Question and Answer

Dear all,

Q)How does someone know that you are doing what you are meant to be doing in this life?

A)This is very good question, Clelia ! If you would know what you meant to be doing then don't you think your life would be boring to live? What if you know about your tomorrow's schedule today? What if you know that tomorrow you are going to meet your husband or wife or your life partner near the garden in the rain and you don't have umbrella. The guy whom you met will have umbrella and he will cover you with his umbrella. What would you do then? Will it be exciting enough, if you know it. (I think it will not be)

Therefore, it is good that you don't know them ahead. All your events and all that is going to happen in your life is unknown and it should always be unknown. Now having said that, you want to know whatever you are doing is right or wrong, isn't it?

By asking this question you already are on right track. Don't be afraid, whatever you are doing is always right and whatever you want to do will be too. It is you who have decided to choose the path and it should be you who knows yourself better than anybody else. Therefore, when you can wake up each and every morning, then you can walk each and every step, even though you are skeptical and fearful of taking or making them. Just move on and don't regret your past or your decisions, don't blame anyone and be truthful. Life will find its way, on its own.

There is also religious description which I can give which is quite different than any of the scriptures ever written but I must stop here.

Please let me know if you need further explanations and if you feel any thing confusing.

God bless you all !

Suffering

Suffering,

Let us go first by what our renowned dictionary has to say,
1: to endure death, pain, or distress
2: to sustain loss or damage
3: to be subject to disability or handicap

etc.

My opinion on Suffering,

Suffering is another open question where this column and my thirty minutes of work on this comment or article will not be enough to all the hungry mind of PCBR (Paulo Coelho’s Blog Readers).

Anyways, Let me give a shot on “Suffering”.

Suffering inevitable, it exits and it will never fade away. As the humanity exits so is suffering. There is no remedy to it and there is no single right answer by anyone.

We are all because of Suffering, we exits because we suffer, we are living because we have to suffer. Every morning I wake up, I start my suffering and every night before I go to bed, I die. Will you belive this? Well, this is what I am.

It does not mean that, I am speaking the what Jesus spoke long time back. I am just saying that “We all are God”. We have Jesus and Mary inside us, within us. We are made up of bones, muscles and physical entiry with eternal lives of Jesus, Mary, Buddha, Allah and all.

Those people (I am sorry since I am saying them people), those were all God since they were normal human being like us. So we are too.

Christianity speaks about Jesus being the child of God, Mohammad being child of God speaks Khoran, Ram being child of God speaks Ramayan, Buddha being child of God speaks Buddhism and similar alike.

I say to all those around me, They were not a child of God but they were God and We are too. There is no child of God but only God. We all humans are God. Sufferings exits in all of us. We cannot avoid it. Sharing suffering can loosen your burden. (Well, Please disagree with me.)

Every new idea is a disagreement, Value of exisiting being is never given by us because we do not see the importance. (Why all the fuss, when Jesus was dead after being hung up for so many days in the nail pierced hands?) Why do not people realize the his value when he was alive ?

I have my own opinion which states that, “We all are God”. I agree on all the religion and respect all what they preach. You can always disagree with me on this.

Now, Let me go to the point again on Suffering-

There is nothing called “happiness, or love, or faith, or destiny or whatever…”, Everything is written well in advance when we are in Mother’s womb.

The process of writing starts from day one till nine months. These nine months are the process of writing your own scripts. The script of your life. You write it, nobody else. You do not know it, until and unless you become concisous or awake. The real awakening could take some years like 5-7 years.

When you are awake, I mean when you realize that you are alive. How? When you can see the things around you, start to remember your house, your mother, your father, your school and your religion then from that onwards your suffering starts.

Now, there is a gap between the time you are born to the time you are awake. This gap is about “adaptablity”. You are newly born and when you are newly born you want to adapt to the environment. The environment is not aboout Nature but about your home, family, religion and so on.

This is how it works. Or, atleast this is what I think.

Now, Since you have already written your script and hidden somehwere in back of your memory you do not know what you have written. It is secret script. You cannot read it all. This implies, you do not know what you have written.

Now, what your family, brother, sister, nature, country, religion will teach is observed by you. The observation will be stored in your “human brain”. The brain decides on your daily activities. The day to day work, daily hustle and bustle of your own personal lives are because of all the observation that you have done in your lives. You keep on repeating “those stuffs” which you have been influenced by or want to make some impression to.

This is how we live in Today’s world. Then suddenly, when we want to choose some career path, it does not work out. Or let us say, when you want to become Writer, you do not become writer but you end up being painter, or let us say, when you want something then that particular thing will not come in your life. (Why?)

Is this because of suffering? Yes, why not.
How?

Suffering is already written by you now, when you want to do something agaist your own script, that will not work out my dear friend.

Nobody is to blame, only you !

There is no heaven or hell. There is nothing after death. Nothing. Trust me on this. There is nothing after death because it will be same as before you were fully “awake”.

This is cyclic, We are born, we live and then we die then again after some gap, we are born again, we live and then we die. It is the cyclic process and it continues forever and ever.

Now, some of our brilliant mind will think-if we are born again then why don’t we remember anything from our past?

It is because when we write our script in Mother’s womb, we do the same when we are near the deathbed, Just before we are going to die- the before death period of “Nine Months”, we start to Erase everything that we wanted to do and did, being on this Earth.Our Consciousness, will fade away at that period.This is simple explanation.

Now, let me again look back to what Paulo’s question- Ok, I am sorry Christian question,
Is suffering important to get enlightenment ?
Well, for this I have already written one Newspaper Journal, you can find it here-
“Anyone can be a Gautam Buddha…”
http://mybheja.blogspot.com/2007/08/enlightenment.aspx

My Mother always used to say,
Sukh-ke-sub-saathi-dukh-me-na-koi. (Plenty of friends in happiness, none in Dukh or disquietude or suffering.)

I think this is the process of life, No one wants to share Suffering because you just have to suffer your own sufferings. Nobody will help you suffer your sufferings. You are the creator of your sufferings.You just have to solve your own sufferings. It is easy. You need some time and you will figure it out that, you have solved your sufferings.

By the meanwhile, you can enjoy some videos on this topic-

Spiritual fun-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=azYQqzoEjgU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=59bA0LBRcKY

Hippie’s fun-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h0OhqCYUaRY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kYDulMYVj1U

Drive in your own way.

One of the tendency of mine is to write a long sentences. I do not know how many people find it interesting, or I do not know if they really understand what I meant to say. As English is not my mother tongue, I am trying to learn and improve with each and every passing moment if I really can be good in English.

It is not the end that matters, it is always the journey that matters. I enjoy to travel but I hate to reach the destination. Life is all about knowing what you can do to others and what they can offer you.

Learning never stops, as time never stops. Every great invention is because result of great sacrifice.

Hey look, I am writing as if I am great philoshpher or great personality. I am nobody. I am not any great person or any great philosopher, I am just a simple ordinary person who is trying to understand what is meaning of life and how can I manage my own life.

My life is open as the open book. There is nothing I can hide and there is nothing I would like to hide. There is always a dark side to sunny side but there is always a sunny side in my darkness life.

Once a friend told me that, He has millions of Euros in his bank account. I felt as if I am really poor. Becasue soon after his words I realized to find what is there in my bank account and then I found that, I have very few amout of money which will just be enough for my survival for some time. It will provide me money to eat two times a day and I can some how manage to survive here, till the period of time I am being here. Nothing more.

