In search of the lost path

Well, nothing to be discussed here as life is the teacher and one has to explore there life just like an open book.

When we open it there are words and these words will not change our mindset but these words will some how shows us that we are doing or experiencing what others have done and what we will face in near future.

Learning never stop neither does living. It is the constant process of development. I do not know if God exits or not but I know I exist. I am here to do what I can do, I do not know what to show or what to tell but I know what I can give.

Some times the greatest journey could be the distance between the two people. When the journey ends there, then there remains a memory of that particular journey. The image will be rolling like a movies.

These images will be captured when you are experiencing the place, event, people or any happenings. Once these images are captured in our mind. Later when we reach “home”, we finally evaluate if that journey was really fruitful.

Was it really valuable, was it worth. Then later those images which were nicer, we keep with us. It is stored and whenever we want to talk or say something about it. We just speak based on our stored images in our memory.

Start-End-Home-Start-End-Home ….

This cycle continues in our life, weather it is the journey or weather it is the life.

The Dream of God

It is not the question to be asked that where are we heading ? It is the question to understand where would we land up.

I do not know if God exits in this world but I certainly know that I exist. I am here and some where deep inside me there is another person who always talks with me.

I do not know if that person is God, of Super God or Father or just me.

The inside person who always I want to opens his door and lets me in. He never says no, he never dislikes the food, he never dislikes the environment, he never dislikes the face I see around the world, he never dislikes the smell and he never dislikes anything. He is perfect- a perfect human being.

He never tells me that weather or not I should do anything for him. He is very pure and he is very kind. He for me is like the father who can give me advice all the time.

Always listening to him, makes me think that, “It is my mood that creates the climate”. It is me somewhere hidden to come out and show to the world that I am what I am and not what others makes of me.

But, as I see others- I try to see same me, as they are also the human beings as I am. But again, why do they do look different? Why are they upset with there job, with there boss or even with there wife?

What is wrong with them when I do not see any wrong on me? What is the wrong with the food when it does not speak anything by itself? What is that we think we should do all the time when we should think about that perfect man inside us?

Why to get angry with other person when you cannot talk with the best person inside you? or Do you even know it exits? or May be we think him as if a God or Diving or Supreme.

Whatever it is, Whoever it is, It is inside me; it is inside all of us. We just need to think if he exits.

We are not heading anywhere and God will not ask anything from us. He only shows us the path, this path is based on truth. When somebody follows and listens to him carefully, he achieves what he desires, at that moment, his desires are not only his but might be of that perfect man too.

May be

There are the times when you do not feel to do anything, there are times when you just want to work and work. There are times when people will give thousand good lessons to you but all of these lesson could not be said useful ?

Can it be said as useful ? All of the information in the world is not useful. Only thing which is useful is how you are going to see all these information in your own life. How you are going to naturalize this in your life too.

Look for example in this blog I can write anything I want and that's why it is called Mybheja. I am not worried about the number of visitors neither I am worried about the number of people saying that "your blog was fantastic" or "It sucks". I am only worried about the information which is there in mind and desperate to come out. I do not know how much is too much. But I think there are plenty of these information which could be useful to one or another.

According to Socrates, he says,"I am the wisest man alive, for I know one thing, and that is that i know nothing."

Nothing means that you know something but you do not want to say what thing. When you say, you know something then you are not being wise or you are not capable of being wise and you do not know anything.

The statement "I do not know" are interpreted in many different ways around the globe. It also depends upon the human through which the word is being communicated. The message and the impact of the message to the other person is always vital.

May be there are thousand of rivers that I have to cross, I do not know how to cross this small lake.
May be there are thousand of journeys I will make but I do not remember the last one.

May be there are thousand of worries I would face but I still do not know what kind of satisfaction I will get.

May be there thousand of words in my mind but I do not know if they are really valuable.

May be in all these thousands I will find one journey, one lake, one worries and one word useful to me and my life.



Have a great weekend ! :)

Wish my brother- a happy love life.

My brother has couple of big problems. First problem is that he is madly in love with some one who he thinks also loves her. The madness of love is limitless. He do not know he can even do anything almost anything for this one girl.

How do you know if that is love ? Showing that some one care's for you or sacrificing for this special some one. I always have told him that love is not life. Love is shared, it has to be taken and given. He says, to me that the girl loves him too but if she loves him then why is she afraid of not coming close to him.

What is the reason she is not intending to live with my brother? When some one loves some other person and if she is especially a girl then she would like to stay with the person for a while. She will then see if this person is really suitable for her entire life.

When a person says something and do not commit to what he/she says then ... what is the point of showing ?

I want to that lover, who thinks she is in love with the guy or shows that she is really in love....

How do my minor brother will understand that she is not in love but she is showing as if she is in love.

Ok for a instant let us suppose that she is really in love with my brother but why she could not come and live with him ? It can happen only in one circumstaces and that is- she is not totally devoted to be or fall in love.

When a person is fully devoted then they do not show the problems of .. or ... I mean, when a person is in love, they love.

It is not only the problems of the women or my brother but the problem lies with the circumstances. The problem is nothing but the solution also lies inside this problem. It is easy for both of them.

Look for example "they are in the same country". When you are close to each other then you will not know if you really love that person. You just have to go far and then a person will realize if that person is really in love.

Some times the greatest journey is the distance between the people. My brother should realize that, Imagine a situation where two person are very far from each other and they really are in deep love. What kind of solution would you then offer them ? Will they exit their love just in wish of meeting one day. or will they move on with their life ?

Being in same place gives you the chance of being close to each other and other elements you need is except that is "trust". A trust is achieved when you are more close to each other then very far from each other.

However, love is difficult thing to express. Love is not only in being close to or getting a person or being with that person, love is just love. Either it is for country, religion, mother or your own life.

Wish my brother a happy loved life. I wish he gets success in his love endeavor.

Cheers for them !

Drive in your own way.

One of the tendency of mine is to write a long sentences. I do not know how many people find it interesting, or I do not know if they really understand what I meant to say. As English is not my mother tongue, I am trying to learn and improve with each and every passing moment if I really can be good in English.

It is not the end that matters, it is always the journey that matters. I enjoy to travel but I hate to reach the destination. Life is all about knowing what you can do to others and what they can offer you.

Learning never stops, as time never stops. Every great invention is because result of great sacrifice.

Hey look, I am writing as if I am great philoshpher or great personality. I am nobody. I am not any great person or any great philosopher, I am just a simple ordinary person who is trying to understand what is meaning of life and how can I manage my own life.

My life is open as the open book. There is nothing I can hide and there is nothing I would like to hide. There is always a dark side to sunny side but there is always a sunny side in my darkness life.

Once a friend told me that, He has millions of Euros in his bank account. I felt as if I am really poor. Becasue soon after his words I realized to find what is there in my bank account and then I found that, I have very few amout of money which will just be enough for my survival for some time. It will provide me money to eat two times a day and I can some how manage to survive here, till the period of time I am being here. Nothing more.

The calculation run in my mind and these calculation was very negative. A friend was happy because he had enough money so that, He can sense the security but I could not. However, I did not get bothered from a friend's answer and after just a few second I realized that- Life is not about the money. It is not that "how much money I have" or "whoever has".

What if " a person works his life to collect a millions of money and very next day he dies". What will happen to his life? Will he at the end be satisfied with his life? What if, he never have achieved the happiness and joy he always wanted but some how he sacrificed it, just for work and money.

What if, all your life you are doing stupid work and doing nothing for others and one day when you are passing down the streets no body realizes you. Is the money useful then ?

"It is easier said then done". But life is the way we want it to be. It is the way, we drive it. We can take it in any direction we want only thing then matters is not where are we going but where we will end up.

Wish you all the best for the great weekend !

Heart full of love.

Life is all about love. There is nothing in life without love. Life is all about you and me. In between you and me there is only one element which keep this bond alive. It is love,Dear !

Life is all about the story between you and me. I cannot see anything beyond the story which is result of our love.

There will be thousand problems and I will have to solve these problems every day, but I could not do it without you. There will be early morning rise of the sun, this rise will bring joy and hope to prosper the strength in my body. It will give me energy to wake up and start the to work but besides all that I will always need your support and love.

I know I hate it some times when you are close to me, all the time. I do not know why, but I hope it is because I am too puzzled with my own problems that I do not want you to get involved in it and get puzzled too.

