Showing posts with label curious struggle. Show all posts
Showing posts with label curious struggle. Show all posts

Friday, January 9, 2009

A happiest person alive in heaven

Today at this moment-

Let us assume that the story that I wrote yesterday (Today Thursday at 17 hours-) is Fiction. Then at least my readers and friends could and will relax a bit.

Thank you Paul for letting me know that, "Don’t try to be all things to all… women… it’s impossible, and… it’s not our responsibility… this one belongs to a higher intelligence… and the universe holds the answer…"

Thank you Jessica for your heart touching article. I think I know the answer and I will try to put words to your question. ("how I can sort my feelings out").

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Women is the source of every energy in the Universe. They are not impossible but our intelligence does not let us understand the possibilities in them. We are limited by our knowledge to understand the vast range of possibilities a women has and carries every day.

There are no right answers or wrong answers but all of the answers are just answers. Some of those answers satisfy us and some of them are just words.

Life is a lesson which should be learned in every moment and in every path we take. There are lessons that we learn from our family, from our friends, from our school and others. But a lesson women teaches us in our lives are far more important than anything else. A women if wants can create the universe and destroy the universe. She has the potential which I feel very little to describe.

In marriage- she is the one who should decide weather to stay with the person or leave the person.

In life- she is the one she should decide how to care her children and husband.

In love- she shows how she can care more than her life about her partner and she is ready to accept him at any given time.

In Career- She is the blessed to give the direction and motivate her partner.

So and so forth. There are many ways a women is vital human without whom a existence seems impossible. Well- W O M E N .The five letter words have great meaning. The last three letters means us- MEN. But has any body ever wondered why there are two additional letters in front of the MEN.

English language experts might tell us why? If I have to make a guess then I would say- W and O these two characters could represent many things and many words.

Love is not the destiny.Love is just love. Tomorrow if I have to leave the person whom I love then I will have many reasons in front of me and these "reasons" will force me to take the decisions against me. These reasons will ask me to take the decisons which I do not like but again, I have to make the decision.

A human nature is very childish. When we get something in life we are happy and we do not get that particular thing or person in our lives we are bound to be sad. We regret and we feel the guilt we are thinking thousand times what did I do wrong? What is my fault? Why did she left me? Did my words does not come out right?

A person is wise when he understands that not everything can be gained easily. For example love- A love is a fresh feeling which is momentary just like a smile.

See for example the differences in culture, race and religion but smile has a common form and presentation. WE all smile and when we all smile it is same despite any culture, race and religion.

Feelings cannot be easily suppressed. When Miss B saw Mr. A for the first time they fell in love. They wanted to be together but Miss B was raped and tortured. Miss B felt that she is not eligible and good enough for Mr. A she decided to go away from Mr. A and live her own life. While she decided she will go away, she thought the distance would shorten and lessen her pain from what she had encountered. She knew that she cannot now give fresh love to Mr. A. She wants to quit her life but some how she lives and marries with other person. She has couple of kids. She has a family. She has children but she lost her love.

She wants to know about his life, what is he doing or where is he? How would he feel when I feel something? She has questions which concerns her life and mostly about "his" life. She wants to know about him.

Because once she went far away from him. Now even though she has family she thinks most of the time about him.

Mr. A came back in her life when her sister somehow stayed with him. Mr. A is alone and he does not yet have any girls. Mr.A still has the feelings for Miss B but Miss B is married and settled.

How could Miss B happy? Is her happiness means watching others around and feeling the same? Will she ever forgive her about the decisions she took on his own while departing from Mr. A?

What if she would have told the story just after she was tortured to Mr. A? Would Mr. A accept her then? What would have happened ?

Many of the times women are very negative in the decisions they make. It is because they are thinking always good for US (MEN). They do not want to hurt our feelings or even go away from our lives without any valid reasons.

However there are people and women who take such decision.

1)Some women might think that, Mr. A's are not good and they cannot make her happy through entire live.
2)Some women might think that, Mr. A's are too good and easy, let us try those who are little difficult and non predictive.
3)Some women just cannot be with Mr. A simply because they are now tortured or raped and they think they are impure. They cannot give pure love to Mr. A's.
4)Some women just wanna have fun.
5)Some are going through difficult situation because they have sufficient valid reasons in front of them to leave Mr. A's.

Now Among these five mentioned points depending upon the women and there inner self they choose it. These points can vary depending upon the time, circumstance and many other factors.

Therefore, The decision is about how to live a life with happiness after not getting the love of your life?

What would you do? Should you leave every day with compromise or should we try to find other women or men in your lives. What is your mental state of mind currently saying? Would you take the initiative and be brave with yourself and fight with every single period in your lives thinking about the person who would have been perfect partner?

There are few steps if you want happiness-
http://www.kalwar.com.np/2008/12/7-things-to-do-to-be-happy.html

(I would suggest to think about these because I have been testing these steps with people and I still do not know if they are really going to be the final seven steps in future. A valid theory for every one of us. Just try to ponder on them too. )

Now if you want to get love that is Mr. A back in your life--

Again, there are reasons in front of you. These reasons will not let you decide against you. If you go against your reasons then it could result into problems. Such as (Your family members might say you something bad, your culture resists you, etc)

Now at this moment- Think if you are Miss B what you want? I know you cannot resist the feeling because your sister is close to Mr. A. If you are really a sister then wouldn't you want your Mr. A to come home -- May be he is interested in your sister and he might even want to get married ?

But again, His decisions are important. After hearing all these happenings if your partner understands how you are feeling then he might just let you go.

However, it all depends on the way you want to live.
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Well, I am not alive. I am not human and my life is the life of an angel. I can see the pain and sorrow. I can feel what Miss Y feels about love for her life. I am a air which can just be felt. Nothing else.

I want to touch her. I want to sweep her tears from her eyes when she is feeling the pain. But I know even if she could see me, she will not feel the touch of human in me.(Because I am a angel)

I wish I could come down to earth and live for a day. I wish I could come down to be with her for a day. I wish I would touch her and kiss her. I wish, the feeling of her first touch and the first kiss. I want to experience only once. Can I?

I do not know what is happiness but I wish if I am on earth with that loving memory of her first kiss and first touch I will spend my rest of life.

I wish in finding pleasure to those feelings are called happiness then that is what I am.

At this moment and on this day -
A happiest person alive in heaven.

Friday, January 2, 2009

PP theory

I truly believe that women came into existence for the purpose of only men. There are no other purpose of women existence. This does not mean that, women do not have rights. Yes they have and they should be given equal opportunity. I think there are some group of people who does not understand the value of women existence. The more pain the more pleasure phenomenon is around the world.

