Living on the Edge

Lyrics:

There's something wrong with the world today
I don't know what it is
Something's wrong with our eyes

We're seeing things in a different way
And God knows it ain't His
It sure ain't no surprise
(YA!)

(Chorus)
We're livin' on the edge
We're livin' on the edge
We're livin' on the edgeWe're livin' on the edge

There's someting wrong with the world today
The lightbulb's gettin' dimmed
There's meltdown in the sky

If you can judge a wise man
By the color of his skin
Then mister, you're a better man than I

(Chorus)
We're Livin' on the edge
You can't help yourself from fallin'
Livin' on the edge
You can't help yourself at aaaaaaaall!
Livin' on the edge
You can't stop yourself from faaaaaaaallin'
Livin' on the edge


Tell me what you think about our sit-u-a-tion
Complication - aggravation
Is getting to you

If chicken little tells you that the sky is fallin'
Even if it wasn't would you still come crawling
Back again - I bet you would my friend
Again & Again & Again & Again & Again

Tell me what you think about our situation
Complication - aggravation
Is getting to you

If chicken little tells you that the sky is fallin'
Even if it was would you still come crawling
Back again - I bet you would my friend
Again & Again & Again & Again

Something right with the world today
And everybody knows it's wrong
But we can tell 'em no
Or we could let it go
But I would rather be a hanging on

(Chorus)
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

(Repeat Chorus)

Broken Dreams

In response to Paulo's workshop on Broken Dreams, here is what Mybheja has to say-


Dear Paulo,

Broken Dreams is very good theme for your latest outstanding work.

Dreams are shattered or broken by the compromise but still people should believe in the dreams. Dreams is very complicated terminology and it has wide range of opinions and book about it. Similar to love, faith, hope and religion.

I have read Eleven minutes as per the resolution this year and the dream of Maria of exploring for an adventure, marrying a good lovable man and giving and getting love is shattered on many occasions.She has to make compromises with her dreams. But finally she was destined to live happy.

Broken is nothing, dreams can never be broken. Dream is far bigger vision of human mind which are hanging like stars in the night. The dream can vary and the dream could be different. Materialistic dreams like getting an degree, buying house, car, lottery, fame, job, … Spiritual and religious dreams like enlightenment, nirvana, excitement, happiness, …
and many more.

As far as my understanding for your book, “The Winner Stands alone”- broken dreams is a good theme and when the dream are broken then human are not longer controlled by power of soul, then the mind can rule over, then the changes can be seen.

For e.g. John lenon was famous personality. A great singer and great soul. Now, there was another guy who was nobody before he killed someone who was somebody. David Chapman.

So, Broken dreams is good theme for many work and I think writers can truly explore more from such theme.
Good luck !

God blesses you !

and

God bless you all !



Paulo Coelho Reply:
June 3rd, 2009 at 1:03 pm

Dear Santosh,
interesting this idea of when dreams are shattered, then the mind rules over the soul. I don’t totally agree with the view that this is the moment when things can be seen.
When one is actually living one’s dream - this is also visible to others.
Love




Santosh Kalwar Reply:
June 3rd, 2009 at 2:25 pm

Dear Paulo,

Well yeah, things could not be seen in instant but maybe later. I also like one great idea that,

When you have a dream, universe and all other elements surrounding you will help you to achieve your dreams. e.g. “You”

God blesses you !

and

God bless you all !

What is your Resolution for 2009?

This is little difficult for me-

As I am very bad at making plans and it is good idea to make a plan and work for these plans ahead. How about doing the things you like most at a given time? How about doing what your heart says? How about not planning ahead in advance.

There are people who waste time making calendars and put there events in the calendar but I just try to remember everything in my little head.

In 2008, I has some things in my mind. For example,

I will write around 365 posts in 2008 and if you will check now at the end of 2008 you will find that, I have really accomplished what I thought.
http://www.mybheja.blogspot.com
I am little doubtful if I will post 365 articles or posts in the same blog. It will depend on which place I will live. If I remain in Finland then I think, yes but if not, then I doubt on my own abilities this year.I do not know what would be my resolution in 2009 but let me try to make the list and see if I will achieve by the end of the year 2009.

There is some career accomplishments, personal voyage and many other random stuffs which I personally would like to do in 2009.

"Humans desires never end, every time we want more and more-it just never ends."

I truly believe in the above cited quotes. Therefore for coming new year 2009 which is-
2+0+0+9=11
Total is equal to Eleven

There is a book written by Paulo, called "Eleven Minutes". I have not yet read that book, I wish I could.