The calculation run in my mind and these calculation was very negative. A friend was happy because he had enough money so that, He can sense the security but I could not. However, I did not get bothered from a friend's answer and after just a few second I realized that- Life is not about the money. It is not that "how much money I have" or "whoever has".

What if " a person works his life to collect a millions of money and very next day he dies". What will happen to his life? Will he at the end be satisfied with his life? What if, he never have achieved the happiness and joy he always wanted but some how he sacrificed it, just for work and money.

What if, all your life you are doing stupid work and doing nothing for others and one day when you are passing down the streets no body realizes you. Is the money useful then ?

"It is easier said then done". But life is the way we want it to be. It is the way, we drive it. We can take it in any direction we want only thing then matters is not where are we going but where we will end up.

Wish you all the best for the great weekend !

Trip to Estonia.

There was a written statement about me yesterday that I have been writing most of the times the hypothetical concepts but I do not care about it. Yesterday was a good day with exciting thing to do. First and foremost, We planned to visit Estonia. A city which is close to Finland. A city very small and very peaceful.

Journey is what we like. A Journey with friends, and smile all around. A journey with silence and in those silence there are loads of lesson learning process all the time. We started our jouney early in the morning at around 3am. The darkness was there and we were driving four guys from our city to the capital of Finland, Helsinki. Thanks to our friend "Teemu" who stood brave and took a decision of driving both the ways around.

We reached very early in the Helsinki port and it was nice to feel early morning cold breeze with pleasant smell of fresh air.

We started to move to the "Ekeraline", a ship name which was cost effective and which was there for us to take to Estonia. It was nice ship and a very pleasant trip. Initially, as there is always a feeling of sleeping in early morning it did not distub our feelings and we went on.
We were welcomed on board and the ship started to move slowly in the Ocean.

It was the time to take the breakfast and we had a buffet in the ship which was very cheap only 10 Euro per person. As food is necessary to survive we did not had a choice and we started our breakfast.

It was very funny experience that it took 3 attempts to full our tummy. There were three rounds of food being tasted and I thought that was much more for the entire day. The breakfast was very heavy and then the fun part started with cracking jokes and having fun, smiling and sharing good experiences and so on.

We started to move around the city, took a very cheap beer in the restaurant which was only 5 Euro per person. Acutally it was not cheap in that particular resturant. I asked one lady in one small stall to take a picture with me and she refused. I do not why but she said, "Buy something from my shop and then I will allow you to take the picture".

There were two perspectives to measure, one from my side and next from the lady's side. From my side- it was bad because, I thought there is nothing wrong if she could have said yes and I would have shared some moments with her,nothing else.

From her perspective, she wanted something to sell and she thought the profit in two ways, one she will ask me to buy something and next she will even give me the pleasure of being with her in the picture.

I did not gave a second thought on what she asked. As a typical Finns would have done. I said nothing too and we moved our ways to see other part of Estonia.

Some of my friend said that she was a Russian lady, and they are always desiring for money and can give anything for money. I do not think so, but to some extent yes.

Again I asked myself,can money buy everything in world ? Can we buy love, happiness and those things which we cannot usually get but the moments creates them, can we really buy a women from around anywhere in the world for money ?

That question is left to readers, you decide if it is really possible for to buy everything from money. After such wise thinking we headed to see other part of the city. There were big malls, fancy shops and many more exciting church. We visited some of them which were free.

It was memorable journey all the way. Finally it was time to come back home and we bought the many many cases of the beers, wine, whiskey and vodka.

Later, the journey we took has to come to end. While we were coming we saw some good ladies in the ship who were close to us. Some of them were looking to me as if I am some druggist or as I am some weired guy coming from some unknown forest.

It does not matter as long as you matter to yourself.

Finally the tour of one day to Estonia ended up with nice cool feelings of the place and the people in Estonia.

We had a nice journey all along.

Alone on the path.

I like the idea of Alone on the Path. Especially the saying. Here is the end quotes-

Sufi Dhu ‘l - Nun (Egyptian, died 861 AD) describes the positivity of life.

“Oh Lord, when I pay attention to the voices of animals, the sounds of the trees, the bubbling of the waters, the chirping of the birds, the howling wind or the crashing thunder, I perceive in them evidence of Your unity; I sense that You are the supreme power, almighty, the supreme wisdom, supreme justice.

“Oh Lord, I recognize You in the trials I am enduring. Allow, Lord, Your satisfaction to be my satisfaction. May I be Your joy, that joy which a Father sees in his son. And may I recall You with tranquility and determination, even when it is difficult to say that I love You.”


Alone on the path. We are all alone on our own path. We choose to come on this planet from the women who is very complex organism in itself. A women can be called as earth itself. A women whose complexity can be called as simplicity. A women creates us from the very core of her inner self. She takes care as the earth and Nature does. Once we come down to the earth then we are on our own.

One thing every human should understand is “a person is always alone on the path”. It does not mean that the person is in the stage of the loneliness or being alone but he is living a life of the alone.

Those four elements for the survival are really necessary to understand why you are walking down the alone path. Love is always necessary to understand either is it the love of mother or it is the love of the true lover.

Death is necessary to know that the very existence of your own self is going to end one day. It is also necessary simply because it keeps us alive in every moment we live. Every moment should be lived as if there is no moment next coming up. Every moment should be adventorus and exciting. Live with total joy and blessing.

I do not know if in the movement of trees, chirping of the birds and black cloud over the sky are the symbols of something extraordinary creature we called as GOD but I would fairly accept the fact that these are true color of Natures itself.

We can learn from just being present in the moment but at the same time we can loose nothing except our time for the present. The time is the moment, time is being present and passing with the moment.

As it is difficult to fist understand the “love”, it is also difficult to understand the phenomenon of “life”.

We all have to one day realize and will realize that whatever we are doing or whatever we are thinking to do are not that much of essential because these are just our logical mind which needs much more attention then anything else.

We fear death but why do not we fear the love ? It is just the matter of knowing yourself better than anything else. The person who knows himself will never ask who you are ?

The person who answer who he is; actually is not what he really is. The meaning is in finding yourself and to walk or take the journey in own way. It is like writing your script and taking the path but in case you have trouble to reach to the final destination that you really meant to reach. Simply learn from others and take there experience into your account. It will take you to that long long journey very easily.

Study in Finland, think again.

Welcome to Finland a country of thousand lakes. Silence and Peace every where even the birds and animals would not like to sing a song to you. It is good that you will get personal privacy, lot of space and silence., But there are things which you will make you worry then anything else.

The bureaucracy and official stuff is very annoying. In the world, a student is same every where. Then some stupid divided the world into three phases. He called them First world,Second world and Third world. According to the economy, infrastructure and many others factors. What is the fault of student who is in third world or is in first world ? The fault is that- He does not get any benefit from his home country and he has to show that he has enough money to feed himself in Finnish land.

It will make you feel as if you are really some alien living in this world. It brings lot of psychological problem in the mind of those who come and study. I do not know what others feel but I think I have felt this way. It make me think why I was born in third world and not in the first world.

What is the fault of human living either in third world or any world ? Human is human everywhere. Yesterday, I was giving this interview and a Interviewer she asked me- what is the difference between studying in Finland and studying in your country ? I said to her that- "I do not see any difference because I see only similarities". When we see differences in people we will get divided, that is why we are from different countries and different way of looking at others, different religion, difference in everything. But once we see the similarities we come close to other person and we connect ourselves with others.