PP (Pain gives Pleasure) Theory is such that, the more pain you hear from your partner the more pleasure other partner will receive.

The "PP" theory is result of my own personal experience. I think the same applies in the world back when there was Adam and Eve in Christianity and When there were God and Goddesses existence in Hinduism.

This theory has never changed and will not change ever. (Why not?) This will not change simply because those who are in pain have to take it for granted.

There are laws made for those who commit such an act. Such as Rape, Visiting brothels and selling young girls and children to any humans may it be the "white" or "black" or "big guys".

To hear such a news is interesting and at the same time sad. Those events has to be stopped or even should be limited or minimized to far greater extent.

One of the common problem of this world is- Sex trafficking, child abuse, addiction (watching porno using internet or T.V.) and most importantly terrorism.

I think many countries are fighting for

1. Oil (Petrol, gas, Kerosene and etc.)
2. Land (Kashmir in case of India and Pakistan)
3. Energy (Nuclear and Electric )
4. Power (Political, Fight for recognition )

I think many humans are fighting for

1. Sex (Sex trafficking, child abuse, pleasure)

The above four listed points can vary depending on countries and there policy but the one that is listed in the bottom will stay as long as human being exit on this planet.

I am sorry to say but I know it has no end.

Monday, December 22, 2008

Veronica Decides to Die

A book that is very well written and greatly presented. I know I have "Veronica Decides to die". It is a hard work and great art of a brilliant author. It is you "Paulo".Well done.

After reading your book, I started seriously thinking on the question which needs real research by great researchers in the world. Only one question which researchers should answer is that-

1)Why do people commit suicide?

Let me go through some of the things that I have figured out till date.There are many answers to the same question by many people and I may sometime agree on the issue and sometimes I may not agree at all.
The point is all do one thing which is "suicide", although the execution and implementation of the suicide might be different. What causes the humans to commit for suicide? I think the suicide is higher in Women than in Male but why do people have to think that they are going to quit the life?

One common cause is that,

Humans
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Problems
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Sadness
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Depression (Extensive)
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Lack of purpose in living
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Kill yourself

The process is Six step phenomenon where these six step phenomenon works like this.

1) Humans
We all are humans and we know there are our needs, our desire, career, life, relationship, friends, family, culture, country and our vision and motto for life. We know that we are going to achieve something or want something in our life. We have this quest and search for living happily ever after and smiling all the times (especially even in worries)

2)Problems
We all face problems. Our problems can be same and at the same time it can be different too. A personal problems such as lack of skill, lack of knowledge, divorce, physically obliged, sexually dissatisfied, displeasure, also work problems, career problems, struggling to make enough money, dreams and vision which results into self problems, distress, stress, anxiety, irritation, anger and grief and many more. These are all common problems that we face in daily life.

3)Sadness
The problems are the root cause of Sadness. The problem can result into Sadness. You feel sad, because you are going though divorce. Or, let us say, you feel dissatisfied because your friends earn better salary then you do, or let us say, you are facing career problems with no position offered for higher studies and so on. Therefore, the problems can result into Sadness in our lives.

4)Depression (Extensive)
(Why?) Well, Depression because this is root cause of making you think that you should quit your life. The depression especially extensive. It might come when you are alone, when there is nobody around you. When you feel lonely and you are in darkness. This might give you enough reasons to think that you should "check out" from your life.

5)Lack of Purpose in Living
We are humans and we live on purpose. We have a good purpose to live our life simply because we are either Engineers earning a good salary and we have a nice job or we are doctors serving patient daily, or we are professor giving lecture to the student, or we are authors writing and telling our stories all around, or we are artist who is painting his vision. Life is full of purpose and without purpose we lack everything. When there is feeling of lack of purpose in living then we think well, now I do not have anything to do. What if, you imagine that you do not have anything to do? what will happen when you do not have anything to do ?

6)Kill yourself
This is the best solution when all of your previous five steps are ready. When you are gone through above five steps or even few of them then you are finally ready to "check out" from your life. You do not feel anything in this state. You do not have any opinion on any body. You cannot take any lessons inside. Nothing can go inside you. Only thing that is going to make a mark in your life NOW-Kill yourself. Now, you want to see how would "I" be after I killed myself? Where would I go? Since Nobody wants me, why should I live anymore? There is NOBODY for me? I am alone and I was alone, why should I live? What is the purpose for me to live any longer? I am a burden in this earth? a

These question will drive a human to finally quit the life.


Therefore, when a human goes through these six steps they can really go for a long long holiday. The root cause of problems should be discovered early in the life. There are many ways to avoid it. Unlike going through these problems one should actually think about doing something positive and good.

1)Everybody in this earth are unique. They are made for some purpose.
2)All humans are born special and they should die special. (Not like a coward by committing suicide.)
3)There are never any reasons for "love", there are never any reasons for you being alone.A man who loves his aloneness is capable of love, and a man who feels lonely is incapable of love.
http://mybheja.blogspot.com/2007/08/being-alone.aspx
4)Live not for yourself, live for others.
5)When you decide you want to kill yourself, first decide to smile at 1000 child.
6)Learning never stops and imagine being old writing book, telling your story to your grandchildren or your children, Everyday event adds to one page of journal in your life.
7)Think, Learn, Educate, See and Feel the world with similarities. Hope is the best medicine in darkness.

Good luck and live your life.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Free Content

Free Content is the biggest question now a days. As I have read the previous comments in your blog it appears to my knowledge that, there are multiple views on free contents.

Some of the authors have pointed out that, free content is good and some says, it is bad. Some has a great idea on how technology has transferred over the period of time.

The matter of choice should be given to humans and only humans alone. The choice of either using the computer and reading the content for free or visiting the book store and buying a book is different all together.

As a author, only thing that comes in your mind is you have a very good idea and this has to come out in public. People should be aware of what is going around and what is happening around the world also how your idea is really related and how you can benefit from your “best ideas”. At the point of writing you are not thinking about marketing or collecting big revenues or even dreaming to win a Nobel Prize for your work.

The path that I am traveling has been traveled by somebody else. There are millions and billions of humans in the world. Those who are currently alive and those who are no longer. Whatever I am doing has been done already. I am constantly thinking that I am doing something new but I also have to realize that what “I” as the person am doing has already been done or is being done somewhere in some part of the world.

Well, Although technology in every day life cannot be ignored and one has to benefit from the usage of the technology. It is always a good idea to use the technology and benefit from the advantage of it. After all this is for us.

The generation that are is evolving is most of the times posting the content on the internet- let us say for example “technorati” where there are millions of contents posted every day.These blog posts and articles have thousand of great ideas but how are they really making any point? Will they really reach to the right people at right time?