-May be Paulo will post his book "Eleven Minutes" in the blog and I will read them in 2009.

But just wait a moment, When we add "Eleven" i.e. 1+1=2

The final single number after the end of year 2009 is,

2+0+0+9=11 =1+1=2 (Two)

Two has a great meaning, it could mean "good" or "bad", it may also mean "right" or "wrong". In technology two means, 10 (Binary representation of decimal number 2)

When we go further deep we can find that in Electricity two mean either "on" or "off".

Now-let me see what this two has to do in my personal life. Well, Oh-

Alright, I got it.

I am presently in Finland,and Two could mean-I can go back to my home country in Nepal or might again, come back from Nepal to further study here in Finland.

May be, Two means I would have two wifes. I think I have to work very hard to make this happen. Simply because Generally, People say that "Behind every successful man, there is a women". Since the economic crisis is going on these days, jobs are being cut and there are loads of problems floating in around the air. Therefore, So, I think if someday I am going to become successful then, I need not just only "a women" but may be "two women".

What else two could mean in my life,
May be I will finish my second book which I am working on currently.Since this book will be the work of fiction, and I will try to find a publisher for this one. I do not want them to "self-publish". Simply because, it does not reach to wide audience until and unless you are famous.

What else, May be couple of "Scientific Journal" should be researched and published. But I still do not know if I will first be given any position for the study. Especially the research funding for the work by the University.

I think in 365 days these resolutions are good enough and if I complete even half of these then I think I have accomplished what I have promised with myself.

Now as you said Paulo, that you will again post these list at the end of year 2009, I will summarize them below.

1) Post 365 articles, opinions and views on the blog with average post of one article every day.
http://www.mybheja.blogspot.com

2) If possible read the book "Eleven minutes" by Paulo. (if posted for free or given to me by Paulo as gift)

3) Travel back to home country Nepal (and come back again in Finland.) If not offered the Residence permit on any grounds such as study or work here in Finland then I have to see the other opportunities elsewhere.

4) Try to make two wives. The term wives does not mean that I will marry them officially but I prefer to call "wife" rather than calling them as "girl friend" simply because, I believe the term "girl friend" is misleading in this era where you keep on changing them every time. My definition of "wife" is those ladies who are dedicated and committed to you as much as you are committed and dedicated to them. (Both of them different, both of them should like me more than they like anybody else, both of them should care more about me more than any one in the entire world, both of them should help me in any given ways and both of them I should like as well more than my life.)

5) Finish my second book. A work of fiction. Currently I have started to think on this project. Let us see if I can complete it by the end of year 2009.

6)Find the suitable publisher for the my second book. (If not, then self publish.) This one is very difficult, I know.

7) May be one two papers on "Scientific Journal or Conference" by the end of the year through my research work.


OK, I must stop now. This is already very ambitious dreams and even if I complete half of them or some of them, then I will be satisfied.

Satisfaction will not come to me, if I will complete these above mentioned "To do" lists but the real satisfaction will come to me when I will start doing them.

Therefore, I would like to stop here by saying that-

"Whatever you do, whatever you get- at the end the most important of all, simply ask one question:
Are you satisfied?
If your listen from your inner voice-yes, then you are the most happiest on earth, if no-then try to ask again and say, why not?"

Good luck to you all, in 2009 !

Have a great Weekdays !

Early morning with a fear of expecting the unexpected. Many of us, wake up with the machine making us wake up. How many of us wake up naturally and do our activities ? As the life is moving in faster lane, people are ruled by machine. Our normal morning life is controlled by smaller tiny mechanical alarm.

This alarm is built by us for our comfort but try it rising up early in the morning without it. You will then realize the fact that, you cannot wake up as the way you want to, you cannot control yourself how can you think of taking control of others ?

Together with the advancement of technology, there are loads of negative effects rapidly climbing. There are times when we would easily make the decision, there are times when we would easily do what we wanted to do, there were times when your voices were heard in the crowd. Today, if you see- every body wants to make some point. Simply observe, you will find people making arguments and discussion over the things which are merely useless.

First lesson of living a life, is to control your life. Now, to control your life you need to control your mind, behavior, attitudes, taste and many more attributes which might look useless but are necessary. These attributes are useful elements for the life to work as we want it them to work.

When you want to do something, please do. When you want to think that, whatever you are doing will result in bad or good or you may look as if you are stupid. Then you will not do what you wanted to do.