There are lot of psychological problem one has to face when one comes in foreign land for the study. First is financial, second is study, third is personal and fourth is dealing with people in foreign land. Financial will always be kind of problem for not only third world students but to any student from any where in world. Until and unless he comes from rich family or have good savings of his own.

Study is based on hard work and effort the student puts in it. He can go miles and he can do what the world sees today as development all are with the effort of students doing hard work to foster technological innovation and for the well-being of society.

Personal is left with personal problems. One can have thousand problems but I would not discuss this because every body has their own problems and they deal with it, in there own ways.

The last one is interesting because, here I am talking about Finland and I have not seen any Finns who are not helpful or not very cool. They are one the best humans you will ever encounter in your life. They are very nice and humble. They love peace and they appreciate it. May be I have been lucky to see only good people or may be I see only similarities in them that is why I have not met any people in this land with differences of my country, religion, race or anything.

It is not good to give Visa to Foreign Student only for 1 year. May be they have to change the rule they have made. They should learn from USA or from other rest of the world where they give permission for students to stay for 5 year at once. But here we have to face the problem of psychological torture every once in a year. I do not know why they have made such stupid system. I think it really needs to be changed. It has to be changed because if one cannot afford to study surely one will not choose to study in Finland but if one thinks he can afford it, why do a person has to go through the psyhological problems of proving each time that he can really afford to study ?

It is my humble request to those who wish to come to Finland for study, please think again. If you are really financially strong then only choose your destination to study in Finland but once you think you cannot afford it please do not come here. Go to USA, as most of the people do and most of the students in our country do as well. At least you will not have to face the problems of proving that you can afford your study.

Those who are making rules to govern the country should update there rules. Those who are doing official bureaucracy stuffs should understand that humans are same everywhere. Those who do not have vision to see a peaceful world should not be given rights to make rules. If I were to make a rule, definitely I would have changed these things for the well-being of students.

Faith and Science

Yesterday, We were celebrating a friends birthday and it was very nice experience with all the friends gathered to express the views, share opinion and eat a great food. We had a Nepalese special momo prepared and we had it with total joy.

There were loads of discussion regarding various issues, some where to political and some were just useless. The person who talks louder speaks nothing. There were loads of great issues such as spirituality and Science and which one is the best among others. Some others issues were such as how a vegetarian people can survive without eating non-veg items so on and so forth.

When taking into account the main issues of spirituality there are some concepts which they thought have to be changed but I do not believe that there is one right answer. It is totally stupid to think in the way we think now a days. People think that Science will explain everything and we all have answers to all the unknown processes. But further from the science there is something very natural which is the uppermost layer of the all. We call it by different names- Faith, God, Super Power, Natural Power etc. All these lead us to believe on something which is exceptional and something outstanding beyond our understanding.

I read yesterday in the New York Times that Scientist are using the Mirror to learn more about the understanding the human and various cognition process of how the mirror can reflect the personality and so on. Science and faith are two different branch of a tree which will lead us to one final destination.Both the ways are scary and one among the other cannot make a entire tree. A tree here is the existence of this human concept, ideas, theories and everything that makes us believe that we are existing.

Science is created by humans and is the Spirituality. Only difference is that the Spirituality came first and Science the next. The developments are made by Science therefore modern men and women believe more on science than spirituality. however, It is always good to know the roots before you take out the fruits from the tree. Learn the basics of from where we came and what would be our core existence.

Who are we ? Who am I ? The question is not to the readers but the writer himself is asking to him that who am I ? Am I any physical existence that humans around me see or am i similar to the animals who live in the forest. To answer who am i ? I have already written it in my profile that I am no body. I am a body with no in front of it. I am a body with flesh, bones and the whatever the outer part is seen from the it. A normal human being with two legs, two hands and two eyes, two ears a mouth, eyes etc.

When one can know oneself then one can try to know about who we all are ? The answer to the first question is the by understanding the answer to the next question. Without understanding who you are how can you try to understand who others are ? They might look same, they might have the same physical structure as of you but they are not thinking the same as you are thinking, they are not doing the same as you are doing, they are eating the same as you are eating so on and so forth.

Do you know why we have group of humans doing the single task ? We build up army, military and group of people only to perform a single task why ? It is because when a task in one, it will be easier if the number of humans will set the one common goal and do the task simply because the work will be done faster and the time will be saved.

Coming back to the question of faith vs science, it is long long debate and one simple answer to thing is to please go back and read the question yourself, try to find the answer to your own very existence. I am not asking you to do the thing, but if you feel you should ask these very important question then please do otherwise please leave it.

Faith is important to understand more about you and science is also important to understand how it connects to give some logical answer from our very own nature about how it really works. Which makes sense to many of us at present moment. Today, most of the humans are more involved in doing research in science then research in spirituality but by the combination of these two will lead us to new path and new way of finding our core destination will be easier.

Between Science and Spirituality there must be one very cool, calm and very sweet path which will lead us to understanding more about our human worries, depression, struggle, existence and many more. It is just again the matter of time which will be make sense to our sense.

Monday mind

When a mood is just normal, everything goes normal but once your mood becomes aggressive or very abnormal everything around you become aggressive. I do not know why many people have some kind of habit getting angry very easily. One of them is me.

I just get angry with very smaller things, and once i get into it. I do not want to come out from it. This is not good habit and I want to get rid of it. I do not know, may be it comes from my parents or from the gene.I think I got it from my mother. She some times tend to show such kind of anger and I have the same.

The mind does not allow me to think anything beyond the event on the basis of which I am not feeling good. It only allows to get rid of such an event as soon as possible. Other thing that makes me nervous is my habit of not believing in anybody. I do not trust no one. Trust is very important to maintain the relationship and I do not have the trust in any one.

Some times I believe that I do not trust myself to some extent. I think yes, why is that ? Why I am acting in such a way when I do not have anything to loose. Time goes very fast and in the process of going through the time we loose many of such events that we do not sometimes think we will really loose.

Escaping from the reality is very easy. Either you tend to become closer to the addiction of some sort like smoking or alcohol or you simply just tend to do something inappropriate. However, life is to chill and not to take any tension in mind. The relaxed mind will lead you to the destination but what if your mind is not working properly and you are not in the situation to deal with yourself.

What if you are not good to deal in most of the situations and you always tend to pick up yourself and try to avoid most of the things in life. Yesterday, I read one line. "love your enemy". It is good thing to do only because once you love your enemy you will get to know more out of this enemy and you will then strength yourself from many of the unknown experiences and the things that you will dream of learning from others. One way of loving your enemy will enable you to learn from them.

Monday as ususal, boring and irritative for me. Early in the morning, the bicycle fell down and the entire paper was scattered all over the road. I was really pissed off. I knew that today something is not working good for me. I knew that I am not feeling good,only because my mind is not stable and not working appropriately. It is in non-stable stage always getting very angry and going to the stage where it does not want to talk with anyone or want to sustain the peace.

The best medicine for this is no medicine and the best way to avoid it is to go deeper into it and find the root cause of the non-violence that is existing in mind. The root cause will take you to the problem and the problem with proper negotiation will give some advice or lesson.

9 hours to death.

How would you survive when you know the fact that you are going to die today ? What will happen then ? Now, think and imagine that you are surely going to die today and what would you do before its 9 hours of your death.