To have a greater impact and greater socialization of “your ideas” it has to be used efficiently, in a proper manner.

We do not know how to make benefit or money from our work but, “Giving is the best thing we know as the writer.”

It is good idea to deliver the content for free but at the same time it is bad idea to really give everything for free.

Well, I do not agree that “beauty is free”. Beauty cannot be free simply because it is in the nature. Simplicity of the beauty is free but beauty does not lies in being free. Let me give you one example.

Let us say, you see the flower. You see this flower which is red and your personal favorite color is also red but some how you have a color blindness and you cannot see the color red. One of your very best friends come near to you and she says, Wow what a beautiful color and flower. You cannot see the particular flower but you still admire with the beauty.

Imagine now you do not have color blindness and you can see the flower. In this situation, you will see the red flower, you appreciate the beauty of that flower but you cannot have it. It is not free. It has its own life. It is an object which lives on its own. The life cycle of this beautiful red flower is with the Nature.

Similar analogy holds true with the “free content”. The content and ideas are just floating around us all the time. The matter of choice for picking up “whose” idea could be trusted depends upon the humans all around the world.

Selection should be given to people either to use free or not. However, free does not makes the content valuable and not free does not make ideas famous.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Monday again !

I have this tendency of hating one thing and that hate does not come out of blue. I hate only one day and that day is today. I hate because I do not know what else I can hate?, I do not know if there is anything else in the entire world I hate. But again, Time and time I always ask the same question to myself- why?

Is it because nothing works for me on this particular day or is it simply because I do not get what I want on this day. Then again, I ask with my self why is this happening to me? I do not hate food, neither do I hate, climate, I do not hate culture, I do not hate the word hate, I do not hate black or white, I do not hate color, sky, moon, life, death, neither do I hate my friends, nor do I hate my self but again why is this particular day that I hate?

Deep down inside me I have a think- I am ... , These three dots says that, I have some thing superior which makes me different than rest of us. I do not want to say that "I am God", I do not want to say that I have magic hands which can perform miracles, as we expect God can but I simply do not know what these missing dots are in my life. These missing dots always reminds me that there are people who need me. There are people in the world who are hungry for my lessons.

These reminds me and says me that, I am being proud of what I am. I think, re-think my strategies of hating this particular day. The reality cannot be spoken very easily and I cannot say what is wrong or what is right. One day I will try to figure out why I hate this day !

As general I observe, "when you say good things to people, people will return you good things" but how about saying something stupid- it comes back right on your face.

Similarly, when I hate the day, the day hates me too. But again, this is not very true. I do not hate the day. I hate my self on this day. When I say, "my self"; this means- I have something inside me which "demands", "needs" and is "full of desires".

These three quoted words are making be selfish and proud. These words are demands of my own, needs that I want and the desires of reaching or getting them fulfilled. When I ask these in my mind, Mr. Mind argues completely with me and says, "Well, Dear this is not possible today".

When he says, today- that obviously means the day I hate which is Monday.

Friday, September 5, 2008

What do you associate with tower?

Tower is associated with our imagination. What we imagine, is what we think the particular thing is associated with. A tower is the peak, a high tall thing which can be used in many ways.

Early it represented evil, later people associated with the positive connotations. It also represents the place where death meets the birth. It is the place where people some time go and kill themselves.

It can also be place where people go and enjoy themselves. It is the place in our mind which always demands something from the things associated in the real world. With these things, we can associate anything.

Based on what people have done in the past with tower, we try to do the same but the result does not occur different because, what some body else have already discovered, we will discover the same.

No difference is found when the tower in one region of the world gives light to every one around the village and in the next region it is used for the same purpose. But what if, some body uses as the negative symbol and in some other place it is associated with positive symbol.

What we associate with “tower” is what we associate with the “mountain”, “heights”, our emotions and with the happiness. All these associations are some how inter related and these inter relation gives us one common thing in our mind.

These association tells us that, we think differently on different things which is totally wrong. All these are for good purpose. Nothing is build just like that. Everything around the world comes with values and with some purpose.

Imagine a world where there was no water, no mountains, no green leaves and now imagine you being in such world. What would you associate with your life then ?

Our associations can be different on different things but those are just our perceptions. And I think perception differs in many ways from people to people, from culture to culture and from country to country, also from religion, sex, race, and through many other ways.

Anyways, to answer what you associate with tower- I would rather say that I do not associate anything with tower simply because I do not associate anything with any entity. It does not mean that these things are useless but it means that- these are useful and there is no association. These things also have life and these life will only be understood once we understand what is life.

Knowing something and telling something which you do not know are two different ways of looking at things in our life.

I do not know what is the association of what, but I can surely tell you that-whatever we associate is just a false assumption on our ideas in our general mind.

Tower can be assumed as death, but at the same time it can also be associated with life, light or whatsoever. It depends on what a person is thinking while he is thinking of association of the things being asked.

It also depends on the past experiences and future demands or desire with the things for example “tower”.

Well, I think I have given my point on what I associate on what, I need to read others point too.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Bread and Circus

“Bread and circus” can make us happy or do we have to find out happiness in some other things. Do we know how much one has to work to earn a bread ? Do you know how much joy one has to fill to dance or see the circus?

Happiness is satisfaction. It is the feelings which comes automatically for a certain period of time and again fades away. The bread and butter is needed to keep yourself fit and fine. You will eat and you will survive.

There are different ways to figure out what ways you will earn a bread or go to visit the circus. One can apply many approach to visit to the circus and then again it depends on those event that will make you successful to earn the bread.

A heart full of wish for the love is the heart which is happy. It does not have to be demanding. Bread and circus still can bring loads of joy and happiness in one’s life if you are satisfied with your every event or activity.

Once a person is satisfied with every day activity he/she can really feel that “happiness” which was asked in the question. It does not allow those who are in search of happiness to get the real happiness. It is because, those who want will never get and those who do not want gets.

Humans today are searching and they are moving very fast. Every body wants to achieve all there dreams and fulfill there desire in quick succession. Nothing comes automatically and one has to understand that it is not easy to get the desire of their wish in quick time.

One has to wait till the final output really shows up. How can a person be satisfied with only the bread and circus when he does not know what is real satisfaction.

In my case, I would be fully satisfied if some one would give me a bread and circus not only today but for ever and ever. It is because I do not have any desires to achieve big but desires to find satisfaction in smaller things.

I wish love.

Teej festival is celebrated in our country with the women fasting entire day without even taking the glass of water. When a husband says,"drink water" then a women is suppose to drink the water in the afternoon. What if the husband does not says anything. Will the women wait entire night just for the drop of the water ? Will she be able to resist the festival or should she follow her desire of thirst and quench it at that moment ?

