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Well, a great day with a morning showing a great glory. A nice fresh air just outside a corridor with a deep fresh air going down the body and giving a feeling that you are alive. A fresh air and a fresh start of the day.

Many of the times we worry about many of the things in our life and we are not sure about if that things are going to work for us or not. Why do we feel that something should work for us ? What is that keeps us guessing all the time ? Is it just the function of our brain or is it just some hallucination. Is it our desire or is it that we really are eager to get.

When we are worried about certain things then that particular thing does not work as per we want. It is because we will desire of the things but the desire of those things will not bring the success in our life. Every great things are free. Internet is free, I would not say that love is free because love is totally different than what we think love is or love should be or in some form of definition of love. Many of the things are free in the world. One example of free things is- Smile. It is for free.

A golden life that we have is for free, a distance we travel by our foot is free. A mind which is free of values, ethics, religion, authority, differences is the pure form of mind. A mind which is at early of the existence. It will not ask or it will not want or have a desire for the things. It will work accordingly, it will work as per it thinks or as per it should work. It is not directed by anyone nor it is by any organization, religious body or any other events. It is alone and at the same time it is with every one.

It is doing many of the things which we would think of doing. It will be there and it will give the pleasure or satisfaction of being there or achieving when somethings are being done. How do you feel when you finish a hard day work ? It gives you pleasure. It tell you that, now i can relax. now is the time that i am happy or now is the time i am getting rid of this task.

I would call it as breaks. A break or time interval between any task is important. It is utmost necessary. How many of us, take breaks between our work ? Well, Many of us do. We take break and some times we take many of them just to get out from the work. It relaxes the mind. It will give a something beyond what we are doing to think about.

A person should not be bounded by one thing, he should be deeper than the lakes and deep than the deepest ocean in the earth. When you measure a person by his strength than many of the times we see the grades of his degree. It is not correct. Academic judgment and real life judgment of the person is not same. Many great person who created the world as today do not had a good college degrees. A lot of example could be seen. It should not avoid or make you feel that you should also do the same but it should make you relax by giving you a feeling in you- Do not worry. Keep on doing the things you like the most and one day, those things which you like the most will give something in return to you.

Want, desire and all these are just a flick of our brain. A brain triggers every seconds and it demands many of the things from us. There is an influence of brain not only from you but it can be from other brains too. I mean, from your friends, relatives or some one who is near you. One has to learn to handle his/her brain then you could start behaving a brain which comes close to you.

Well, it is just a process and it is not as difficult as it might sound. Welcome to the world where you handle your activity and you are the creator of your sufferings, you do the changes in you which make you look inside you and finally you become a light for yourself.

Wake up, escape from ...

A early morning cool bridge blowing just to make sure that you feel lazy lying in the bed and do not want to wake up to start the day. However, as you are determined to start and see the day through-you put all your energy to wake up. Some people find it very difficult to wake up and some people wake up just naturally. I have seen many around me wake up with the help of machine that is an alarm clock.

Without an alarm clock many find it difficult to wake up. Why ? Why are you waking up with the help of alarm clock and not my yourself ? What is the reason ? The most simple answer is- difficulty to wake up. Some times it is not good for health once you make yourself routinized like a machine that you are going to wake up at this particular time. The simple techniques to wake up is to relax when you sleep. The relaxing does not mean anything-in sleeping mode also you can go for the meditation. This kind of meditation is called unconscious level meditation. You just have to think nothing.

The brain will try to think many thousand different things but do not let your brain go anywhere. Try to focus and sleep. Once you sleep and you do know know you are living or breathing then the state will start. Before going to bed try to remember the last important things that is to wake up early. Just ask your mind that, I have to get up at this time in the morning and then try to go bed without putting alarm clock on. The habit once formed is very difficult to change but once you start slowly changing it, you will find it much more easy to change.


Girls are always girls to me. They will show every bit of them to tell you the fact that they care, but once you are fed up with the carefulness of them-you will then try to ignore them. There are thousand different ways to ignore the girls you are involved with. You can just simply do not receive the calls or just try not to send any text or just ignore her completely. One of my friend was going through the same phase and I asked him not to worry. "As long as you have legs, you will get the shoes of your size". No wonder we are different not only physically but mentally.

