Monday, May 5, 2008

My First Proposal

Oh my dear, I am very far from you. The moment I saw you I felt the deep sense of feelings for you. I didn't knew that I would really fall for you but Now I cannot imagine my life without you.

The life is like hollow, single and always needs a partner for the sharing of the ideas or thoughts in life. I am very much alone. I am lonely. I know the day I saw you-the day was perfect, with sun shining and blaze of glory being cherished from every rays that I saw fell in your beautiful hairs.

I know that you are sweet, you are careful, you are beautiful and you are the best of the creation the god has ever made. Their is no doubt in that. I will never doubt my entire life. I know that I have felt some deep love for you. I have to say it now. I know that you are the one I will never live without. You are the one without whom my life is empty. It is the dead end. I want to move forward in my life. I need some one to take me to the other side. I believe and trust you. I like you. Despite we have not talked I trust you.


My beautiful lady,From today onwards I promise that I will never ever live without you. I promise that I will be taking care of all your difficulties, all of your problems would be my problems all of your burden will be my burden, all of your pain will be my pain and all of happiness you will like to share I will their standing and smiling as you would like to see me.

I am alone, I want to you. I need you. The "want" is not only the desire but the destiny. You are my destiny. You are my love,I believe NOW, I believed the day I saw you and I will believe it till my death.

It is my life I can give you in return. It is my happiness I can give you in return. I will never ever try to give you my pain until and unless you will want to share it. Please Today- I am on my knees standing and asking you one big question-
"Will you marry me ?", "Will you be my love for entire life ?"

I am afraid, I am shy and at the same time I am feeling deep joy that you will say "yes". I am afraid because if you will say "no". My heart will be broken. I will not love anyone then afterwards. I will be alone again. I want you only because I can cry for you. I want you because I will give my entire life just to make you happy. I am ready to die if you ask me. I am ready to kill some one if you ask me. I am ready to do what you want my dear.

Please tell me do you feel the same ?. What if I ask you now that I will be loving father of your child. I will try my level best to become best father. I like you ....

I cannot live without you and I hope their won't come any days in our life when we have to be separated. Please I am here in Dubai living alone for your answer. Waiting for your response. Please let me know. Please tell me if you really will like me. Please let me know. I am in love with you.


I know it is difficult to know when a person is in love. I ask with myself and it gave only one answer. It is you. I have any friends who are girl but my heart choose only you. I have always seen you, always liked you and will like you forever and forever. I know you will like me too.

I know our relationship has not started but it does not matter because If you agree I will give you a call right now. Please tell me if you feel the same.


Here is the last three letter words that I would like to say again-

"I love you".

I will always love you and I will always be only yours,I swear, I promise and I promise from the bottom of my heart.

(Dedicated to friend and his love)

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Be open.

Good morning, beauty of the morning can not be explained. The beauty of women as is indescribable similarly beauty of beautiful morning early sun rays gazing through your windows and falling like a drop of water in your face in very hot summer days.

Fight against race will continue and it is the hot topic for discussion. Obama is fighting against the race whereas at the same time Hilary is fighting against the Gender. The gender issue is almost in the stage of development but the race issue has not even raised with concern. The issue needs some solution. People are getting tired with the same kind of rules being applied. We need to update or change the rules.

Those rules which we follow are the rules which are not valid anymore. The updated rules and procedures are needed in this world of globalization. People have forget that we are making things worse and it will become more worse if we do not take the initiatives as early as possible.

It is good that we have the freedom of speech and expression. We can express what we feel, we can share our views, ideas and thoughts but it is not good that this rules is also used in practice in many different countries. What is going on is not going on correct. What is happening is not happening for good and what needs are not enough.

It is good and it is bad at the same time. People are moving, people are afraid and people at the same time are terrified. These are those people who know or who can sense that sooner or later world will change. I always stick to my sense of believe that it is not world which is changing, it is the people who are changing. It is the people mind which needs the constant change. We live in the world where every day habits become the routine and every day routine becomes boredom. We feel bore and are most of the time fed up with the same face, same culture, same office, same routine, same wife , same sex, same food, same ... and many more.

When everything that we were doing is the same now and was same then; It become the useless. We then slowly start to change our mind. We go for the change. Which is only thing that is permanent in the world. In search of change we do many things. We build cars, we build buildings, we run, we make roads, we dig the earth in search of something and we find Ore, we move and later we explore new territory, we do many things and we evolve as humans. This gives us the complex, dynamic and total virtual world which is the world of today.

Machines are ruling it now. Computers does the work for you. Why do you now need the people ? The days are not very far when everything will be done or managed by the computers. It can also be done with machines. We created it but now they will rule over us.

We should not stop our changing behavior, the result we will get from the changing behavior is the total satisfaction and peace of our mind. If we do not change then we will be the same old stupid guy doing the same old things all the time. Kind of old fashioned typical, stereotypical.

The fight will continue as long as we build guns we create wars, as long as we build machines we cut the jobs and as long as we visit one religious place we will create differences in religion.

I do not ask you to do what mentioned over here I ask you to think over it. Imagine you visit all the religious places, feel the experiences of visiting different places, feel the experiences of visiting different countires, feel the experiences of travelling not only by plane or by car or by bike or by sea just even some times walk.

Everything we do, everthing we see, everything we feel, experience,learn and think are connected to our past, present and future in some manner or some way. Once I remember one of my friend he said- Every person near you will either tell you about your future, your past or your present.

Now it is your time to figure out in which category you want to put yourself. Good luck and Keep always a positive frame of mind set and most importantly be open.

Fight against Race

Thank you for the comments in the previous post. It is cleaned it up. I did it. Actually not only I but we did it together.

The reason are many in world.The problems are many in the world. People are not happy with you despite the fact that you are happy with them. The only suggestion they have in their mind about you is suggestions. Only advice, some times those advice are good. Some times those message are good. It helps a lot. Some times those message are unacceptable.

What is the problem with race in this world.? What is the fault of that person who is born in one place and wants to live or work or do something is other's place. The problem is not with him. The problem is with the people who are not being open. The problem are in their mind, their some part of brain which is not working and will never work forever.

It is not realized until and unless it really needs to be realized.Race, color of skin, place of birth and the country of origin has an great impact in today's globalism world. People do not accept you with who you are but they want to know more about from where you are.

People want to know about your place of origin, language you speak, your culture and your native place. The most important is if you are not a person from Nordic region, Scandinavian region or UK region or even the person from First world or from USA, it is better for you to die before making any future plans.

Please do not be afraid of killing yourself because you will not be acceptable for whatever reasons anywhere. People are still fighting for race and race will ever long continue the journey of fight. What is the difficulty of accepting a black guy in an white place or society ? What is the reason of accepting any black or brown people in the country of white ? The reason is when a person from that place comes to visit the white territory people of that region get frighten about the competition, people get vulnerable to see the color, people even will not accept with the fact that you are real and you are better than some one who lives in that place.

It is difficult to accept some stranger in your territory only because you do not know the person, you do not trust the person and you do not want to believe the person. The world is changing my dear friends. What if one among that black brown guy will teach you the new way of living your life, living close to nature and living with peace and harmony ever after.

What if you are really tired, depressed in your own life and their is one brown guy who will heal you through his own tricks. What if the man is truthful and trustworthy ? What if- Next reincarnation of GOD even if we do not belive or we do not want to belive resides in his heart.

Jesus was born somewhere in some place but if it is mentioned that every time their would be problem in this world I will take birth and the guy belongs from some third world country. Will you still accept the fact or neglect with the statement that it is nonsense.

These are just assumption. The fight will continue and will continue ever after the life. The fight will continue because the every person is not same in earth. Their are people who easily get motivated from what their leaders asked them to do for and they are ready to be killed.

What if you are in place and you are being fooled by bunch of guys who are whites and you are only brown guy who is present. What if you will think that only once I get the chance to kill of them and kill myself I will do it now.

Terrorist are not born from Mother's womb. We make them terrorist. We are creating them every now and then. We are the culprits. Their is no one to blame. The way we behave has a great impact on society,people,country are religion also many more things.

We do not even care, do we remember how long have we used the right words and how long we have been using something ridiculous and stupid which has no impact on the other person. It is not acceptable to accept only the good comments. People should have a capabilities to accept the bad comments too.

It is difficult to accept which you do not want to accept or expect. Some times life is just like that-we do not expect but we get it. We expect but despite we expect we never even reach closer to it.

Life is journey unknown. The unknown journey in search of which we will travel, and travel and travel. We will travel only because we want to learn but we will not have enough of what we really desire of. This is called total satisfaction. Every things we do is totaly connected with the satisfaction.The level of it and the search or quest of it.

