Just be yourself

Once my wife Padhmawoti said to me, "Beware of Buddha. If you meet him on the way, kill him immediately". I was surprised by her answer and asked, “What do they mean”? I mean there is a human tendency to become imitators. People are trying to imitate, to become somebody else. Nobody can become a Christ or Buddha. There is no need. Existence will be bored if you become Christ. It wants somebody new, something original. It wants you, and it wants you to be just yourself. I do not know if people know this or not, Just remember you cannot be other than yourself. To be yourself, knowledge is not needed. A rock is a rock. Not that the rock knows that it is a rock. Knowledge is not needed. In fact, it is because of knowledge that you are missing being yourself. Knowledge is creating the problem. The rock is not confused. Knowledge is not needed for being. In fact, you are missing your being because of knowledge. I was reading about a certain man named Uncle Sam: To celebrate Uncle Sam's 75th birthday, an aviation enthusiast offered to take him for a plane ride over the little West Virginia town where he had spent all his life. Uncle Sam accepted the offer. Back on the ground, after circling over the town 20 minutes, he was asked: "Were you scared, Uncle Sam?" "No", was the hesitant answer, "but i never did put my full weight down". In an airplane, whether you put your full weight down or not, the weight is carried by the airplane. Whether you know yourself or not is not the point. Knowledge is disturbing you. Just think if there was a rock also on that airplane with Uncle Sam, the rock would have put the whole weight down. Uncle Sam is unnecessarily worried. He could have rested, he could have relaxed just like the rock, but the rock has no knowledge and Uncle Sam has knowledge. The whole problem of humanity is that humanity knows, and because of knowing, the being is unnecessarily forgotten. When you think of Meditation it means how just to be and not to think. When i say to you to be yourself, i mean meditate. Don't try to be anybody else. You cannot be! You can try, and you can deceive yourself and you can promise yourself and you can hope that someday you will become somebody else, but you cannot become. These are only illusions that you can go on having. These are like day dreams which are not true. They are not going to become realities ever. You will remain yourself whatsoever you do. Why not relax, Uncle Sam! Put your full weight on the airplane. Relax. In relaxation, suddenly you will start enjoying your being, and the effort to be somebody else will stop. That is your worry how to be somebody else, how to be like somebody else, how to become like a Buddha. You can only be yourself. Accept it, rejoice in it, delight in it. The way to live a life is just be yourself, I was satisfied with my wife's discussion on being yourself. So, Ladies and Gentleman “Just be yourself ” !

Touch

I want to touch you but I know I cannot touch you. I know you are so far from me. I know the touch brings some kind of sensation in my body with the feeling of not being alone. The touch of your hand and the touch of your body bring life in my own body. Now I am alone, I am lonely and I am feeling as if I do not have my life with me. I am just like an empty vessel with nothing in it. Why am I feeling like this- what is the reason I am feeling lonely; may be it is because we are very far with each other, may be it is because want to get close to each other and may be we are in need of each other. But why do we feel this when we are var why not when we are together. Because when we are together we do not care each other so much we think we have everything we think we will be together for ever and ever. we have to remember one thing and that thing is nothing is permanent in this world. we all come in this world for some special purpose and in the middle we get lost just by thinking about our life, our family , our wife and about our children's. we forget the main reason of coming in this world. To remember or gain that knowledge of knowing the reason or purpose in this world is to understand the touch. Touch of you and me.

Let us be alert

My friends self-esteem is very low.he is not able to get a job, which makes things worse. I am worried. What shall i do?Studies of successful people show that self-confidence is the most important factor in life. It can be easily understood by the stool model. Think of a stool. If one of its four legs is weak, the stool as a whole will be weak. The four legs represent self-confidence, that is generated by the following: Feeling good, taking responsibility, being accountable and developing skills. Feeling good involves being authentic and not insincere. Our life is a struggle involving pretensions of what we are not and in the process we do not feel good. A manager appeared to be busy on his phone and computer at the same time. Two persons sitting in front of him were waiting to be attended to. The manager continued pretending to be busy. Once he was satisfied that he would have made a suitable impression, he turned to them and asked what he could do for them. One visitor informed him that he had come to repair his telephone while the other said that he had come to repair his computer. Why do we pretend? A pretending self creates false images in us and, ultimately, instead of boosting confidence, ends up lowering our self-esteem. Self-esteem will improve if the pretending self is dropped. Responsible children invariably possess good leadership qualities. It is the duty of parents to inculcate responsibility in their children and make them accountable. Such responsibility motivates them to develop new skills. This, in turn, builds self-confidence in them. A research study on various successful people proved that their success was not because of knowledge or family background, but because of their ability to see gaps in any given opportunity; just the way a creeper grows on tree trunks and creates its own path for growth. The ability to see gaps or potential and work on those gaps is the real skill in successful living. For example, even a concrete bridge may collapse if it is repeatedly pecked by a sparrow at a particular spot a sufficient number of times. Successful people adopt the right strategy at the right time in any given situation. Even in competition they do not create conflicts, but harmony. Successful people are able to see potential gaps in any particular business. Spotting these gaps and exploiting them call for a great skill. This is the strategy of successful people. Keep yourself alive; rejoice to see the miracle around. See the gaps which opportunity invites to see. Cash in on the richness of life and see the dance of life. Feel good about the fact that you are alive. There are always 'diamonds' of opportunity around us. Let us be alert enough to cash in on them one day. Let us be sincerely alert.