The overall complexity of their physical and mental body part allows them to think in different ways-do this, do that, go for this, go for that, make this, make that, do not do this, do not do that... all these then to men may seem like an rules. One thing is sure for the men is that, men do not like to be in the rules and do not ever want to follow the rules. Most of them hate the rules.

A sense of security is good to some extent but once it cross the level than that starts becoming like a burden. Many of the men do not want to be in room playing hide and seek with their mates. They just want to explore the world, want to go outside and see what's going through. When such kind of freedom is taken away or when men start to feel that such things are going away from them, they start behaving in different manner.

Two different entity cannot be same but they could be same for some period of time. There are also an example of two entity living for the entire period of life. In such cases, it is because they are really determined to take any sort of excuses, promises, any pain together. Such kind of relationship last than one life. It is for the infinity. It last more than ever and ever. Such relationship are very difficult to be made or just difficult to find. It is not only about the commitment but also about the promises. It is not only about the living a life but about living a life by sharing pain and sorrow or happiness and sadness together.

She

A desire of Women is just like a pain. A pain which is not easily healed. Despite he fact that she wants something it cannot be fulfilled until and unless she gets really satisfied.

She is satisfied when she fulfills her personal desire. A desire then leads to "want" or "need", She is feeling the pain most of the time in her heart. The pain is not the physical but it is similar to thinking a thought. A pain in the thought-which desires a person to fulfill it. It is hurtful to many of the times but at the same time it is not hurtful.

It exits and if you will ask them then they will not say-they really are feeling it. A feeling is generated in some corner of heart. A feeling and emotions are different. An emotions could be controlled. A feeling is difficult to control. It is not easily controllable.

Feeling leads to desire, she is there somehwhere she remembers you, she thinks every day and night about you. She needs you to be with you. She most of the time thinks about you. She wishes you to be with you. She is the one who really cares about you. Despite she might have a desire which could not be fulfilled without you, she promises that she will keep her desires with her. She promises that she will show up her desire only when you will be with her.

She is there all the time waiting for you. She knows when you are exactly feeling depressed or when you are feeling good. She knows that you do the same as she has been doing for you. A man on other hand will misinterpret the messege. He will feel the "desire" as the "sex". He will most of the time think only sex on his mind.

A man's mind is just like a dog. He wants to fulfill the desire by doing it. He knows only one mantra and that mantra is to fulfill the desire by realsing the sperm. Either it is in women or anywhere else.

Many men will not agree with me, as I would not also. It is same like saying that- I stole something but I would not accept it. She is the one who is there and she will take care of you but do not forget to understand her better. It would not be difficult to understand if you desire to do so. To understand a women is very difficult and it would be impossible as long as we will thik the word "difficult" is really difficult.

To some people "difficult" is very simple and the simple many of the times seems difficult. A beauty of early morning sun falling in the lake saimaa with resilent flower blossoms. A women desire remains unfulfilled just because the sun has not shine on her.

A sun shines in her when a man she feels will fulfill her desire will be with her most of the times, when she needs it and when she thinks about him. Till then a black cloud is not making her seen. A cloud which does not make a person visible-how can her desire be visible ? Forget about the other people, a husband or a lover will also not find it easily or see her desire.

To fulfill a womens desire does not mean you only satisfy only the physical needs. It is more than that. It requires your part of commitment. It requires dedication. It requires more out of you. It is not her desire you are fulfilling, you are satisfying yours most of the times.

It is upto you to decide, want to be or do not want to be, Feeling to live with her or feeling to live without her. Behind every person they say there is no one. But Behind every successful Man there is women. A women who will understand her man, she will take him far far away from others and she will give her man support, care, and most importantly satisfaction in physical, personal and emotional level.

Womens knows the path or destination you are travelling. She knows exactly where you will end up or where you will reach. A man knows nothing about the destination but he will try his best. A women will take her man to the destination he was willing to visit. Try to understand your women in your life. Try to learn from her. It is easy. Do not ask her or do not let her know that you are trying to learn from her but just ask her if you do not understand any minor of the details. She will surely let you know. If you are not involved with any women then do not worry-every dog has its day. It will come sooner or later. Do not hurry up but just do not slow down too. Move in your rythm, in your pace and by enjoying the music in your life.