Race is one big issue which is really needed a big attention in this world to be solved. People will not like to solve it only because we know that we really hate that person who visits our place and become our competitions. What if we think he is just a friends, a messenger, a person like a post man who will deliver a message and then go away.

But why in world we will think like that- We will not think like that only because we do not accept those person easily who do not speak what we speak, who do not know culture aspect of what we respect and who looks stupid by the color of skin which does not makes any sense in our resentful body.


The race is not against only one country or two countries, It exits even between one single countries. The race is the next big issue that people should really think about. Really wipe it out from this world.

Come on people, here is the time to walk, talk, speak and share ideas hand in hand despite separating some one with differences but by mutually realizing in someone yourself.

Friday, May 2, 2008

Unacceptable

Are you awake ? Good-Now go to the bathroom and do your morning activities. Ok, So you are on your way-Prayed GOD for the beautiful bright sunny day and now you want to go bathroom. But suddenly some one called you. Wait.

Hello, Kalwar- "Either you clean or else you will be kicked out of this place".

Wow !

Good Morning in this place. I know it is good to speak the truth, I know it is very nice to speak the reality and say that you are not good at what you do. I know it. I am not trying here to say that I am right or he is right or some one else is right.
The reality is that Early in the morning before even going to bathroom and brushing your teeth your mate asked you something or says you something that really hurts.

The truth hurts. It is not acceptable by any standards if we do not clean and do not save if you are in other countries. We should always respect the people, energy, whatever like culture, religion, sex, and whatsoever of that country only because that country has give a lot of things to you.

When their are bad times in your life-more bad times comes. It is the phenomenon where every door gets closed, every friends become your enemy and every person you believe would help would not.

In the process of learning we do mistakes, I have not seen any one being perfect. The man who said the words even he does many mistakes but he never wants to accept it. Ok, I did the mistake of not cleaning. Now, Please do not throw me out of room only because I would not afford it and It is difficult times I am going through.

Why should I listen to you ? You are suffering that is your problem. The problem is not mine. The problem is yours and you should solve your problem. Wow. Isn't it so nice. You see others problem and you do not even want to give comment or suggestion or some words that might heal the persons problem you just want to say something that every unknown person would easily say.

Bad days are the days when you do not anything to do, you have skills, education and everything which can easily support your work but only problem you face is that you will be man full of problems. You search here and you search their which gives you nothing. You are a man with emptiness.

It is very easy to complain. Before doing any complain put yourself in others man situation. I know why should some one do it ? But it would be nice to think like that. It will give you some realization that you are being killed every moment. Why the hell in earth you exist ?

Now after getting a very hot Good morning news you go to bathroom do your all activites and think that well, this is life. You got to face it whatever way it comes. It is harsh, it really hurts but why should you worry. Problem you face always get multiplied when you are in deep shit.

It is easy to complain we always do that in our life. We have complain about food, about religion, about GOD, about life, about our car, about study, about whatever we get. It is easy to complain because complain will give us excuse. It will makes us feel that we are superior. Whatever we do and we did are best. We are the best and we have supriority over whatever things or humans or earth we complain about.

It is very easy to seat in drivers seat and complain about some one who is walking in long long highway. The seating in drivers seats means you are comfortable, you have money, you have all the necessary things in your life you want. Now you can easily do what you want.

I am worried in the first place I thought my prayers were heard couple of days ago and I was really happy about it. I thank to GOD for his quick reaction. Now, I would be able to sleep with some good gratification and satisfaction. But the problems multiplies if you are in real problem. Some one just said it that either you do it or you are out. Therefore I have to do it and make that everything is alright and satisfy. If in case I am out- It will really be problem then.

Let me see, we are not perfect said once a friend-Yes we are not. We do mistakes we learn and we should be direct about it. But some times when you are get bite early in the morning before even having taken your morning coffee it hurts. If I were the guy who was angry then probably I would have waited for the right time and would have said in different way. It is easy to make some one cry. Very easy. Say something that is hurtful and the person will get hurt.

How many people in day you hurt ? Every thing is words. If you are polite and at the same time direct then it won't hurt that person but when you are not polite about what you say surely the people get hurt. I am not proving that I am right or worng. I am just explaining my situation.

Hopefully by the grace of GOD everything goes fine and I would not be the victim. Yesterday another nice thing I heard that was in company in UK they ask for traineeship only those person who have valid EU,EEA and UK permit. Those who belong to first world.

Since I come from place where we are looked as minorities and thought as if we are helpless, poor, underpriveliged, uneducated people more importantly the people from third world where people believe that we do not have good rules and regulation, do not have proper manners, and many more. How could someone get a permission to even get traineeship. Their is no opportunity for the people like us.

I am thankful to the country where I am getting opportunity to study. I am thankful to all the people in this country, culture, religion and environment, Nature Thanks for atleast beliving in my or our potential and giving us life changing opportunity.

But I am not thankful to those who makes rules. Those rules sucks. The rule which states "you come from third world, go to your place." In the world where people are measured with the power of their mind still people measure you from the place you come from. Every body wants change, do not worry as longs as we want the change we will get it because it is humans(us) who wants to change.

If nature changes-the whole of human kind will be go in trouble. The days are getting shorter for that. One day, Even the Nature will change. At that time we all will realize that we are and we should be "One", without any discrimination of caste, culture, country, religion, sex, ethnicity, and many more differences.

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Without you.

Once their was a beautiful girl, living in Nepal her beauty was similar to the beauty of Nature and Nepali scent of flowers. She was perfect girl with all the blossom and smiling face every now and then. The guy who liked her was in foreign land. The problem was that the girl had never seen this guy before.

The guy always had seen her, the place she lives, the timing of her office or school and the wherever she goes in the country. The guy was very cute and was very nice too. The girl had no idea who the guy was and she never noticed anything about this guy. Girl was living in her own life.

She has a pleasant life of her own. The guy loves the girl so much that he could not express his feelings for her. The guy is shy, has a deep impact of the girl and always thinks for her. He is in love-the state of negativity the state where he is blind. Everything is fair in love and war.

The fairness of love he could not understand. He wants to express but somehow he could not express it at the right moment. It was dark and snowy day the day when he has to leave her dream girl without even getting glimpse of her. He was not feeling well. He did not want to go away from her but the situation demanded him to go, the situation asked him to visit the foreign land. He never felt a kind of love for her before.

Especially when he was in the moment of being separated. Especially when he was leaving her far behind. He is worried now. He think will it be same ? Can I see the girl in the same way I had seen her. Will she be like a morning first rays of sun that falls in sunflower and looks as if it is soon going to glow. Will it be like that ? What if she is gone and she is not anymore ? What would I do with my one way of liking her.

I could not express my love for her only because she is so far. The greatest obstacle now in my life is the journey that I am traveling. The time is the most valuable thing, it changes everything-especially people. Nature will always remain same. Oh my love, I would do anything for you. Just to see you or get to see your face.

Oh my love I would do anything do listen to your voice. Oh my love why did not or why could not I speak what I am feeling for you. I know you do not know me but what is that keeping me that feeling for you.

I am really shy, I am really feeling deep love for you. The love which no one can understand the love which will remain for me ever and ever inside me. I am not worried about you being with others but I am worried about will I be able to see the same smile on your face.

Today people are changing, will you be same my love. I do not know how people define love-every body says it is two ways it can only happen in two ways- I do not belive in two ways or one ways. I belive in simplicity of my feelings of my heart which always remembers you, your smile your tone.

I always am worried about you. I am alone without you. Only I had your number to call you , I could have done it long before. Now I realize that I should have talked with you. Now I realize that I should have shown you the feelings that I was going through.

Now I really felt that I can even die for you. When some body can give a life for the person whom I have never seen-you know that is special feelings. I am not the creator of my life but I can certainly be able to destroy for you. Why am I feeling such a stupid feelings just for you.

I hope you will be the same and our story will end up being a happy ending. I am also afraid at the same time it won't happen like that. I know that we live in real world where reality is always different then our imagination and what we think most of the times. I hope and pray even you will not be able to see me or even you will not be mine- be happy and smile as i saw you like never before., be happy and cheerful as I saw and wish you never did before.

May we meet in heaven and by the grace of GOD I would have power to express my real love for you. The way I felt for you and reality hidden in my heart which is not coming very easily outside as a expression. Oh my love- I love you as if people will never imagine the quantity, my love for you is full of sky, full of stars you see in the sky and full of flowers present in this planet. I am waiting to see you again, I am waiting if I would be alive by then the first thing I would do is visit you and say that how much I felt deep inside me for you.

Oh my god, please give me power to stand this moment, please bless me with the power of being alone and lonely Now. Without you, it seems life would end. Without you life it seems that I have reached a dead end. I hope my dead end will soon explore the new way.