Good bye, DEAR!

These words will not bring you back to me, these are only words and what I am writing and these words will not value as much the feeling going deep inside my heart for you. Remember the promises we made, remember the last day we hug each other, the day when I have to return to my home. I will never forget those days until I am dead, the day when your father and I was having lunch together and you were serving it. What went wrong, it’s my entire fault. I am no good writer. I wrote what I felt for you. I did the mistake of writing the 200 pages of diary just for you and your father got that dairy. I never wrote that I am in love with you but the reader will surely get this idea that some romantic guy is behind this. I was wrong. Yes, “you were right” you can never be with me. I know. May be I was wrong, I didn’t knew that I liked you. I still do not know but I really wanted to be with you till death. I know that is not possible. You are going to get married with someone; it was long back you said you are going to get married with him. I still have those emails that you wrote to me. I do not know. It was your one sentence that made me quit smoking that I was smoking for last 16 or so year. Who says, that habit cannot be changed in one day. I can prove them wrong. I am no more smokers. I don’t know may be you do not want to contact me anymore, that am why you asked him not to give your email or contact address. Your mobile numbers have been changed or you rather changed it. Thank you! Why didn’t you say directly to me that you do not love me? Why? What is the worth of living since you are not with me anymore? The whole world is beneath this word called “Love” I know I do not have that moment when I can feel, share and love the love. I am so unfortunate to not have you. I do not want to live a life just like that. I do not want anybody except you. I know why you did not say that, “you do not love me” For you life is all about your family, you live for your family, you are so responsible, and that is good. You did not want to hurt me, by not letting me know the truth. Well, thank you very much! I was alone in dark. I thought we are two. Thank you for ignoring me. Thank you for doing whatever you felt. Next time when I came to your city, it was just to talk with you. I came some 4000km alone just I thought I will speak with you. But again it was just once. I realize the mistake I did. I should not have said those words since I did not know what I was talking. May be again my poor English. I misunderstood it, your words. I was trying to convince you but you again thought I am up to something else. I never wanted to hurt you but now no one ever can hurt me too. Life is nothing without the love. You have found your ideal match in your life, Be happy and take care but please let me once know when you are going to get married with him, so that I too can decide my own marriage. I am man of my words, let me prove it. Give me one chance. Please Please, I beg you for that.
I have always done wrong for you, the things I never wanted to do wrong to you. I always wanted to good but every step I took was mistake. May be the script written did not matched. What I was doing did not go correct with what unknown has written for me. This is mysterious. No body would understand and nobody can understand. I am dying to see your email. I am searching for your name. I am crying every day and night to know where you are and what you doing/. May be this is another mistake, may be this is wrong. Thank you once again for breaking my heart. Thank you once again for killing me. Thank you once again for not telling your decision. Why are all women poor in making decision? I know you are two steps ahead then all men. Good luck to you! May you and your husband will make you happy for ever and ever. Good bye DEAR, Good bye DEAR!

Just one day

Life is just like this, we always have to learn from every day lesson we learn in life. I had a job called paper delivery I used to do but now I am alone. It is one of good thing that my good friend gave me the job but it really feels bad when you are doing nothing and you are alone, wasting your time. Sometime I often think why so many people in world are depressed is this whole world is made for only rich people? And why people are depressed commit suicide? Why so many people do not want to live and die the death with honors? This world is not for us. You know why? Because it belongs to those who are doing badly in every day context in every situation. If you take a path of complete truth you will reach no where. Probably you will land to some desert just doing some meditation or will become complete monk but if you will take a path of complete false, speak lie every day and take a wrong way then one day you will end up to highest ranging business executive or you may even become a great politician leading your country. This is what the life is like this. Bob Marley wanted to create peace in whole word and wanted to remove racism from whole word. He thought that music can be used to remove the racism and create peace in world. Well, he could not succeed neither did the Beatles nor any one will ever can create the peace or remove racism from this world. Where there are good things there should be bad things. A single person life is nothing. It is not the script of his own but he can change his destiny by changing the way he thinks. Let me give you an example, If I were smoking 16 yrs of my life can I just quit smoking from the day I will think that I do not want to smoke anymore ? Think on that. I know no body will and there can hardly anyone who will quit it but I can say to you, “you can!”Life is just like this... Today is completing different then tomorrow and tomorrow we do not know what is going to happen. I am not feeling good; I do not know….Life is so boring I do not have anything to do... I am alone… I am depressed … I do not want to write because I am complete looser… why to live a life of complete dull? No skills no talents…. There are more than million writers writing in this world … every body wants to be famous writer… I am no writer. I am no engineer. I could not even be paper delivery boy. Now what Santosh? Will it be good to commit suicide and quit the world? Think my dear think!