Long long day

A good painful morning startup, just woke up in from the low bed of mine. It was very painful in the legs, thighs, and even the some part of lungs. With all the very pain I woke up thinking today is the day and there are many stuffs to work out for. It is not easy as it looks easy to survive.

First task was to reach the university and do the blood test. These blood test that I have been doing for last couple of weeks is very scary. They put a big syringe in your middle of arm and some times they even say you that, "Your veins are very small, I could not find it". With the movement of syringe from on place to next they make you feel as if you are really sick.

However, It is for your benefit and it is good to follow the rules when you are benefited. Therefore I started a day with the blood test. Although I was fortunate to eat something, and one peace of boiled eggs it was good. Just after the morning breakfast, it was a time to start the day.

Now I went to University gave a blood test. The result showed it was a bit higher then expected. She gave me good suggestions, and tips on what to do and what not to do. It was asked to take the X-ray test in the center or city center. I do not want to take X-ray test but I have to because it will show my bones and the real picture which will try to explain what is the important.

Then My mind asks me to visit to the center just because I had to renew my visa for the next academic session. I went to the Bank and took the statement that was required for the Visa, finally I went to Police Station where they renew the Visa. The procedure took place and it worked out well.

Finally I had to visit the Posti Office for the training of the work. I went to the Office and started to work out in Training session. It was fun. It was interesting and only hope after all the discussion was to find a bike to find a work. It is not difficult to find a bike to get the work.

Now I am like a man with only bones left. It seems as if I am dieying and soon going to heaven. It really was tiresome. It was very awful, painful and good starter day. The time spent was 8-9 hours in the center. Finally drive in your bicycle to the 5km to your room. Oh, Thanks god that is what you need now, Then nothing stops because that is the place where you have to return just only you are going to sleep in that place.

Some how managed to reach the place and finally prepared a food to eat and now writing these stories of long long day. Isn't it amazing ? A great startup, how about now a good sleep.

I feel as if I am going to sleep forever, people might feel it is derpession, it is just an anger that a people is showing but the life will not let you tell you what to d oand what not to do. It is always your faith your disicison that makes you the life easier later. It is the way it is.

As if I am not in mood now to write or work out writing some stupid stories which will make not any sense to all the sensual people in the world. Enjoy and have fun in your life too, before it gets too late. Some times the way you predict, or see the future-is exactly the similar what happens. Enjoy and really be cool as Ice in your neck.

GOD inside us.

New lesson is always their to learn, Visited the church today-felt like I am close to god. People often say that god is repulsive, imaginary and unbelievable sometimes. I do not know.

My answers would be-I think GOD exits in all of us, the way we speak, the way we think, the way we give our opinion, in our emotional, personal, recreational and all other activities. We should not search for him. He resides inside us. He lives inside us. Every breath we take-he gives us that breath. The ounce of breath that we breath is provided by him.

The bread that we get to eat, the food we always taste, the smell that we smell, the beauty that we see, the love that we share-is the GOD gifts to us. He shares everything with us but we never figure out and we think he is invisible, repulsive and make some thought that he do not answer.

It is not about one single religion, one nation, one person-He exits in all religion but in many different form. He exits in each one of us. He offers us whatever we want. He is the best provider and he plans all our future.

He loves us more than we can think of what love is, we are a treasure to him. He is great curator, he cares us, We need not have to delight him, he is always delighting us. He is the one the greatest encourager.

We may some time suffer, We may have million reason for cry but during all those moment he is taking care of us. Nothing will separate his love to us. He resides on us as our father. He is their in silence watching us, teaching us, taking care of us all the time.

He has a big diary for each of us, He knows our future, he also knows what we are going to do next. He is not worrried because he also know we are getting worried to know what next in our life. He will make us feel better every step we take.

He is the greatest of great, he is the simplest of simple and he is the truthful of truth. In him lies every thing that we can even think of. He will show us the path we need to walk, if we fall in the path he will also pick us up and take us to the exciting journey of our life.

Do not ever feel alone-just because you are not part of church, some organization, some religion because by not being the part of those aspects or in such activities you are not being like others but you are being yourself.