Is the fear of death greater than the affection towards the other person ? Is it because one has to give everything for the other people. How long can we stay in a day without eating anything. For 3hours, 6 hours or even 10 hours; it does not matter how long you can stay without eating most important thing is how long you can wait for some one who is not in front of your eyes ? If I was a women it would have really been difficult for me to stay that long period without even drinking from the day till the evening.

I wish love, I wish that love is similarly present in every flow of our blood. I wish I can also wait for some one to say, "drink water honey". And after hearing some one drinks water on behalf of your words. Wow, Isn't it amazing that some one can stay longer for entire day without drinking. I wish I had such love too.

We always have to be satisfied with what we do have and always have to feel happy with what we do not have. This we call as the life.

I wish love.
I wish in my blood.
I wish in my ears.
I wish in my lips.

I wish love.
I wish it in my breath.
I wish she hears.

I wish she says,
I wish love.

Not in my ears
In breath I take,
Every morning I wake,
I wish love

Friday, August 8, 2008

Scald-2008

Couple of days ago, I came into the Scalds 2008, in Sweden. Right now at the present I am in Fiskoboda the name of the place in sweden. It is really getting exciting with every day. The day before that is on the 6th of August, 2008. The day started with the Conference in the expressive mood however, it was not as it should have been or as we might have expected.

I was representing the Finland. We all were invited for this conference from the different countries. Scandevia together with other countries were invited for the conference. The conference has loads of practical skill training, grouping together, networking and having loads of skill session to learn, educate, discuss and of-course party and have fun in the conference.

The entire things is about the organization called AIESEC. The theme for the conference was "Leadership development". The theme was highly big topic and I guess, this theme has loads of delegate thinking how a person will gain leadership ideas and so on.

What I personally belive was there were really some sucking plenary and boring early morning discussion as of now. Right now I am having this stupid discussion about something which is irrevelant. By the time every body is shouting in this hall I thought of something esle and start to blog about it.

How would some one hear properly when every body is talking in the room ? This is really boring part of the early morning sessions. One of the good thing we learned was "Home group". The home group has different nationalities and one leader leading his way to the home group.

In this home group, we get to know each other together with that we get to play different practical skills. There are some games related with the leadership skills. Yesterday, when I started my day it was really boring but later when we started the session with the home group, it all flied.

I felt it good and my mood was really getting better with the day progressing and with the day in the home group. Most of the times in AIESEC there is late night parties with some theme. Two parties has been finished with the first theme belonging to Ice age and the second with PinaCola.

Some couple of more days to go and not expecting anything out of this conference simply because I do not expect anything in life too. How can some one ask me to expect something from a conference or any event.

Most important things in life is knowing people, sharing and understanding what they want to achieve in life and so on.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Unstable mind.

Every day a success does not come you way and the success means not the achievements but getting things done as per your own expectations and experiences.It is not the life but the life with all smaller events that makes life different and challenging.

When a mind is not working prolerly, everything goes wrong and nothing works as per the mind planning activity and as yesterday, today is the same too. A real thing in life is controlling your mind. It is great challenge and the question bigger than the question iteself. It is to our mind which makes our understanding more clear and more specific to the time line or subject line.

When a person knows how to live, he will not know where to go and when he knows how to love he will not know what is love. Everything is so like puzzle and everything has to be first solved by mind. It has to be made very clear and simple. A real challenge is not in living but living with joy and madness. Living full of potential.

A purpose of life and life of purpose is different.When you are angry with yourself everything goes wrong. A person should learn to love himself. A loving part is very difficult and very complicated not because it is for one self but to others as well. One has to learn how to love oneself first. Loving oneself requires great bit of motivation and hard work. How can you love yourself ?

Can you say that your body is nice or you look beautiful or handsome or something like that or can you just say your physical body part is nice and you love yourself or is it different than loving your physical body part.

If it is different than loving your physical body part or is it the same ? How is loving physical body and love different ? Everything when tasted once, and after the liking of thing it becomes habit. Just like an addiction. A cigrate once tasted goes on beyond the likeness and it becomes addiction and later habit. Once it is changed to habit it will not be easily turned back to a normal stage.

Sex is something similar, we just first wants to taste it after getting a good taste of it we want to get more deeper into it. Once we go more deeper taste it usually becomes a addiction, In the process of wanting more then the "want" turns into habit. A habit then does not usually want to change easily.

It goes on and on. Even if you want to change or just think of changing it..,It will not change easily. It will then need a real hard work to let it go or do give up the habit that you have adapted. How many of us will live without sex ? How many of the kinds that are present in this world will live as per them and not per others. ? The last question means, can you live as per your heart ? Can you go and do everything as per you own mind surely it will be difficult because we get influenced by outside or outside society. We generally do not go and live as per our own heart.

A big challenge is living a life just as we want and not as others will make us to live. It is good to look at ours own personal habit and do things according to the personal desire. The mind which is disturbed will always talk disturbing things and the mind which is stable, cool and calm is relaxed mind. A relaxed mind will give best even in the times of difficulty.

Friday, June 27, 2008

Awakening Mind

Life is full of surprises, some time there are good days are some times there are bad. It is similar to unpredictable climate. A climate where some time it rains and very next minute it stops raining. It is similar to the changing process of climate. It is like that because we are not sure which moment will bring us the joy and which moment will make you feel depress and annoyed. It is just like that.

This unpredictable nature of life gives us joy to live. A joy which bring smile on our face. A smile is temporarily present. It does not last for long. Look when you smile you smile for the moment and then it goes automatically from your face. Laugh and smile are two different things. When you laugh, you are free and you give everything to a laugh but when you smile you are feeling pleasure and happy.

A world is you and you are the creator of this world. It is you who have taken this journey and you got to do what you got to do. It has nothing to deal with your past or future. It is you and you along the road. No one will ever be changing what you are going to do, every body around will support you. A support does not mean only moral or physical or any mental it can be any. You just have to understand the people. Once we start understanding the people, people will be helpful to you only if they can help. It is by knowing then you will know yourself better.

A gold is gold, a diamond is diamond why is this mind just so frozen like a snow which does not want to melt ? Why are my behavior changing only when the sun light falls into it. What is wrong with my thinking ? All these questions take you to one place and that place is very open, very interesting and very challenging. It is called "mind". A place where you need lot of thing to make clear. A place which makes assumption, thinking, learning, prediction, planning, sensing, visualizing and many more.All these things are done in one place and that place is called mind. More than mentioned are done actually and one who can control what is going or can see if in one's own mind what is going on or taking place then it will be of great help.