Hope is all I have dear as I am patiently waiting to see you.


(The article is especially for one brother, who lives in Dubai and the girl lives in Nepal.)

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

My Old Shoes.

When their are moments in life to enjoy, I am not enjoying. When their are millions of people in world who live life very easily and are dependable on others. I do not want to be. The saying of "I do not want to be and I have to be" is very different.

Some times you have to be dependable on others only because you are not doing anything and life, circumstances and situation does not allow you to do the same. What will you do. If I want money whom I will first go for ? Obviously the person who created me. It would be nice, if I were working and doing things myself. I want to happen the same in my life.

When I say "I want". It does not go by the way I say. The want is the desire, the need, the process and it takes loads of time, desperation and perspiration. The funny thing is that we do not know what is their in future or what's in store for us. Ha Ha ..
Smiles are their which says it all, the smiles which always remind me that we are not perfect. In the process of being prefect we do thousand and one mistakes every day, still we do the same mistake. In the process of learning we try to get new ideas and learn but still one day we forget what we have learn.

I am smiling that is the good news to many around me. It should make them happy. I am smiling in pain that I am going through. We all have problems till we are alive that is part of life. No humans beings exit without problems. The priority we give to the problems in our life is based on our feeling, desire, need and our own quest for life.

It is good that I am smiling because many of my dears and nears want to see me smiling. I am wearing the same old shoes for 9 months which is slowly showing its colors. I have not cut my hair for the same old 9 months which always reminds me that I am growing with time. I have same old habit of writing and maintaining my blog which asks me that I have to put something in here while I am enjoying my morning coffee.

Life is just like this, close to Nature. The GOD who lives inside us is taking care of all my dreams why should I worry ? I have to smile only because it will remind me that I am having fun time in funny world with funny people and creatures.

My old shoes always ask me to wear it only because it really likes my legs. It says that Sir, you should never leave me only because I know how to fit in your legs. Even I am broke and I am going to leave you soon please do not ever leave in alone because I am afraid some one will burn me. I do not want to leave you alone, Sir.

My old grandfather used to tell me that- Son, Miracles happen in life. I never realized and felt it happens but slowly as I grew and I learn I start to believe that it really happens.

For those who have similar problems consult me, only thing I would be able to give you the suggestions and advice. I can give you suggestions and advice that much till the single drop of water left in ocean. It is up to you to decide how much you want to take it from poor me.

"My pockets are empty but I have ideas full of pockets."

I do not know what that means because as I am the creator of the quote. I will try to explain. The explanation is based on the idea that despite you do not have anything in your pocket you have tons of ideas that fill your pocket. It is up to you to take it. It is up to your needs and your desire to take it from me. I am flowing like river. You can drink from any corner or side of the river you want. You can dive into it, see it deep inside it and explore the unexplored territory with everlasting experience from it.

Their are people who will never learn, their are people who learns and their are people who have learn and they have many things to tell. It is up to you to decide which category I fell into.

The two ways to presentation of my personal approach to real world problems that I encounter in my personal life. One is my maintaining personal diary and putting in indirectly into this blog and another by approaching directly to people. When I do it indirectly their are people who read it and get hurt and their are people who get hurt despite being hurt they will suggest you with improvement, their are also people who will completely ignore what my point of views are on my personal life. May be those people who completely ignore my indirect perspectives are more concerned about direct approach then indirect approaches.

I am not great writer as their are in Market and in World existing. I am just write who writes. Either it is my personal feeling or whatever that comes in my mind and heart. As I writer I thank and appreciate all the positive and negative comments written and given to me.

The story continues because story is interesting and it is getting more interesting with the movement in life, journey never ends simply because it is journey. Asking for help and giving help is two different phenomenon. Asking help is not begging. When you are in trouble you ask for help, when you are in state where your body is not working and you are not able to do yourself anything besides giving blessing is begging.

Both can be similar and a good topic for discussion. It is my attitude to ask and to listen. I want to listen to strongest of sound that my ears won't allow me to. I want to feel the deepest of rain I will fall trap into. I want to walk longest of journey that my shoes will be capable to travel.

Thanking you. See you soon in next beautiful and awesome day.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Bless them.

When most of the times you are feeling lonely and alone, when most of times you are not being part of anything, you are with your self- It will seem to many other people that you are lost. You are no anymore. It will be the moment of complete silent. The moment of peace and the moment of vanishment.

The people around you will be curious about you. The people will ask about you, want to know more about you. The more they want to explore about you the more you will show your mysteries to them. The mysteries not is to show, your nature does not automatically will deliver the mysteries but it will be seen to many people that you are kind of mysterious person.

The life is simple-Every body if you watch carefully are in rush. We all want to reach to final destination. May be the project, the work, or even the end of the day, it can also be what we were thinking, we want to get to the destination very soon, very fast. We are in rush. To all those who are in rush-One thing I would suggest, Slow down. I do not mean that you should not work or should not do what you are doing but slow down with your rush, your pace, your speed.

Once I remember I asked one guy to watch his steps. I still remember that. People always want to get everything in life very quickly. May be it could be big house, a good blue color job, nice and beautiful wife, childrens and many more money. Everything that we need and we want to get, everything that we want-will come. It is their but it will need lots of patience and courage to slow down our speed. The speed does not mean that you should not work or you should not do what you are doing. The speed means- Keep it simple. It is upto us to control our daily activities.

Nothing comes ahead of what we think. Whatever we wish, are our just wishes and it will be their somewhere in queue lined up one after another. We make loads of wishes. Even far more than us, girls pray a lot. All our wishes are collected by GOD. He keeps them in his book. He then process all our wishes one by one. Every now and then when we see, we listen, smell, observe and learn we make loads of wishes.

All these wishes are kept according to our own priorities. We wish and we prioritize them. These all wishes are then kept in his book. The GOD decides when, where and how to deliver all our wishes. It is the duty of GOD to do the job for us. He does but he never lets us know that he did the job for us. We humans, think alright. I got what I wanted in my life. All the I, MY makes us egoistic and will create lots of chaos in our life.

We tend to forget that one day we have to visit GOD's home. We are selfish humans living in earth, thinking most of times about our own life. See how many people are hungry at the time you are eating-Bless them before you start your meal. See how many do not have clothes to wear at the time you are wearing fancy clothes-Bless them before you wear them. See how many people are in stage of diaster, unhappiness, fight, war and total chaos at the time you are doing parties and attending fantastic meeting-Bless them before you start your work.

Have any one even tried in their life of blessin those mentioned above ? I guess very few or none. We never do that. We are lazy. We do not want to change ourselves why should we ? What we do not have ? We have everything that we need. When you have everything you need, you become careless. When you are in the other side doing and needing a help you will see what I am seeing.

Blessed are the peacemakers and blessed will be the peace makers and blessing to all those do well-being for peace.

Monday, April 28, 2008

GOD inside us.

New lesson is always their to learn, Visited the church today-felt like I am close to god. People often say that god is repulsive, imaginary and unbelievable sometimes. I do not know.

My answers would be-I think GOD exits in all of us, the way we speak, the way we think, the way we give our opinion, in our emotional, personal, recreational and all other activities. We should not search for him. He resides inside us. He lives inside us. Every breath we take-he gives us that breath. The ounce of breath that we breath is provided by him.

The bread that we get to eat, the food we always taste, the smell that we smell, the beauty that we see, the love that we share-is the GOD gifts to us. He shares everything with us but we never figure out and we think he is invisible, repulsive and make some thought that he do not answer.

It is not about one single religion, one nation, one person-He exits in all religion but in many different form. He exits in each one of us. He offers us whatever we want. He is the best provider and he plans all our future.

He loves us more than we can think of what love is, we are a treasure to him. He is great curator, he cares us, We need not have to delight him, he is always delighting us. He is the one the greatest encourager.

We may some time suffer, We may have million reason for cry but during all those moment he is taking care of us. Nothing will separate his love to us. He resides on us as our father. He is their in silence watching us, teaching us, taking care of us all the time.

He has a big diary for each of us, He knows our future, he also knows what we are going to do next. He is not worrried because he also know we are getting worried to know what next in our life. He will make us feel better every step we take.

He is the greatest of great, he is the simplest of simple and he is the truthful of truth. In him lies every thing that we can even think of. He will show us the path we need to walk, if we fall in the path he will also pick us up and take us to the exciting journey of our life.

Do not ever feel alone-just because you are not part of church, some organization, some religion because by not being the part of those aspects or in such activities you are not being like others but you are being yourself.