If you become yourself-that is the first lesson of love. The aloneness will teach you many different things when you need them. When you are alone do not ever imagine you really are alone. The GOD resides you at the very moment inside you. Every help you need, ask him. He will find some solution for you.

You may loose your all friends, all your family, all your people near you but you will be very close to your self. The self is your spirit. The spirit of GOD. He will tell you, direct you and give you the suggestions. Whatever suggestion that he presents you are the suggestions from the GOD. Those will never change, those are for your benefit, those are for your future. Those are direct gifts from him just for you.


Oh Jesus, Oh Allah, Hare Rama Hare Krishna, Oh ... , Oh GOD ...,

Help those in need, give us the blessing that we can serve those in need. Bless us with the power of love, lessons and whatever it takes to serve others who are dieying at the moment, those who are starving for food, those who do not have place to go and those who are facing complicated problems in their life.

It might not seem good to mix all the GOD, but my religion is no religion. I follow all the religion. I do not hesitate to eat the beef, at the same time I can also fast for one day and visit Hare Krishna temple. At the same time, I can go to Allah, and pray to him. All the people associated with different religion are just a messenger of GOD.

It is not the messenger I pray, I pray the lessons that they presented during their existence in this earth. I pray to those divine and holy message. I pray to those scriptures, those sentence that they create for the well-being of society and in the name of GOD.

Every body comes naked and has to go Naked. It is only when we get into some age we start to wear clothes and do not show our body inside those clothes. It is similar, we all wear the choice of clothes we like, we all pray and follow the religion we like. Because our real "I" knows that after we have to go Naked and we came Naked.

My intepretation might be great matter for discussion. We can always discuss. GOD is the holy spirit inside us who will take us with him to his home oneday after we finish our work in Earth. His home is very beautiful, one of the best place, the word best might be limited to some extent depending on the way of visulalization, I would say it is the perfect place.

Smile, even you feel lonely, even if their is no one around you, even if you are thought as if you are no one just an ordinary guy from some third world country. Smile is the answer. A simple smile will answer most foolish of question people ask you.

A simple smile will tell you that no one is perfect, a simple smile just like a new born child does when he sees his father does. It is so perfect. The simle should be simple like that. Every thing we do, everything we see, everything we want to perform are mind thoughts our mixture with the earthy matters which always tries us to take away from GOD.

By being close to him, one can imagine a life which just might seem magical. When I say that I was returning from the church- I saw one small kid riding a bike, he was moving in very speed in his bike. He crossed just as we bunch of guys were walking or coming from church. Then the guy applied the brakes and I thought in my mind that "Is he not fallen from the bike ?". I saw the guy at that very moment he was not fallen from the bike-he was still in his bike but just after few seconds he fell, and I smiled by seeing all this event that was happening around me.

No body took care of it. I was surpised to see that. I was thinking is it just a concidence then I thought well-It might be but again I thought Their is never an concidence in our life. Because of our earthy matters we think it is concidence, we find reasons where the reason will just give us excuse. Nothing more.

We all look different, we all have some task in our life to perform, we work every day and night to make our life success, to get good job, get a bungalow, earn good money and make life comfortable. In the process of doing all those events we forget that we should behave just like simple humans. Help others, see if others are smiling or not. Look on their faces, try to find out the reality, try to see, guess and understand what others are feeling at the same time.

It is not the big things that you need to do in order to make some one in need happy, just a simple words. Just a smile, Just a words that do not ever cost anything to you will do the trick.
Welcome to the world where nobody gives damn to what you think, every body is very busy, every body is so busy in their life that they do not have time for even their own kids, even their friends and family.

It is not just bounded by one country, one religion, and one community it is everywhere. The context might be different but the story remains the same. It might be told in different language, and different ways of delivery but the message and impact is the same.

Big question is how to change ?

Change should be brought within ourselves, if we change our country will change, slowly people around us we change and even the religion, sex, cultural aspects everything will change.

Welcome Spring !