Well, when I start to think and think that can I kill myself I remember her, I remember the people associated with me. If tomorrow I am no more what people will talk about me, they will say- “This guy was complete psycho, thanks god he died” what would my father do ? What will he think, who is investing some more than 12 thousand Euro for the studies which hardly can even give some job. I remember the hard work he himself is doing to earn a single penny. I remember when he still is working very hard, for whom? It must be for his children and his children are we. If I do something stupid tomorrow then I will make so many people sad and they will be blamed for what I would do. Well, it is good to live a life of dull, looser, complete asshole and coward then just kill yourself. Those who do think of killing themselves should think about the person associated with them before killing oneself. If you are killing yourself then you are killing everybody around you. Always remember everybody will get his/her turn. We all were born and we all have to die one day. No one can change it. No science, no god and no magic. It is the fact and truth, so why to change this on our own. We cannot decide what is going to happen next no matter what? We are humans and we will be humans, we can have vision, we can share our thoughts we can build great infrastructure we can conquer Mount Everest and land to moon but we cannot change the next 25 seconds of our life. This is truth.
Believe it or not, we all are destined to do something in this world and we all got some kind of talent, It is the time … and the time we realize we got this or that talent we will live with peace and happiness around us.

Curious Struggle

I have no special talents, I am passionately curious. I do not know about life, about love, about romance, about this whole world. Is life a struggle, what is this word called struggle. My friend always hates this word called struggle. What is the real meaning of the word struggle? Is struggle something to do with faith? Is it survival of the fittest by Darwin or is it just living a life. Well, if I have to ask my mind about the word struggle, I would rather say struggle is way of living a life normally. Or rather specially. What I mean to say is struggle is living the way of life just like that. We wake up every day, we do our morning duties, we start preparing a tea or coffee then we just get ready for the job or something and we begin to live. But don’t you think that the time we wake up the time we start struggling the time we go to bed the time we get satisfaction of struggle. I do not know, my friends back home always say to me, “Santosh, you are very talented. Well, I do not have any special talents nor do I have special skills I am just passionately curious about the thing that I do not know and the things that I always want to know.
Life is full of struggle and why do we struggle like for a good job, good car, best husband or wife and may be for a good life. Darwin says we struggle for the existence but is he true? I do not think so, we do not struggle for existence but for the existence we have to struggle. Meaning, to live a life is to live with struggle because life is to live and to live we struggle. There is no one to blame for this, it is just us and us alone. No body decides our fate and our decision it’s only us. We should not blame anybody for our cause, because it is always us who decides to do what we wanted.
Some times I think even I struggle to find the right words, yeah may be that is true because the thoughts are so connected and my own lack of English as a native speaker makes me struggle to find the right words but this is what I am passionately curios about that is why I like the word struggle and the way to deal with it. Let’s stop this article here. Let’s start the journey of existence for struggle and be curious about it.

“Monkey Mind”