Unpredictable things are good for health.It is good that something goes beyond our thoughts and something just happens without our knowledge. It is sometimes good to know how life takes our thoughts in many other places. It is known that we are unknown and we are unknown just because we want to know the known.

Some times a simple statement makes us wary about our life and some times it is just to see if anything is going to happen. A mind which is pure, which is fresh and cool. A mind which needs nothing except the fresh thoughts and a mind which ignore any wrong impression on any body or any living entity is a mind which is capable of learning.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

You

Well, a great day with a morning showing a great glory. A nice fresh air just outside a corridor with a deep fresh air going down the body and giving a feeling that you are alive. A fresh air and a fresh start of the day.

Many of the times we worry about many of the things in our life and we are not sure about if that things are going to work for us or not. Why do we feel that something should work for us ? What is that keeps us guessing all the time ? Is it just the function of our brain or is it just some hallucination. Is it our desire or is it that we really are eager to get.

When we are worried about certain things then that particular thing does not work as per we want. It is because we will desire of the things but the desire of those things will not bring the success in our life. Every great things are free. Internet is free, I would not say that love is free because love is totally different than what we think love is or love should be or in some form of definition of love. Many of the things are free in the world. One example of free things is- Smile. It is for free.

A golden life that we have is for free, a distance we travel by our foot is free. A mind which is free of values, ethics, religion, authority, differences is the pure form of mind. A mind which is at early of the existence. It will not ask or it will not want or have a desire for the things. It will work accordingly, it will work as per it thinks or as per it should work. It is not directed by anyone nor it is by any organization, religious body or any other events. It is alone and at the same time it is with every one.

It is doing many of the things which we would think of doing. It will be there and it will give the pleasure or satisfaction of being there or achieving when somethings are being done. How do you feel when you finish a hard day work ? It gives you pleasure. It tell you that, now i can relax. now is the time that i am happy or now is the time i am getting rid of this task.

I would call it as breaks. A break or time interval between any task is important. It is utmost necessary. How many of us, take breaks between our work ? Well, Many of us do. We take break and some times we take many of them just to get out from the work. It relaxes the mind. It will give a something beyond what we are doing to think about.

A person should not be bounded by one thing, he should be deeper than the lakes and deep than the deepest ocean in the earth. When you measure a person by his strength than many of the times we see the grades of his degree. It is not correct. Academic judgment and real life judgment of the person is not same. Many great person who created the world as today do not had a good college degrees. A lot of example could be seen. It should not avoid or make you feel that you should also do the same but it should make you relax by giving you a feeling in you- Do not worry. Keep on doing the things you like the most and one day, those things which you like the most will give something in return to you.

Want, desire and all these are just a flick of our brain. A brain triggers every seconds and it demands many of the things from us. There is an influence of brain not only from you but it can be from other brains too. I mean, from your friends, relatives or some one who is near you. One has to learn to handle his/her brain then you could start behaving a brain which comes close to you.

Well, it is just a process and it is not as difficult as it might sound. Welcome to the world where you handle your activity and you are the creator of your sufferings, you do the changes in you which make you look inside you and finally you become a light for yourself.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

MAN

Some times you are empty, you do not feel anything, you do not have great ideas to talk about but instead it is not the habit you should develop by not doing anything or the things you like to do most.

Just carry on with doing what you do most, if you feel of writing then please go forward and do it. If you feel like making love do not stop at that moment just do it. It is the very moment which is very close to you. Everything else expect that is useless. It is worth nothing. The second you are reading this or you are doing whatsoever is the best moment in your life.

It is this very second that makes you feel that you are alive besides so many people struglling to live a life. It is this moment which reminds that you can do whatever you wish, in this moment you can travel thousand distances just by imagining. Never leave this moment.

Early in the morning, waking up with the new hope of seeing something great or hearing a good political progress in the country but nothing changes in overnight. It is the same. It was well expected to me that some of my work were not going to be success and it happened just as I expected besides that also it gave some pain.

This is the life, everything if wished becomes success then who will make a pleasure of living in the pain. A relationship as said by my wife is just like a mirror. It gives the reflection and nothing more. It can tell many things but I do not know much in detail why she said it as a mirror. I think it will be better explained by her. I wish I can ask her and deliver the message but sooner I get I will write why a relationship is similar to as a mirror.

Everything we do, act or react to is just a simple gestures which speaks a lot what we are going through, A person after watching a good football game gets excited to see his personal favorite team win but at the same time other person who is supporting his team looses and he is depresed. Meaning, there is always two side of every coin. A person can be happy or sad but I think there are some person or human who can do both at the same time. You can also be happy or you can be sad. You can be happy that you supported one team and it win and you can feel for the other person who supported the team which loose. It is his lost that gave you win.

One has to win and other has to loose that is the nature of Nature itself. Two cannot win, No gain without pain. In this mother earth, It is taught well to us that nothing comes easy and you to work very hard to gain anything but do not store your gain such as money. It will make you rich but it will not necessarily bring you happiness.

A man who works hard and at the same time utilizes what his money for the right time, right work and in right situation is the MAN. One has to learn to be man- it is also a process. Every one can be regarded as Man but not every is man.

Well, I wish every one to become and set an example of being a man by doing all the goods to Nature, country and society. Cheers !!!

Friday, June 13, 2008

Friday Supplements

Wake up early in the morning at around 2 am and just get ready to start your work. It is not easy. It is not difficult too. Once you make up your mind- you got to go for it. A guy who is working for a delivery work- paper delivery.

The deadline to submit all the papers are within 3 hours-nothing can stop you. Rain, Storm and Snow. Despite all these you got to finish your work and do it in proper manner. Imagine waking up first and then putting all your energy to doing the work. Second think of doing it. Third you got to relax for the work you did and you got to feed yourself very nicely.

People who have not done the work before will take it for granted. They can assume it as very easy task but once you do it. You know it better than anybody else. How you feel, experience and suffer with the pain of doing it. There are no alternatives despite doing it because it took 9 months to get a job.

A job in Finland which has been applied by the time I came to till date. Almost 9 months, after such a duration you get it and now you are left with your own self decision of doing to not doing. Either you struggle to survive or you die.

People who cannot see your progress are always worried about others. They will never have time to look at themselves and realize the fact that in what level of water they are dipping. A person who wants to think about himself and wants to make a dispute about others are those who you might think is close to you. He will do it for you, he will be good in front of you and at the same time he will tell thousand different things which will put you in trouble against others.

In the world with many difference it is not easy to find the similarity. It is not worth anything even if you try to find the similarity. It is just a periodic. A friend you think can be your greatest of enemy and the enemy you think can be one of a good friend. It is unknown till the known comes in your mind.