Fight is not between you and me. I am not alone. I am with one person inside me who controls me, takes me to what I want to go and again asks me or reminds me that whatever I am doing is right.It is not with any body outside me, it will never be any physical person outside me. I do not want to fight or talk or give importance of my words, my writing, my articles all the stuffs that start with "my" or some how is attached with the "my", I do not want to give values to these stuffs. I know these are temporary and they will be temporary forever for me at least.

From today onwards, it seems that Spring has started in Finland. Today morning when I woke up it was bright sunny day with a temperature of +10 degree centigrade. I suddenly felt the heat in my bed which I was not seeing for last 3-4 months.

The heat of sun was missing, the brightness was missing and everything else that was useful or that I think is useful was missing. I don't know why it is like that but I do not care as long as I think it is useful. I am watching movie right now and typing. It does not make me some kind of genius or I am not imitating some one. The early blossom of flower, the sun rays falling in the flower and the smell of all these events remind of deep breathtaking silence of life, culture, values, trust and truthfulness.

I learn one good thing today, It was that I have a good friend with whom I am doing my many of the courses together, He is very helpful and helping me a lot. On a discussion, We talked about the Surname of Finnish Men. The Surname of Finnish Men has great meaning attach to it. Previously their do not used to have a surname in a Finnish name. It makes sense to me. It is somehow similar to what I usually think about the surname. Why is whatever I think or have thought in the past are all correct and matching a lot in Finland.


Was I previously somehow connected to this place ? Is this my next re-incarnation. Is this my second life ? Why some times I feel that whatever I am experiencing here has been already done by me. May be My mind is not working or wants some rest. Why I think I want to learn more from Finland, every time I wake up in the morning till the time I go to my bed.

Their are thousand of questions every day in my mind. I like to think because I do not think their is another things in world left for me to do without thinking. I think because I live in imagination, I imagine, its one of the difficult things for others and easy for me. Welcome to the Spring climate in Finland, I welcome the Spring Climate with my both hands. I would like to invite the birds chirping, sound and presence of beautiful flowers, kids playing in hot sunny melting snowing day and so on. Welcome to Spring climate in Finland...

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I am no programmer.

Creation is art, the art which is created in your mind and you follow that art to draw in the places . The places can be any output devices e.g monitor, paper and whatsoever. The topic today is appropriate for me because I am no programmer.

I could not write any programs. The program is set of sequence of instruction that works together for a special task. I cannot some how write those sequence of instructions myself. The weakness I have is my problem and my own.

I could not write programs that is why I do not have any jobs. My profession is based only on programming therefore if you could not write the programs you are not suppose to get any job. Here I am with no jobs.The reason is quite simple and the topic shows it all. To get inside any company or organization is very difficult task.

Their are loads of things to be considered by an organization. Their is security, consistency and performance also their is matter of how well you can adjust to that organization. Why don't a foreign people get job in the organization ? It is not easy. It is due to these reason. I will be glad if you can comment if you have any more suggestions.

The words do not count, value counts. The earth does not matter to any one, living our life matters. Life does not matter to anyone-relationship matters and so on.

These are the core elements which we are forgetting or loosing at the present moment. We care about our life so their is very few people who thinks about Nature. We care about our relationship so their are very people who care about relationship between yourself and Nature. We are so talkative or wordily that we do not know some times what a crap we are talking about. We have tacit knowledge and we will keep on improving that always.

We cannot realize the fact that we are here to stay. We have to think about Nature. We will learn only when Nature gets angry with us. Why don't we just develop relationship, support, help or do some phenomena that Nature would like. We always ignore the most precious things in our life. Take for e.g Home, the place you are currently living. The community, every matters that is surrounded within you.

Well, we may thank our friend for a good suggestion or advice but "Have you ever thank your chair, your cupboard, your room, your "stuffs" or your tree that is their in the garden waiting for your response." We do not like the same thing time and again only because our mind needs change and we are good at adapting to the new things.

Why do relationship break after couple of year or after some time ? The only reason is we are progressing in this word called "relationship". When we reach at one level after that their is no where to go therefore either we have to come down or slow down or else we have to leave it"

This is why it deteriorates or breaks apart. Well, I always talk nonsense-that's what people says but why should I care as long as I can be myself and write what I think is appropriate to write. I am no programmer but Here I am planning to make a program to save our Nature. I am no computer programmer but I have a set of instruction in my mind which says what is going to happen if I apply the conditional expression, loops, switch case and whatsoever.