May be I will realize the day when I am far from you, the distance between you and me will let me remind that- There is nothing in life except love. The love between you and me. The story that are in my memories of your jokes, our sharing of moments and most importantly your care.

For being a man, I know I have a child within. I am aware of the fact that- a man needs support of the mother when he is early in the age, 1-16 years of age. Support of the women in her life 16- and this women is you.

In love, people have made Taj Mahal. They have done loads of charismatic and romantic activities that My love, I will today and every day will do.

I am not afraid of how and why, simply because I know there is nothing in life except you, me and our love; Nothing.

Sing a happy birthday song.

As I always try to get rid of my fears, they always and most often tend to come during Mondays. The Monday is starting of the week days, it also bring loads of excitment for those who do 10-5 jobs. I do not feel very excited on Mondays. I am really feeling as if this day should never come in my life again.

I do not invite the problems but they come to me. It is very automatic and I never want them to come in my life. I have heard thousand theories that you should not consider the days as good or bad but let it go. However, it does not give me silence.

I want to breath but I could not, I want live in silence but even though it could not come because inside me there is something which is creating loads of problems.

But, Why do I make my readers feel as if I am really depressed. Even though I am not feeling good, I hope you will feel good. Here is what I received in my Inbox couple of days ago from a friends.

The picture shown below is a puzzle that you need to solve.



"Imagine you are in Africa . You have been tied hanging on a tree with
a rope anchored on the ground, a candle is slowly burning the rope,
and the lion is waiting for you to drop and be his lunch."


"Your survival hinges on the rope staying intact, there is no one
around to help you. What to do now ............ "



What would you do ?


Do you have any other option ?

Will you be able to survive ?


If yes, how could you survive ?

Now, do not take it very seriously.



Sing a Happy Birthday song.

Here is what you need to do-




Cheers !

Who am I?

The event took place in the Trivuwan Airport in Kathmandu. A young handsome looking, he seemed like very important rushed into this airport, jumped the queue, went straight to the counter and showed his passport and the ticket.

The gentleman at the counter said, “Sir, please stand in the queue”. The person replied, “No, I’m really in hurry I need to go.” The gentleman again said, “Please wait in the queue”.

The man said, “Do you know who I am?” The gentleman at the counter picked up the microphone and said, “There is a man here who does not know who he is, can somebody help him?”

The biggest problem for all of us is that, we all are in the same state as of this young man. The question, “Can somebody help him”?

The question justifies that every body is existing in this mother earth without knowing Nature of who he/she is. We are making life without understanding the fundamentals of whom we really are; we are trying to create a life of unknown. There is confusion.


The very first question that comes in my mind is that, “who am I”? It is one of the most profound and very important questions one has to ask in their life.

How can you know some one else life without knowing who you are? Charles Darwin gave the theory of “Natural Selection”, but he forgot to mention one theory of “Nature of Existence”. In this theory, every person should ask-who am I? Am I a student, Am I a teacher, Am I a political leader? Or Am I nobody.

The first and foremost thing one should do with their life is to ask these questions to understand who they really are. If we do not know what the nature of our existence is, we live by accident.

There is no reality in living by accident. It appears that we are living by accident, by assumptions and by opinion. And the zest of finding the reality appears. Some times there might be a feeling of no reality.

The question, “Who am I?” exits inside our body, in our mind. Once we remove the surface nonsense example, I am very famous singer, artist, son of great political leaders etc. The removal of such surface nonsense will give us the answer to the question, “who am I?”

When there is nothing remaining in your answer, that is the biggest thing. The answer you were searching for comes from this nothing. The question does not come from mere curiosity but straight from the heart. The answer to this question can some time tear people, once you know the reality, you will stick to it.

One day, a friend asked me the same question and I replied him saying, the words of Gautama Buddha which states, “It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours.

It cannot be taken from you, not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell.” This is what Buddha said, and this is what I say to those who ask who am I, “I am what I really Am., and not what others make of me..,”

Trip to Estonia.

There was a written statement about me yesterday that I have been writing most of the times the hypothetical concepts but I do not care about it. Yesterday was a good day with exciting thing to do. First and foremost, We planned to visit Estonia. A city which is close to Finland. A city very small and very peaceful.

Journey is what we like. A Journey with friends, and smile all around. A journey with silence and in those silence there are loads of lesson learning process all the time. We started our jouney early in the morning at around 3am. The darkness was there and we were driving four guys from our city to the capital of Finland, Helsinki. Thanks to our friend "Teemu" who stood brave and took a decision of driving both the ways around.

We reached very early in the Helsinki port and it was nice to feel early morning cold breeze with pleasant smell of fresh air.

We started to move to the "Ekeraline", a ship name which was cost effective and which was there for us to take to Estonia. It was nice ship and a very pleasant trip. Initially, as there is always a feeling of sleeping in early morning it did not distub our feelings and we went on.
We were welcomed on board and the ship started to move slowly in the Ocean.

It was the time to take the breakfast and we had a buffet in the ship which was very cheap only 10 Euro per person. As food is necessary to survive we did not had a choice and we started our breakfast.

It was very funny experience that it took 3 attempts to full our tummy. There were three rounds of food being tasted and I thought that was much more for the entire day. The breakfast was very heavy and then the fun part started with cracking jokes and having fun, smiling and sharing good experiences and so on.

We started to move around the city, took a very cheap beer in the restaurant which was only 5 Euro per person. Acutally it was not cheap in that particular resturant. I asked one lady in one small stall to take a picture with me and she refused. I do not why but she said, "Buy something from my shop and then I will allow you to take the picture".

There were two perspectives to measure, one from my side and next from the lady's side. From my side- it was bad because, I thought there is nothing wrong if she could have said yes and I would have shared some moments with her,nothing else.

From her perspective, she wanted something to sell and she thought the profit in two ways, one she will ask me to buy something and next she will even give me the pleasure of being with her in the picture.

I did not gave a second thought on what she asked. As a typical Finns would have done. I said nothing too and we moved our ways to see other part of Estonia.

Some of my friend said that she was a Russian lady, and they are always desiring for money and can give anything for money. I do not think so, but to some extent yes.

Again I asked myself,can money buy everything in world ? Can we buy love, happiness and those things which we cannot usually get but the moments creates them, can we really buy a women from around anywhere in the world for money ?

That question is left to readers, you decide if it is really possible for to buy everything from money. After such wise thinking we headed to see other part of the city. There were big malls, fancy shops and many more exciting church. We visited some of them which were free.

It was memorable journey all the way. Finally it was time to come back home and we bought the many many cases of the beers, wine, whiskey and vodka.

Later, the journey we took has to come to end. While we were coming we saw some good ladies in the ship who were close to us. Some of them were looking to me as if I am some druggist or as I am some weired guy coming from some unknown forest.

It does not matter as long as you matter to yourself.

Finally the tour of one day to Estonia ended up with nice cool feelings of the place and the people in Estonia.

We had a nice journey all along.

"This will pass"

Frome Paulo Coelho-
"The sentence is about the future, it states that any moment either it be the worse or good will pass one day.

Worry is just an imaginary. It shows that we are being afraid of some moments which are creating the problems in our life.
Every thing will pass one day. The things we do, the way we think and the way we think is just happening because we want them to happen.

"Nothing is permanent in the world." We are temporary living with the problems in our life, do not worry about the happening that are occuring in our day to day life.

Every problems are subtacted if we divide them with those who are close to us and always remeber every thing will pass one day quickly with more often then not.

Worries are good in our mind because it will keep us alert and we will work more harder with the worries.

However, whatever be the case I have to stop it because- "this will pass too"

"
Here is what I have to say-
"This will pass"

The sentence is about the future, it states that any moment either it be the worse or good will pass one day.

Worry is just an imaginary. It shows that we are being afraid of some moments which are creating the problems in our life.
Every thing will pass one day. The things we do, the way we think and the way we think is just happening because we want them to happen.

"Nothing is permanent in the world." We are temporary living with the problems in our life, do not worry about the happening that are occuring in our day to day life.

Every problems are subtacted if we divide them with those who are close to us and always remeber every thing will pass one day quickly with more often then not.

Worries are good in our mind because it will keep us alert and we will work more harder with the worries.

However, whatever be the case I have to stop it because- "this will pass too"

Who are you? Who is your persona? Who do you think you are and what you are forced to do to behave so you can survive in the society.

I will not say this is the bad question neither will I say this is good question. Now can you tell me, what is the question ?

The above statement holds true for the question being asked. It is about person or persona, it is about you. It is about me or us. It is about understanding who you are, what you do and why are you here ?