Everybody wants both God and wealth. Once My wife Padhmawoti said, "I want my businesses to be successful, my children to study well, their health to remain perfect and my households and cars to run without complication".In reply this is what I said to her,"A person should use his powers of discrimination in order to maintain a balance between spiritual pursuit and worldly affairs". You can know God only when He becomes pleased with you and reveals Himself to you and what pleases Him is pure devotion. Remember Him constantly; chant His name all the time. We cannot bargain with God as we do in our worldly life. He may be pleased with one seeker who has chanted His name only seven times and displeased with another who has done chanting seven million times over. How can we eliminate injustice from the world? Viciousness and injustice existed in the world even in the past. Demons existed in the earlier times also. There is always good and bad, Disharmony is the very nature of the world. It will continue till the very end. Some people say that the present days are better than older times and perhaps people are more humane today. The Vedas say that only he who obeys can command others. Only he who possesses character can build the character of others. If society is perceived to be lacking in character, eventually, progress and betterment are bound to follow. The Bhagavad Gita says that whenever unrighteousness prevails, God incarnates on earth to destroy evil and reestablish righteousness. If enlightened people live in isolation, how can the people learn and benefit from them? Some live in isolation, others live amongst people. There was once a Baba who would remain in meditation for six months at a stretch. One day a person asked him: Why don’t you go out and work to uplift society? Baba replied, ‘‘Do you think great Gurus should be like postmen and go door-to-door, distributing discourses, advice and good wishes enclosed in envelopes? Don’t you see that God remains concealed, and yet carries on the work of the whole world? Baba like me does the same’’. What is the simplest way to do meditation? The simplest way to do meditation is to first steady the mind. Artists, scientists and musicians all excel in their work through concentration of mind. You can realize the Truth only by making your mind steady. The mind is as restless as a monkey. The mind becomes steady as a result of knowledge of the Self. God can never be understood by intellect alone. The mind can contemplate the Self but it cannot know the Self, because realization of the Self is a matter of experience, not of intellectual understanding.

New Year 2008 Get Together !

Budha haru le kachuli pherechhan...This is the reality behind our great heroes. Our great politicans..This new year our politicians are going to rock the world. The theme of this new year 2008 in our country Nepal is "HIP HOP". Hip hop in rise of petrol price, hip hop in rise of cooking gas price and hip hop in everything else. They are creating the new Nepal for us. Welcome 2008 with our great Budha haru... The Great Hip Hop Picture of our country. Naya Barsa 2008 Ko Subhakamana !!!

Welcome 2008

This Year, I feel like starting to live again. I feel like making the mistakes I always wanted to make, but never had the courage to, facing up to the feelings of panic that might well come back, but whose, presence will merely weary me, since I know I'm not going to die or faint because of them. I can make new friends and teach them not to follow the manual of good behavior but to discover their own lives, desires, and adventures and to LIVE. I'll quote from Ecclesiastes to the Catholics, from Koran to the Muslims, from the Torah to the Jews, from Aristotle to the atheists. I never want to be a Professional again, but I can use my experience to give lectures about men and women who knew the truth about this existence of ours and whose writing can be summed up in one word: Live. If you live, god will live with you. If you refuse to run his risks, he'll retreat to that distant heaven and be merely a subject for philosophical speculation. For a time in my life I stood looking at the wind, I forget to sow, I did not live joyfully, and I did not even drink the wine offered me. But this New Year 2008, I judge myself ready. There are people who spend their entire lives searching for a moments but hardly they achieve it. That's why if I were to die now, I would die with heart full of love. I want to feel the rain on my face, to smile at any women I feel attracted to. I want to kiss my mom and dad, tell them I love them, weep in their lap, unashamed of showing my feelings, because they were always there. If an interesting women invites me out to a club, I'll accept,& I'll dance all night until I drop. I want to give myself to one women, to the city, to life and, finally, to my death.

Taken from: “Veronica decides to die” by Paulo Coelho

Happy New Year 2008

Welcome to new year 2008. What is the difference in 2008 and 2007 don't you think these are just the numbers ? or do you think something else. Well, if you think something else then, think again ! Nothing is different it is us who always think that we have to make something different in different situations. Every day is the same and every day it our human nature which do not like to do the same thing again and again. It might be our brain which always wants to do something different but why ? The main cause of wanting something new is for the progress, for development for acheivement and for ideal and inner safety.

The new number is soon going to be update in every calendar, every time table and so and so things. What is 2008 ? It is the same day with different inner interpretaions, with new hope and with wanting of change in inner, outer and self. We expect something from this number that is why we like to say that "Happy new year Mr.X" We want to change because we are not satisfied and we have not reached the goal we wanted in life. We love this new number because we think we like to have celebration ! We celebrate in this New number may be beacuse we think this number will bring something new in our life and will make some different in our life. We say that it is new year may be because it is our hope and to hope is to expect to think that we are not perfect.

If we break these words then they are 3 different words which says- Happy
New, and Year which all have different meaning. Happy or Happiness is state of mind which cannot be permanet, New is for difference something which has not been done before, something which is different, creation,invention etc.., and there is third word which says year- Well, year is year. What are we expecting in 2008 ? What are we thinking in 2008 ? Why are we using the word Happy New Year 2008 ? or Happy New Year 2008 ? Will the combination of 3 words make a person happy ? Do people think that world will be better place to live by simply combining these words ? If you think "yes", then think again.