We are all different and we just have to remember one fact- The fact is we all have talents only thing is that -"We got to realize it".


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wp-content/uploads/2007/12/programmer.jpg )

Falling

The word "falling" is totally negative. I don't want to perform postmortem on this word because I do not know grammar meaning of the word. Whenever we say that we are in love it means that we are falling in love or we have fallen in love. The falling is an negative approach. By falling in love we are not being positive but we are in negative land itself.

The idea here is very old and it may be traditional but the conceptual analysis of the word speaks a lot in itself. Why are we falling in love and not rising in love ? Why didn't we use the term "I am rising in love" rather than "I am falling in love" We only know how to use it we do not know how to create it. I may be wrong on this latter sentence but I think I am right on it.

Everything is given to us and presented in front of us, we are using them. Why cannot we create them instead of using them ? Well, if some English men is reading this he will surely be against my writings and might say i am crazy or i do not know how to write or even something absurd. Coming to my point, Why cannot we create the English words or modify them in our way in such way that we use them in our daily life ? We cannot we are not the creators of these words. Whoever the creator was and which ever country claims it belongs to them. It should be made easier to use and made comfortable to speak.


The idea here is that we are negatively using the term falling, may be in love we fall but why ? Why don't we rise in love ? Why is it so important than any other things is whole world ? It is important to maintain the stability in earth. It is important to maintain calm, peace and warmness in our heart, mind, body and soul.It is important every time, every where and any moment.

The day their won't be the love their won't be this earth we are living in. Their won't be existence of man kind. Their won't be you and their wont be me. It is because of this term called "love" we are bounded to each other and we like each other. It is two way process where one gives and one takes. Also, one takes and one gives and so on.

Falling of snow, falling of rain, falling of apple and falling of sun ray in the earth teaches me that we are in land where everything is going to fall one day. It is just the matter of time. How many of you fall asleep expecting you are going to rise tomorrow morning again. If you expect that you are going to rise tomorrow again then you are following the routine, if you do not expect anything then you are being yourself. Makers are men, Creators are leaders who do you wish to be ?

The whole concept of writing this article is to give you the inspiration about life, to know your self and to understand the concept of falling. Isn't it beautiful early morning-you wake up and see everything around you falling and you are dumbstruck. Imagine, Imagination is beautiful learn learning will give you knowledge to survive and struggle but never fall because falling is negative.

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Move on

Life is full of struggle, surprises, events unexpected and their are times in life when we will feel that we are going down, their are times in life when we are so depressed that we do not want to talk with anyone and do not want to share our feelings, their are times in life when we lack support, enthusiasm, effort to move forward.

It has nothing to do with the present but it has something to do with our self. Our image and our self consciousness that is why we feel depressed. We always assume that we have achieved something in our life but we have done nothing till date. We are just another brick in the wall. As Pink Floyd song goes "Another brick in the wall" Sometime we feel that Nothing is going to be done by us and nothing will make any change just because of us. But those feelings are not always the same. We fluctuate through the time and moment because we are just like a wind. We blow but we do not care about the obstacles we have to face we blow because our nature is to blow.

I remember today I was walking in very slippery road. I knew any time i may fall down. This was there in my mind that I may fall down. I slowly and gradually was moving but suddenly I started to fall at that moment I was not thinking that I am going to fall down or I was not cautious about it. I knew nothing that I am going to fall down. This is similar to our life. We are afraid of death and when we are afraid of death our death will not come but when we do not expect the death that very moment the death comes and we are gone from this whole earth. That is what I am trying to say from the very moment of my whole life. Expect the unexpected in life.

Do not agree with me but one day you will. I know what we expect we do not get often because this is how it is. Expect the unexpected in life, love and relationship.Therefore life is all about living the moments not living the entire age. I do not want to live my life just because I have to live for so and so years but I want to live my life because I have so and so moments that I cherish which I always like to rejoice and repeat, which reminds me that I am alive in present and I am living at this very moment.


Last night I saw a death accident picture in my friends place, Friend said, "What is the human life look, nothing !" I did noticed and care what he said or what one has to say about it but I realize and felt the expression he made. The expression said it all. We do not have to say or talk about it in detail or make an issue out of any other things. The expression says it all.