The situation is more complex and it becomes more complicated when you are far away from home living or studying in some place and you have not seen your parents for more than a year. Now, Think. Just take it seriously and think. The last statement will not make you serious just simply because you are not going with the same difficulty as the the person who really is going to die within 9 hours.

Will he make a call and tell every one that he really missed them or will he just feel afraid of his death and visit church or temple or some religious organization just to pray for his life. ? What will be good for him. Will he get back his life ? Should he visit a doctor and ask for help or should he visit religious organization to ask for help ? He also knows that none of them will really help. He knows the fact that nothing will help and none of them will give him the life.

What is that you are going to do ? Death is certain and we do not realize it many of the times. The time when we do not realize the time our death is very near. Some times a person wanting to die will not die and survive more than he really thought of living. And Some times a person does not want to die, does thousand and one thing to make himself, fit and fine- cool and nice suddenly he is no longer present.

Many of the times we are afraid of death just because we know the fact that we will loose our relatives, our parents, our loved ones and many such things which are temporarily ours. Nothing is ours and nothing will be ours. We came alone and we are going to alone. Every body who is connected with you are just connected to show the world and the beauty of it. The relationship is an emotional bond which makes us realize that they are with us forever and they will not leave us entire our life but that is not true.

It is good that emotional bond is present which helps people to make some connection between each other besides that nothing is true. Now, coming to previous Person who is going to die within some time period what is your answer ? Should he visit religious places to ask for his life or should he simply live a life and wait for the death.

What would a person do ? He is afraid, scared and very worried about his life. He do not want to die just like that. He has not seen his family for a year. He is really worried. He wants to meet his lovely sweet girl who is far from him but he could not only because he has only 9 hours. Even if he tries to fly and visit her he could not because it takes couple of days before he reaches to the place.

He is thinking a lot and worried that what will happen to his sweet girl after him ? Will she be shocked with the incident that happened with him or should he just inform the girl and tell her that he is really going to die. Should he tell his parents that he is going to die or should he hide from them.

A person then suddenly sees the butterfly hanging around the tree and he sees the flower. The butterfly approaches the flower and it reaches to sit in the flower. Suddenly, an insect engulfs the butterfly. He is amazed to see such an incident. He thinks now that, a butterfly which did not knew that it is going to die a very next second it sits in the flower, he has 9 hours before he is going to die.

He has lot of time to live a life. He then madly laughs. He shouts very loudly and he just starts to do the things that he has never done in his life. He has never swim in the lake. He goes to the lake, starts to swim. He has never said, hello to the person who walks in the street. He says, hello to all those person he meets in the street. He sees the one beautiful old women who is selling some cloths, he goes and stars to buy some clothes. He just behaves totally like a crazy guy who has gone mad.

Every body whoever looks at him thinks that a person has gone mad. He dances in the street. He has never tasted a Cow meat, he goes to shopping mall and buys cow mean, prepares it and eats. He is living in total joy and happiness. He is living in the moment. He is not worried simply because he knows the very next second that is given to him is not his.

When a very next second presented to him is not his, why should he worry ? He does not make any plan simply because he do not have anything to loose. Now, he has 2 hours left at this time he calls his sweet girl.

He has never said that, how much he loves the girl. He proposes her. He says,he loves her than his life. He has loved her the moment he saw her. He says, 100 times he really loves her and he has never felt such love for anyone except her. He has never betrayed her and he will love to love her till he is alive. Girl is surprised and shocked, she is very happy to hear such pleasant words that she always wanted to hear from her ideal husband. She is so happy that she cannot express in words. She gives load of kiss to him. She says, she will wait till he comes and picks her up and gives her a wedding ring. Tears flows down the person eyes, still he does not show to her and happily hangs on receiver of a phone.

At last, he calls his family. He talks with both mom and dad and finally says that they were the best mom and dad he ever had. He will if there is next life, will love to be there child again. Both Mom and Dad are surprised to hear such a statement from a Son and asks if anything is wrong but he says nothing.

Finally its a minute left before his death. He is going to die now. He sits in a position of some Guru with his bend knees and head upright. He closes his eyes and takes a deep breath. he knows the countdown has begun. He remembers all those things that he has done in his life, he remembers all those pleasant moment that he has spent in his life, finally he remembers his future wife and family. At last, he is silent. He falls from the position he is sitting. He is breathing no more. He is no more with us.

Suprsise

Amazing things happen in life and that is the beauty of life when things go amazing. Some times we get surprise and the surprise if it is positive or nice or even nicer than we are excited and we jump into the stage called excited state for a while.

A mind is a brilliant machine inbuilt in the humans. We are this brilliant thing called mind which we can make work as per our SE. It is the art to make the mind work as per we want. We cannot gain this ability just by learning some books or by any simple method. It is first understanding yourself. In the process of understanding yourself, you will come up with understanding every part attached to your body and the most important is mind.

Imagine a situation where you wanted something to happen for you and that particular thing did not go well, I mean you wanted something but you did not get what you wanted. In such situation you will be abit depressed and not normal. There are some three types of behavior that humans show generally and these three are Normal-excited-depressed-normal-excited-... It is the cycle. Just like after every night there is a day, every day there is night and so on. These cycle of behavior are shown by humans in day to day life. It changes with time and circumstances.

The environment is the great factor which makes the change of the behavior. The normal behavior can be changed with depressed behavior just because some one in a friends family got expired. Again the Normal behavior can be changed in excited behavior just because some one is throwing a great party in some great place and you are invited. Excited behavior can be changed with Normal behavior just because you wake up and now today is the working day and you have to go to office and do your daily work.

The pattern continues and that is the cycle of life in showing different behaviors. Now the biggest question is how can a amazing things in life be connected with the behaviors. Does it have any matching. Yes, to some extent. The excitement shown by an individual is directly related with the behavior and the unexpected event occurring in a persons life.

The most useful state for humans could be the excited state where the body is full of energy and it is in total joy. There is no worries and no sadness involved. Only thing is the body which has no control over the situation. A excited person does not mean physical arousal or something like that but excited in a event with total joy and smile on face. Amazing things happen at that particular moment.

Well, that is how the predicted pattern of behavior could be seen but I am not sure if that has been scientifically proved. However, life is full of surprises and some times it is also good to learn the ability to give surprise to others. Many relationship does not work out because the partner are very predictive nature. One has to learn the ability of giving and taking surprises. Lot of these ability does not come from the learned behavior but from the bottom of heart.

We all are GOD.

Welcome to a new place, a place where there is no one except you. A place which looks very fearful, a place where there is only darkness and no sun light. A place where there are only green trees and sound of violent animal all around.

Only thing you can see is the no one except you and you are in this jungle kind of place where only your screams are heard and nothing else. You can shout but no one will response in that shout. You can scream loud and no one will response instead. It is just like a night mare . However, the place is real and you have to face the consequences of being there. It was all in your mind. You wanted to be there no body else. You wanted to visit such place even though you do not like to explain it to any body but you have to now tell what happened in this place. A strange place, a place which no one would ever like to be, and never ever want to visit again.

You want to run but there is nowhere you can reach. you are hungry and you want to eat food but there is nothing except the green trees and wild animals. you want to hide but there is nothing that you can hide. You are trying to find why you reached in this place ? you are surprised and now you want to escape, from a reality. You can only see the ocean in one side when you travel and in the next side never ending jungle. There are thousand questions in your mind and you want them all answered. Who is going to answer all your questions ?