Who can answer this except you and you alone. The "you" does not refer to some body else but to oneself. It is our duty to understand us. The persona and person can have many meanings from many previous linguistic policing but I do not know what that has to do with the question being asked.

If some body asks me the question here is what I have to say them, "I am nobody". I tell them I am nobody because I really do not know who am I or who I am. When I do not know who I am how can I tell who am I ?

When we know something then it is always easier to talk about the same in general public but once you do not know who you are what would be your answer ?

Your answer should be-"I am nobody". Why? Because,Right from the consciousness we assume we are some body and we want to become somebody. We may like some famous writer, we may like to the famous Football star, we may even want to be rock artist but all these identity is not of you or you alone but of some body else.

When we try to take the identity of others and establish ourselves in the footmarks of those who had done in their related field. It is difficult process, what we are doing is not doing of what we think or we imagine or we envision but we are doing of what somebody else has already done long long ago.

A person can be divided like this- per+son=son of one. I do not know what is the meaning of "son of one". Does it mean that we are the son of one ? But what does that one has to do with son.

Is it somewhere telling us that we are the son of the one and only one which is existing in our earth and that one is "Nature".

Now let me ask the Father Nature that who am I ? When I ask father Nature who am I? He does not speak but shows me that, you are nobody. This is again my assumption that I am nobody. I have assumed that I am nobody because Father Nature does not tell me anything.

When there is nothing coming in return from the Nature what should I assume it to be ? Am I a Engineer, or am I am Doctor? These are the profession that we learn and we adopt to that profession because these profession gives us livelihood.

Profession has nothing to do with personality or person. A person is single and it is the matter of question itself that how much it desires the answer.

I can write an entire book on these questions but how many readers would read my book. It does not make any difference in the humans mind simply because we are used to reading the same stuff time and again.

And most importantly, we like to see the changes and that is good thing because the Nature of nature itself is change. A person changes and shouts these questions in different environment and finds that the answer still remains the same.

Well, I have to stop here for the moment because I might end up writing a book, Will it be possible Paulo for you to review it?

Happiness.

One of the friend send me the pictures in my email and I liked this picture so much that I am writing something about it. Look carefully at the picture and look again. Look for some minutes and now compare these picture with your life. Think about your life with this picture and ask one question to yourself- Are you happy ?

The happiest people in the world are not with blue collar shirts and working in big multinational companies. The happiness lies in sharing emotions together. Happiness lies in being satisfied with what you have got not with what you will get in future.

Happiness is taken very seriously in many ways in the life. Some times happiness is just measured with the person who smiles is thought as happy, some time we read something about the great people and stories about them and we think those people are very happy. Money can never buy you happiness, neither can marriage or any relationship does not come with package of "happiness".

Happiness is being, happiness comes along with satisfied mind. The worry face does not say that a person is happy or not happy. The surprising face will not tell you that if a person is happy or not. The face will just give a picture of the person but once you talk and share your emotions with others then you realize if the person is really happy or not.

Happiness and sadness are two opposite things and these two opposite have one common meeting point. The meeting point is that sadness will always remain with you. It is in you. It can come any times as is happiness. But happiness doesn't stay longer. Sadness will with you all the time. It is your best friend, (if you do not have one.)

Therefore, happiness is a very good thing and again, it can be bad thing, It is bad because it will remain with you only for very short period of the time and after that it will go away. It is momentary,it comes and goes with the moment. It is due to the fact that you had a pleasant moment in your life and that pleasant moment is somewhere stored in your memory that always reminds you about it.

It keeps on coming, and you think about the moment and you never stop thinking about it over and over again. You like it so much that you think you are the happiest person in the world. But, you are not. You can be happy only when you are satisfied with what you have and you do not expect anything from your life. Can we be satisfied with what we have ? Never, simply because we are human beings and it is rooted in us that, we always are in need of something. We always want more.

The pictures speaks more than my words. Look again at that picture and related to your life in past and now in present. See what you have achieved. Look in the mirror and ask yourelf if you are really happy with your luxurious things or you were happy when you did not had any of those material possessions.

The most important thing in life is to satisfy your needs together with those who care about you. The most important thing can be achieved by knowing your self and your own life together with those around you. It is easy.

It does not matter if I do not have a car
It does not matter if I cannot buy you a house.

Only thing that matter is my dear, I care more than myself about you.
I may live longer but I do not know that
Because I know who am I
and I care will die one day saying, "I loved you" so much.

It does not matter if I do not have enough money
I will rest assure you that, I will work hard to feed us.

It does not matter, if I am alone and you are far.
Distance cannot tear our love apart

I hope it all pays off one day
Together we will see this day

It does not matter whatever my words say
I know we will land up one day in the paradise

It does not matter if it will be heaven or hell
but It matters that you will be with me...

Happiness is not known to us
but we will share this broken bed,
Our kids may sleep together in it
Our dogs may sleep together with us

It does not matter if we do not have golden bed
It does not matter if we do not have pet rooms
It does not matter if we do not have our child room

Only thing that matter would be you.
Only thing that matter would be us, together in a room.
Sharing our satisfaction of being all together.

Having fun, and being satisfied with all we have done.

It does not matter ...

Little words

Today is the fresh start of the new age, the age which many has already spent doing something in there life. Well, every weekdays starts with the Monday and the Monday's are not so good for me. I know the fact that every day is the same day and it does not make difference to anyone for any day. The day as food is not bad by itself. It is our taste that says, it is bad or it is terrible. Similarly, the day itself is not bad but it is my mood that always says to me that, this day is not good for you.

Something wrong will happen to you. I do not know weather you call this as psychological things but it is the process of mind which creates such an atmosphere.

To answer the why is the biggest difficulties in modern world. We are born in such a way that we never want to question the facts such as why is 2+2=4 ?, why is earth round ? Why is my religion this and your religion that.. why I have to wear clothes even in summer ? Why ? These facts are learned and hard coded in our memory. These do not change easily.

When something that we learned are encoded in our brain, it is very difficult to take it out. For example, we know the place where we live and that will not go at any cost. But when we learn the skills those skill might go away once we do not practice them at all.

These skills have to be practice all the time. Whatever way the brain learns the object around,is not the matter of discussion here.

However, it is good that one should always have to follow the heart and listen to brain. Once you follow what you are going to do next in your life then you will end up in the right position.

Happy birthday mybheja.

Happy Birthday to you Mybheja. Officially, it is the day when you were born and many many happy returns of the day. Every year the same day will surely come but with changing numbers.

As you do not like to celebrate the birthdays, but as you learned that slowly you have to celebrate not for yourself but for those around you. It is nice that you organized party yesterday and had load of fun with all those who come from the same motherland- called Nepal.

With the help of the good finnish friends, you went and bought the stuffs necessary for the party and we really had a great great birthday party. It was again, unfortunate to say that some of other friends did not come because they were having other party. It happens most of the time and no worries because all our wishes should not be fulfilled at a single time.

The pleasant memories were created with two litre of Finnish Vodka and very specail setting in the kitchen with load of laughter and loads of funny jokes. Anyways, you will remmeber as you remember everything in your life.

Birth day are those days when you are born. Isn't it amazing that the numbers increases and with every increase in the numbers, you are getting older. The more you become old, more experience you gain and the more people you know. I do not know why we celebrate, is it just for fun or is it for the entire year of "knowing the unknown". Whatever it is, it was fun yesterday in the new environment, and new happy faces all around.

So, officially I was born in today's date 7th September and in real I was born some months ago already. However, the real date of my birth is too personal. Any ways, it is not the matter of day but it is the matter of moment.

I still remember the day when I arrived here in Finland and soon it was after couple of weeks when my birthday came, we were celebrating our birthday. Now, today it has been one year here in Finland.

I feel as if, I am having loads of fun and learning new things in every passage of the time. With more power come great responsibility and these resposiblities have to be discovered with your own self.

Every body around you will surely help you, to find who you are, to discover your potentials but you just have to ask their help, as long as you will ask with those around you, you will surely get what you desire in life.

Nothing comes easy in life but you can make it easy just like that. Duality is Nature of nature itself. We have good and bad, we have nice and ugly, we have givers and takers but once you adopt both in you; you will find that you are the creator of your own sufferings. Nobody around is your enemy but you and you alone. Try to find the similarities in those around you and you will get the real answer.

