Showing posts with label failed in course. Show all posts
Showing posts with label failed in course. Show all posts

Friday, January 18, 2008

Fear of Failure

Fear of failure is very good thing, i am afraid i think i will not clear my master's. Why am i worried so much may be because if i will fail in this subject i will not be able to live here. Who is going to give me money ? What would happen if i will fail. Surely, I am going to be depressed. I am depressed now and i will be more depressed. Is there any alternative with this ? What if i fail the entire course and not be given chance to write this course again? Why are we afraid of our failures ? Why these failures makes us more depressed ? Why people always smile ? Is living in this planet is all about success and only success. Who thinks Darwin is right ? Struggle for existence. To exist in this planet we have to go through these failures and have to struggle with other species.With the species of our own. We cannot eat each other flesh can we ? The days are not very far. When there will be imbalance then surely the that time we will have to struggle for food. There is vast competition between each of us. Every body is talented. Every body can deliver upto their potential and they are passionate to do the work. Whom to choose ? I myself is trying very hard to get through this but i could not. I ain't got any job. No money, sometimes I listen to this song " I am hustle... am am.. hustle hommie... " Struggling all the way for food, little money to pass this life... and little bit of smile on face. I am worried of failure and i am really worried how to get though this. In life we always something new, always afraid of something and for me i am worried of this failure because this will bring me right down to the earth. I am hopeless,depressed and sad. I am passionately curious but being curious does not give me any pleasure and happiness. Let me see... What happens... Let me pray... Let me have this hope.

Monday, January 14, 2008

Failed in Course.

I have nothing to write today. Today I got failed in one subject just because Teacher thinks that I have copied some text from the internet and i am not using the references properly or something. I have committed a crime by copying the text of others. This is what the teacher has to say. I am not feeling good. She thinks i am not good at writing, i cannot write a 16 page of report on the subject what she has given. She is an Doctor in her Profession. She has a doctor degree in Economics and she is teaching Cross culture to us. I do not know how people with understanding of one subject can teach the subject they are not good at. People with good experience of the subject should be allowed to teach the subject not just seeing their degrees.

One should know what he/she is talking about.I cannot speak of something i do not have knowledge. She might be very good at this subject or she might be the best but still there should be a provision of giving warning first and at least one excuse to a student to correct the mistakes, if he or she has done it. I have not actually copied but just written it in my own words. I do not understand the philosophy behind reading so many manuals, articles and internet resources and getting "0" at the end. What is that I have learned in the course ? Me coming from different culture to a completely new culture where they do not praise you but tell you in lecture that in my culture people like yellow teeth and it is regarded as symbol of good teeth. Wow, What someone expects to learn from this lecturer when she do not have any knowledge of what she is speaking about. She should first do some research on the topic what she is speaking, some kind of conversation with people from different culture and then she can share her experience in a lecture room. Not just reading thousand books and saying blah blah blah...

There are failures in life- what to do... but these are always with us. we know one day we all are going to fail. No one can pass us in subject of life. That subject is "life". We all are born and we are going to "die". This is also a failure. no one can pass us in this matter, We will surely fail in this-even if we want to live we cannot. Besides this, everything is just imagination and virtual living in this planet.

Thank you Dr. (....) for giving "0".