If you become yourself-that is the first lesson of love. The aloneness will teach you many different things when you need them. When you are alone do not ever imagine you really are alone. The GOD resides you at the very moment inside you. Every help you need, ask him. He will find some solution for you.

You may loose your all friends, all your family, all your people near you but you will be very close to your self. The self is your spirit. The spirit of GOD. He will tell you, direct you and give you the suggestions. Whatever suggestion that he presents you are the suggestions from the GOD. Those will never change, those are for your benefit, those are for your future. Those are direct gifts from him just for you.


Oh Jesus, Oh Allah, Hare Rama Hare Krishna, Oh ... , Oh GOD ...,

Help those in need, give us the blessing that we can serve those in need. Bless us with the power of love, lessons and whatever it takes to serve others who are dieying at the moment, those who are starving for food, those who do not have place to go and those who are facing complicated problems in their life.

It might not seem good to mix all the GOD, but my religion is no religion. I follow all the religion. I do not hesitate to eat the beef, at the same time I can also fast for one day and visit Hare Krishna temple. At the same time, I can go to Allah, and pray to him. All the people associated with different religion are just a messenger of GOD.

It is not the messenger I pray, I pray the lessons that they presented during their existence in this earth. I pray to those divine and holy message. I pray to those scriptures, those sentence that they create for the well-being of society and in the name of GOD.

Every body comes naked and has to go Naked. It is only when we get into some age we start to wear clothes and do not show our body inside those clothes. It is similar, we all wear the choice of clothes we like, we all pray and follow the religion we like. Because our real "I" knows that after we have to go Naked and we came Naked.

My intepretation might be great matter for discussion. We can always discuss. GOD is the holy spirit inside us who will take us with him to his home oneday after we finish our work in Earth. His home is very beautiful, one of the best place, the word best might be limited to some extent depending on the way of visulalization, I would say it is the perfect place.

Smile, even you feel lonely, even if their is no one around you, even if you are thought as if you are no one just an ordinary guy from some third world country. Smile is the answer. A simple smile will answer most foolish of question people ask you.

A simple smile will tell you that no one is perfect, a simple smile just like a new born child does when he sees his father does. It is so perfect. The simle should be simple like that. Every thing we do, everything we see, everything we want to perform are mind thoughts our mixture with the earthy matters which always tries us to take away from GOD.

By being close to him, one can imagine a life which just might seem magical. When I say that I was returning from the church- I saw one small kid riding a bike, he was moving in very speed in his bike. He crossed just as we bunch of guys were walking or coming from church. Then the guy applied the brakes and I thought in my mind that "Is he not fallen from the bike ?". I saw the guy at that very moment he was not fallen from the bike-he was still in his bike but just after few seconds he fell, and I smiled by seeing all this event that was happening around me.

No body took care of it. I was surpised to see that. I was thinking is it just a concidence then I thought well-It might be but again I thought Their is never an concidence in our life. Because of our earthy matters we think it is concidence, we find reasons where the reason will just give us excuse. Nothing more.

We all look different, we all have some task in our life to perform, we work every day and night to make our life success, to get good job, get a bungalow, earn good money and make life comfortable. In the process of doing all those events we forget that we should behave just like simple humans. Help others, see if others are smiling or not. Look on their faces, try to find out the reality, try to see, guess and understand what others are feeling at the same time.

It is not the big things that you need to do in order to make some one in need happy, just a simple words. Just a smile, Just a words that do not ever cost anything to you will do the trick.
Welcome to the world where nobody gives damn to what you think, every body is very busy, every body is so busy in their life that they do not have time for even their own kids, even their friends and family.

It is not just bounded by one country, one religion, and one community it is everywhere. The context might be different but the story remains the same. It might be told in different language, and different ways of delivery but the message and impact is the same.

Big question is how to change ?

Change should be brought within ourselves, if we change our country will change, slowly people around us we change and even the religion, sex, cultural aspects everything will change.

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Open the door.

The art of living is the way of living itself. One needs to go through many different phases of life. When you travel, you get to see many different things, you see the tree, people, other cars, other vehicle and many such things that too move. When many other things move, you move.

The ideas that travel should be adopted in many different case.The idea that do not travel should not be adapted.Most of the people in today's world do not just want to sit in one place and live a life. One point in time we would like to move.

The moment brings the journey, it creates the journey which might be very useful to many of us in many different ways. The joy of journey is immaculate. It is so joyful that you feel very comfortable. Sometimes even it reminds that why not if I was a flying bird. Move from one place to another, always in constant move.

Visit new places, see many new things, learn from many things that I never have seen before, heard before and watch before. What are the ways we learn or how do we get input in our body ? The input we get are probably from Eyes-we see, from ears-we listen, Nose-we smell, mouth-we taste, and what are others-next input could be touch-we feel.

The basic stuffs will always be their we will always do the basic stuffs but some time some point of time we get fed up with our daily routinized life. We then start looking for change. When we start to look for the change-we slowly thing the best way to se the change is to move.

The moment gives us both adventure and the pleasure. The both part are exciting in the journey of life. Those who are afraid of move, they are afraid of learn. While I am writing this one of my sweet fly is coming very close to me-again It is getting very closer to me, after getting closer to me I showed it the way but it could not go anywhere. It is trapped inside the room. It wants to move but it has no place to go. It is desperate to move, only because it wants to explore the real world. It has its own life, its own family and its own children.

Now, as I have to open the door to let it visit where it wants- I will open the door. Every country-should do the same for the people.

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Welcome to reality.

The reality is not far when we see the reality very near. Words are not my creation, it is the creation of my thoughts-It might be ilogical, it might sound stupid, it might also be worng but I do not care.

As long as words come in my mind I write, It might be some times useful-at least to some one or some body somewhere in the world. It would be, Hopefully. Those who think it is not useful-It will be not useful to them.

My words are just the simple experiments with my self, my own knowledge and experiences, understanding the process, phenomenon, Nature and Environment. My is bounded to one single. I can even make it unbounded by making it Ours.

The bounday does not divide people its the people mind that is dividing people. We are living in world where we like to travel to many places see many culture, religion, people that is the real beauty of life. The more you travel the more you learn.

I always want to generalize many of the aspects and activites but that is just my personal opinion. It has nothing to do with any body or any community or whatsoever.
People fall in trap only because they want to fall. I may be bad at many things, I am not perfect. The beauty of life does not lies in being perfect, it lies in making mistakes which will enable me to learn, which will teach me the lessons which I also further can pass to others.

The way of proving who is right and who is worng in not the way that we alway end up. It is my the look you can tell. It is by the smell you can judge, it is my Nature you can learn.

Welcome to reality-not only to others but to me myself, Welcome to real world.

Thank you.

We born, we start to observe day to day activities around us. We listen to what our elders have to say, then slowly we start to judge what is good and what is bad in our life.What is truthful and what is untruthful, which words are emotionless and which are not.

The process is the stages of learning from one phase of life to next. It continues. It runs with the same common way by seeing, listening, smelling and taking taste of many different activities or events around us.

As we grow, we start to make friends, we share our values, common values and many other activities that are good or bad or whatsoever with the other person. When we share ours to theirs we begin to learn that their is more joy in combining these values, joy and ethics that we only have with others.

It gives us more pleasure, afterwards slowly we begin to realize that we need some body really to take care of us. We then start falling for those person who will take care of us. It can be either male or female depending upon the situation and our choices.

The process continues-and it will always continue just like that. It can be said that-you talk positive people will talk positive, it will create positive framework in your and others around you. One does not want to see the progress of others only because one cannot stand to share his own progress with others.

The war is not answer, it is simple. I can easily kill the person I want to but is that my answer to the problem ? Obviously not. The person who wants to win the battle win before the battle even starts. Only thing is you got to know when it started.

It is not my country that I hate, it is not my people that I hate it is the people with ego hassles that I do not want to see, talk or speak with. Sometimes I wonder, In the process of learning we have to learn how to remove it.

It is not aimed to one single person neither to any group or country it is aimed to those who think it is meant to them. I do not want to make anything personal despite it looks very personal.

Thank you to all those who have done very hard effort to help me. Thank you to all around me. By the grace of GOD-My best wishes are with you all. Despite it might seem non-worthy. You can take it as you want.

My level of thinking might be worst, or it may even be clumsy and narrow because I am separated from all around me presently. I am thankful to those who think I am separated. A fool learns from one single mistake whereas a Gentlemen who think he is really doing good,never learns.

Welcome to the real world- What I believe does not matter, and should not matter to those around me as long as we are bounded by certain boundaries we think only about our own culture, own country and want to talk more on those aspects.

What we do is that we are divided, we are born in one country and we like that country, we like the culture, we like the religion and everything after that becomes "MY". We will all the time like to speak only about that particular aspect- come out of the box and think beyond the boundaries and religion.