Somebody has rightly said that, "To do is to be". You are being, when you are doing. The result is the not important. The path taken to reach to the destination is important. Take for example, a life. A normal human life is born, then it grows and slowly it starts observing the essential elements around it. It starts to learn, earn and sustain its life. A life knows that, there is an end but it is not worried about the end. Since all other life living in this planet must have to reach to an end.

Walking to the end path, together is important. Sharing what you have gained with those who have not is important. Living your own life is important but more important is when you can dedicate some part of it, with others.

These moral lessons might be useful to start a busy, fast moving and to fight with hustle and bustle of this weekdays.

To end this article here is the quote of the day-

"Getting lost together can also enable you to find yourselves together."

Have a great weekdays and hope to see you waking up next morning without that machine!

Trip to Estonia.

There was a written statement about me yesterday that I have been writing most of the times the hypothetical concepts but I do not care about it. Yesterday was a good day with exciting thing to do. First and foremost, We planned to visit Estonia. A city which is close to Finland. A city very small and very peaceful.

Journey is what we like. A Journey with friends, and smile all around. A journey with silence and in those silence there are loads of lesson learning process all the time. We started our jouney early in the morning at around 3am. The darkness was there and we were driving four guys from our city to the capital of Finland, Helsinki. Thanks to our friend "Teemu" who stood brave and took a decision of driving both the ways around.

We reached very early in the Helsinki port and it was nice to feel early morning cold breeze with pleasant smell of fresh air.

We started to move to the "Ekeraline", a ship name which was cost effective and which was there for us to take to Estonia. It was nice ship and a very pleasant trip. Initially, as there is always a feeling of sleeping in early morning it did not distub our feelings and we went on.
We were welcomed on board and the ship started to move slowly in the Ocean.

It was the time to take the breakfast and we had a buffet in the ship which was very cheap only 10 Euro per person. As food is necessary to survive we did not had a choice and we started our breakfast.

It was very funny experience that it took 3 attempts to full our tummy. There were three rounds of food being tasted and I thought that was much more for the entire day. The breakfast was very heavy and then the fun part started with cracking jokes and having fun, smiling and sharing good experiences and so on.

We started to move around the city, took a very cheap beer in the restaurant which was only 5 Euro per person. Acutally it was not cheap in that particular resturant. I asked one lady in one small stall to take a picture with me and she refused. I do not why but she said, "Buy something from my shop and then I will allow you to take the picture".

There were two perspectives to measure, one from my side and next from the lady's side. From my side- it was bad because, I thought there is nothing wrong if she could have said yes and I would have shared some moments with her,nothing else.

From her perspective, she wanted something to sell and she thought the profit in two ways, one she will ask me to buy something and next she will even give me the pleasure of being with her in the picture.

I did not gave a second thought on what she asked. As a typical Finns would have done. I said nothing too and we moved our ways to see other part of Estonia.

Some of my friend said that she was a Russian lady, and they are always desiring for money and can give anything for money. I do not think so, but to some extent yes.

Again I asked myself,can money buy everything in world ? Can we buy love, happiness and those things which we cannot usually get but the moments creates them, can we really buy a women from around anywhere in the world for money ?

That question is left to readers, you decide if it is really possible for to buy everything from money. After such wise thinking we headed to see other part of the city. There were big malls, fancy shops and many more exciting church. We visited some of them which were free.

It was memorable journey all the way. Finally it was time to come back home and we bought the many many cases of the beers, wine, whiskey and vodka.

Later, the journey we took has to come to end. While we were coming we saw some good ladies in the ship who were close to us. Some of them were looking to me as if I am some druggist or as I am some weired guy coming from some unknown forest.

It does not matter as long as you matter to yourself.

Finally the tour of one day to Estonia ended up with nice cool feelings of the place and the people in Estonia.

We had a nice journey all along.

What is wrong about being nostalgic?

From Paulo coelho-
"During a full week in Myspace, I changed my mood from mischievous to nostalgic. Once done that, I started to receive messages from readers asking me what was wrong - given that some considered that being nostalgic was a bad thing in itself.
But I don’t think that being nostalgic for a week is such a problem.
So, here is the question of the week: how do see nostalgia?"

In response here is what I have to say-

When I googled the word “nostalgic” I got following definition-
“a wistful desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one’s life, to one’s home or homeland, or to one’s family and friends; a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time”

The desire of being in the past or former time in one’s life. Many people go in that phase, and most of the times I become nostalgic too.