No body had defined the word life, love, difference,happy,death,live,women,peace and religion. No body can define it and No one will think of accepting it. Every body has their own version and defintion of these words. No body wants to accept and just listen to someone ideas, views and thoughts. I do not the question itself called "why" which cannot be described.

Well, Whatever be the case and My own experience and knowledge do not let me accept the fact that people should use just the word if they think or expect the change to occur in some body else life. If you can really make the difference then please use it.The difference can be made by being together sharing the moments, sharing ideas, sharing food, sharing emotions and most importantly by sharing the happyness which itself is mysterious.

Last but not the least-"Happy New Year 2008" !

I do not want to give some mere hope to you all but i would like to say that just take it easy, and be yourself- does not matter the difference in number, or difference is some body else's attitude.

Beautiful Morning (26th December 2007) at 11:27 FLE Standard Time

I woke up, half an hour ago, What I saw was amazing, I saw a couple just walking with their son. Son has a bicycle with a flag in it. The couple were walking ahead of son. The son stopped and he saw one small narrow down-hill. He asked with his mom i do not want to walk but i want to climb down this slope. Their parents did not do anything and said go ahead. He started going down the small slope hill, He slowly was climbing down then suddenly he slipped, In that case also, His Parents did not came to pick him up so helped him they were just watching what he does. Again, He started climbing down. Now, Some how Slowly and steadily he managed to come down of that small slope. He was happy. He was satisfied, He thought he did something on his own, He really was excited and now what he might have thought was well, I have done what i wanted let's get back to the place where i come from. He started now climbing up the hill or slope He climbed easily and reached near the road. His parents were just a spectator nothing else. Even they were happy to see him back on the top of the road. Now this small kid, started his small bike and started riding it again.


What is the moral of the story ? There are thousand lessons to be learnt in life just by watching at some body. We cannot spent whole life for figuring out the mistake we have done and learning the lessons from it. We have to take lessons from every body around us. What happens when we let it go. Why we think we are not safe ? Why the parents let their child "be him". They did not make their decisions. They did not force him to stop or do something. They just agreed on the decision what he too. Why were they not worried about their own child ? They would have surely thought that he might get hurt but why did they jut let him go. They did it becasue they wanted him to find out for himself. We all are connected to our parents some how and all parents to care for their children but the real parents are those who let their child make their own decision. Why don't we understand this ? When we will say something to a child and ask him to stop ! He will not find out for himself. So, Now The message is to parents to Stop asking their child what to do and what not to do.

Id Mubarak !

“Id Mubarak”
Well, today my friend came to the apartment we had a very good discussion, nice to see him after a long delay. I also forgot to say, “Id Mubarak”. ! I asked him what he wants to read from me today, He said something about the “Happiness” well, here it is-What is happiness? Can happiness be achieved? Is happiness a state of mind, is it a fun? What is the word called happyness? Let me do some chemist work on this word called happiness or happyness whatever it is/-Breaking the word “happiness”
H: What his character means? Does it mean Human, Does it mean Heart? What is the “H” what is that connection between human and heart. Is the happiness connected to these parts of human body? May be it is connected. Whatever we feel about the word has something to do with these two parts of body.
A: Now comes the Beginning of Alphabet which is “A”. I do not know what “A” resembles may be it is achieved. Or achievement.
P: P can be presence, present or moment.
P: Another P- it can be Poison
Y: Now I am confused, is it “I” or “Y”
So, what is happiness? Happiness is a state of mind- where it can be with you all the time and it cannot be with you even entire your life. Last time I saw a movie called “The pursuit of Happyness”. The whole movie says that, “Happiness cannot be achieved it can only be pursue. Well, I do not believe in that- Happiness can always be achieved, it is the state of the mind where you have to have some space where you can put the happiness in one corner and try to get it from there whenever you feel you want it. It can be done, only question is how ?Well, Happiness is very fast topic to write in a single article I have to realize it so, some lines I have kept it here-
“Happiness is state of mind which triggers when we want that”
To achieve happiness we have to achieve sadness every time, they are interrelated. It is the sadness which is your best friend not the happiness. They are both best friends. But the best for every individual in this earth is sadness because it is the one which lives inside our body, which teaches us many things in our life. So, Happiness is just a state of mind and it triggers only when we want it to trigger. A person cannot be happy all the time but he can be happy all the time if his best friend is sadness.

Email from RBG (Racist British Guy)

I know you have given me 5 euros when i needed most and i appreciate that.but it was you who rang me and asked for the Beer and some potatoes and chips noone else coz ya couldnt walk from ya apparmtnet till s market for shopping. coz ya feets were broken.....
Well then you owe me 11,92 in that sense ..
If you saying about the level of water i am living then luk afta ya self ..how ya living liek a propa zippo.. "A PERSON WITHOUT IDENTITY"

I think you have to luk after the meansin of racists before you say to me.well i accept that word. may be me being racist again ya attitude, leevel of thinking.Ok i am gipos as well ..i live with 5 ppl in same room and i have asshole which took ya to uni several times.thats enough for ya ..if ya want more i can write more ..no problem.