The difference will divide your values with the other around you but the similarities will bring you closer to the other element around you. Either it is love, race, life, religion, sex, culture, people, country or any thing around.

Well, last but not the least, you can alway disagree with me. To finally do something else, let me stop my pressing of these keys on this blog for now.

Happy happy birthday to you my dear "mybheja" and as I know you were born happy you will die happy too.

Cheers !

What do you associate with tower?

Tower is associated with our imagination. What we imagine, is what we think the particular thing is associated with. A tower is the peak, a high tall thing which can be used in many ways.

Early it represented evil, later people associated with the positive connotations. It also represents the place where death meets the birth. It is the place where people some time go and kill themselves.

It can also be place where people go and enjoy themselves. It is the place in our mind which always demands something from the things associated in the real world. With these things, we can associate anything.

Based on what people have done in the past with tower, we try to do the same but the result does not occur different because, what some body else have already discovered, we will discover the same.

No difference is found when the tower in one region of the world gives light to every one around the village and in the next region it is used for the same purpose. But what if, some body uses as the negative symbol and in some other place it is associated with positive symbol.

What we associate with “tower” is what we associate with the “mountain”, “heights”, our emotions and with the happiness. All these associations are some how inter related and these inter relation gives us one common thing in our mind.

These association tells us that, we think differently on different things which is totally wrong. All these are for good purpose. Nothing is build just like that. Everything around the world comes with values and with some purpose.

Imagine a world where there was no water, no mountains, no green leaves and now imagine you being in such world. What would you associate with your life then ?

Our associations can be different on different things but those are just our perceptions. And I think perception differs in many ways from people to people, from culture to culture and from country to country, also from religion, sex, race, and through many other ways.

Anyways, to answer what you associate with tower- I would rather say that I do not associate anything with tower simply because I do not associate anything with any entity. It does not mean that these things are useless but it means that- these are useful and there is no association. These things also have life and these life will only be understood once we understand what is life.

Knowing something and telling something which you do not know are two different ways of looking at things in our life.

I do not know what is the association of what, but I can surely tell you that-whatever we associate is just a false assumption on our ideas in our general mind.

Tower can be assumed as death, but at the same time it can also be associated with life, light or whatsoever. It depends on what a person is thinking while he is thinking of association of the things being asked.

It also depends on the past experiences and future demands or desire with the things for example “tower”.

Well, I think I have given my point on what I associate on what, I need to read others point too.

Bread and Circus

“Bread and circus” can make us happy or do we have to find out happiness in some other things. Do we know how much one has to work to earn a bread ? Do you know how much joy one has to fill to dance or see the circus?

Happiness is satisfaction. It is the feelings which comes automatically for a certain period of time and again fades away. The bread and butter is needed to keep yourself fit and fine. You will eat and you will survive.

There are different ways to figure out what ways you will earn a bread or go to visit the circus. One can apply many approach to visit to the circus and then again it depends on those event that will make you successful to earn the bread.

A heart full of wish for the love is the heart which is happy. It does not have to be demanding. Bread and circus still can bring loads of joy and happiness in one’s life if you are satisfied with your every event or activity.

Once a person is satisfied with every day activity he/she can really feel that “happiness” which was asked in the question. It does not allow those who are in search of happiness to get the real happiness. It is because, those who want will never get and those who do not want gets.

Humans today are searching and they are moving very fast. Every body wants to achieve all there dreams and fulfill there desire in quick succession. Nothing comes automatically and one has to understand that it is not easy to get the desire of their wish in quick time.

One has to wait till the final output really shows up. How can a person be satisfied with only the bread and circus when he does not know what is real satisfaction.

In my case, I would be fully satisfied if some one would give me a bread and circus not only today but for ever and ever. It is because I do not have any desires to achieve big but desires to find satisfaction in smaller things.

I wish love.

Teej festival is celebrated in our country with the women fasting entire day without even taking the glass of water. When a husband says,"drink water" then a women is suppose to drink the water in the afternoon. What if the husband does not says anything. Will the women wait entire night just for the drop of the water ? Will she be able to resist the festival or should she follow her desire of thirst and quench it at that moment ?

Is the fear of death greater than the affection towards the other person ? Is it because one has to give everything for the other people. How long can we stay in a day without eating anything. For 3hours, 6 hours or even 10 hours; it does not matter how long you can stay without eating most important thing is how long you can wait for some one who is not in front of your eyes ? If I was a women it would have really been difficult for me to stay that long period without even drinking from the day till the evening.

I wish love, I wish that love is similarly present in every flow of our blood. I wish I can also wait for some one to say, "drink water honey". And after hearing some one drinks water on behalf of your words. Wow, Isn't it amazing that some one can stay longer for entire day without drinking. I wish I had such love too.

We always have to be satisfied with what we do have and always have to feel happy with what we do not have. This we call as the life.

I wish love.
I wish in my blood.
I wish in my ears.
I wish in my lips.

I wish love.
I wish it in my breath.
I wish she hears.

I wish she says,
I wish love.

Not in my ears
In breath I take,
Every morning I wake,
I wish love

Dream

Once upon a time there was a man, who was very eager to achieve something in his life. He was dreaming everyday that he will one day fulfill his dreams. No matter what, he was thinking that one day his dreams will become a reality.

Every body around him was joking and laughing at him. He never used to tell to anyone that his dreams are these and he will achieve that dream but one day suddenly some one knew what his dream was. That person started to tell others that his dreams are these. How would you interpret this story now ?

Do you think the other person who guessed the dream of that man really knew the dream ? Do you think that unlike the man who did not wanted to spread the messege of the dream, the other person really should have spreaded the messege across every one around him. Why do a person has to think what is going on somebody else's mind ? It is because, we are living in the world where no body is left alone. We always want to know what is there going on in the other person mind. If we do not know then we will indeed guess.

Every body has some little secret and these little secrets are very important in there life. No body wants to reveal them to anyone. Even though, a person might guess that his secrets are this or that; but that is not the case in most of the times.

The person who is not worried about his own life is not worried of death. The person who is worried about his life is worried from the fear of death. Whatever be the case, there is something which we should not do in real life. We should not try to look in some body else's mind. It is not good idea to guess what is going on some body else's mind and think based on those assumptions.

World is not the way we think. It is beyond our thinking. There are many countries, there are many people, there are many cultures and there are many different tradition. We have to observe these closely, these all are made for us. I do not hate difference simply because there are so many different things like country, culture, race and religion. I hate it because there are people who do not try to see similarities in those differences.

I do not know what a man dream was and I am not into it. I do not want to read the mind of anyone. It is not good to look inside some one else mind. It is very easy though. Dream are very different then the reality and the reality is some what similar to the dreams.

Once I dreamed something and I thought that would not become a reality but One day I found that it was true. How can a dream become true? May be the dream was not for me, it was for some body else. When the dream is of some one else and later after some day you see that it has become true then you feel that your dreams really are true.

Well, Whatever be the case; "Dreams are always shattered by the compromise but still believe in your dreams" One day it might come true.

I hope they do.

What if your dream is very near and you suddenly loose your dream. What if you are very close to winning but just in a second you loose. What if you were the first in the race suddenly with the flick of your eyes you become last.

These questions are not joke. It happens to us. Some of us have even gone through these circumstances in our life too. What are the major phenonomen or why are these step making us think that we are not getting what we would have got.

Why most of the times we have to think that we are making the error in our life and nothing good is going on. What happens if something always works perfectly and just in a sudden twist of the time it changes all along.

What would you do then ? Will you die just thinking you have not achieved what you dreamed of or will you survive to do it all over again ? All the our pleasures lies in pain. Either the pain is of some one or you yourself, it depends.

The mind is the chooser and it choses that which you do not have in the first circumstances. Why do not people have the satisfaction of what they have. We always are looking for the change and the change does not come automatically. You have to go and fetch it then it will come along your way.

The vision is unlimited and you simply need a thinking to make your vision a reality. Those people who are on the top of bureaucracy are doing nothing in the context of country development.
Some time back, I used to read the newspaper of what is going on the context of Nepal and what are those who are leading all the way are doing but now I think I have to look again and see that nothing is going on in this context any longer.

As I cannot see any difference in terms of our country development I think we have to think again. Do we really need a political bullshit ? Why do we need those leaders and those people who are useless ? Why do we need those people who are just a statute and nothing more than that.

Why ?

Every body will give me an opinion and opinion is only the personal things. It has nothing to do with the development in any respect. Why don't any of the leader stand up and say that-
"I will not try, I will do". Why ?