A "sorry" will not make a dead man come alive nor will "thank you" gives the pleasure of most pleasurable moments you want to see or the satisfaction you think you desire. A person either born in one land or no land is a just a person. A life is just to live and to think what else you have done for others. At the very end you will not know what has been done or will be done.

When a pain is given to you by the Nature, a pleasure will also be given. When a Nature wants you to see you happy at the same time it will also ask you to get depressed. A unexpected can bring you expected but the expected will not bring anything for joy.

A moral of life just goes something similar like that. Well, It is the Friday again, Many of people will think it is end of week but do not think it is the end of entire world. There will be many more Fridays to come just sit and watch. One could be pleasurable other could be even more pleasurable.

Friday, May 16, 2008

Listen to your heart.

Men cannot leave the women but it is always the decision of women to leave the Men. I am not generalizing but many of the times I have seen many women dumping the Men not the opposite way around.

It is the nature of women which is constantly changing and which always want to feel good or happy or depressed at the same time. The unpredictablel nature of the women makes it vulnerale to many men. They could not resist and suddenly they have to break the relationship.

The lasting relationship need load of commitment from the both side. It requires the dedication and hardwork of liking some one. Of giving your entire life for the happyness and good of some one. It also requires that you care, you are worried if your partner is worried and your partner is worried when you are worried.

Some body needs you constantly, how would you know ? Just be with the person, even the person makes you cry- there will be time he will make you happy too. The time you decide you are no longer want to be the person is the time you make a worng move. When it is enough, you think you cannot tolerate but you are not making an intelligent decision by not facing the problems.

The problems you face are just the part of life. One has to face it and try to solve it together because "Together you can". It is the mutual work, it requires both of you and your partner.

Be yourself, listen to your partner and ask what makes him feel good. You can do one more task by the time you decide that you are no longer want to be with your partner. Just sit and write a note. Write all the good in one column and all the bad your partner has done for you.

If the good exceeds the bad then you are making a worng move. But once you wil see that bad has exceeded the good then you will try to fogive your partner. This process will help you to know more about yourself then the person who likes or loves or cares about you.

Some times by making a decision does not solve the problem and some time by not making solves it. It is just there somewhere flying in the air you got to find it. It is close to you but you could not see it. The place you were born will be the place you will die but that is reality and that won't change. Only thing you can change in yourself is your habit, you personality, your life, your behaviour, your attitude, your feelings toward other person. You can also change many other things about you if you wish to do it, you will do it.

Relationship are difficult for many people. I find it very easy. I think I am related to everything around me. I am related to the path that take every day to school. I am related to the air that touches me whenever I walk. I am related to all the songs that bird sing. I am related to all those drop of water that fall to make you cool in hot summer months. I am also related to many of the beautiful women who are like angel taking care of me all the time.

It does not matter you being in love or love being with you. Only things matter is how you see yourself in whole situation. How you relate your life in such a context.

Once a strange person saw me and asked me what would happen if I shoot you right now ? I said you will be feel total satisfaction of what you want to do. It does not matter for you me being alive or dead, but It matters to you to kill me and that will give you complete satisfaction.

Do those activities which satisfies you. Remeber to listen your heart and the music that gives pleasure in your soul.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Read and Write

When we are afraid, what is the solution we use. Either we face the problem or we try to escape from the problem. The theory and people who are good at theory will surely tell you the fact that just face the problem and do not escape from it.

Even my child can say that stupid theory but how many of people really follow what is the reality. ? How many of really follow what is true and what should you do one such circumstances. ? There are people who just run away and I have seen- Most of those people are who just say that we have to face the problems. Those are the most of those who do not follow but just say.

Saying and Doing is two different things. It is similar to some what Reading and Writing. Which one is better ? One will give you knowledge and one will produce knowledge. What kind of difference and what kind of thing will distinguish these two great phenomenon in the world?

It is the theory of Read and Write which is continue from the movent of evolution to moment of revolution and it will continue like that. Reading is knowing, trying to learn, hunger for knowledge and Writing is producing, creating and giving knowledge.

These two phenomenon are quite different but at the same time these two are very important too. We are two different kind of people living in this world doing these activities in our life.

There are some people who just say- they are good at saying, and saying or talking does not help. Those kind of people can be categorized as hypocrites, those kind of people I keep them in one group where they just say and they do not do. They say because they think they are saying correct. They want to prove there point. They think they are the best in whatever they do. They can say you something a whole entire day and try to convince you about what they are saying and you will also follow such person.

Another kind of person is those person who does not have anything to say but only he focus his life in doing. He believes in doing and he tries his other mates to do the same. He has followed this path and people might even call such kind of person as stereotype or whatever. A kind of person who only focuses his life in doing. He is all the time creating something even though he is not creating but he is trying to do something. Either it can be watching, fucking, or listening or whatever. These kind of person are always in present and focusing there life in present.


Now if you have to chose among the person what kind of person would you choose in your life ? What kind of person would you follow and what kind of theme your life will follow- Read or Write. To do the both is almost very difficult and it takes a lot of handwork to be success in both the part of the world.

There are people who will pull your legs, in the time of total disarray and total helplessness there would be people who will really try to pull your legs and you have to overcome this activity. The process you follow is entirely yours and yours alone. It is you and your own mind which will decide - What to do next ?

You need a constant faith and support for overcoming this barrier. The faith and support can come in many different ways but it has to come.

There is nothing Science can do except trying, and findings but one thing a faith can do that is satisfying. You can satisfy your soul if you visit 45 minutes in a church. You will not loose anything but you will loose yourself from everything.

It is your decision either you want to follow one religion or two religion but a person like me follows all the religion. I visit every religious place like church, Mahzids and Temples. I do not feel any shy on doing that, As long as the doors of GOD are open I do not differentiate on which door I am entering. As long as I know the names given by us are different for different GOD- I know that we are still illiterate and we still need education. As long as I see difference in the eyes of people I see their lack of knowledge and lack of wisdom.


I am not trying to prove that I am perfect or I am the best only because I do not exits. Welcome to the world of Read and Write. Try to understand what is going on and which one you follow. Either you are the person from Read category or Write category. Either you belong to both. Either you want to visit one temple or church or You want to visit all the religious places. Either you do not see any connection between what my sentence means. It is all you have to decide.

No one will make any decisions on behalf of you- every one will give you suggestion but no one will tell you what to do. Listen to yourself, listen to silence of your soul and listen to sound of silence deep inside you, you will get what you want one day for sure.

Friday, May 2, 2008

Unacceptable

Are you awake ? Good-Now go to the bathroom and do your morning activities. Ok, So you are on your way-Prayed GOD for the beautiful bright sunny day and now you want to go bathroom. But suddenly some one called you. Wait.