When we two human beings are close to each other- Expression is the best way to know what other is going through. Nothing else is needed.

Anyways as a wind we are, let's move on-I am not afraid of falling down because I know I will learn when I will fall down and start to move on again. I know that me falling down teaches me how to move again. I am not afraid to say something or write something that I like because I know if tomorrow I do mistakes their are thousand people like me who will teach me how to write. I am not afraid of hearing the sound of birds because I know those birds will tell me what to listen to and what not to. I am not afraid of falling down because I know if i remove "f" from "life" I am doing something wrong with my own self.

Move on... Move on and Let's move on ...



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Both Kills

It reminds me of the day when I just wanted to show off. I wanted to hear from my friends that I am a play boy. I like when people called me "Santosh, This guy is crazy.. Girls are crazy for him. He can easily flirt any girls in this whole planet.." It really was fascination and kind of humorous environment when friends around you talk about it. We used to have loads of fun together. It seemed to me that I am cool and Whatever be the situation I used to smoke. I remember that I used to live without a food but I cannot live without smoke. I don't know why but It was just like that. One day everything change- Let's keep it as personal secret for a while. The picture will tell you why. When we are in relationship we are addicted to some thing. Even before being in relationship or after it or in relationship. I don't know about others people experience but mine was like this. Both kills ! Wow, Every man would love to see the naked women in his young age, Well if you would not like to see a naked women while you are young then you should join Some other group. But Every normal Man would like to see a nice beautiful girl with good boobs, and with great ass. If you ask Mr. X his first impression will directly go to either a girls ass or to girls boobs. Why ? Well, we are born like that. "The day we stop seeing them the day we wil die." One of the beautiful creature if god exist then he has made. May be it might be the case that God made a women and then he was vanished because he thought I do not need any body else neither me nor any one to control this planet. So, He went off or He resigned from his job and we were left in the beauty of women. Now The creator needs to destroy the creation. How ? Well we are all made by the same creation I am talking about and we are killing each other or being killed because of the same creature. Be prepared to be Killed. If you ask me I am now its your turn.

Two Lives

I do not know what to write, I do not have any words today to write these words to not matter as long as the feelings matter to a person. Last night I went to a friend’s house, “He said, I do not know weather I should live or kill myself” I asked him, “Why is he saying like that, what is the problem”? He does not think that life worth that much because he was in love with one girl, she was very beautiful. The girl too was in love with him. They both had very good time sharing memories, sharing food, sharing clothes and everything a nice happy couple would have. But the problem arose when one day the girl family forcefully asked her to marry a famous Doctor. The problem was that both the girl and boy were inter-caste. They did not belong to same caste. The girl was worried very much she did not knew what to decide whether she should marry a man her family is insisting on or rather marry the boy she is in love with. The guy was spell bound and he has nothing to say. He asked me this question time and again-Santosh, Why are we having this problem? What is the main cause behind this? Can you give me helpful solution? Well, I went in deep thought whole night and I finally got this idea, Life is all about living for a day. Forgot about the religion as long as you follow your heart. Two things cannot go hand in hand. One is mind and other one is heart. Religion is mixture of Mind and Heart. Mind says do this, do those? Heart says I want this. If you are deciding between what you want and what has to be done then which one you should choose? It is always the combination of these two would give you the best possible result. But if one thing misses, it will always be good to listen to your heart. Religion is one of the biggest problems our country is facing today. Every father and mother wants to marry their child with the same caste they belong to. But why? Caste does not matter as long as Feelings matter deep inside the heart. Imagine you were to die and you have just one day to live. What would you do in that case? Which caste you would choose then? Always listen to your heart, if you listen to it, you will always get what you want and you will reach where you want to go. With mind you will also reach to the destination but the challenging, entertaining, fighting, struggling journey of reaching to destination won’t be there. Life is all about learning. If the girl listens to her family members, she is not making her decision, she is living on somebody else’s decision, it is not your mistake and just let it be. So, do not worry and ask your girl also not to worry as long you both are listening to your heart, feeling silence, going back to your self and being yourself, present- in present.