Welcome to reality, Once upon a time a child piss on the head of father only because father was carrying the child his on his head. The piss fell in his head and Father was not surprised, he started to clean it up and did not said even a word to Child.

The morale of story is that- It is easy to talk big, make loud cries but the impact matters. Whatever it might be or whatever it would be-it is just a words.


The words will hurt, the words will cry, the words will make you angry however one must know the basics that these are words. The words are dividing the world, the words are killing each others. It is easy to kill some one if I say something wrong to them-It is easy to make some one angry. How many of does not get hurt by words ?

Very few, only because we do not accept it. Once we learn how to accept the words we will learn to see the connection.

Last but not the least, Thank you for those who think I am their friends, Thank you for those who have helped me so far and I am really sorry if my words have hurt those around me. It is not for one person or not intended to those who think it is intended to. Please see the Disclaimer section at the end of the blog. Thank you to those who think I am not their friends too...

Stories will always continue ... till the last breath.... The way may be different, style may be different however the process still remains the same...

Friday, April 25, 2008

Love and Life. (welcome to reality)



It is so difficult to live without you, it is the only thing that seems very difficult in my whole life. Is their anything which people call difficult would ever I took as difficult.

It could be understood that all days are not good days, all days sun is not shining, their is darkness but the darkness ends to bring new joy, glory with light. In search of light to live with you it seems I am dieing.

Why do we some times feel that we could not live without the special some one in our life ?
One could have thousand views, many thoughts- It gets difficult to breath, it is even difficult to spread the message when the person you are close to is far from you. When you remember the person the smell of that person comes with inside you. It is the smell that you want to smell, it is the touch of that person you want to feel, it is the care of that person you want to enjoy. The question itself would not give the solution that I am presenting, it is the feeling. It is the emotion or expression. Do not take it personal- It could be different from many of us.

People do thousand and one thing to escape, we are loosing most of the important relationship only because we are not ready to listen. The relationship does not meant only love, it could be friendship, even, marriages and so on.

We loose the relationship because of our commitment, effort, some times forget to communicate, even some times journey, the distance could make you feel depressed. The greatest journey some times traveled is the distance between the people. In today's world it is easy. Many people have different approach, their own personal problems, own interpretation of understanding love- My approach is very personal and I never expected in my entire life that would even match to something.

It might be different to many different people but for me it is quite different too. Love is understanding, learning in every second of life. It is a song which every heart reads. It is the song for life.

The music which never stops till the last breath. We all have to visit the other end only by smiling. Smile and cross the life. It is the experience which cannot be described-broken bridge which always needs the improvement.


Why should I worry if my life sucks and I am fool, even I cannot walk with the person I am intended with, I would rather like to learn, understand and get the core message out of it. I will smile even if I am not thinking of smiling only because love is all about smiling.

Life and love is two different things which cannot be even thought of comparison. I have no clue at this moment how to separate these.

Their could be situation when I would tell that- I never tried to betray you but you left me just like that. Without the reasons. Without even saying Good bye ! From that onwards at least I would have got one word which I could have hated entire my life- "Good bye"

But Now, even I could not do that. What was my mistake ? Was it because I was not the one ? Well, if I was not the one it is only because you never tried to find out more on me. I am still happy and I will always be happy. If I would say that I am satisfaction would you come back to me ?

The unstoppable words could be written, I would not stop to write as I have started till the last breath of my life. I will write. Not to prove anything but to prove myself. I will not stop until and unless GOD ask me to stop.

I would never give my heart to somebody who is not interested in it. I would rather get married with 1000 girls in my life but I will not get married with you.
Wife of men are women and they will always remain wife of men. We can talk thousand words on women rights, whatever but women are always women... One of the difficult species to understand only because they make everything themselves very difficult.

Simplicity only comes with the simplicity of seeing the child, the early stages of every baby. Women will never learn from it. Every thing is difficult but it is up to us to make it simple.



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Welcome to real world.

I am very sorry for all those who read the previous article because I should not have posted it just like that, I really stupid on that point. I do not know, I was just taking too much of stress of myself that I forget their are people who can or who will help me.

I am really stupid and it is good that their are people around you to teach you, tell you and always give you suggestion when you need them. I am happy for all those and I really thank all those who were concerned.

The reality is that reality is just like reality. We all have problems and some times we do not want to tell our problems to others and sometimes we are quite shy aobut it. When I wrote my problems suddenly those who were close to me, who really care about me-became more closer.

The true person or friend or brother or whoever close to you becomes more closer once we ask them for help. It showed, I am sorry for the article yesterday and I could not write anything because I could go Internet.

In real world-we have real people and in real people we have problems, we have solution and we have life. It is quite uniquly placed. One has to sooner or later understand that we all have problems and we should learn from the problems.

It is good that I am in learning process and I am understanding it. The real world is something very vivid, very different and very difficult to survive because we have all sorts of problems like culture, religion, sex, nationlity, racisim and many more.

World is becoming very difficult place to live, more people are concerned about the security issue, machines are doing the work and it also seems that many people are starving. It is just like that.

The lesson from the Nature-is to be strong as Nature itself is very strongest of the entity. It is about choices, alternatives, finding and knowing yourself better. Life is all about the bond between the people that's why it might be that- Today we have lots of popularity in hi5, facebook kind of website.

These website are getting famous only because- We like community we like to share friendship and emotions. It is good to go with the flow.
The days coming by will teach me what is in store for me. I hope if I landed up in a process of helping others I won't go back, if I landed up in a process of asking-I will look forward.



Thank you.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

In the process of being strong.

Life is full of good and bad suprises. We always have two sides of any coin. We see our life also with the same way or phenomenon. Some times It is good for you and some times it is very unpleasant for you.

Now I am in the situation where I do not have any places to go. I have to take help from my dear friends. It is upto my friends who are going to help me or not going to help me.

No place to live from next month, no home, even cannot afford the room because of expensiveness but if GOD created me then all my wishes and dreams are not only my alone but it is his too.

He has to take care of my problems, my dreams and my wishes now.Let me see what happens. I have to sort it out- I will ask help from my dear friends. This is a simple version of my life today. I do not want to elaborate and put more because it will too emotional and If one day I am going to read this-it will me myself, weep.

In the process of being strong-One is being really strong. It happens and these are problems which a people face, why should one go far from the problems. It is good to face the problems and see the consequences from the problem.

Escaping from the problems are done by cowards. Who just try to escape and do not face the problems. We are face problems and we all try to go through it-which is good.

Once if I remember, me and my friends were sitting in balcony of the kitchen and he said that-"Nothing comes easy". As the nature itself is very tough, it teaches all of people and organisim related to it-the same lesson but in different ways.

Sometimes friendship could not measured, some times it is difficult to understand and sometimes it is not good for health. Some body once said that-friends in need are friends in deed. Now a days, who is doing or following the theme. We are becomeing selfish every day, it is increaing in our blood. We do not want to help others or see others only because why should we care about others ? When such an attitude comes in your mind, you think you are being strong and you are doing good but you are not doing good only because you are not helping other human.

Death is certain, it will come but we do not remember when it will come or we cannot say anything about it. After death, some people will remember you. some will forget you and some will even die for you. The person who really cares about those who have been dead are those very close to you.

Those person will not cry for whay you were and what you did but they will also take the lessons that you presented in your journey of life. We should therefore become such peroson or atleast try to beome one among them.

All these are words and words to not value as long as feelings. Feelings are important. It is because of feelings that you fall for other person. It is about the emotional touch that a mother has with a son-she loves him even he becomes a gangster or criminal.

It is because of feeling of your love that she will wait in lonliness of 25 years just in a hope of seeing you one day back. "True love always waits".


Well the story will always continue as long as the write of the story is alive. Thank you for reading it today. Have a good day :)

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

I do not know.

Mind is the best to judge, it is the central part of our body which makes important decisions. Imagine a situation where you are not able to make any sorts of decisions. What would you do ? Either you have to be believe others or you have to be retarded.

Without mind their is no decision making body, every activities we do- Such as daily activities from cooking to cleaning to bathing to washing and all sorts of activity, whether I take a taxi or should I walk ?, weather I eat pizza or I eat nothing ? weather I stay with this girl or should I stay with some body else ?

Every decision is important and every decision should be handled with proper care. When we make decision it is not only best decisions we make for our body, it can be bad decision it can also be worng decision and it can also be very good decision.

Whatever decision it is, the best decision always matters. It matters only because it is beneficial to you. It is good for your self. It is worthily to you and yours who are attached with you.

It is not easy when it is most of the times easy. It is not difficult when it seems very difficult. I do not know know is the best answers many people have in this world. Why ? Simply because it give us escape.