You are terrified, worried, anxious and very frightened deep inside you. You want a change, You are fed up eating green leaves, and fruits of the trees, you suddenly want to kill those animals who are making noise and giving you trouble when you asleep. You are really angry with them-Now, you start finding some techniques to kill them. You suddenly realize that well, you can kill them by hitting them with some stones but when you tried they ran away from you. You failed, now you tried to kill them with some trees trunks or some kind of sharp stone that you found. You attempted to kill one, next day you succeed and then you finally saw a blood in them. You are happy that the very animal will not give you problem but you also wanted to taste the blood of that animal. Slowly, you start eating them. You liked the taste and now you do it more than often.

Next day you saw an animal mating with another animal. You are thrilled to see such thing happening in front of you. You want to experience the same but the big problem now lies is how can you find the similar animal like you. You saw it and now you want it. When you first see it then you felt what if I do the same ? What will happen ? Is it tasty as the meat of the animal I killed ? In search to quench the thirst of the mouth you now went in search of similar animal like you.

You traveled, made a long journey but you can hardly see any body who looks similar to you. Until one day, you saw one animal who had these two orange hanging in their chest and long long hair similar to you and was looking almost similar to you. At first you were frightened that the animal is strange and might be of danger. You attempted to kill her. You tried to throw some sharp weapon towards her and kill her but she escaped. Now you wanted to see her, meet her and tell her you look similar but she was gone.

Next day, you saw her again. This time she was shocked and surprised to strange man like you. She approached you, and touched you. You were sleeping at that time. Her touch made you feel strange. You felt some thing happening inside you. you wake up with the strangely. you shouted towards her, you said,.. ah ah ah.. the meaning in those words were clear- do not touch me. Later, after a while she touched you, touched your whole body and you felt very good. Slowly you thought your main aim of mating with like the animal and you started the process of doing it. She did not agree but your touch, your kiss and you approach towards her led her open towards you. you did what the animal do and then finally you enjoyed it.

Following day, you wanted to do more and you stayed there with her. You repeated the same thing time and again, almost every day until one day she was pregnant and you were very happy to see something strange coming out of her. You do not wanted anybody or any animals or any insects or anything to touch her. you were only devoted to her deeply, she gave birth to four child in a row. You were surprised to see so many of your children. You now started to fetch food for them, find a simple place where no rain, snow, wind and heat will disturb your family. You made a simple hut which led to one simple family living happily.

One day when you were searching for food you found the same kind of huts in a jungle with couple of family, you then talked in the language that they understood. Finally you moved to the same place and a community was build.

A process of human development started similarly like this- the big question is who made the first man and women ? Was it GOD ? The answer is big NO.

We are similar to animals who now rule the world and religion is created by one of the man from a community who wanted all his fellows to follow him. He was the person who made the rules, regulation and a proper system so that none of the people will fight or go for war. We call that person now as GOD but that is just our own way of looking at that person. Stop violence and spread the message of love. We all are GOD. We all have capability to rule not others but ourselves. Just sit idle and think.

Physical and Natural

When a person is not well or when you are not feeling good, you think you are in the stage where you really need a help at that very moment there would be no one except you.

The moment will bring a lot of lessons to learn and you have to learn all these lessons by yourself. It is very easy and it is difficult. A physical health is very much necessary to keep or maintain the balance in life. Once your physical health is not with you or I mean, your physical balance of the health is not supporting you then it will be very difficult to live a life.

Imagine that you have a pain, pain in the chest or near the area where you breath. How would you feel then ? The breathing becomes difficult and every ounce of oxygen you want to take gets difficult to go inside. Every breath you take makes your life very difficult. Despite that, you wake up early in the morning and do what has been ahead of you.

Physical, mental and environmental are there different things which has to be kept in balance. A look at physical health is very much necessary. There are many people in world who eat a lot. Eating disorder has nothing to do with a person but a person consuming lot of food has resulted in some person in some part of world without food. It has to balanced in some sense but it will never be. When a human has the highest power of all the animals, or living entity in earth today. One thing humans have forgotten is to create a balance among themselves and around the society first then country and then in world.

By the result of these circumstances, Nature has to do its job and she has to remind every one once in a while that you have to take care of the things that I have given to you. Why are you all being so lazy ?. We have floods, volcano eruption, earthquake and many more disasters. We are the creators of all of these disasters. There is no one to blame except us.

The point here is- The physical health disorder has to do with a person itself. A person invites the disorder of health problem in his body by his own consequences and by the result of his own problems similarly, Earthy problems are also due to the result of combination of entire human race and imbalance of them. Once we will understand this process then only we will realize the power of Nature and power of being a human beings.

Look at the lake near your place, you will find lot of information and lot of message from it. A place where it is very pure. A form of water collected in one place which has nothing to say or complain. It is cool and a wind blows it to make a small waves. It is silent even with the anger of biggest thunderstorm and it is very deep more deeper than we can imagine.

It cannot be explained how it maintains its own life. A physical omnipresent and transparent life. It looks as if there is no life but there is a life of every thing that exists, that we see and that we can touch or feel or smell or our senses have some effect on it. We will like to neglect it but it is not like that. A lakes fights every day to maintain the life of its physically and mentally. It has to be similar in our cases too.

Finnish Lake

A country of thousand lakes and all the lakes look similar. The early morning rise with the darkness and rain falling lightly just to touch the earth speaks a lot in itself. Early morning rise from bed getting more difficult with the cold of the rain to rise up. Despite these, a mind fights with the enemy deep inside it which is not trying it to make it wake.

A mind suddenly wakes up and now its time to do the morning activities. One beautiful lady at the coffee house asked me how do you feel about the Finnish people ? What is your opinion about them ? Being close to the lake teaches a lot in itself. I just told her that they are very similar to a lakes. A lake can take anything with the deep, silence and flowing smoothly like ever before. It is silent and cold. It is very chill and cool. It blows when the wind ask them to blow and it shines when the sun rays falls into it.

A lake reminds me of the Finnish way and Finnish people. I do not know if that is correct but this is what I thought. A lake can take many things into it. It has a lot to learn from it and you can learn a lot from it when you go and take a dip into it.

A desire of getting what you want and a desire of thinking what you do is really worth a value to it makes it more interesting in life and more fascinating about living a life. It is that the moment of life goes on and on. Some body would rather say that these words are useless but these words are not as useless as it looks because these are valuable. It will be there till the very end. Each letters form to make a word and a combination of these words form to give the meaning to a sentence. It looks so simple but ask the creator who creates these words he will tell you.

Anything right from the building of a house to a any architecture to any book are the combination of small things. All these small elements, cells, and parts combined to form a big thing and that big thing has a value in real life. Many people those who cannot see the progress of others are those who do not have ability to learn from others. Once you get into the habit of learning from many different people life will be much more easier to live.

A place where I am now is called Finland. A place where I can tell you 1000 good things about it but I can hardly find any bad stuffs or any personal bad taste of this land till date. Always remember that- "I live in moment not in time". People those who spend their time living will take a long deep look at the quote provided above and think what does that mean. The meaning is very simple and the statement is as simple as you can get. Moment is NOW. The time my hands are pressing these keyboards and making an sweet sound of joy which is giving my mind a delight that I am seeing these letters forming a word and a word forming a sentence and a sentence trying to find some logical connection to give a meaning to my readers.