It is the wish of going home, reaching to the past very good memory one had and now in the present he cannot find such memories again. Being myself so far from the experience which I had achieved is asking me to become nostalgic too.

Too much of everything is bad, that is true. However, I think I like being nostalgic many of the times in my life. I remember old days and want to go back in those days or remember going back in time.

It has nothing to do with being sad, being sad is different then being nostalgic. Sad is just like feeling unhappy, sad is not in the present, sad is something related with worry but nostalgic is remembering the past or want or desire of going through the moments in the past.

We always want to remember our past and want to go back in our past simply because it is good for us too, to learn from our past and see what is going on in our present moment. It gives an impression to the people that being nostalgic the person is feeling sad but eventually that is not true.

Having sad that nostalgic is not being sad, I would rather add that, When a person is being nostalgic he goes in the moment of silent and thinks or remembers his experience about the event that happened, he sometimes may even remember those memories; it can also result in the laughter, it can also result in pain, it can also result in smile.

Sadness is always with us, it is the integral part of our day to day life. Happiness is something which a human will dream to achieve except me. I have the proud feeling that, I am some kind of happiness but again, that is wrong.

Being nostalgic is true to many of us, and we go or become nostalgic which does not mean we are sad but it means we are feeling little bit about our past and we want to cherish those memories once again in the near future.

What makes me suffer

Rabbi Moshe de Sassov “True love is that which manages to avoid unnecessary suffering.”

The quote is beautifully said and nicely written. There are two elements in the quote first is “love” and second is “true love”. When you have two different things in a quote that means that needs to be compared. There is comparison between the love and true love. How can a person determine what is “love” and what is “true love” ? To understand the difference one has to first understand what love is.

When would you say- that a person is speaking what he is knowing or what he has experienced or what he has felt ? I do not agree, that there is any difference between any love or true love or false love or whatever. There is only one thing and that is “love”. When you are putting other words in front of it, or besides it then you are differentiating the words with others.

A love is love, either it is true or false. A love can not be true or false. A love is pure and the purity of the love cannot be measure. Either it is the love of parents to their children or it is the love of husband towards his wife, or it is the love of animals. Love is same everywhere.

Suffering cannot be manged. Suffering is that what we possess, that what we think and the way we think about anything. Suffering is present, it is vital for the existence. One has to understand how one takes it. Do you take “suffering” as one of the disease ? If you are taking suffering as the disease, then please think once again because disease in your body can go, it will one day vanish from your body but the suffering will not go until you are existing in this earth, until you are living in the present.

Can you find the love from the suffering ? If you cannot see the love from the suffering how can you tell what is true love ? How can you determine that suffering do not have love ? “In pain, there is pleasure associated”. or rather, I would say-”Pain contains the pleasure”. One has to feel the pain to feel the pleasure. One has to feel the suffering to feel the love from the suffering.

To understand weather you are getting a true love or no love or false love or just simply love you have to remove or take out from you mind the meaning of love. Once you remove all these definition of “what is love” then the remaining in your mind will give you, the proper definition of what is love.

Necessary and unnecessary is associated with humans personal taste. One can find some thing necessary at the same time one does not find anything necessary out of it. Therefore, there is no difference between love. Love cannot be said, “true” or “false”. Love is simply love.

Assembly in Finland

Assembly has a great meaning in itself. It is the meeting places or some sorts of meeting acquaintances where loads of people join this big event and make it a grand sucess. These people they perform a loads of interesting things by making fine arts, building cool games, playing poker or doing loads of extreme graphic program or even just simply creating a cool web pages.

Being a Microsoft Student Partner has loads of benefit. One we get the VIP acess to the stand and next you are not checked by any securities or any camera do not follow you. You get a cool just in front of the big huge giant screen.

The event is huge sucess every year. All the crazy finns all across the city come and join the this event. All these people are very much interested into the technology stuffs and they make this event a huge sucess. One of the fasicnating thing about the event is that, most of the people are really cool in desingning or making a cool stuffs out of box.

One of the official from the Microsoft just told me that, soon Microsoft is launching one cool Photosynth program for all the users world wide. This photosynth is huge sucess already and it can take a lot of information from anywhere in the image. It can give loads of information, it can not only give the information but also give minor of the information from the picture.

Right now it is around 11:40 pm in the night and I am watching a extreme graphics program that is been displayed in front of the huge screen. These stuffs are very interesting. If you plan to come to finland please do come to visit the Assembly during this season.

There are loads of stuff happening, you just got to see where ...

