to come again. You have done what you have been asked for. It is a good feeling after anything is completed. But everything that has been completed again comes in different ways too.

My father used to say-Son, you will realize the values of money when you will start working. Whatever I achieved till date and whatever you are wasting so easily is not easily earned. It is all hard owned and every single rupees that you are taking in negligence is a process of very hard work.

Today couple of years later, I have realized that It is not easy and whatever he has said is absolutely correct. It is not easy either you have to loose something to gain something or you have to really work hard. It can be mentally or physically. The pain will be there in your mental phase or in your physical part of body. It will again go after only you will take rest. Therefore after a long hours of doing the early morning work came back to my lonely bed which was just waiting for his master to occupy it in total joy.

As I respect the bed, I would really be thankful to it in many different ways. After sleeping for some four hours then it was the time to go back to University and do the official part of the work. It was noon then, I took a tea and started another phase of the life called University Work. A tea was really strong enough to keep me alive till the 6 pm in the evening, can you imagine that ? A guy can really survive from early morning tea to late evening tea without eating anything. I was also surprised. There is always something to do and very less time to think about eating.

Just after coming from a university work then immediately went to Shopping for the foods those were not present in the kitchen and it was to my suprise that a friend who lives next door-Arjun cooked something really delicious. A tasty south indian daal. A taste of which reminded me of "banglore". I do not know how people rate an indian food but they are really fantastic if you taste them yourself. If you listen from others then you have had no experience of saying anything on them. This guy is great in cooking. I wish he was a beautiful lady, I would have propose and married with him. I say, the same thing for whoever my room mates are previously it was Teemu and he too is brilliant in cooking.

It is by situation people learn to cook and it is by luck or fate that I met these outstanding people who helped in many different ways in my life. This is what makes the life more memorable and wonderful experience to live. Now, the time is around 8pm and I have written this whole blog about my own life today. A diary of monday 16th june 2008. Well, why should I be worried may be there is something which people can get from it too.

1. Do not waste anything just like that. Think before wasting or you will automatically learn a process of earning a money once you will work for it.
2. Do what you like to do most, do not think about anthing except it.
3. Take care of your health. (Not for me)
4. Appreciate people, things and nature around you.
5. Love eating Indian Spicy especially something cooked by local boy of that county.

Since the breath is still going on, I must keep on breathing till the time I will forget to breath. However, do cherish your life too and have a great weekend ahead. A kind of blessing for everyone who is reading it right now.

Doing

Life is all about doing,We do, We do and We do ! Don't be afraid by seeing the 3 repetitive lines stating the word "we do". The time when we realize the fact that we have to "do" the time we will feel that we are living.

If we observe our parents, we see that they are always doing something. They too are engaged in some work, they won't bother about their ages. They might be very old and they might seem stupid to many of us but they are engaged in doing. Till birth to the death. Have you ever thought why ? Why are we doing rather than not sitting idle just like that.

We are doing only because we cannot be stable. We are movable animals we move from one place to another in search of food, sanitation, health, etc When we move from one place to another it means we are "moving" Now, you might think "moving" is different from "doing". It is same not literally but yeah it is same. You are doing first and moving next. "Doing" comes in your brain. It asks you to move from one location to next and english term you say you are moving rather than doing only because your grammer should be correct.


The very first lesson of life is to do. Next lesson I have not figure out yet. Life is difficult only because we see it in difficult way. Our vision, perception and mindset determines the day. One day you are doing something next day you are doing somethind different. Every day every body is doing something. This little effort of every individual living in the country, Makes the country to do something. We are pulling our country. It is like big ball and it needs effort of "doing" my its men for it to progress or move.


If one person feels lazy, he will make thousand of them lazy. This is the situation in the many developing countries. You got to be enthusiastic. You have to realize the fact of "doing". However, their are many consequences of what is reality and what is virtual world. To sum up, Wake up and start doing the things you like the most. It is never late and it will never be late !


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Take it.

Take everything in your life as positive. There are things that your friends, relative and all people around you will tell about you. The day you are born and from the very day you start learning the things and start to know about the world, family,friends- from that onwards you will get loads of information about you. Every body would like to give you some suggestion, comments about this and about that. Take everything inside you as positive. There will be times when you will also have to deal with negative comments. But these comments should not stop you. Take it. Nothing wrong is going to happen in them. Once some 7 months ago, I myself used to teach to some 45 students in one college. It was a very good and nice experience which I myself achieved in very little time. At the last lecture that I had to give, I asked the students to give me the feedback about the course. There were very good and encouraging feedback and comments about the way I taught them. There were also very rude and negative comments. So, Life is just like this- We are some random particle in constantly in motion. Sometimes we some how come across the other particles just like that and to learn from them. It is very good thing if we can share, care and tear the differences that exist between us and them. Positive does not imply anything here. Positive can be any words, any gesture or any comments. Negative can be all these things but in opposite way. However, We all should understand the fact that it is not going to last long. We are temporary. Nothing is permanent. Let us not assume our life as permanent living species in this planet. We are here for some task and let us do that task to our best of caliber. Take it.