Well incase of degree i dun like to harm ota in studies n i am not shit like ya all.if I wan i can do it easily but dun wan to coz ya are here to study though ya depend on otha but still ..

I have ended the relationship with ya ages ago coz i dun like the way speak and the way ya act.Ya used to ring me an ask to go to university when i had nuthin to do. coz ya needed lift .and that was such a stupid mentality..

well in life i prefer to walk and do me stuff rather askin ppl to give me lift unless n until its emergency ,


..WELL FOR LAST STATEMENT..::I PREFER TO MOVE FAST AND BE SUMMIT IN LIFE ..NOT LIKE SLOWING DOWN MESELF N BE NUTHIN IN TAT CASE IF STEPS COMES INFRONT OF ME I PREFER TO FELL DOWN AND HURT MESELF BUT WILL TRY TO ACHIEVE THAT GOAL WOT I WANTED.

RBG

It is today (25th December,07) One of the British guy, well there is only one British guy studying at LUT behave like a racist. He is total racist, how can I say that? He says that he hates us- all the person living in this earth with black or brown skin. We were a very good friend of him before some times back. Later we found out that he is not doing well, for this university and for the whole Finland, He thinks whole Finnish people stupid, he once said to me, “Santosh, I can fool all the administrator and Professor in the University.” I said, “Well, how is that possible?”
He said, “Advantage of my language-English”, I can speak faster then them, I can twist and turn the words, I can use slang like “Do you understand what I mean?” etc. Then I thought why is he doing this, I realized may be for his own benefit. He is selfish, egocentric and real asshole when it comes to thinking that he is the Best. He makes up the story as he wants, he think he can do what he wants because he has a good privilege from the British government. So, Later we found that to make a good relationship like friendship with this guy is not good. We then wanted to ignore him but he started showing his true colors.
He has plenty of advantage from the British government but we do not have. We just came here to study and we want to study but now when we cannot help him with his assignments, project and some other stuff he is behaving like we are no humans. Is only the people from Great Britain are humans? What is our fault of not having White Skin? Why are we always underdogs? Why are we all treated like this? Are all people of Great Britain Racist?
How can we judge a character of person without knowing him? His character does not resemble to any British guy, He is always pretending. What is our fault in helping him complete his studies and letting him with us for some time. We even cooked a food many times and have served him. Now today on Christmas day, “He wrote a email saying that he is racist and he wants to be racist.”

We went to his flat because he wrote one of friends’ an email stating his girl friends thing….
Why does he have to bring the friend’s girl friend in the middle of our discussion. Since we were trying to solve our problem, the problem between British guy, me and my friend. Why does he have to bring my friends girl friend and write some thing stupid on her. What do she has to do with all this? My friend got angry. He still is very angry so my friend decides to go to his room and see him. So, I also went with him and we both went to see this British guy. He now started making things up. Just before calling to Police he said he can do what ever he like in Europe. He has a right to do whatever he wants. So, He called a Police and me and my friend were standing there for a police now, Police came. They asked some general info and asked us to leave as well. Since it is not a big crime or some thing like that.
I want to ask, why we are always in this situation. Why People from Britain think they are racist?” Is all people from this place are like Mr. Mahesh Khakurel- a Nepal born British Citizen.
Who thinks there is no world except in Britain? Why these people our color of skin? What is the cause? Are we not humans are they are? These people hate us may be because we are poor. So what is being poor has to do? Are all people in world are only rich and superior?
I do not know what kind of children Great Britain is making for their future. But it needs to be clearly checked once.