Building Trust.

Hello, hello,, hello.. who are you ? I am asking you. Yeah, you sir who are you. Do you know who are you ? Come on tell me. Why do you want to know ? Who are you to ask ? Why are you asking me such questions ? Are you crazy ? Do you know me ?

These are the general conversation when a two unknown person talk for the first time. A person is trying to ask something but the other person is not trying to tell him about himself just because the unknown person is not known to him in one way or another.

Why are we finding the relationship before we want to explore ourselves or want to tell about ourselves to others.The main reason is that-we do not trust the person,who is uknown. We are fearful and afraid of the unknown. Either it is a person or animal. If it is not yours then it is not secure or not trustful. It is unlikely that some one will be open and tell everything to the unknown.

The mystery is that everything in world takes time. Love, Friendship, Marriage, almost many kinds of relationship takes load of time before it puts itself in a good gear and runs smoothly. Why do we admire a couple who are old and walking down the streets catching hand in hand laughing and cherishing a long old memories gone by, kissing and hugging each other just thinking they do not have the very next day behind them and only the moment at which they are present and walking down with a joy and happiness touching every feet like never before.

Time is a journey, a movement- our movement leads to time. Nothing is immovable. Everything moves. When everything moves we are bound to move as well. This is the fact and it do not need any scientific explanation. The movement creates a matter of trust between two parties, two friends, husband and wife and the most important thing that connects these movements is communication. When you are communicating then you are in a touch with the person and the person will be trustful to you but once you loose connection you stop trusting the other person and you tend to judge after a while. You will then ask weather she really needs to be trusted.

There is one story in Indian Epic. A story of Lord who goes to jungle for 14 years and he was the king of the place. Just because he has to leave everything and go in forest to spend his life for 14 years and the main thing was he could not take his wife with him. Now when he returns from the forest after 14 years, he hears a lot of thing about his wife. He hears long long sentences that makes him doubt over his wife. He then looses a trust over his wife. He then starts to think. He is king, he is great human being in those era but now he finds himself in dilemma and trouble. How would he trust his own wife after 14 years. ? Is she really trustful or can you really believe in her, whatever she says. A wife of the king had to do some kind of examination before she really could be trusted again. She had to sit in a burning fire for a while and if the fire automatically stops burning then she is proved that she is innocent.

What happened was miracle that she really testified her trust and finally the fire stopped burning. Or something similar. I do not remember much of the story. Now, the main question that remains in this world is, It was in those days when every body was very trustful and every body really valued what they speak but Today, Oh, my God !

You do not realize how many times in a day you speak lie. You speak lie to yourself, to your friends and to many of the people you may know or do not know. you say, hello Nice to meet you ! when you do not feel nice to see the other person. you say, "I love you". Just because you have to say. you say- "This is great". When it is no longer great. These are just some of the lies that we will not know or we do not explore within us.

The trust building process to build a relationship is a one kind of art and it has to be learn by yourself. It is the just the beginning.

Learning never stops.

A morning which is lazy, a morning which makes you sleep more than you want to, a morning which makes you feel as if there is holiday tomorrow too, a morning which reminds you that it is a big morning so go back to bed again. Is it same for every one ? Of-course not ! Everything is different and every body's morning is different.

A life which tells you that you have to live despite that you know you have to go one day, a death which will always reminds that one day it has to end everything that you have done has come to an end. Nothing can be done for ever and ever but one thing can and that one thing is the attachment of you with Nature.

Nature is very strong, none of the single life is enough to understand it and none of the single life has been before enough to find out many hidden facts from it. We use the theory from the nature to our practical life and then we call it Science. We use the simple aspects from the nature and then we make our theory to give it a name and try to see the logical connection between all these things. Do you think it really matters ?

Why it would matter if a gravity is there or not ? What does it has to do with a person life ? Well, it will surely has made many thing simple to move a object that humans have created in the sky but are all these progressing ? Even though to many it will look as if it is progressing but to me, I think it is going down. We do not have people of such calibre who have really made an inventions. We have only those kind of people in this world who do many more things but do not invent. The point is, it does not matter wherever we reach or whatever we do. The most important things that matter is how can we learn more from the nature to use it in our practical life.