Why don't any of the leaders simply say that "I have done". Doing and having done something is always a different thing. Those leaders who says, they have done are doing nothing and those who have have done and do not say are already a great leader.

We need such great leaders to lead our country. Come on, When will I see my dreams becoming reality. When would my son wake up from the peaceful sleep saying, "Dad, lets go and play". When ?

These question will always be remained unanswered. I do not know if they will ever be answered by our country leaders. I hope they do.

Know yourself better.

To those who do not know what is life. To those who do not know what is love. To those who do not know what is relationship. To those who do not know what is friendship. To those who do not know what is sharing. To those who do not know what is ..

I have only one thing to say- live in simplicity.It is the best way to live a life. You do not know about many great things in life,then you know what it means to be alive. If you know what all these factors mean then you are assuming something from your perspective which does not mean anything.

The difference between the things and the perception that is our perceptions are two different things. It does not have to be one or single. It does not have to get matched.

It can match sometimes but many of the times it does not match. Ask what is love to that women who is waiting her husband to return back after a year or two, Ask that person who is in desert thirsty and do not have water; what is thirst, ask that person who is in war; what is life.

These people will tell you about the proper definition of life, love, thirst,relationship and so on.

Whatever we define is based on our perspective which does not give the real meaning of these aspects in life. Whatever way we want to put it. Life comes with full of suprises and it every corner you will meet different people with different style of there own.

To start any kind of the relationship, first important thing is to understand the person. Ask, try to know what kind of person he/she is. Try to figure out his own goals, or dreams, and now after you realized or did your homework on this particular person. Now, you can think of your own goals, dreams,aims and match these with the other person. Do you really now want to be with the person ? Is it only the sex which will keep your relationship alive ? Well, think about it again.

Even though we are in relationship with person, we always the appreciate the beautiful girls, we always like the ones with good boobs and good hips. It is our Nature. Acutally, it is the mens nature.

To show to others I am very much committed in the relationship and to just simply speak the truth is different again. Therefore, it is always good to know or understand yourself. The biggest question now is-how ?

Well, that remains with you. It is upto you to know or understand yourself. I am leaving it upto you to know yourself better.

do you think that in order to believe in yourself you have to renounce first to all other beliefs?

People talk, people say but I do not have words to talk and the people to say anything. Every day has the new beginning and every body see the new day as the totally new. The journey between the two person can lead to one destination or can also not lead to any other destination.

While I was writing the blog here I visited the Paulo's blog and I found the question of the week-
do you think that in order to believe in yourself you have to renounce first to all other beliefs?

Here is what I have to say in response to his questions.

Before asking if God exist or not or do we really believe in God ask that-Do we exist in this planet ? "I don't believe in Mantra .. I don't believe in Jesus.. I don't believe in Beatles .." all these verse are of the Single person who says he does not believe in any one except him.

To believe in yourself, is the first lesson of "believing". The first thing any humans should do is to believe themselves and then if necessary believe in others.

If somebody is asking me, the question- who are you ? I would simply say- "I am nobody". It is because I do not know who am I. I am no one to everybody. I do not know who am I ? The first lesson is alway to understand your self. Learn from you and then see what that means in real world.

Life from the start to the end is full of lesson. We learn, we then think weather we should share or not the lesson that we have learned in our life. In the process of understanding "sharing" we forget that we are not going to take anything from this earth.

We came empty handed and we will go empty handed. It does not mean that we should feel depressed and become lonely and live in silence but it means that we should first understand ourselves.

There were no God and there would be no God. It is just our imagination. There were no power and there would be no powerful human being existing in this earth to save our lives.

There would be only us, there would be only the Nature. There would be only the rocks, mountains, river, trees and so on which would be existing forever and ever. It will not go anywhere. Any super power we are going to get tomorrow is from the Nature, to the Nature and on the Nature.

Understanding oneself is very essential to understand those who we believe in like Jesus, Buddha, and many more. The first question for those who ask the religion, I would ask them is- "who are you?". If anyone can answer me who he/she is then surely he will be able to answer the question weather or not they believe in God or not.

Any power can be achieved from the mother earth, any power can be achieved from the Nature and any kind of power will be destroyed by the Nature again. I recommend Nature because it has many different meaning. One is Environment which we can see by our senses and other is our own which we have to feel by ourselves.

Believing or not believing is not the question but it is the matter of trust. How often do you trust the person who said once to you that- he will never have an affair with another women in his entire life and the Next day you see the same person sleeping with the some body else in her bed.

The human who will do anything for the "words that once came from his mouth" is the real human. Just try it one day and see if you will be able to do it. If you will then, you believe in yourself.

A day

The day rises with the fresh thinking on the name of the God, The god of everything, He desire then goes on to fulfill the desire unfulfilled. It passes at every new steps and each new step is the lesson learned.

As every day I look at my horoscope this is what they have to say about me today-

"There's no getting around it; this is going to be a day of hard work! At the end of the day you may feel completely exhausted, but you can smile to yourself and say "I've accomplished a tremendous amount today! You are so inspired that you do the work of three people, and even manage to wrap up some old files that you hadn't dared open for awhile. Ideas come to you with ease, and you make the most of them. Well done!"

I do not know what those statements means for the fresh start of the day. It says that it is going to be the day of hard work and that is absolutely correct. It is correct that every new day is different and people do many things differently in all the new day. I hope I will manage to get that two words which says- "Well done" but will it be really that way.

Will it work in the way I thought it should work or would it even match those as said. How many of us believe that it works as it should work or how many of do not believe anything at all. Everything we do and everything we want to do are not the same many of the times.

I remembered yesterday few lines which were inspiring for some reason but I do not know what was that.

It is good to see what the "stars" are saying for the day but many of the times it does not happen in the way we want them to happen simply because there is something unpredictable going on all the time,every moment,every time and all the time.

Every work has something new way of doing it. It is good experience to experience. It is good that people are alive and living as the normal life. I have seen the difference in the people who are from east and the people who are from the west. I do not know the connection but people are motivated

There is no difference between whites and black, only difference lies in our eyes. Inside the white there is black and inside black there is white. I do not see any connection. I do not know why there is fights for the racism, I do not know why. Why people are looking after the differences and not the similarities. What is the main reason that people are looking after peoples in different ways.

People are same every where and the difference is not today of culture, country, race or religion. The difference is within us. The greatest difference we create lives in our mind constantly and that has to be eliminated.

As mind keeps on changing we keep on changing our activity related to our mind too. The process continues in the similar fashion.

Tutoring in LUT ...

"You are currently torn between the idea of living alone in the world, free to lead the life that you see fit, and the idea of sharing your life and path with someone else. This question will continue to come up in your life, and will be especially nagging during periods when you are not pursuing a creative activity. Interesting connection, don't you think?"

How am I currently torn between the ideas of living alone in the world ? I know that living along seems very good idea but I think it is very simplest of answer from the difficult puzzle of problems in our every day life.

Well, to some extent yes but how done one find the connection between living along and nagging during the periods when we are not pursuing a creative activity.

"Today you may be feeling a little stressed out and not your usual self. This could well bring a rush of sympathy from your current love partner, who'll probably want to stay in and take care of you. This solicitousness could cause you to feel a rush of warmth, affection, gratitude, and physical passion. The latter may wake you up to the fact that you're already getting better. Have fun!"

The first and the last paragraphs are the statement given to me by the God. He says those facts and he explains what I am going through today during these 24 hours circle. To some extent that is absolutely true. It is true that I am not feeling good and I have little more stress than usual. I do not know who loves whom or what love is so I could not currently explain what love is.

May be every thing depends on time and time will only tell when to do what. When you are handling multiple task at the time surely one will feel the stress in the body also in the mind. The act of knowing or understanding something is very important to understand or even start to behave in proper manner.

Lot of new faces are coming up in the University now, loads of achievements, plans and dreams are in those eyes which look very innocent to me.

I do not know how long it will take to reveal the secrets behind those innocent eyes. It might take some time for all those new people to get used to the environment, with the people, with the ordinary and extra-ordinary lecturers, with new city and many more stuffs.

I hope God bless them all who have the dreams in there eyes to think big, and to do well not only for themselves but for every one around them. I hope that all those dreams of those want it in any cost would be fulfilled with very less tears during the winter of the Lappeenranata.

I hope all those dreams would one day become reality again, with the early morning rise of Sun during the summer soon. I hope all no body would be left with the dreams unfulfilled. I simply hope I would see the smiling faces every day I meet these new people, I hope in hope...