When a person says- I do not know, you are out of the context. It simply means you really do not know and even if you know you do not care. The context of "I do not know" in simple English terms mean the person do not know what he is trying to say or willing to say.

It is just an excuse or escape or going far from the facing the problems. Sometimes, it is good but many of the times it is not. Well, if you really do not know what particular things or particular activities means then it is absolutely correct but when you know something but do not want to explore beyond or do not want to elaborate your knowledge of wise dome then it is better to say-I do not know.

I have seen many people in using the term, I have used many of the times myself-Now I think this term is appropriate but not inconvenient or should not be used most often.

Let us explore, why should we go far from the problem rather than face the problem or situation. If you really do not know then why not use the learning tools to find out about it immediately. You will know.

It happens in such a way that we speak a statement on some subject matter saying- "I do not know" Slowly our statement become more and more, it grows many of the times with all the different subject and situation. When we start to get old we forget what we know and what we do not know. It almost becomes "I do not know".

The memory vanishes, all the events, all the learnings, all the phenomenon, situations, solutions whatever we did we will slowly start to forget and we will become like a child who again wants to know about the world.

To search, to find out, to research and to reveal what we do not know, what others around us do not know and what our children and grandchildren will not know we have to learn to change-"I do not know to I know but I have to see" or I know to some extent but I am not remembering or I do not know but I want to know"

These are not the solutions but these are exploration, these are knowing about yourself, these statements one person do not have to speak or say but speak to yourself and ask. you wil find out the answers.

Monday, April 21, 2008

Womenizer

When I am close to you are at the same time far from me. When you are close to me at the same time I am far from you. We are made for each other how can we be far from each other ?

Those beautiful statements mentioned in above lines are simple, meanigful and feels like reading thousand times. Why are we not same ? Why men and women are different from each other ? These some questions are in my mind which need a good reasonable satisfying answers to my ears.

We are different, physically emotionally and mentally. We are not same in any of those features. Women are always ahead in thinking. They are very fast. They think two steps ahead of men. We men cannot even imagine of what they are thinking. It is only because they like to explore, they know what will be the end results and they are not afraid to take risk.

A typical men way of living a life would be-go to office, come back home, prepare food, do some stuffs with your computer or TV and go back to bed, it can also be some parties, some discussion, some talk about women, some good laughs and some worries.

A typical women way of living a life would be do all the morning stuffs like cleaning, washing clothes, washing other stuffs, go to office, come back home, chit chat with other women, talk mostly about the clothes and perfumes, take even care of minor of details in their day to day activity, remember what they are doing, come back home and do home stuffs. Work on home too, feel depressed about what other womens have and what she does not have and so on.

It differs according to country, culture, value and ethics of people. This is almost similar however when you go through these steps you will find dissimilarity.Women like men and men like women. The fact is how many ? and how much is the end result.

In europe, it is common to change another men. A women can sleep with two or more in a given day with different men. It depends on what she is going and how she handles them, situation and what she wants.

A men on other hand has a difficulty to do that. It is difficult because all men respect the women and it is difficult to ignore the respect they give to women.

Why do women change men in developed country ? What is the basic need ? Is it sex ? Sex is not a big issue because men can easily give them pleasure of sex but what is that then make them change other men ? It might be the dependency. Women are not dependend on anyone.

If you are not dependent on the men how can you give him the respect or honor or whatsoever. It is like I don't care if you do not care. The attitude of women for instance you take an example of Finland- I would say, women and weather in finland is the same, it can change anytime.

No prediction can be done besides all the supercomputers present in computer lab about the weather only because prediction of nature has always been difficult the other species which are very close to nature is women. For them the prediction is almost impossible to do.


My analysis would never stop if I continue writing on them. Have a good working days to everyone. Be happy but do not think how.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

I am a fool

People are playing game, people are playing politics and people are trying to violate other peoples on behalf of minor benefits. Their are people in my life who are close to me but are doing something stupid or I assume they are doing stupid which I can understand better now.

They can talk big, they can twist and turn your mind the way you think the way you decide on some aspects or on some global manners because they they think whatever they are doing is absolutely correct and only correct.

Hiding information is the information they know, playing some games which they do not even know how to play it. It is not good to violate one among others. They can even bite you but you will not feel the pain. They are living is osmosis. The process where they don't know either they are doing right or doing wrong. They are absolutely great people.

To know about the person it does not take long, it will never take long and it has never took so long for me. From the moment I have felt about some person I can tell you what his/her point of view are what he is thinking and what he will do for you. It is the process of learning the people. I do not have any problems with anyone if every one do not have problems with me.

The people whom you belive are the best ones are the people who are very close to you but they are doing worst for you. I know it might not be true to every one however it is true to some extent to every one.

Girls are the difficult to understand as they are too complicated to deal with. Boys are always easy to predict because they know what they want. Clear and Simple. When you do not know what is your objective how can you deal with the other person.

It is easier to make fools to other person if you are have a group of at least two people and you know the person whom you are going to make fool.

Last day, or Yesterday One of the friend gave a barbecue party in the corridor of the rooms. It was nice because their were different faces that we never saw, their were nice and good people together chatting, laughing enjoying food and doing what ever that can lead them to the happy moments.

We all were invited thanks to him for his generosity. I was just like I am therefore after coming from the University I straight away took his beer and went for the participation. Later after some 1hr some of the people came they were Nepalis. A good brilliant guys from Nepal who are called as friends. As I don't know what is the nature of others Nepali guy but My nature is shy so I was enjoying the beer that I took from Teemu.

The guys started to talk something strange and I was interested to know what is that. When I asked a question I got a very sound reply which made me think that those guys do not know me at all.

It was amazing experience wow, they laughed at me and I was left spell bound. I thought well that is how we call friends in Nepal. May be it is because of my own caste, my nature of unfriendliness which resulted in being stupid.

It is easy to make some one fool. Imagine yourself in such situation. I am not angry or frustrated or depressed with that situation but certainly I learn one good lesson. It is easier to make people fool.

I am happy for what happened because I have seen the consequences and the results. I am happy to learn a lesson because I am always left alone. One can talk 1 hr about being open or how should a person should be open to each other and at the same time that same person does not come out of his room to see others.

It is easy. You have to open the door of your room and take some steps to reach others room. In your mind just set a program that you have to go to the person room. If you are not dead in the middle you will reach to that person house.

It is easy. It is simple straight away if you got some problem start to talk and clear it. I do it. I don't know the people around me do not feel doing it only because they think I am unfriendly.

It is funny too for me. I smile when I go through such situation. I am not open they say as you can read inside and outside of me and compare. I am stupid they can say. I am crazy people can say but one thing is for sure. I do not care.

If I see 7 grains and I tell that one of the grains is bad do not eat to others around me, they will believe in and they will eat only 6. But how can you judge the grain which was bad was really bad ?. Do you really trust the person who asked you to trust him/her ?

For this reason, you got to taste yourself. Taste it yourself and see if the grain was really bad. One has to experience itself before knowing or judging others. Their are thousand of other things that I would like to share but It will just give an impression that I am just complain about someone.


Their were other many things to learn from the party but which I would like to put into one single statements- "wo+men are two words faster than men".


Good weekend !

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Some Blah Blah

A very good bright and sunny saturday morning with brightness and light all the way which brings smile to every one's face. It creates a joyous environment to people and the people around such that every body believes that life is to life fully, without any tension, sorrow and unpleasant moments.

Imagine being alone for 100 years. Without some one, without your love, without the sense of girl or scente of women you are alone. Every body is with their life, their partner living like they would live but when you are alone you are with yourself. You do not need anybody. It is you and your love for yourself.

The beauty of life lies not in death but it lies in the way you live a life. You should enjoy the moment do not try to enjoy the end. It does not matter the way you do your work only thing that matters is the way you do it.

The destination is the end. The destiny is findings, search for the end. When we search for the end we should concentrate first on the path we are taking. Concentrate on the path not the destination.

Like the oceans in the sky, like the clouds seen in the river and like the twins who seem very alike. We too are alike. We need to find out the real meaning about it.
Depression is not the answer for being depressed. The cause results it. The cause of any kind of depression is only because of the problem and unpleasant tackling with the problems. Let us see what would be suitable for each of us.

Like the Yesterday's picture which carries all the countries we are divided into two different parts but one thing is clear. Either we are male of female we are the same from the back.

See the person from the back side we all have common thing, similarly we are same from one corner of our mind, our life, our culture to others. We need to find it for ourselves.