I do not want to make a follower nor do I want to attract the attention all that is I want is to put whatever is there is my heart and mind to the world and see what they think about it. A life worth living is similar to this. Well, a good day is the day which bring good smile in your face despite you have lot to do and many more thing to overcome. A day is long only when we think we are tired and think that we have done nothing or something stupid happened.

Everything is first created in our mind and it then invokes from there to onwards. Well If ever you get time do visit Finland and see the beauty of lakes and do not forget to take a famous Sauna naked and dip yourself after a Sauna in lake. A brilliant experience to be done once at least in life time.

MAN

Some times you are empty, you do not feel anything, you do not have great ideas to talk about but instead it is not the habit you should develop by not doing anything or the things you like to do most.

Just carry on with doing what you do most, if you feel of writing then please go forward and do it. If you feel like making love do not stop at that moment just do it. It is the very moment which is very close to you. Everything else expect that is useless. It is worth nothing. The second you are reading this or you are doing whatsoever is the best moment in your life.

It is this very second that makes you feel that you are alive besides so many people struglling to live a life. It is this moment which reminds that you can do whatever you wish, in this moment you can travel thousand distances just by imagining. Never leave this moment.

Early in the morning, waking up with the new hope of seeing something great or hearing a good political progress in the country but nothing changes in overnight. It is the same. It was well expected to me that some of my work were not going to be success and it happened just as I expected besides that also it gave some pain.

This is the life, everything if wished becomes success then who will make a pleasure of living in the pain. A relationship as said by my wife is just like a mirror. It gives the reflection and nothing more. It can tell many things but I do not know much in detail why she said it as a mirror. I think it will be better explained by her. I wish I can ask her and deliver the message but sooner I get I will write why a relationship is similar to as a mirror.

Everything we do, act or react to is just a simple gestures which speaks a lot what we are going through, A person after watching a good football game gets excited to see his personal favorite team win but at the same time other person who is supporting his team looses and he is depresed. Meaning, there is always two side of every coin. A person can be happy or sad but I think there are some person or human who can do both at the same time. You can also be happy or you can be sad. You can be happy that you supported one team and it win and you can feel for the other person who supported the team which loose. It is his lost that gave you win.

One has to win and other has to loose that is the nature of Nature itself. Two cannot win, No gain without pain. In this mother earth, It is taught well to us that nothing comes easy and you to work very hard to gain anything but do not store your gain such as money. It will make you rich but it will not necessarily bring you happiness.

A man who works hard and at the same time utilizes what his money for the right time, right work and in right situation is the MAN. One has to learn to be man- it is also a process. Every one can be regarded as Man but not every is man.

Well, I wish every one to become and set an example of being a man by doing all the goods to Nature, country and society. Cheers !!!

Living with Sarcoidosis

A disease for which the cause is unknown. It is good that I do not have to blame my gene, or my parents or to anyone around me for the cause of the disease that has in me. Experts suggest that, it could be nothing and it could some time be everything. It will go automatically without needing any treatment or anything and it will some times in some cases remain more than 7-to more years.

What would you say when you have defect in your lungs ? A place where you are responsible for the breathing. Suddenly you have pain and it is hardly so difficult to take a breath easily. It is very difficult most of the times.

Self strong is an act of being strong. It does not matter to me if I live for today or I live for 70 years of my life. Most important thing is live a life. There are people who are living with HIV, there are people who are living a life with so much of pain, strugle, and prespiration. Why not me.?
It is not difficult but it is not easy to them, it would not be easy to me either.

Who want to have a disease and live with the disease every body wants a perfect health, a perfect wife, a perfect home and a perfect lifestyle with space and happiness. Who gets these pefectionism. Who achives it at the end ? Hardly anyone gets it. Even if I am a Prince of some country I would not easily get what I am looking for.

It is good to know that you are also effected in some way or another. It is good that we all are effected if not by disease then by the disease of lust, gain, richness, anger, sadness, anxiety, pressure,and many more.

A medical disease can be or has a cure. It occurs in the human body for some period of time and it goes away after medication or treatment but what about the disease that the world is occupying.A disease that cannot be cured easily or it cannot be cured at all. I am happy that I believe I do not have those disease less and medical disease more.

It is good to explain with the people around you that what you have been suffering with and what you have been going though. People will give you suggestions, advice and comments. It is good that you will find out the fact that you are feeling better once you explain the situation to everyone.

Doctor said that I still have to go through some procedure before to make it confirm wheather or not it really is Sarcoidosis. A disease explored some 100 years ago.A perfect treatment still is not found yet and it is really a subject for research for many medical practinoners. Well, I am ready to become their subject.

The act of living a life is not going to say that I am going to die but going to say that I have lived my life. Lived my life means that you have really done what you have wanted to do and you have really worked yourself into every bits and bytes of life.

Human wishes does not come true and all wishes if will come true, everyone will become rich and famous, King and Queens. Who wishes to be just like me-a simple ordinary human living in simple apartment paying bills every month, dreaming about a good fruitful life, imagining about the promises to make them fulfilled and remembering love of your life all the time.
A wish which becomes reality everyday. A wish of not becoming rich and famous or Kings and Queens but a wish to live a life of with joy and happiness.

Let us see how long I could hang on to it.

All the way leads to one way.

Suprise again, Woke up with eyes open. A third world country fellow came to study in one city of Finland. Now, The time has come to extended your permit.The permit reminds you that you are from different place and you have to show the some 6000 Euro Balance in your bank account.

Now they are also planning to change the system. The system now they are looking for the change is that Students selected should paid a tution fee. I think this is not possible. None of the people would like to come to this deadland, I do not recommend anybody to do that if they are going to implement such system. Please for god's sake do not waste your money and your times. It is better to go somehwere else or some other country rather than coming to this place.

It does not mean that it is bad or good or something, only thing is that your personal benefit. Always ask what you are going to get from what you do. It does not make you selfish, it makes you decide your own destiny.

Today as my eyes were open and my hands, legs and my part of body was moving. I thought to go to the Center of the city. It was very early in the morning I reached to the city center and coming early in the morning today at the center where there were no one, none of the shops were open, sitting in the gallery stand I was doing nothing. I opened my diary and started to write something.

One beautiful lady came and open her gallery of Finnish design infront of me where I am sitting. I was waiting patiently for the the shops to open. Every morning comes with the ray of hope and again evening goes with depression of black darkness.

Sometimes the money we earn are not even useful to us. What would we do when the money we earn does not make any sense in real life. The reality is somehow different then what we percieve or what we think.

Imagine a situation where there is no hatred, not religion, no language, no caste and no creed, no difference and no pain, no sorrow and no guilt. I know it is not easy as it looks but it is easy.

What we see depends upon what we think. I get angry who is getting the benefit ? I am angry makes me feel bad, makes by body to behave somewhat to show the expression of anger. This is what is not good. The world is how we see, how we take and how we feel deep inside.

Understanding a human is very difficult task. Now a days, people write that they can really have good relationship in 1 month, 3 months and some 21 days. This is stupid. It does not work the way those people think or those people belive. First you need to understand yourself, then you should be able to understand his behaviour, attitude, gestures, culture, country, language and many more. It is not easy to understand the human. How can people easily think that it is easy to be in relationship.

Relationship is all about commitment. It is about the effort, it is about the two ways of mutual, soul talk or soul understanding. It is not easy. In search of good partner we may try 100 girls or guys in our life but what would we get at the end of all this. A rotton thing either hanging or rotton thing sticking in our body.