Racist British Guy

Life is all about the color of skin. I have the black or brown kind of color in my whole body. I am not white. There is one British friend, whose mother and father are both Nepali, they are currently living in America. He came to study here in Finland, at Lappeenranta University of Technology. He started showing his presence. He showed every body that he is much talented, studios and brave in every aspect of life. He started talking with every one, with administrators, international coordinators and every body around the university. He showed that he is the best in whatever he does, because of his British citizenship. He is superior to any individual living here in Finland and he can make a fool to them very easily. I just met him one day in the college and it shows how he was good at twisting and turning of the words to make things happen for him. I thought this guy is good. Later knowing him more. I started thinking again, now what I think is all British People are racist or are they?
I come from very poor country called Nepal; Along with me I have 6 other Nepali friends here at his reputed University. It is very difficult for us to sustain and live a life here because of our financial, economical, political and geographical conditions but Finland is good. Finns are the best people in the whole earth. Why? They respect other and they help others. So, we were here all together 6 Nepali guys. And one Nepali turned British guy. He loves his car. He has lots of money. He is rich person of rich country. But only problem with him is he is racist. We did not know that before, we thought he is just a simple human being as we are.
He always wanted a help from us. He took the help. He then, started showing his color. He says, “He do not know how to speak Nepali”, He says, “He hates us, because he think we are beggars” We beg him for the lift in his car. He says, “He can call cops and put us in jail, just like that”.
One day he wrote a mail saying that he hates the people who belong to third world country. Well, I have nothing to say on that, because all the first world people are good, satisfied human beings because they have the color of skin as white. They are superior to us, we are born black and we will die black we are not superiors as them. What a person has to do with the color of skin? Why are we treated like this? Are all human beings not equal? What kind of word we are making here for our future? We are teaching our children to be racist, hate those people who have black or brown color of skin.
One day his car broke down and he do not had money (may be British people do not carry cash) so he called me and ask me to come for the help so I went there and he run out of gas, so I paid him 5 Euro for his gas. After some days, I asked him my 5 Euro, he said he do not give those 5 Euro, I asked him why? He again pretended something else. And said do not want to give the money back. He feels proud when he steals a dozen of book from University. He says with proud face that, his girl friend also took a Dell Keyboard from the University. I do not know how much stuff he is taking from the university, a clear stealing of things. Every person living should inspire other person by some means. Here is one British guy, who inspires us to steal the stuff from university or from our own friend’s house. I don’t know what they are teaching in Schools and College in Great Britain. Putting the word “Great” in “Britain” does not make it great. It’s all about the people in Britain who should make their country proud. Well, the story does not end here...
It is just started:-

Two Lives

I do not know what to write, I do not have any words today to write these words to not matter as long as the feelings matter to a person. Last night I went to a friend’s house, “He said, I do not know weather I should live or kill myself” I asked him, “Why is he saying like that, what is the problem”? He does not think that life worth that much because he was in love with one girl, she was very beautiful. The girl too was in love with him. They both had very good time sharing memories, sharing food, sharing clothes and everything a nice happy couple would have. But the problem arose when one day the girl family forcefully asked her to marry a famous Doctor. The problem was that both the girl and boy were inter-caste. They did not belong to same caste. The girl was worried very much she did not knew what to decide whether she should marry a man her family is insisting on or rather marry the boy she is in love with. The guy was spell bound and he has nothing to say. He asked me this question time and again-Santosh, Why are we having this problem? What is the main cause behind this? Can you give me helpful solution? Well, I went in deep thought whole night and I finally got this idea, Life is all about living for a day. Forgot about the religion as long as you follow your heart. Two things cannot go hand in hand. One is mind and other one is heart. Religion is mixture of Mind and Heart. Mind says do this, do those? Heart says I want this. If you are deciding between what you want and what has to be done then which one you should choose? It is always the combination of these two would give you the best possible result. But if one thing misses, it will always be good to listen to your heart. Religion is one of the biggest problems our country is facing today. Every father and mother wants to marry their child with the same caste they belong to. But why? Caste does not matter as long as Feelings matter deep inside the heart. Imagine you were to die and you have just one day to live. What would you do in that case? Which caste you would choose then? Always listen to your heart, if you listen to it, you will always get what you want and you will reach where you want to go. With mind you will also reach to the destination but the challenging, entertaining, fighting, struggling journey of reaching to destination won’t be there. Life is all about learning. If the girl listens to her family members, she is not making her decision, she is living on somebody else’s decision, it is not your mistake and just let it be. So, do not worry and ask your girl also not to worry as long you both are listening to your heart, feeling silence, going back to your self and being yourself, present- in present.

Message from Paulo Coelho

Today it was abit surprising for me that some great writers like Paulo Coelho has got some time for me to write to me, When i woke up today checking my daily emails.He said he values his readers, Well that is a nice appreciation from the great writer like Paulo Coelho. It is my pleause to recieve the email from him. He also gave me his article of Christmas. Well, There is one question to Mr. Paulo Why in earth he values his reader ? Is it becasue he is afraid of his status.Is it just like that. Or Is it becasuse he cares for his readers. There are many issues when you become famous. You do not want to loose. you always want yourself to see in top. There is one saying that No body no things in whole world is permanent, We all have good days and we all have bad days. Some of the men in this planet are great leaders of the great nation some of the men are just a hard workers. Leadership, Writing skills and other appreciating the theme of life is just not in our hand. I believe nothing is in our hand. No body...can control the next very second of the life. If some thing is going to happen it just happens, call it whatever you wish to call it.., It can be faith..., It also can be anything you wish to put it. This is the way of life we are living, we are a body which is very always in motion. Any ways we always want that moment of our life where we are in motion not to let it go. That is why we always have to come down to earth. Paulo Coelho is great writer and he will be great Writer but .....