The beauty does not lie in making any innovation or invention or finding something new or whatsoever but the real beauty lies in what is already given to us already. We born and we see these beautiful tall trees taller than our height and we realize all other trees also look the same but as long as we grow we must realize the fact that we are not taller, or we should not be proud of our height one thing, because in world there are many people who compares the hegit of their own with the others people and say, I am taller than you, I am smaller than you whatsoever. These is stupid only because we can see big trees which are taller than all we humans. We also have to see the sky, the light blue sky which is open and moving, which carries the white clouds and sometimes the black clouds together with it.

We people talk a lot about a race, for those who have the problem with race-Please see the sky, A sky is big. It carries both types of clouds it does not make any difference between a white clouds which are mostly seen in shinny days or dark clouds which are mostly seen when it is going to rain. When a sky do not differentiate, why are we ?

These are some of the lessons that could be learn from the Nature, just like these there are many more to learn. There are thousand of these aspects to be learnt. There are many such things to be learnt. There are many more aspects of life to be learnt. Keep of watching people, the way they talk, the way they behave and the way you connect your own personal life with them. Be ready for the great learning experience and also try to connect all of these with Nature.

All the way leads to one way.

Suprise again, Woke up with eyes open. A third world country fellow came to study in one city of Finland. Now, The time has come to extended your permit.The permit reminds you that you are from different place and you have to show the some 6000 Euro Balance in your bank account.

Now they are also planning to change the system. The system now they are looking for the change is that Students selected should paid a tution fee. I think this is not possible. None of the people would like to come to this deadland, I do not recommend anybody to do that if they are going to implement such system. Please for god's sake do not waste your money and your times. It is better to go somehwere else or some other country rather than coming to this place.

It does not mean that it is bad or good or something, only thing is that your personal benefit. Always ask what you are going to get from what you do. It does not make you selfish, it makes you decide your own destiny.

Today as my eyes were open and my hands, legs and my part of body was moving. I thought to go to the Center of the city. It was very early in the morning I reached to the city center and coming early in the morning today at the center where there were no one, none of the shops were open, sitting in the gallery stand I was doing nothing. I opened my diary and started to write something.

One beautiful lady came and open her gallery of Finnish design infront of me where I am sitting. I was waiting patiently for the the shops to open. Every morning comes with the ray of hope and again evening goes with depression of black darkness.

Sometimes the money we earn are not even useful to us. What would we do when the money we earn does not make any sense in real life. The reality is somehow different then what we percieve or what we think.

Imagine a situation where there is no hatred, not religion, no language, no caste and no creed, no difference and no pain, no sorrow and no guilt. I know it is not easy as it looks but it is easy.

What we see depends upon what we think. I get angry who is getting the benefit ? I am angry makes me feel bad, makes by body to behave somewhat to show the expression of anger. This is what is not good. The world is how we see, how we take and how we feel deep inside.

Understanding a human is very difficult task. Now a days, people write that they can really have good relationship in 1 month, 3 months and some 21 days. This is stupid. It does not work the way those people think or those people belive. First you need to understand yourself, then you should be able to understand his behaviour, attitude, gestures, culture, country, language and many more. It is not easy to understand the human. How can people easily think that it is easy to be in relationship.

Relationship is all about commitment. It is about the effort, it is about the two ways of mutual, soul talk or soul understanding. It is not easy. In search of good partner we may try 100 girls or guys in our life but what would we get at the end of all this. A rotton thing either hanging or rotton thing sticking in our body.

I am in the actually not healthy and I am fit and fine as people are normally but my body is such that I am filling as if I am ill. I do not know what would happen tomorrow but If I die please do not leave me alone. The blog would not be updated anymore, I would not have any good news, or bad news or any stories to tell you. I would not have anything to write. In the process of living and dieying we are trying hard to survive. We want things but things won't gives us satisfcation. Please start doing the things you like most. Leave the rest to your faith, if it is there it will come and if it was not-it was never yours.

Life is the way we live it, life is the way we share it and happiness is multiplied when shared. Race is divided when discussed, language will create problem when seen in difference, Peace is the end. Please try to know the fact that all our destiny leads us to graveyard, or some are burnt.

The process of reaching the end and making exciting is in all your hand. One example I would like to share was-I was in the center today, I saw a old women, I felt like I should talk with her. I just said Good day in Finnish and she replied with me the same. She stopped walking or going where she was intended to and she asked me if I was fine, I replied yes.

This is what I do, feel like talking-talk, feel like doing sex-do it, feel like smiling without reason-smile, feel like getting angry with yourself-get angry, feel like shouting to someone-shout, feel like sleeping more-sleep, feel like not waking up again to see the beautiful morning-do not wake up.