I am in the actually not healthy and I am fit and fine as people are normally but my body is such that I am filling as if I am ill. I do not know what would happen tomorrow but If I die please do not leave me alone. The blog would not be updated anymore, I would not have any good news, or bad news or any stories to tell you. I would not have anything to write. In the process of living and dieying we are trying hard to survive. We want things but things won't gives us satisfcation. Please start doing the things you like most. Leave the rest to your faith, if it is there it will come and if it was not-it was never yours.

Life is the way we live it, life is the way we share it and happiness is multiplied when shared. Race is divided when discussed, language will create problem when seen in difference, Peace is the end. Please try to know the fact that all our destiny leads us to graveyard, or some are burnt.

The process of reaching the end and making exciting is in all your hand. One example I would like to share was-I was in the center today, I saw a old women, I felt like I should talk with her. I just said Good day in Finnish and she replied with me the same. She stopped walking or going where she was intended to and she asked me if I was fine, I replied yes.

This is what I do, feel like talking-talk, feel like doing sex-do it, feel like smiling without reason-smile, feel like getting angry with yourself-get angry, feel like shouting to someone-shout, feel like sleeping more-sleep, feel like not waking up again to see the beautiful morning-do not wake up.

Be open.

Good morning, beauty of the morning can not be explained. The beauty of women as is indescribable similarly beauty of beautiful morning early sun rays gazing through your windows and falling like a drop of water in your face in very hot summer days.

Fight against race will continue and it is the hot topic for discussion. Obama is fighting against the race whereas at the same time Hilary is fighting against the Gender. The gender issue is almost in the stage of development but the race issue has not even raised with concern. The issue needs some solution. People are getting tired with the same kind of rules being applied. We need to update or change the rules.

Those rules which we follow are the rules which are not valid anymore. The updated rules and procedures are needed in this world of globalization. People have forget that we are making things worse and it will become more worse if we do not take the initiatives as early as possible.

It is good that we have the freedom of speech and expression. We can express what we feel, we can share our views, ideas and thoughts but it is not good that this rules is also used in practice in many different countries. What is going on is not going on correct. What is happening is not happening for good and what needs are not enough.

It is good and it is bad at the same time. People are moving, people are afraid and people at the same time are terrified. These are those people who know or who can sense that sooner or later world will change. I always stick to my sense of believe that it is not world which is changing, it is the people who are changing. It is the people mind which needs the constant change. We live in the world where every day habits become the routine and every day routine becomes boredom. We feel bore and are most of the time fed up with the same face, same culture, same office, same routine, same wife , same sex, same food, same ... and many more.

When everything that we were doing is the same now and was same then; It become the useless. We then slowly start to change our mind. We go for the change. Which is only thing that is permanent in the world. In search of change we do many things. We build cars, we build buildings, we run, we make roads, we dig the earth in search of something and we find Ore, we move and later we explore new territory, we do many things and we evolve as humans. This gives us the complex, dynamic and total virtual world which is the world of today.

Machines are ruling it now. Computers does the work for you. Why do you now need the people ? The days are not very far when everything will be done or managed by the computers. It can also be done with machines. We created it but now they will rule over us.

We should not stop our changing behavior, the result we will get from the changing behavior is the total satisfaction and peace of our mind. If we do not change then we will be the same old stupid guy doing the same old things all the time. Kind of old fashioned typical, stereotypical.

The fight will continue as long as we build guns we create wars, as long as we build machines we cut the jobs and as long as we visit one religious place we will create differences in religion.

I do not ask you to do what mentioned over here I ask you to think over it. Imagine you visit all the religious places, feel the experiences of visiting different places, feel the experiences of visiting different countires, feel the experiences of travelling not only by plane or by car or by bike or by sea just even some times walk.

Everything we do, everthing we see, everything we feel, experience,learn and think are connected to our past, present and future in some manner or some way. Once I remember one of my friend he said- Every person near you will either tell you about your future, your past or your present.

Now it is your time to figure out in which category you want to put yourself. Good luck and Keep always a positive frame of mind set and most importantly be open.

Unacceptable

Are you awake ? Good-Now go to the bathroom and do your morning activities. Ok, So you are on your way-Prayed GOD for the beautiful bright sunny day and now you want to go bathroom. But suddenly some one called you. Wait.

Hello, Kalwar- "Either you clean or else you will be kicked out of this place".

Wow !

Good Morning in this place. I know it is good to speak the truth, I know it is very nice to speak the reality and say that you are not good at what you do. I know it. I am not trying here to say that I am right or he is right or some one else is right.
The reality is that Early in the morning before even going to bathroom and brushing your teeth your mate asked you something or says you something that really hurts.

The truth hurts. It is not acceptable by any standards if we do not clean and do not save if you are in other countries. We should always respect the people, energy, whatever like culture, religion, sex, and whatsoever of that country only because that country has give a lot of things to you.

When their are bad times in your life-more bad times comes. It is the phenomenon where every door gets closed, every friends become your enemy and every person you believe would help would not.

In the process of learning we do mistakes, I have not seen any one being perfect. The man who said the words even he does many mistakes but he never wants to accept it. Ok, I did the mistake of not cleaning. Now, Please do not throw me out of room only because I would not afford it and It is difficult times I am going through.

Why should I listen to you ? You are suffering that is your problem. The problem is not mine. The problem is yours and you should solve your problem. Wow. Isn't it so nice. You see others problem and you do not even want to give comment or suggestion or some words that might heal the persons problem you just want to say something that every unknown person would easily say.

Bad days are the days when you do not anything to do, you have skills, education and everything which can easily support your work but only problem you face is that you will be man full of problems. You search here and you search their which gives you nothing. You are a man with emptiness.

It is very easy to complain. Before doing any complain put yourself in others man situation. I know why should some one do it ? But it would be nice to think like that. It will give you some realization that you are being killed every moment. Why the hell in earth you exist ?

Now after getting a very hot Good morning news you go to bathroom do your all activites and think that well, this is life. You got to face it whatever way it comes. It is harsh, it really hurts but why should you worry. Problem you face always get multiplied when you are in deep shit.

It is easy to complain we always do that in our life. We have complain about food, about religion, about GOD, about life, about our car, about study, about whatever we get. It is easy to complain because complain will give us excuse. It will makes us feel that we are superior. Whatever we do and we did are best. We are the best and we have supriority over whatever things or humans or earth we complain about.

It is very easy to seat in drivers seat and complain about some one who is walking in long long highway. The seating in drivers seats means you are comfortable, you have money, you have all the necessary things in your life you want. Now you can easily do what you want.

I am worried in the first place I thought my prayers were heard couple of days ago and I was really happy about it. I thank to GOD for his quick reaction. Now, I would be able to sleep with some good gratification and satisfaction. But the problems multiplies if you are in real problem. Some one just said it that either you do it or you are out. Therefore I have to do it and make that everything is alright and satisfy. If in case I am out- It will really be problem then.

Let me see, we are not perfect said once a friend-Yes we are not. We do mistakes we learn and we should be direct about it. But some times when you are get bite early in the morning before even having taken your morning coffee it hurts. If I were the guy who was angry then probably I would have waited for the right time and would have said in different way. It is easy to make some one cry. Very easy. Say something that is hurtful and the person will get hurt.

How many people in day you hurt ? Every thing is words. If you are polite and at the same time direct then it won't hurt that person but when you are not polite about what you say surely the people get hurt. I am not proving that I am right or worng. I am just explaining my situation.

