Silence

Every silence has a meaning. A silence of human, a silence in relationship, a silence of lake and a silence of wind that blows flower in the garden. Everything is connected in one way or another. All these silence, with meaning where it ask us to read the meaning from these aspects of life, plants and Nature.

Can anyone tell me why two people in relationship go into the state of silence ? Is it because they both had a fight or something or is it because they both want to go into their caves and come back after a while. What is that make people live in silence ? Too much of everything is bad. Too much of silence will lead us to violence. A violence in our mind, a violence within us. Some times it could be boon too. It depends on the environment we live.

Many people are quite vulnerable to silence, some of them they like to live in noise. A room full of noise, a place where there is crowd and lot to event happenings. In such a case people find themselves very safe and very nice. It is just because when noise is present, people assume there are some body like them who is present and doing something.

A silence teaches a lot in itself. A couple mainly go in silence just because of the some small problems they could not resolve by themselves. They both seek truth. They both want to prove that both of them are correct and none of them have done any mistake or is wrong. When one person says that he is right on some subject and the next person also says yes, she is also correct on the same subject matter then- a clash is occurred between two people. Their has to be one winner. In such a case, the argument occurs and fight begins. A silence is the last phase of all these happening. Either a girl or boy then go in silence. It is good just because it later helps in regaining the relationship.

Most of the time these silence are such a killer that, it last very long. Even a entire life. When a silence is for very long it becomes a pain. A pain which cannot be cured by any medicine or doctor. A pain which cannot be described. It is very true and very hurtfull. It is larger than the volcano eruption. It remain and you cannot avoid it. It will be there till the existence of a person.

It is easy to break a relationship if one can acquire a silence. It is also easy to come out of problem if you can go in silence. I have been told by many that I remain very silent. It is just because i simply like the peace that a silence gives me. It gives me a feeling and pleasure to look deep inside my internal body parts. In silence I can see myself going deep and look what I am doing. It just checks and re-check my body and outer world.

A silence is great teacher. It can tell you thousand different things. When you are silent especailly most of the times there is some one inside you who will talk with you. It is not you. It is the person who is driving you. It is not soul or aatma or anything. It is you- a perfect you.

The perfect you will tell you what you are feeling and what you are going through. It will just ask you to do what he wants. A perfect you. Well, it is always good to live in silence. Just sit idle some times and be silent-you will hear a lot of voices which are of yours and only yours. It will teach you that you have a perfect you inside you.

Good bye, DEAR!

These words will not bring you back to me, these are only words and what I am writing and these words will not value as much the feeling going deep inside my heart for you. Remember the promises we made, remember the last day we hug each other, the day when I have to return to my home. I will never forget those days until I am dead, the day when your father and I was having lunch together and you were serving it. What went wrong, it’s my entire fault. I am no good writer. I wrote what I felt for you. I did the mistake of writing the 200 pages of diary just for you and your father got that dairy. I never wrote that I am in love with you but the reader will surely get this idea that some romantic guy is behind this. I was wrong. Yes, “you were right” you can never be with me. I know. May be I was wrong, I didn’t knew that I liked you. I still do not know but I really wanted to be with you till death. I know that is not possible. You are going to get married with someone; it was long back you said you are going to get married with him. I still have those emails that you wrote to me. I do not know. It was your one sentence that made me quit smoking that I was smoking for last 16 or so year. Who says, that habit cannot be changed in one day. I can prove them wrong. I am no more smokers. I don’t know may be you do not want to contact me anymore, that am why you asked him not to give your email or contact address. Your mobile numbers have been changed or you rather changed it. Thank you! Why didn’t you say directly to me that you do not love me? Why? What is the worth of living since you are not with me anymore? The whole world is beneath this word called “Love” I know I do not have that moment when I can feel, share and love the love. I am so unfortunate to not have you. I do not want to live a life just like that. I do not want anybody except you. I know why you did not say that, “you do not love me” For you life is all about your family, you live for your family, you are so responsible, and that is good. You did not want to hurt me, by not letting me know the truth. Well, thank you very much! I was alone in dark. I thought we are two. Thank you for ignoring me. Thank you for doing whatever you felt. Next time when I came to your city, it was just to talk with you. I came some 4000km alone just I thought I will speak with you. But again it was just once. I realize the mistake I did. I should not have said those words since I did not know what I was talking. May be again my poor English. I misunderstood it, your words. I was trying to convince you but you again thought I am up to something else. I never wanted to hurt you but now no one ever can hurt me too. Life is nothing without the love. You have found your ideal match in your life, Be happy and take care but please let me once know when you are going to get married with him, so that I too can decide my own marriage. I am man of my words, let me prove it. Give me one chance. Please Please, I beg you for that.
I have always done wrong for you, the things I never wanted to do wrong to you. I always wanted to good but every step I took was mistake. May be the script written did not matched. What I was doing did not go correct with what unknown has written for me. This is mysterious. No body would understand and nobody can understand. I am dying to see your email. I am searching for your name. I am crying every day and night to know where you are and what you doing/. May be this is another mistake, may be this is wrong. Thank you once again for breaking my heart. Thank you once again for killing me. Thank you once again for not telling your decision. Why are all women poor in making decision? I know you are two steps ahead then all men. Good luck to you! May you and your husband will make you happy for ever and ever. Good bye DEAR, Good bye DEAR!