Learn by observation

Yesterday, was long gone and today is what is left. I would like to write something about the yesterday, I had to pick up new student from Nepal and I was just going to pick up him. In the meantime, My dear friend gave me the ring. Before he gave me the ring, I was just thinking it would be so nice If I can call him and ask for the help to pick this guy from the railway station.

Now when I was just moving to catch a bus, he called me and as I wanted the help; asked him about the help, I knew he will not say no. At one moment I thought, why did I asked for help, I did not listen what he has to say but I asked for the help immediately. Then again, I thought; well, it is quite fine because the people who loves to give does not expect anything in return.

It was so nice of him that he came and we went together to pick this new guy from the railway station to his room. As this time around in Lappeenranata City many new students are arriving for the new session and to start the career in the reputed university.

"The people who speak much, does not speak anything". The same holds true for many of the Finns simply because they do not speak much and this is the very first thing one has to observer first and learn next.

One of the key for the visit of any country is first to understand the surrounding or the environment. "The person who can learn by observation can create his own culture". Therefore, it is important to learn by observation. When I first visited the Lappeenranata I was looking around, I was not listening to what those people have to say who came to receive me at Railway station. I was just observing the environment, then slowly I realized that I have to the place I always wanted to come.

First and foremost thing to understand is to understand yourself. The person who do not understand himself will not understand others. It is difficult to say how can you understand yourself since no body is there to teach you or guide you. So, it is important to observe yourself- all your day to day activites what you spoke, what you did and what made you feel laugh or smile. This way you will look within yourself.

I gave few points and suggestion to those who came to start the new career in the city of Lappeenranata. Beforehand, my friend gave all the important information on the first day itself. I do not know how much they took it but I hope they would have taken as much as possible.

For me, all the people are same and there is no difference in any of these people from any of the world. If I am hating some one because of some problems then that is me, I do not know how to love may be because I do not know how to love myself.

It is the lesson that I am learning, but I do not know when I will learn this lesson. Love is the difficult thing to understand, and simple is to share.

In the process of giving and taking; we take either of them, but those people who can do the both are the ones who have capabilites to learn by observation, and to know themselves better.

Code camp and the entire nights.

Can you imagine the person who can wake up and work entire night till the day and again next day for more than 48 hours working in a Code camp organized in the University at the 17th International Summer School organized at the Lappeeranta University of Technology.

We were the group of four with Arsi,Bishal,Me and Mubin. It is amazing to work and help each other for the project. The entire idea is to learn the new language and code entire day and night non-stop.

I do not know how we managed but to some extent we did. Despite the fact that we are tired, the every new step or the every new statement of the new language makes it feel as if we won the race. We are not fighting here for the "Best code ceremony" but we are fighting here for every single line which we suceed without any errors.

I really appreciate the idea of working through the code camp and do it for the learning something new all the time. As the time are limited I know we have very limited time and we do not usually finish what we intend or plan but similar with us many of our friends also have the same limitation of lack of time. It is good that we have restriction on the time too. Once we have limtation of the time we would have to do it in proper way.

This might be my last code camp but I know it is the just the new beginnig for the coding in my life. I always think what we lack in our developing world is such kind of "codecamp".
Why do not our Nepali goverment organize the codecamp in the university ? Why do not they fund the university for the good projects and just waste there money in stupid politics.

Nothing is going to happen if the situation is similar in our country. It is just simply going to be worse and worse. Why do not those people at top- have a dream to make Nepal as Nepal ? I do not know why and I will never understand why.

Is it the personal goals or is it for the money and filling the bank account. What is it for ? I cannot understand most of the times why ?

Whatever be the case, It is good to learn "python" and write a code for Nokia N810 hand held device.

Dizzy feelings.

Today with the early morning rise of the sun, I woke up with the hope and expectation of nothing new. As I have written the book with the collection of small article and I would like to send it for the review.

I hope the book will provide loads of information to those who need to understand the way of living the life and to the encouragement in one way or another.

As the world is growing with the technological expertise and excellent achievements and none of the people are interested to experience something new. Every body wants to read the content of those who are famous and no body is really interested in trying something new.

I have started writing something and I have finally come up with the new book. "NatureGod". Why did I choose the name "Nature God". When the word is separated it will become Nature and God. It means the nature of nature itself, nature is physical what we can see and what is visible through our eyes, Nature is in our inner self too.

There are two ways the world is heading, one is towards the spirituality and other is towards the technology. When there are technological advancement there are also spirituality advancements. Both science and conscience are two different things which are going to have one final meeting point.

Although both the point coincide to the final point and the result should be benefited for the human race.

I hope the combination of spirituality and technology there would be new thing coming up in near future.

Here is the book if you would be interested to buy-
http://www.lulu.com/content/3670633

17th Summer School on Telecommunication continues...

The early morning session of the summer school started with Sami Lehtonen for his project, "Trust4all". He starts his session with the some definition of the trust and attributes of the trust. How do we define the trust ?

Can we say that trust is the relationship between the truster and trustee. Should I say that trust depends on truth and relationship, satisfactions and truthfulness of two or more parties involved in the action.

The project is being carried out by VTT, one of the best research center in Finland. I found some nice cartoon from the following link.
http://www.funnytimes.com/archives/files/art/20070328.jpg



As the summer school goes on, Sami explains about the partners involved in the project "Trust4all". Still I do not know what is trust and basically it is related some what to the technical verbs.

Project history is explained in the speech. With the projects such as ITEA-Robocop, ITEA-Space4U project where both the projects are found in (http://www.extra.research.philips.come/euprojects/)

The aim of the project is at the development of a middleware sowftware architecture which is target to the embedded system defined at some trust level and it depends on the many suggested attributes also with the nature of the services provided to it.

Some of the challenges of the trust4all project was discussed too, The challenge of the project is to tack and analyze related to the trust requirements in the envisaged application domains with the intentions to define the trust model.

The changes in the embedded systems domain with the transition from proprietary to open or the movement from the standalone to networked systems, single application to multi application and single core systems to multi core systems were discussed.

The executable components were discussed with the set of the services. It also contains the factory logic for the service instantiation.

The scenarios overview is such that-
"Medical Applications can be “pushed” onto devices by medical practitioner."

As the explanation is very technical, I would skip the information or the content.

Alone on the path.

I like the idea of Alone on the Path. Especially the saying. Here is the end quotes-

Sufi Dhu ‘l - Nun (Egyptian, died 861 AD) describes the positivity of life.

“Oh Lord, when I pay attention to the voices of animals, the sounds of the trees, the bubbling of the waters, the chirping of the birds, the howling wind or the crashing thunder, I perceive in them evidence of Your unity; I sense that You are the supreme power, almighty, the supreme wisdom, supreme justice.

“Oh Lord, I recognize You in the trials I am enduring. Allow, Lord, Your satisfaction to be my satisfaction. May I be Your joy, that joy which a Father sees in his son. And may I recall You with tranquility and determination, even when it is difficult to say that I love You.”


Alone on the path. We are all alone on our own path. We choose to come on this planet from the women who is very complex organism in itself. A women can be called as earth itself. A women whose complexity can be called as simplicity. A women creates us from the very core of her inner self. She takes care as the earth and Nature does. Once we come down to the earth then we are on our own.

One thing every human should understand is “a person is always alone on the path”. It does not mean that the person is in the stage of the loneliness or being alone but he is living a life of the alone.

Those four elements for the survival are really necessary to understand why you are walking down the alone path. Love is always necessary to understand either is it the love of mother or it is the love of the true lover.

Death is necessary to know that the very existence of your own self is going to end one day. It is also necessary simply because it keeps us alive in every moment we live. Every moment should be lived as if there is no moment next coming up. Every moment should be adventorus and exciting. Live with total joy and blessing.

I do not know if in the movement of trees, chirping of the birds and black cloud over the sky are the symbols of something extraordinary creature we called as GOD but I would fairly accept the fact that these are true color of Natures itself.

We can learn from just being present in the moment but at the same time we can loose nothing except our time for the present. The time is the moment, time is being present and passing with the moment.

As it is difficult to fist understand the “love”, it is also difficult to understand the phenomenon of “life”.

We all have to one day realize and will realize that whatever we are doing or whatever we are thinking to do are not that much of essential because these are just our logical mind which needs much more attention then anything else.