Hopefully by the grace of GOD everything goes fine and I would not be the victim. Yesterday another nice thing I heard that was in company in UK they ask for traineeship only those person who have valid EU,EEA and UK permit. Those who belong to first world.

Since I come from place where we are looked as minorities and thought as if we are helpless, poor, underpriveliged, uneducated people more importantly the people from third world where people believe that we do not have good rules and regulation, do not have proper manners, and many more. How could someone get a permission to even get traineeship. Their is no opportunity for the people like us.

I am thankful to the country where I am getting opportunity to study. I am thankful to all the people in this country, culture, religion and environment, Nature Thanks for atleast beliving in my or our potential and giving us life changing opportunity.

But I am not thankful to those who makes rules. Those rules sucks. The rule which states "you come from third world, go to your place." In the world where people are measured with the power of their mind still people measure you from the place you come from. Every body wants change, do not worry as longs as we want the change we will get it because it is humans(us) who wants to change.

If nature changes-the whole of human kind will be go in trouble. The days are getting shorter for that. One day, Even the Nature will change. At that time we all will realize that we are and we should be "One", without any discrimination of caste, culture, country, religion, sex, ethnicity, and many more differences.

Bless them.

When most of the times you are feeling lonely and alone, when most of times you are not being part of anything, you are with your self- It will seem to many other people that you are lost. You are no anymore. It will be the moment of complete silent. The moment of peace and the moment of vanishment.

The people around you will be curious about you. The people will ask about you, want to know more about you. The more they want to explore about you the more you will show your mysteries to them. The mysteries not is to show, your nature does not automatically will deliver the mysteries but it will be seen to many people that you are kind of mysterious person.

The life is simple-Every body if you watch carefully are in rush. We all want to reach to final destination. May be the project, the work, or even the end of the day, it can also be what we were thinking, we want to get to the destination very soon, very fast. We are in rush. To all those who are in rush-One thing I would suggest, Slow down. I do not mean that you should not work or should not do what you are doing but slow down with your rush, your pace, your speed.

Once I remember I asked one guy to watch his steps. I still remember that. People always want to get everything in life very quickly. May be it could be big house, a good blue color job, nice and beautiful wife, childrens and many more money. Everything that we need and we want to get, everything that we want-will come. It is their but it will need lots of patience and courage to slow down our speed. The speed does not mean that you should not work or you should not do what you are doing. The speed means- Keep it simple. It is upto us to control our daily activities.

Nothing comes ahead of what we think. Whatever we wish, are our just wishes and it will be their somewhere in queue lined up one after another. We make loads of wishes. Even far more than us, girls pray a lot. All our wishes are collected by GOD. He keeps them in his book. He then process all our wishes one by one. Every now and then when we see, we listen, smell, observe and learn we make loads of wishes.

All these wishes are kept according to our own priorities. We wish and we prioritize them. These all wishes are then kept in his book. The GOD decides when, where and how to deliver all our wishes. It is the duty of GOD to do the job for us. He does but he never lets us know that he did the job for us. We humans, think alright. I got what I wanted in my life. All the I, MY makes us egoistic and will create lots of chaos in our life.

We tend to forget that one day we have to visit GOD's home. We are selfish humans living in earth, thinking most of times about our own life. See how many people are hungry at the time you are eating-Bless them before you start your meal. See how many do not have clothes to wear at the time you are wearing fancy clothes-Bless them before you wear them. See how many people are in stage of diaster, unhappiness, fight, war and total chaos at the time you are doing parties and attending fantastic meeting-Bless them before you start your work.

Have any one even tried in their life of blessin those mentioned above ? I guess very few or none. We never do that. We are lazy. We do not want to change ourselves why should we ? What we do not have ? We have everything that we need. When you have everything you need, you become careless. When you are in the other side doing and needing a help you will see what I am seeing.

Blessed are the peacemakers and blessed will be the peace makers and blessing to all those do well-being for peace.

I am a fool

People are playing game, people are playing politics and people are trying to violate other peoples on behalf of minor benefits. Their are people in my life who are close to me but are doing something stupid or I assume they are doing stupid which I can understand better now.

They can talk big, they can twist and turn your mind the way you think the way you decide on some aspects or on some global manners because they they think whatever they are doing is absolutely correct and only correct.

Hiding information is the information they know, playing some games which they do not even know how to play it. It is not good to violate one among others. They can even bite you but you will not feel the pain. They are living is osmosis. The process where they don't know either they are doing right or doing wrong. They are absolutely great people.

To know about the person it does not take long, it will never take long and it has never took so long for me. From the moment I have felt about some person I can tell you what his/her point of view are what he is thinking and what he will do for you. It is the process of learning the people. I do not have any problems with anyone if every one do not have problems with me.

The people whom you belive are the best ones are the people who are very close to you but they are doing worst for you. I know it might not be true to every one however it is true to some extent to every one.

Girls are the difficult to understand as they are too complicated to deal with. Boys are always easy to predict because they know what they want. Clear and Simple. When you do not know what is your objective how can you deal with the other person.

It is easier to make fools to other person if you are have a group of at least two people and you know the person whom you are going to make fool.

Last day, or Yesterday One of the friend gave a barbecue party in the corridor of the rooms. It was nice because their were different faces that we never saw, their were nice and good people together chatting, laughing enjoying food and doing what ever that can lead them to the happy moments.

We all were invited thanks to him for his generosity. I was just like I am therefore after coming from the University I straight away took his beer and went for the participation. Later after some 1hr some of the people came they were Nepalis. A good brilliant guys from Nepal who are called as friends. As I don't know what is the nature of others Nepali guy but My nature is shy so I was enjoying the beer that I took from Teemu.

The guys started to talk something strange and I was interested to know what is that. When I asked a question I got a very sound reply which made me think that those guys do not know me at all.

It was amazing experience wow, they laughed at me and I was left spell bound. I thought well that is how we call friends in Nepal. May be it is because of my own caste, my nature of unfriendliness which resulted in being stupid.

It is easy to make some one fool. Imagine yourself in such situation. I am not angry or frustrated or depressed with that situation but certainly I learn one good lesson. It is easier to make people fool.

I am happy for what happened because I have seen the consequences and the results. I am happy to learn a lesson because I am always left alone. One can talk 1 hr about being open or how should a person should be open to each other and at the same time that same person does not come out of his room to see others.

It is easy. You have to open the door of your room and take some steps to reach others room. In your mind just set a program that you have to go to the person room. If you are not dead in the middle you will reach to that person house.

It is easy. It is simple straight away if you got some problem start to talk and clear it. I do it. I don't know the people around me do not feel doing it only because they think I am unfriendly.

It is funny too for me. I smile when I go through such situation. I am not open they say as you can read inside and outside of me and compare. I am stupid they can say. I am crazy people can say but one thing is for sure. I do not care.

If I see 7 grains and I tell that one of the grains is bad do not eat to others around me, they will believe in and they will eat only 6. But how can you judge the grain which was bad was really bad ?. Do you really trust the person who asked you to trust him/her ?

For this reason, you got to taste yourself. Taste it yourself and see if the grain was really bad. One has to experience itself before knowing or judging others. Their are thousand of other things that I would like to share but It will just give an impression that I am just complain about someone.


Their were other many things to learn from the party but which I would like to put into one single statements- "wo+men are two words faster than men".


Good weekend !