Hello, Kalwar- "Either you clean or else you will be kicked out of this place".

Wow !

Good Morning in this place. I know it is good to speak the truth, I know it is very nice to speak the reality and say that you are not good at what you do. I know it. I am not trying here to say that I am right or he is right or some one else is right.
The reality is that Early in the morning before even going to bathroom and brushing your teeth your mate asked you something or says you something that really hurts.

The truth hurts. It is not acceptable by any standards if we do not clean and do not save if you are in other countries. We should always respect the people, energy, whatever like culture, religion, sex, and whatsoever of that country only because that country has give a lot of things to you.

When their are bad times in your life-more bad times comes. It is the phenomenon where every door gets closed, every friends become your enemy and every person you believe would help would not.

In the process of learning we do mistakes, I have not seen any one being perfect. The man who said the words even he does many mistakes but he never wants to accept it. Ok, I did the mistake of not cleaning. Now, Please do not throw me out of room only because I would not afford it and It is difficult times I am going through.

Why should I listen to you ? You are suffering that is your problem. The problem is not mine. The problem is yours and you should solve your problem. Wow. Isn't it so nice. You see others problem and you do not even want to give comment or suggestion or some words that might heal the persons problem you just want to say something that every unknown person would easily say.

Bad days are the days when you do not anything to do, you have skills, education and everything which can easily support your work but only problem you face is that you will be man full of problems. You search here and you search their which gives you nothing. You are a man with emptiness.

It is very easy to complain. Before doing any complain put yourself in others man situation. I know why should some one do it ? But it would be nice to think like that. It will give you some realization that you are being killed every moment. Why the hell in earth you exist ?

Now after getting a very hot Good morning news you go to bathroom do your all activites and think that well, this is life. You got to face it whatever way it comes. It is harsh, it really hurts but why should you worry. Problem you face always get multiplied when you are in deep shit.

It is easy to complain we always do that in our life. We have complain about food, about religion, about GOD, about life, about our car, about study, about whatever we get. It is easy to complain because complain will give us excuse. It will makes us feel that we are superior. Whatever we do and we did are best. We are the best and we have supriority over whatever things or humans or earth we complain about.

It is very easy to seat in drivers seat and complain about some one who is walking in long long highway. The seating in drivers seats means you are comfortable, you have money, you have all the necessary things in your life you want. Now you can easily do what you want.

I am worried in the first place I thought my prayers were heard couple of days ago and I was really happy about it. I thank to GOD for his quick reaction. Now, I would be able to sleep with some good gratification and satisfaction. But the problems multiplies if you are in real problem. Some one just said it that either you do it or you are out. Therefore I have to do it and make that everything is alright and satisfy. If in case I am out- It will really be problem then.

Let me see, we are not perfect said once a friend-Yes we are not. We do mistakes we learn and we should be direct about it. But some times when you are get bite early in the morning before even having taken your morning coffee it hurts. If I were the guy who was angry then probably I would have waited for the right time and would have said in different way. It is easy to make some one cry. Very easy. Say something that is hurtful and the person will get hurt.

How many people in day you hurt ? Every thing is words. If you are polite and at the same time direct then it won't hurt that person but when you are not polite about what you say surely the people get hurt. I am not proving that I am right or worng. I am just explaining my situation.

Hopefully by the grace of GOD everything goes fine and I would not be the victim. Yesterday another nice thing I heard that was in company in UK they ask for traineeship only those person who have valid EU,EEA and UK permit. Those who belong to first world.

Since I come from place where we are looked as minorities and thought as if we are helpless, poor, underpriveliged, uneducated people more importantly the people from third world where people believe that we do not have good rules and regulation, do not have proper manners, and many more. How could someone get a permission to even get traineeship. Their is no opportunity for the people like us.

I am thankful to the country where I am getting opportunity to study. I am thankful to all the people in this country, culture, religion and environment, Nature Thanks for atleast beliving in my or our potential and giving us life changing opportunity.

But I am not thankful to those who makes rules. Those rules sucks. The rule which states "you come from third world, go to your place." In the world where people are measured with the power of their mind still people measure you from the place you come from. Every body wants change, do not worry as longs as we want the change we will get it because it is humans(us) who wants to change.

If nature changes-the whole of human kind will be go in trouble. The days are getting shorter for that. One day, Even the Nature will change. At that time we all will realize that we are and we should be "One", without any discrimination of caste, culture, country, religion, sex, ethnicity, and many more differences.

Monday, April 28, 2008

GOD inside us.

New lesson is always their to learn, Visited the church today-felt like I am close to god. People often say that god is repulsive, imaginary and unbelievable sometimes. I do not know.

My answers would be-I think GOD exits in all of us, the way we speak, the way we think, the way we give our opinion, in our emotional, personal, recreational and all other activities. We should not search for him. He resides inside us. He lives inside us. Every breath we take-he gives us that breath. The ounce of breath that we breath is provided by him.

The bread that we get to eat, the food we always taste, the smell that we smell, the beauty that we see, the love that we share-is the GOD gifts to us. He shares everything with us but we never figure out and we think he is invisible, repulsive and make some thought that he do not answer.

It is not about one single religion, one nation, one person-He exits in all religion but in many different form. He exits in each one of us. He offers us whatever we want. He is the best provider and he plans all our future.

He loves us more than we can think of what love is, we are a treasure to him. He is great curator, he cares us, We need not have to delight him, he is always delighting us. He is the one the greatest encourager.

We may some time suffer, We may have million reason for cry but during all those moment he is taking care of us. Nothing will separate his love to us. He resides on us as our father. He is their in silence watching us, teaching us, taking care of us all the time.

He has a big diary for each of us, He knows our future, he also knows what we are going to do next. He is not worrried because he also know we are getting worried to know what next in our life. He will make us feel better every step we take.

He is the greatest of great, he is the simplest of simple and he is the truthful of truth. In him lies every thing that we can even think of. He will show us the path we need to walk, if we fall in the path he will also pick us up and take us to the exciting journey of our life.

Do not ever feel alone-just because you are not part of church, some organization, some religion because by not being the part of those aspects or in such activities you are not being like others but you are being yourself.

If you become yourself-that is the first lesson of love. The aloneness will teach you many different things when you need them. When you are alone do not ever imagine you really are alone. The GOD resides you at the very moment inside you. Every help you need, ask him. He will find some solution for you.

You may loose your all friends, all your family, all your people near you but you will be very close to your self. The self is your spirit. The spirit of GOD. He will tell you, direct you and give you the suggestions. Whatever suggestion that he presents you are the suggestions from the GOD. Those will never change, those are for your benefit, those are for your future. Those are direct gifts from him just for you.