People are now a days not in mood to find out the reality for it only because we are lacking the culture and the destiny we are lacking the path that creates the destiny we do not lknow aht is goin on in our mind but we are just dong it for the sake of doing it. We do not know aht we are doing, because we know that wqe are unknown. Wehn we are unknow about rhe thingsthat we are doing then how can we know aht we are doing ? We are living and we do not know what is sole purpose fo living.

Sometimes it piss me off, when we trie to find otu the rality behind the real, the virtuality behind the virtual and the nature behind the nature of nature itself. It is difficult but to se edxtent only. It might look absurb but it is not.

The blah and blah stories ends here. We will rather talk something intereresting later. Have ag odo weekend and do the rest what you ewant to do in your life with all the things that you feel doing, doing is now and you should do it now.

Friday, April 18, 2008

Divided world




The divided world, world is such a divided place where everything seems to be separated by one form to another. Eveything around the world is split into some phase or some parts.

As you can see in the diagram the ass here is divided into parts. The first part is in one side and the next part is in another side. These parts cannot be plane only because you need to have a hole in the middle part.

We live in divided world with great lot of differences, we have difference in culture, religion, castes, values, ethics and many more. We have difference only because we like to live in difference.

We are the humans we would like to share and meet together. We want to show people that we are great, we are far better than you are. In showing our acheivements, in showing our values and in showing what we are good at; we also loose what we have.

It is difficult to invite a complete stranger into your house until and unless it is in the party where you find a good beautiful lady or guy and want to make out with him/her.

Take an example of one person who is from one side of the picture and to reach to another side of diagram he has to cross through these big mountains, he needs first to go deep inside the one side or dig himself and then the has to climb to next side of diagram. The process of falling into or going deep and the proces of climbing are two different things which needs to be handled.

Two things cannot be done simultaneously- I mean the climbing and falling deep. One has to finish one to do the next and so on. If you forget to do one you will forget to do another. If some person from one side of country visits to another country then how will you treat him/her.

Obviously, it will depend upon the country he his visiting, their culture, their values, their ethics and their own way of seeing at strangers or the people from other part of world. If you see that person as a messenger than it means the person can be beneficial to you. If you see that person as complete stranger than you will have worng opinion set in your brain about that person which will never change.

We have racisim, but why ? We have it only beacuse we do not like to see some one or complete stranger entering in your country and doing the things you cannot do. We do not want it to happen, only because we lack the knowledge the person has. Once we see the other person as a messenger and want to learn from him/her and he too wants to learn from the country he is visiting than it will be perfect- No fight with the race.

Why don't we like a person who is black and the person who is white in black land. We do it only because we do not like to happen some kind of sudden change in our home land. We are selfish, we want our country to be ruled by our man, Even Creator is selfish, he created the world to see the people, to test them and people are testing each other.

The fight with the race will continue, no one can be said that person is right and that person opinion is worng. It continues and will continue only because we all know that we live in divided world and some how some where in our brain it is written that we do not want to change the society we are living in. I would suggest "Be open". What is that you were born with, what is that you think you will take.

You are born empty and we will die empty hands. We were born naked and we will go naked. Nothing we brought when we came here in our existence and nothing we are going to take with us. Let us be nothing by beliving in our values, our messege, our messeges that were taught in our Holy book, with the messeges of others too and with the messege of our heart some way in some manner.

The story will continue...

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Brain and Heart

Some times, When you expect something to happen for you. It does not happen. When you least expect the thing to happen to you at that very period the things happen. Today was quite a surprise day to me in some manners.

Welcome to the world of exception, the unexpected journey where we move like a random particles constantly in motion. We just move, meet new particles and then we share values, emotion, culture, religion, food, fun and everything else that has needed to be fun or we think we should enjoy or share with them.

In the journey we are excited, we do not know what will happen next. the beauty just lies in not knowing what is going to happen next and that is the true beauty. The beauty lies in the eyes of beholder. How can some one even judge it through the eyes ? Just only eyes are not enough to judge a person or see the beauty of other person you need to communicate through the others person eyes to your eyes and slowly from that person eyes to the your heart.

When you communicate you will know that your brain is making some king of communication with your heart and it tries to talk with the heart but the heart does not allows it to talk with the brain because brain always thinks about the basic stuffs. It thinks about the food, the money for weekend party, the job, the work load, the things that are on in your mind, the work you are going to do in the near future and so on.


Whereas the heart does not think about the money, not about the religion, not about the culture or nor about race, sex, anger or whatsoever. When you take your thoughts close to your heart than you realize that you are being the victim of attraction. You are being close to yourself.

Some times people get puzzled about my how I think, I write but I do not worry about what others are doing beside me only because I work both with my mind and my heart. When you will be able to work both the parts of your most system, you will realize the true beauty of being alive.

The brain always is the way it is and it will not change. It will ask you to pay your bills, it will ask you to think about your career and it will ask you to look after you life in controlled manner. The heart does it in different ways totally different.

What heart does is the true beauty. Listen to your heart be close to what you feel, because these are important than what your brain asks you or always demands from you.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Love in the times of cholera

When you have nothing to say, you have good reason why. When you know you are in troble you have thousand reason "because of.."

I do not know and I will not know what is the important in life, what should be done and what is going to happen.One thing fore sure, greatest fear in my head is not the death but living life the way I wanted it to live.

I would suggest to people that do not make the words weak. In day to day life, we often say that "love u" despite we do not mean it. When you do not really mean it, do not make it weak. The idea comes from the movie I was watching last night, "Love in the times of cholera" It was already known to be only because I follow the same trend.

I am not asking people to become like me, follow me or do what I am doing but I am requestig others to learn from them, be yourself, get the moral of the story from everyone. Life is too short to learn from your and only yours mistake.

In the movie, a guy who is in deep love with a sweet pricess kind of girl. He is loves her very much, he cannot explain what he is doing, he does not know wheather it is bad or good or something else. He knows that he loves her and he wants to get married with her.

Girl accepts the marriage of the guy, one things that departs them is guy's richness and good personlaity, caste and the work he does as a telegrah boy.
Both are separated, guy waits for the girl and the girl slowly starts to think that it was not love, it was illusion. She fell in for another doctor who gives her sense of sensulaity. They get married and start to have sex.

Sex is need, it is food for life to survive without sex we cannot think of living a proper life, our mind will be dull and we will behave indifferently. However it cannot be denied that without sex also we can live for some period of time.

Love is that drives the life, love is motivator, love motivates towards the journey of life. Love cannot only be for women. Love has no limits, no boundaries and no religion.

Love is love, love is the word that I could not describe when I want to.
The story continues and it goes at last after 54 years the husabad of the girl dies and the guy comes to her and proposes her. He asks her that he waited for 54 years of his life for that moment.

It was mainly because of love, they meet again and at the very old age they enjoyed being together. It is said according to my mind that when you kiss a women, if you desire to kiss again then you will stay with her for longer period but when you do not want to kiss more than once it might be because you do not love her.

Do not follow my theories but just learn from it, if you have anything to suggest please go forward. All your comments are my honors and appreciations.

The story ends with the happy note. Love in the time of cholera, one should watch that movie to learn a good lesson of love.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Am we really in love ?

This spring season, weather is fantastic, shiny, bright, with rays of light crossing your body part giving you some smile to cheer. Love is in the air this spring. Some times I think I am being addicted to it.

You can see from the last three four of the post I am writing all about love, I do not know. I am being addicted to love. I am confused, I am in puzzled, surprised and want to know what is love. In the process of knowing love, you have to first be in love.

Being in love, is similar to being alone. When you are alone you love your self, you love what you do and what you do not do. Being in love is some what similar to that. I do not what is love therefore I will tell you what it feels to be addicted in love.

When a person is addicted in love, the person constantly thinks about the person whom he thinks he should be with, the constantly thinks about that very special person in his life, he remembers all those memories he has shared with her, his memoir, his thoughts are in constant motion towards the love of her lady.

Addiction is some what similar to being addicted in sex, without sex nobody in the relationship can survive but can you ask a person to be in love especially in long distance relationship not to do sex and be in love with the person of his/her dreams ?

It depends upon the person, it also depends upon the commitment and it depends on the truthfulness, trusworthyness of your partner. How can a person be said or judged that he is talented, skillful and intelligent. Person who are educated cannot be categorised as perfect or intelligent.

The categories we give and our concept does not help in case of love, Which is very difficult itself to understand. How do you know that you are in love ? Is sex love ? Where every body knows that lust and love cannot be mixed together. Sex can never be love and love can never be sex. Is sex necessary than for love ?

Can a person be in love without sex and can a person be also in love with sex ? I think yes. A person can be in love without sex and also a person can be in love with sex. It depeneds upon the relationship you are building. It is process, it requires your commitment, it requires sweat and it should be based on truth.