We fear death but why do not we fear the love ? It is just the matter of knowing yourself better than anything else. The person who knows himself will never ask who you are ?

The person who answer who he is; actually is not what he really is. The meaning is in finding yourself and to walk or take the journey in own way. It is like writing your script and taking the path but in case you have trouble to reach to the final destination that you really meant to reach. Simply learn from others and take there experience into your account. It will take you to that long long journey very easily.

17th Summer School on Telecommunication

A very good morning with the late arrival for the 17th Summer school on Telecommunication. We missed the opening speech by the Prof. Jari but there was one speech going on by the Mario Hoffmann on the SEcurity and privacy i nAmbient environments.

It was the nice environemnt with the feedback system working in one corner. I asked one question regarding "What are the types of social engineering attack models. The answer he gave, spam fliters and so on.

It is asked to us that we need to write the report on the speech. I do not know what to write there are loads of question asked such as, "Is the security chalenge with mobile devices really different, or do we have just to install Firewalls also on those mobile devices ?
Is Security for mobile devices really a different challenge ? The iphone CAN be used as UMTS Router(called tethering). It is like using it as a modem. Why is Bluetooth NOT implemented in such a way, that the security can be used ? How embedded system middleware make a new and existing distributed device network trustworthy and secure, robust and fault tolerant ?

There was a slide speaking about the "Loss of control Surveillance Profiling". (SWAMI- Safegaurd in a World of Ambient Intelligence, EU-Project, FP6).Together with that, The Backend for Ambient Intelligent System was discussed.

The project such as "Networked Embedded System Midleware for Heterogeneous Physical Devices in Distributed Architecture" Was discussed with the main challenged and objectives. A building automataion scenarios was discussed in detail.

Hydra project was in detail with the discussion with security requirements spec.

"Nature God" -a book by MyBheja.

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It is the first book that I have written although there are many things to consider and there might be some errors too in the initial version but I hope this book will give loads of solution to your daily problems.

It is the collection of short articles. There are some 25 articles in this book. You should make a purchase and read the book. You can always trust on the content and I am sure it will give loads of useful information for you and for those who are near you.

I will appreciate if you can make an effort and give me the feedback.

Nothing on-Monday

Well, as there are loads of problem we face in day to day life, I have some smaller problems to solve too. These problems are not too big because we all have our own problems. The solution was simple and it did not took long to solve the problem.

As life goes on we learn many different things. I had to do many task and I do not know why I am not concentrating on the main task but rather doing something else. The task is to do A and I am doing C.

Task does not make any difficulty because that is just the thing one has to do and we all have to do the task. Every task then slowly we divide them into simple and difficult. Once we say the task is simple then most of the times these simple task will be very huge and will create loads of problem.

Nothing is simple and everything is simple. It depends on what we think. It also depends on what we get or achieve out of our thinking. It is exciting times now a days, we are seeing new people around in the city.

I am excited to see new people in the city. As I am tutoring these students there are many things to tell them and many issues to give them a knowledge about. One will refresh his own memory together with the person whom I am tutoring.

Is life simple or complicated ?

Well, to give an answer to the question one has to first understand each and every part the question itelself. It is not easy task first to understand the question simply because you first have to waste an entire night drinking Rum and Vodka.

Last night Me and my friends we enjoyed drinking vodka and rum and discussing on the question which is rather more philosophical and very questionable in itself. I was trying to defend that "life is simple" other friends were trying to defend "life is complicated".

Now, what actually do you think a life should be or life is ? Can we all generalize life as complicated for all the entire human beings or should we first understand the phenomenon of the life and later than visualize either it is complicated or simple.

To answer this question which requires a lot of the understanding about the life iteself is not simple that is for sure but to generalize the point of view to entire race it is complicated.

Humans have been from the beginnning, facing loads of the problems and the way we face problems we try to build some sort of view on what is life. We see our life and th problems we face defines what should life is or how it should be for others.

I would rather say, life is always same for every one but the way of living life is different. It does not mean that I am accepting the fact life is complicated but I mean it is the way we take it. Some people take life as complicated matter and some as very simple.

To me, life is not complicated simply because it is not the problems that define my life. It is the way I live my life. I do not want to explain why life is simple.To define why life is simple, I would rather say- living a life in a moment is simple. Living for tomorrow or yesterday would feel as if it is really complicated. Since I live for the moment I do not know how can I say, it is complicated.

Nature is simple, words are simple, it is always we see it. We see it differently. A person who sees the "fire" would rather have the feeling that fire burn and would never approach the fire just becuase he knows that fire is burning and the nature of fire is to burn. He has the experience that fire would burn his skin. But the Nature of humans has to be humble and simple.

Once a girl asked me, why are you not throwing the insect in your hand. Does not it hurt you ? It is biting you and are you not feeling the pain ? Why do not you kill it ?

I was not suprised by the girl request because I knew what she was asking and what she wanted from me was to kill the insect which was biting me. I did not kill it but rather put it in different place so that it does not get hurt. I told to the girl that, "Everything has there own nature, see for example Nature of water; the nature of water is to cool, the nature of fire is to burn and nature of this person who does not want to kill the insect that was on the top of my hand is very "simple".

I was obeserving and trying to learn why the insect is sucking my blood and what happens if I do the same as you requested. I was thinking and living in the moment at that time. That is the reason why I did not kill the insect.

Simplicity and beauty are similar things. We see the beauty of the flower, we see the beauty of the wonderful architechture of the house, we see the beauty of the women who is nicely build. Once we see it, then we think or we want it. We want to make those which are beautiful hanging in some trees to make it as ours, those which are located somewhere nicely to have the same kind of house and so on.

This is the nature we are build up and we think to get in our life, it is complicated. Why do not we just see it and then leave it at that moment. Why do not we just see and learn from it. Why do we want to have it for ourselves ?

I do not have any feelings or wining the argument neither do I have any feeling of loosing the arugment only feeling I have right now is why do not we see life as simple simply by living in moment and leaving behind the complexity of the problems which define life as complicated.

As some one has said, beauty lies in the eyes of beholder, I think simplicity too lies in the eyes of those which can see beauty. Whatever be the case, I do not want to visulaize that life is simple or complicated for every one who lives in this planet. I would rather say, for me life is simple becuase I see those eyes which think life is complicated and I feel inside those complication the inner core lies the simplicity.

Here and there

With thousand worries and many problems we have to find the clear solution to our problems in our day to day life. The person whose life is without problems think they do not have nay problem and they are quite free to do whatever they like to do and no body can stop them. They can do what they like and are capable of doing anything without any problems.

I have seen people who will like to speak more and do less, I have also seen the people who do more and speak more. But Have you every felt what kind of person you belong to. Here in Finland I have seen people who do not speak at all too.

The difference is not about the country and culture, the difference is in us. The difference in us do not make us realize that we should some how remove that difference. It is very easy but despite that also we need loads of work and these work has to be done many times within us. It is very simple. The first thing we got to do it Understand what you want to do. Either you speak or do not do or do and speak less.

Learning from the people in Finland it shows that these people are more concerned toward doing and they are not focused on anything except doing. For them, Yes is yes and no is no. These people are fresh like anything else. They will never lie to anything and they will always accept the way you are. Although I have heard some news of racism in some places.

People are people and they are same every where. We all face difficulties and we all have problems it is again up to us and to those who can provide us help. If we want, we can get it very easily and if we do not ask we will not get anything from us and from the people with whom we are connected in some way.

The creation of something new is all within us. The creator never says, he created the new simply because he does not realize he really has created anything new. Those who realize will always want to take the initiative and say that, they are the creator of the new which they really are not.

Some times I also get confused with my own writing because most of the times I do not understand what is the core message that I am providing to my reader but again I listen to those who read it and they appreciate the help that the "content" gives to them and I feel as if I am really doing something good.

The response of the people encourages a lot to me for doing of the task. I am really happy that I can give the good lessons to those who are in need and those who does not need also.

I am seeing there are loads of difficulty popping up in many aspects of life but these will also just go one day as the time passes by.

what do you associate with the mountains?

In response to Paulo coelho question in his blog-

Moutains can be associated with anything. It is the height that matters in the world. It is associated with the peak, height, the length near to the sky, I belive that it is mostly associated with love. The symbol of “love” could be the best example one can associate the mountains with. It can also be associate witht he sucess and failure.

The failure is measured in the downfall or the lowest level of the mountain and the success could be measured as the top most level of the mountain.