"This is mine"

The feelings are connected with our life in some way or another. Some times we feel good sometimes we feel bad. Is it possible to maintain a stable feelings throughout the entire life. Is it possible to be cool, calm and be silent as a lake.

How can one have same constant feeling ? The phenomenon cannot be explained. It cannot be said that one person can have same feeling all the time. Nothing is perfect and nothing can be perfect. In search of perfection we end up with nothing. We are fighting all the time, struggling, trying to find out the right match, right path and right way of living a life but at the same time we want to maintain the constant feeling.

We cannot say that we are prefect humans. We are always trying to be good, trying to prove ourselves. We are fighting all the time with ourselves. This is good, this makes sense and it is the way of progress. No body wants to accept the feedback given by some one else, no one wants to take it easily. It is not easy to accept what others say about your work, it is not easy to think on what others say or think about you or your habit or you way of living a life.


Why is that happening ? Why does the things do not come easily in our brain ? Why do we have to read thousand of books before we come to some conclusion ?. These are done only to find some relation with others.

Some one has done x amount of work but you do not know so you read his x amount of work to find out what he has done and what he has not. then you try to find out what you can do on his x amount of work. This is what happens in research. You read the books, you read others author book on a related topic to find out the "unknown" and try to put your "known" things in it.

This will not lead to creation, today people talk about the creation and they say that is the creation. Creation do not happen like that way. Creation comes from scratch. It is build with one single entity with one single thought in one single environment.

Imagine a situation where their were no human being existence in this planet. Who created the first two Adam and Eve ? Was it based on the previous work if GOD thinks that it is based on previous work why do not we have evidence ? Why we lack the evidence of the creation of First cell or first living entity in this planet.

Evidence are the way of proving that "this is mine". If you remove some of your work with "this is mine" and just think of creation you will have no time in earth to put "this is mine". People now a days are only focusing on "this is mine" and not focusing on creation itself.

In today's world we are not creating anything we are just creating a whole warehouse of articles, journals and papers which will be useless in near future. Those who are creators do not have time to acclaim what they have done.

GOD did not ever thought he did what people think of creation. GOD created it but he was unknown about what he did it. He did what he thought is good for his tribes, he did it because he was in this planet to "do". He came in this earth to show people that you should "do".

These are big issue to discuss and thousands of people will back fire me on this topic but I do not care as long as I can put my mind on it. I do not have any evidence to prove it what I said is right nor do I want to have any.


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Ideas are generated by imagination ...

We all are different, that is good.
We all act differently, that is good.
We all have our idols, good.
We all think, very good.
We all are humans. (Written by human)

Can a monkey write- We are researching on it.
Can a chimpanzee think-Research
Can male will give birth -Research
Can we survive for ever-Research

What is relationship ?
I would say a ship, which has relation with water. A water which has relation with the object called ship. They both touch each other. Can you find the keyword in above two sentence ? If you can then good but if you cannot don't worry. The keyword is "touch".

The water has no problems with the ship,when it touches it and so on. The ship also has no problem with water. They can touch each other but imagine when water suddenly say's that you cannot touch me.

What would ship think and do ? Ship will say please i beg you, i ask you and i really need your help, i want to touch you-let me do it otherwise i could not move. When ship begs or request or ask for permission then slowly water starts thinking that it is the most important thing. The ego is created in water, the ego which says without it nothing is possible.

Now, despite the fact that ship has to move on why could not it move. Either it has to leave the sea, or it has to be be stationary-which it cannot do.

Therefore ship leaves the sea and the door is closed for ship and water in that sea.
Now, ship is moved in the place where their is no water. what is the next solution ?
How can a ship be moved ? Gentleman, do you have any idea.

"Ideas never die."
"Ideas are generated by imagination,imagination is knowledge and knowledge is power."(Quote generated in 0.000079seconds in my mind).

Now, Suddenly what happens is ship is puzzled, surprised and starts behaving as if he is alive now. How ?. It feels the drop of rain in its body. From no where their is rain falling heavily. It pours for 1 month continuously and the ship where it was laying becomes sea.

This is brief description of what people called today as relationship. Try to understand putting two humans, two different sex partners or same and what so ever. You will get some idea because idea .....

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Eat, Sleep and Drink Cricket

For those like me, over-exposed to the old school tie, summers in heart of Chitwan and fascinated to hear latest news on Cricket commentary, cricket was always more than a game; it won't be wrong if I say we were eating, sleeping and drinking cricket, it was a way of life and the most worthwhile contribution of a much-reviled Empire.