He also have to move .. He also has to be in motion and then that moment will be of somebody else. I am not saying that He has something wrong to anybody, He is a fine character and may be a very good human being who is giving loads of knowledge to human beings around the world. But the thing is that, He is afraid ..., Deep inside he is afraid...,

Nothing is permanent in this world, May be The words what i am putting here are negative but these words are not negative or positive it is how we interpert or decode them to understand it.

My mind

I started this blog, with the concept of writing what goes in my mind. I kept the name of the blog as Bheja. It is an indian word. What is going on today in my mind, well today i am feeling a pain in my headeach but who cares and who wants to care about it. Even if i say to people that i had an headach, nobody will listen to me.., they will just say go and visit doctor or put some medicine that's it. But no body wil ask with me why had this problem. What is the root cause of having this problem dealing with this problem every time. why i am leaving in this planet and what is the sole purpose of living.

I have this problem and I want the solution to remove my problem not just to cure it. I do not want to cure the problem I want to remove it. Now, the big question is how ? The answer to this question is when my mind ask me to think on some pattern and when it does not matches with my heart it would cause me some pain in my head. The head always ask me to do some thing like for example, assignments, project or some research work but at the same time, My heart says that i want to talk with my wife back in my country. Now do not take it seriously Wife and girl friends are quite different according to me, I am not legally married but i do not want to use the word "girl friend" There are some reason against use of it. So, this is the case my heart says i want to talk with my wife back home in Nepal and My mind says i have to complete the assignment Now when the mind orders me something the heart do not understands and when heart asks something to mind, Mr. Mind says no i wont do it. They had a fight with each other. Now the mind has lost the battle and my heart has won the battle. When my mind lose the battle that means i did not do my project work but rather i talked with my girl friend: that is why i think i had a headache. but Who cares ?

Welcome to My Mind, My bheja !

Merry Christmas, Happy New Year ! Hope life brings you loads of happiness and joy to make your life memorable and joyful to live for ever and ever. Everything you desire comes as you desire and not the other way around.


Good Luck ! and Best Regards !

From "My Bheja" !

0

What is the topic today ? Why it is 0. How do you call it ? It is 0 or is it zero or is it null or is it nothing. What is that i have kept the topic for the today article is 0. I do not know what is this... But when i do not know what is this then at this time,i must know somethig about it as well. If i believe or assume that it is the starting of the number then, it can also be assumed that it is the starting of the relationship, life, women, girl, dating, partner and everything else. Is it the end of number then, it is the end of above mentioned variables. Life is all about understanding... how can we understand that we are existing in today's world ? We wake up every day, do our stuffs and go back to bed.. This is the daily routine we go through but how can we say that we are alive. Is it the presence we make in the crowd that shows us that we are alive or is it the happiness we feel deep inside that gives us the feeling that we are alive and it is good to be alive. We are the mysterious creature and we will remain as the mystry to every body else around us because they are also the same creatures. We have faith on that 0 if we think that 0 means God, Jesus and Mohammad, All the dispute that is present in today world is all because we asume something before experience makes us realize that what is the truth and what is not truth. Welocme to the world of 0. Unknow, mystry and Unsolved.

How to give Exam !

Can you describe this word called exam ? What actually is the exam ? E X A M how was it derieved. I am not going to do research on this word and give you the detail about it. I just want to give some message here. What is exam ? I do not know may be E stands for experience, but experience can be in field of study, experience can be in the field of understanding the subject, experience can be in knowing what others had already done. What ever it may be, the message is do not be afraid of exams. Life is full of exams itself, we travel and every steps we take we give exam. The step we take gives us the result either we pass passing that step or we fail by not moving to next step.

Do not worry about the exams. Life itself is full of exam. There are subjective, objective and many kinds of exam. We are not afraid of exams when we are not afraid of life and death. Take life as it is and not what you want to make it. If we take our life as it is, we will face very little problem in our life but if we want to make our life somebody else life then we are not living our life. It is some body else life not yours.

Learning is through failure. Exam is checking how much failure you have achieved in your life. There is no word called success. There is only failure, which is close to our heart.Which always reminds us who we are and where we come from. Nothing is perfect, nothing can be perfect only our failures can be perfect and to make that failure perfect we have to give exam in every steps of life we take. Good Luck !