Love is the best which can be easily associated with the mountains. When a two person is in love, either they climb up the hill and slowly if any one of the partner is not able to climb up the hill then it does not reach to the top of the mountain and none of them are able to reach to the place which is called “love stage”.

Either you climb up or you do not climb at all. Once both the partner are on the top of the mountain they are into the state called love stage. In this stage they cannot stay longer simply because they have to climb it down to the bottom of the mountain again. Therefore, love is just momentary state where it does not remain for longer.

It is not lust but similar to the sex where once a person is doing sex after that he will again come to the normal stage. Likewise, mountains can be associated with the love.

None of the two person can stay there on the top of the mountain simply because one is quite afraid of height or another is not willing to stay there for longer or some other alternative reasons. But once both the people can manage to stay on the top of the mountain that means they are truly in love and they do not care about what is goin on the below the mountain down to the village.

Just simply imagine that, there is a single traingular shaped mountain on the earth and there are villages down to the earth. Two person, either male or female or male or male or whatever who think they are in love now tends to climb the mountain. Slowly they start to climb the mountain and they find it very difficult. One person is trying to climb from one side and next is trying to climb from another side.

They can some how communicate in between these mountain but they do not know if other person is also climbing in the mountain or not. Because of their relationship is based on the mutual “trust”, they belive each other and start to climb the mountain from either sides.

Slowly they start to climb one person from one side and next from the another side. They face difficulties besides they trust each other and climb. This process is called as “rising in love”. When you are in love, most of the times people say that you are “falling in love” but once you are in love, I think you are rising in love.

Slowly you start to rise in love, in the big mountain you think you will reach to the top and assume your partner wil do the same but if there is lack of trust or feeling of not reaching to the top or not thinking that the person who is climbing from the other side will really meet in the top then in that condition the other person will not reach to the top.

When both the partner will not reach to the top, then they are not in love. And the mountain shows how difficult it is to be in love. But once when both the partners are in love, they will reach to the top and they will show that love is all what we gain at the top of the mountain.

What is wrong about being nostalgic?

From Paulo coelho-
"During a full week in Myspace, I changed my mood from mischievous to nostalgic. Once done that, I started to receive messages from readers asking me what was wrong - given that some considered that being nostalgic was a bad thing in itself.
But I don’t think that being nostalgic for a week is such a problem.
So, here is the question of the week: how do see nostalgia?"

In response here is what I have to say-

When I googled the word “nostalgic” I got following definition-
“a wistful desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one’s life, to one’s home or homeland, or to one’s family and friends; a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time”

The desire of being in the past or former time in one’s life. Many people go in that phase, and most of the times I become nostalgic too.

It is the wish of going home, reaching to the past very good memory one had and now in the present he cannot find such memories again. Being myself so far from the experience which I had achieved is asking me to become nostalgic too.

Too much of everything is bad, that is true. However, I think I like being nostalgic many of the times in my life. I remember old days and want to go back in those days or remember going back in time.

It has nothing to do with being sad, being sad is different then being nostalgic. Sad is just like feeling unhappy, sad is not in the present, sad is something related with worry but nostalgic is remembering the past or want or desire of going through the moments in the past.

We always want to remember our past and want to go back in our past simply because it is good for us too, to learn from our past and see what is going on in our present moment. It gives an impression to the people that being nostalgic the person is feeling sad but eventually that is not true.

Having sad that nostalgic is not being sad, I would rather add that, When a person is being nostalgic he goes in the moment of silent and thinks or remembers his experience about the event that happened, he sometimes may even remember those memories; it can also result in the laughter, it can also result in pain, it can also result in smile.

Sadness is always with us, it is the integral part of our day to day life. Happiness is something which a human will dream to achieve except me. I have the proud feeling that, I am some kind of happiness but again, that is wrong.

Being nostalgic is true to many of us, and we go or become nostalgic which does not mean we are sad but it means we are feeling little bit about our past and we want to cherish those memories once again in the near future.

Understanding "human" aspects in using the Internet.

Internet is truly an infrastructure for the information age. As one of the major technology medium, Internet has been major areas of research. It is a medium of effective communications, flexible in cost and features, not specific piece of software or hardware and is not a single network but group of globally collection either big or small logical connected networks. It is not owned by any organization or any individual or any government,corporation or university. Internet is not the same everywhere. The worldwide Internet population is growing and rapid pace. Number of humans getting access to the information, learning, and desire of going online is booming like never before. From the developed countries to developing countries As late 1988, only few countries were connected to Internet. Now, According to the 2004 CIA World Factbook, over 50 countries have at least one million humans using Internet.


One of the fascinating thing about Internet is that it comes with outstanding tools for the usage in regards to recreation, education, society and much more. Current estimated statistics has shown that more than 63 million humans using Internet in homes and the importance of Internet in day to day activities are growing. There is almost nothing which cannot be accomplished from the comfort zone of home, paying bills, research work, buying,selling, updating, uploading, downloading, shopping and most importantly communicating with your family and friends half way across the world. Together with the positive growth, its negative effects are growing too.



According to U.S. Department of Justice, Internet is an anonymous and effective way for many predators to find and groom children for illegal activities. The fear of using internet is further amplified by social disintegration which could be result of such an activities. The distance has been shortened from family, friends and from seeking information which can be seen as the replacement of very important day to day interactions. Boundaries of time, distance and identity are broken from the transfer of simple application like e-mail to complex world of virtual communities. Although email are used conveniently and humans using it has become overwhelming with number one priority, it can sometime cause great problems with Junk, Spams and theft. Privacy and Security are major concern for understanding behavior of humans in Internet.


With the novelty and convenience of Internet, it has lulled humans with the sense of dependency to greater extent. Persistent desire to go on the Internet, Play games online, visit restricted web contents, chatting longer than expected, do shopping more than the conversation with husband are all some of the symptoms of negative behaviors in Internet; which shows that future of communication is going towards the more on understanding “human aspects” of using Internet.

Monday mania

Today finally we landed up in the Helsinki from the ferry. It was kind of different experience. Every body was packing their bags to leave and we were getting ready to leave for the new journey of their own life.

Scalds finally ended up for me and now I am here in the Helsinki railway central station thinking what would be the next step now. I have to go back to Lappeenranta and start doing the things that I have left behind. It was a nice journey for a week and it really gave some meaning to the journey. I do not know what I learned but I know there were many things to be taken back home and share with the friends and family.

As today is Monday and I left from Lappeenranta on Monday. I know it is boring to go back to the same place and do the same stuffs you were doing but I think it is not boring in a sense; Lappeenranta is cool place to be.
I enjoyed the sessions in the conference but at the same time I think I missed many of the things that are some how essential for me like- peace and being silent in the lonely place.

I do not know it’s my mind or what but that is always letting me know that I needs a constantly somewhere in some place lonely or just live in isolation.
Today as it is Monday and it always is scary for me, I do not know what will be in store for me. Let us see….

When she

When she walks away from you mad [ Follow her ] When she stare's at your mouth [ Kiss her ] When she pushes you or hit's you [ Grab her and dont let go ] When she start's cussing at you [ Kiss her and tell her you love her ] When she's quiet [ Ask her whats wrong ] When she ignore's you [ Give her your attention ] When she pull's away [ Pull her back ] When you see her at her worst [ Tell her she's beautiful ] When you see her start crying [Just hold her and dont say a word ] When you see her walking [ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ] When she's scared [ Protect her ] When she lay's her head on your shoulder [ Tilt her head up and kiss her ] When she steal's your favorite hat [ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night] When she tease's you [ Tease her back and make her laugh ] When she doesnt answer for a long time [ reassure her that everything is okay ] When she look's at you with doubt [ Back yourself up ] When she say's that she like's you [ she really does more than you could understand ] When she grab's at your hands [ Hold her's and play with her fingers ] When she bump's into you [ bump into her back and make her laugh ] When she tell's you a secret [ keep it safe and untold ] When she looks at you in your eyes [ dont look away until she does ] When she misses you [ she's hurting inside ] When she calls you a dick [ she still really loves you ] When she repost this bulletin [ she wants you to read it ] - Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything. - When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go - When she says she's ok dont believe it, talk with her - because 10 yrs later she'll remember you - Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her - Call her before you sleep and after you wake up - Treat her like she's all that matters to you. - Tease her and let her tease you back. - Stay up all night with her when she's sick. - Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid. - Give her the world. - Let her wear your clothes. - When she's bored and sad, hang out with her. - Let her know she's important. - Kiss her in the pouring rain.