When you say that you are in love how do you feel that you really are in love ? Do you really fall for your partner ? Do you think you can do whatsoever for her/him ? Do you really want to dedicate your entire life for your partner ?

If your answer is yes, then you are not in love. If your answer is no, then surely you might have some chance of being in love and if you say you do not know then their is more chances of being in love.

Do not get surprise by such interpretation. It might seem absurd but it is not. When you say a person that you are in love with him/her. You are finished. At that very point, your love is an end. You do not have anything to give. You have pour all the water in the sea to ocean and the sea is empty.

When the sea is empty their is nothing, it has lost its value, it has become a plane land. Every body will ignore the value of the sea which has turned into land. When you retain as the sea and do not tell your partner that you love however show her in some way that you are in the process. As that time, you are letting your partner guess.

When a girl is in constant guess, when a girl do not get what she really wants she will spend her whole entire life to get it. She will be more committed.


Please note the couple of lines above those are very important.I do not know from where all these thoughts comes or pops up in my mind but these are coming regularly recently in my mind. I hope this is the theory I believe in love. I do not suggest you to do the same but do think after it.

Monday, April 14, 2008

Journey of love

We can travel around the world searching for the right person in our life. What would I say that Some times the greatest journey is the distance between people. It is very difficult to find the right person in your life. You may think Miss Y is the best but at the same time you will meet some body with other good qualities that you will again re-think your mind stating Miss YY is good for me.

The choices we make, the decision we take are not always right in our life. We do mistakes and it is good practice to learn from those mistakes. The beauty of love, the kiss, caring and touch of other person gives you the feeling in your life that weather that person is suitable for you or not.

Women will always not find out that who is the right person for their own life because many of the times they are confused with themselves. She is in constant search of good person in her life. The ideal person for a women would be who cares her, kiss her, loves her, stands by her, gossips with her, gives her surprises,does many different things to impress her, makes her laugh, makes her cry and most importantly loves her more than himself.

Some times What I believe is that many of the relationship does not work out only because we love more than we love other person. The love of self is more than the love of person who is your soul mate.How many of us believe in love at first sight.? Love at first sight can happen only if you both are soul mates. The greatest difficulty is not in being in love but retaining the love. The greatest fear is not loosing your love but maintaining and giving the love.

My own personal experiences teaches me thousands of lesson that some times I get confused with the term itself. Their are many people who are in love, who are in committed relationship but due to some reasons-financial, economical, material and many such problems somehow could not be with the love. To all those I would like to say that greatest fear in their heart and mind is loosing the love, I would like to tell them that do not fear, expect and fall in trap of believing your love is good or bad.

Love cannot be judged with our feelings, love cannot be calculated by mathematics, even Einstein could not calculate it, It is your fulfillment, your commitment, and your dedication to maintain the love.Love do not remain for long only for you, you got to maintain it for yourself.

Many of the times we love ourselves than the person whom we say-"I love you". It is true. The reason behind this phenomenon is called love for individuality or self love. Which shows that we kill the things we love. When such thing happens why do we blame that our relationship didn't work out?

Be prepared for the journey of love of your soul mate, the love for your country, the love of your society and the love of your mother do not try to find any difference in them because all is fair when love is taken as love.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Oh my love.



Last night, I watched a good music recommended from a friends website. It was amazing. It somehow relates to my own life in different way. I do not want to explain it publicly. How good and beautiful that song is, The meaning I understood is some what I would like to tell you here. It is from the movie and I have not yet seen the movie.

The song has a deep meaning, meaning stating that do not forget the tears that flowed, do not forget the long nights that I remembered for you, do not forget all those moments that I waited for you.

The song asks for a love, just to see the glance or second of the person's love. The person wants to meet some one in love. She is far far from him. The gentleman is waiting and he says he will do anything for her, just to see her. The gentleman is in the state of dying, he could not live without her. He wants to meet her but he could not.

He says to his love that do not forget seas which has seen him crying, do not forget the day which separated them apart. Love grows with time, as the wine improves every year love become stronger like a wine.

Imagine a situation where you want to meet your love and you are in the stage of dieying, you are lieying in the deathbed, you have not confessed your love for her. You have not said even that "you love her". How would you feel ?

You last breath depends on it, you cannot die only because you want to say one lovely, statement to the person who is far far away from you. The person whom you never knew that you love. The person who always loved you.

Love is the beauty which is indescribable. As the world is changing, the way of doing love or being in love is also changing, we say even when we do not mean it. We talk even if we do not know what we are talking, we think we are in love even if we do not know what "love " is.

Aloneness is the first lesson of Love, it will take time for people to understand what is aloneness. Love is statement of question that has remained unanswered. It is something which cannot be touched, something which do not have smell, it is the beauty which my mind cannot describe.

You do not know you are in love, that is good in that case you are being with yourself, in such situation you know you are being truthful to yourself. It is always good to be truthful to yourself than to act to others that you are just being honest about yourself. Do not do what others want to hear from you. Do what your inner best friend ask you to do.

Oh my love, what wil happen if I am dead and I could not say that "I loved you". Oh my love how would you live without me ? Oh my love, , ,

how would you feel when you will see my dead body lieying besides you, what would i excuse myself of not saying those worlds which your ears always wanted to hear.

Oh my love, I am sorry, It is difficult to be man of words and man of deeds at the same time. Oh my love I am sorry that I would one day hopefully feel the "love " for you.

Their are times in my life where I have not said even once my love for you, I am sorry and please forgive me if i die without saying that "i loved you".

Oh my love, you are the most beautiful person that i have ever met, Oh my love without you life is just as empty as the sea without water, what would sea do if their is no water in it ?

Oh my love, in every steps of your life, My prayers are with you, my blessings are with you and my caring, memories are with you. Oh my love, without you I am without.


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Saturday, April 12, 2008

Happy New Year 2065



Happy New Year 2065. We are humans from future. Many people in the world can learn a good lesson from us. HOw ? We can teach people how one can be very close to Nature and learn a lesson from the its environment and surroundings.

Nepal is soon going to write consitutency assembly which is vital for whole country. I would like to say that- Indians we are no longer, Chinese we do not want to become so Let us be true Nepali.

People generally kill the the things they love most. We like something so much that we cannot live without it but generally we do kill those things. It is easy. It is easy to kill the things that you love. We should kill the old political rule, autocratic rule of King and we all know the fact that Nepal was only Hindu Kingdom in the world but we kill that, Now we are secular kingdom.

That was just an simple example. Happy New Year 2065 to all the people in the country, May GOD gives you what you all people desire, want and deserve in life, in society and in country.

One thing we Nepali lack is we need to think beyond we can think. We should not be limited to our thinking. We like our friends, we like to gossip, do chit-chat, have fun with friends, drink, dope, smoke but are we doing any thing except just following the stupid trend ?

Why is it difficult for us to change ? It is very easy.If every Nepali citizen belives in "doing" Our country will surely become "developed". We like the way we are. We are lazy, we do not want to work, we do not want to fight and to some extent it is good not to do anything however it is only good when your brain really needs such moments. It is not good when you make such acitivites as your hobbie.

Playing politics is good but let us leave it to our leaders, we should not play politics among ourselves. It is not good practice. Their are people who do not want to accept the fact, do not want to liste, the biggest problem those people will face is that they will not be able to give. Which means that, It will be easy for them to fake.

People always wants to show off. When I was 15-16 years of age I too was going through the same phase. I liked to show to people that I am the best, Whatever I do are good and whatever I say is correct, whatever others are saying is not correct-I do not want to take what they are saying to me. When you will not accept what others are saying to you or some how you will listen for a moment and you will try to avoid it afterwards then you are being a victim of yourself.

Do not try to destroy yourself, do not be some body else. Just be yourself. Do what you like to do, talk with those whom you like to talk, whereas one thing you have to remember is that-Listen.

Learn from what others have to say. Always remember that we are following the path which has beeen already followed by some one else. The name of those who already have followed the path before might be different, their body, religion, caste, culture might be different but they already have achieved what we are trying to achieve.

Therefore Just don't try to be imitator. If you see Buddha in the street Kill him. Only because "do not try to become Buddha". Try to be yourself.

Nepal is my birthplace where I was born, the land which gave me my space to be what I am now. I like that land. Every body does. Only thing I am trying to say is that do not just focus on your own land. Respect others people land too. Every country is unique, every person is unique and every religion is unique. We do have to respect each other only then we will end war.

My opinions might seem stupid, might be absurd, might be useless but these are my own thoughts and I do not want to blame anybody for that. If you do not like it, do not read it if you like it read it. We all have freedom of speech, space, silence, whatso ever.


This new year let us change ourselves, our mind, the way we think and the way we behave. Let us be true Nepali only by beliving in "doing".


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