It was a self-fulfilling world which encapsulated robust values, from strategic thinking to fair play. My childhood cricketing heroes were those who combined skill and elegance with lordly amateurism - 'gentlemen' like Richie Benaud, David Gower, Sunil Gavaskar and Sachin Tendulakar.7 years ago, I even made a to National level competition held in the Kathmandu - the summer retreat of the redoubtable Kathmandu weather was awesome. It was a small homage to an age that is long gone, when money was never discussed in polite company and gentlemen who were involved in the game had private incomes.

It seems that we are developing together as a team; we are into news by the name of gentlemen game. Seeing at neighboring country India and its team it seems that in days to come, there will be more populist outrage at the effrontery of investing in Indian cricket Rs 6 crore in M S Dhoni when indebted farmers are committing suicide next door in their land. Eyebrows will also be raised at the logic of ignoring promising Indian talent for foreign has-beens. But Why, yet others will ask, are we not putting all our eggs in the cricket basket? Surely football, Karate and marbles deserve a break. Everyone has some gripe about a perfect free market. Pandering to popular tastes is held to be ''common''; it offends aesthetic sensibilities. A free-marketer I know, for example, was livid when great football players was awarded the National honors. Why can't we do the same for Nepali Cricket Players?

It is worth investing money on Nepali cricket as it takes the brand name of country and culture it presents in global world. We can even see the progress we are making by entering Final of U-19 Plate championship. What some people view as debasement, others regard as opportunities. Till the World Cup in South Africa showed the way, few people appreciated the potential of 20-20 cricket. Today, every impresario worth the name believes that this shortened version of the game constitutes the future in a hurried world. And if Mallika Sherawat doing an 'item number' to celebrate every lofted shot into the stands livens proceedings further, what's the harm? It's good capitalism.

The Cricket Association of Nepal (CAN) should actually only be tangentially about cricket. It is doubtful during my existence whether Wisden will even record the scores of the Kathmandu versus Chitwan encounter, nor will club loyalties develop instantly. We need to take the initiatives as soon as possible. Russian billionaires buy football clubs in Chelsea and mansions in Hampstead to signal their coming of age. In Nepal we have not done anything till date; as a cricket reactionary, I mourn the tinsel-isation of a way of life; as a nationalist I salute those who had the audacity to think big.

Who cares if the whole thing is very bling - the hallmark of the arriviste? What matters is that cricket now should belong to Nepal. Or at least we can think of making it our national pride, certainly in near future.

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Two stories

Once my wife, Padhmawoti said couple of very interesting story, the first story "During Mahabharata war Arjuna came to meet his grandfather Bhishma Pitahma who was lying on a bed of arrows that Arjuna had shot. Bhishma Pithama was waiting for an auspicious day to leave his mortal coils. Arjuna asked: "Pitamah, where do you expect me to bury your body after you leave this earthly abode?" Bhishma smilingly said, "Bury my body in a place where I was not buried before". Accordingly, Arjuna selected a place on the banks of the Yamuna River and performed suitable rituals. As he lifted the axe to dig the ground he heard a voice, '-' which meant that Bhishma was buried here over hundred times". And the second story she said was, "Once a herd of hundred donkeys was being taken on a hill by the owner of the herd. On the way he had to rest at an inn. He was afraid of his donkeys escaping at night while he would be asleep. But he did not have sufficient length of rope to tie them all; he only had a small length of rope which was hardly sufficient to tie one donkey. So he planned in such a way that he pretended tying the small rope around legs of each of the donkeys. In actual fact he did not tie the rope to any in the herd. Next morning when he pushed each donkey it hardly moved thinking that it was tied by its master. Only when he pretended to untie them did they begin to move." After seven months I realize why she would have said these stories? The moral of these stories is that every one of us is born and has died countless times ever since birth and death started happening on this universe. This world is a long unending disease for which the sure and best medicine is true inquiry and own personal experience. We are not bound by love or illusion in reality, but we only have the false feeling that we are bound by illusion or love. Similarly, we too are led to think that we are bound by so many of our past deeds and hence we are made to suffer. In reality it is realization that is needed, not the purification rituals to get over it. Realization that this world is only dreamlike and the truth is beyond it helps one initially pass through the hurdles of life. To say that this world is created hardly arouses right reasoning for there need to exist a witness to such creation and this witness had to precede Creation. Another reasoning to support the dream nature of the dream world is that any creation ought to have stuff for creation and this stuff should have been created earlier.