Oh Jesus, Oh Allah, Hare Rama Hare Krishna, Oh ... , Oh GOD ...,

Help those in need, give us the blessing that we can serve those in need. Bless us with the power of love, lessons and whatever it takes to serve others who are dieying at the moment, those who are starving for food, those who do not have place to go and those who are facing complicated problems in their life.

It might not seem good to mix all the GOD, but my religion is no religion. I follow all the religion. I do not hesitate to eat the beef, at the same time I can also fast for one day and visit Hare Krishna temple. At the same time, I can go to Allah, and pray to him. All the people associated with different religion are just a messenger of GOD.

It is not the messenger I pray, I pray the lessons that they presented during their existence in this earth. I pray to those divine and holy message. I pray to those scriptures, those sentence that they create for the well-being of society and in the name of GOD.

Every body comes naked and has to go Naked. It is only when we get into some age we start to wear clothes and do not show our body inside those clothes. It is similar, we all wear the choice of clothes we like, we all pray and follow the religion we like. Because our real "I" knows that after we have to go Naked and we came Naked.

My intepretation might be great matter for discussion. We can always discuss. GOD is the holy spirit inside us who will take us with him to his home oneday after we finish our work in Earth. His home is very beautiful, one of the best place, the word best might be limited to some extent depending on the way of visulalization, I would say it is the perfect place.

Smile, even you feel lonely, even if their is no one around you, even if you are thought as if you are no one just an ordinary guy from some third world country. Smile is the answer. A simple smile will answer most foolish of question people ask you.

A simple smile will tell you that no one is perfect, a simple smile just like a new born child does when he sees his father does. It is so perfect. The simle should be simple like that. Every thing we do, everything we see, everything we want to perform are mind thoughts our mixture with the earthy matters which always tries us to take away from GOD.

By being close to him, one can imagine a life which just might seem magical. When I say that I was returning from the church- I saw one small kid riding a bike, he was moving in very speed in his bike. He crossed just as we bunch of guys were walking or coming from church. Then the guy applied the brakes and I thought in my mind that "Is he not fallen from the bike ?". I saw the guy at that very moment he was not fallen from the bike-he was still in his bike but just after few seconds he fell, and I smiled by seeing all this event that was happening around me.

No body took care of it. I was surpised to see that. I was thinking is it just a concidence then I thought well-It might be but again I thought Their is never an concidence in our life. Because of our earthy matters we think it is concidence, we find reasons where the reason will just give us excuse. Nothing more.

We all look different, we all have some task in our life to perform, we work every day and night to make our life success, to get good job, get a bungalow, earn good money and make life comfortable. In the process of doing all those events we forget that we should behave just like simple humans. Help others, see if others are smiling or not. Look on their faces, try to find out the reality, try to see, guess and understand what others are feeling at the same time.

It is not the big things that you need to do in order to make some one in need happy, just a simple words. Just a smile, Just a words that do not ever cost anything to you will do the trick.
Welcome to the world where nobody gives damn to what you think, every body is very busy, every body is so busy in their life that they do not have time for even their own kids, even their friends and family.

It is not just bounded by one country, one religion, and one community it is everywhere. The context might be different but the story remains the same. It might be told in different language, and different ways of delivery but the message and impact is the same.

Big question is how to change ?

Change should be brought within ourselves, if we change our country will change, slowly people around us we change and even the religion, sex, cultural aspects everything will change.

Saturday, February 23, 2008

Right Vs Wrong

How do you judge some one ? How can I tell that I am right and my words are mine and mine alone. How can I verify that the words that are coming from my mind are mine and not of some body else. To verify and validate what we speak is one thing and to prove it that what we speak is another.

Two friends were having a discussion on some general topic. One of the friend said that he is right on what he is speaking, another one argued and said no you are wrong, I am right ! Well, This is what happens when both wants to win. One has to loose and who will prove that you are right or you are wrong.

To understand the psychology of human is one the difficult task man can even imagine to find. First you need to understand yourself. To understand who you are is just like study of science where there is no shortcuts to it. Similarly to understand and let's say I am right and you are wrong another task. Whatever we speak and whatever we think we say is correct might not be correct. It can go wrong. "To err is human." Is there any way that we can prove whatever we speak is absolutely correct and it is not wrong. Yes there is one way.

The true meaning of finding you are right or wrong is your intellectual capabilities and your understanding of substance or subject. If you are absolutely certain about the thing you know you can say that yes, this is correct by so and so data...in so and so..

There are people in world who wants to say that they are right and whatever you speak is absolutely correct. Here I am not pointing to any specific people. So, The fact is the words that we speak sometimes we think we are right but it goes wrong because we have to remember that we are not perfect in storing what we have read, or what we have learnt. Our memory is not exactly like the comptuer hard disk where we store and retrieve it later when we need it and it will give you the same exact data.

I don't know may be I talking crap here but it might make sense. There will be fight between right vs wrong and it will go on. Every country wants to prove that I am right and others are wrong. Every culture wants to show that they are right and others are wrong and every religion does want to show the same.

The fight between these two variables will never end and it will go on. The day it stops we can say that day beginning to new era of civilization.

Friday, January 18, 2008

Fear of Failure

Fear of failure is very good thing, i am afraid i think i will not clear my master's. Why am i worried so much may be because if i will fail in this subject i will not be able to live here. Who is going to give me money ? What would happen if i will fail. Surely, I am going to be depressed. I am depressed now and i will be more depressed. Is there any alternative with this ? What if i fail the entire course and not be given chance to write this course again? Why are we afraid of our failures ? Why these failures makes us more depressed ? Why people always smile ? Is living in this planet is all about success and only success. Who thinks Darwin is right ? Struggle for existence. To exist in this planet we have to go through these failures and have to struggle with other species.With the species of our own. We cannot eat each other flesh can we ? The days are not very far. When there will be imbalance then surely the that time we will have to struggle for food. There is vast competition between each of us. Every body is talented. Every body can deliver upto their potential and they are passionate to do the work. Whom to choose ? I myself is trying very hard to get through this but i could not. I ain't got any job. No money, sometimes I listen to this song " I am hustle... am am.. hustle hommie... " Struggling all the way for food, little money to pass this life... and little bit of smile on face. I am worried of failure and i am really worried how to get though this. In life we always something new, always afraid of something and for me i am worried of this failure because this will bring me right down to the earth. I am hopeless,depressed and sad. I am passionately curious but being curious does not give me any pleasure and happiness. Let me see... What happens... Let me pray... Let me have this hope.