I am no programmer.

Creation is art, the art which is created in your mind and you follow that art to draw in the places . The places can be any output devices e.g monitor, paper and whatsoever. The topic today is appropriate for me because I am no programmer.

I could not write any programs. The program is set of sequence of instruction that works together for a special task. I cannot some how write those sequence of instructions myself. The weakness I have is my problem and my own.

I could not write programs that is why I do not have any jobs. My profession is based only on programming therefore if you could not write the programs you are not suppose to get any job. Here I am with no jobs.The reason is quite simple and the topic shows it all. To get inside any company or organization is very difficult task.

Their are loads of things to be considered by an organization. Their is security, consistency and performance also their is matter of how well you can adjust to that organization. Why don't a foreign people get job in the organization ? It is not easy. It is due to these reason. I will be glad if you can comment if you have any more suggestions.

The words do not count, value counts. The earth does not matter to any one, living our life matters. Life does not matter to anyone-relationship matters and so on.

These are the core elements which we are forgetting or loosing at the present moment. We care about our life so their is very few people who thinks about Nature. We care about our relationship so their are very people who care about relationship between yourself and Nature. We are so talkative or wordily that we do not know some times what a crap we are talking about. We have tacit knowledge and we will keep on improving that always.

We cannot realize the fact that we are here to stay. We have to think about Nature. We will learn only when Nature gets angry with us. Why don't we just develop relationship, support, help or do some phenomena that Nature would like. We always ignore the most precious things in our life. Take for e.g Home, the place you are currently living. The community, every matters that is surrounded within you.

Well, we may thank our friend for a good suggestion or advice but "Have you ever thank your chair, your cupboard, your room, your "stuffs" or your tree that is their in the garden waiting for your response." We do not like the same thing time and again only because our mind needs change and we are good at adapting to the new things.

Why do relationship break after couple of year or after some time ? The only reason is we are progressing in this word called "relationship". When we reach at one level after that their is no where to go therefore either we have to come down or slow down or else we have to leave it"

This is why it deteriorates or breaks apart. Well, I always talk nonsense-that's what people says but why should I care as long as I can be myself and write what I think is appropriate to write. I am no programmer but Here I am planning to make a program to save our Nature. I am no computer programmer but I have a set of instruction in my mind which says what is going to happen if I apply the conditional expression, loops, switch case and whatsoever.

We are all different and we just have to remember one fact- The fact is we all have talents only thing is that -"We got to realize it".


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God is Unknown.

How can you define a term called "GOD". We think God exist, yes he may exists but it is also the case that we do not have any proof to say that we have seen god. Take for e.g If I ask one man in the street, "Hey, Have you seen GOD and he says yes I have saw him, He was in the bar." Now, If I am an ordinary men I will surely say that I am asking him a stupid question and I am at the same time being stupid. Or I can even say that I am drunk and I am talking non-sense.

Some of the basic variables or terms are just the feeling in our life such as love for example or life and so on. God is similar to those feelings. We believe in God because we expect something from ourselves, We think he/she/it exits because we want to have blind faith on something unknown.

The million dollar question is now, Why do we believe in the unknown(GOD) because we are deep rooted to our religion, Christianity, Hinduism, Buddhism, Sikh,Muslim and so on. The person who we say are GOD such as Jesus, Buddha, Allah and Iswor etc are just the messengers, they were ordinary humans and they will always remain humans.

I am not saying that I do not believe in GOD and I do not have faith in GOD. As you know I am also simple, ordinary human as you are but I am thinking is different way. I am curious to find out that-GOD is just the concept by which we live our life.

Their is no heaven and hell, how can I say that their is the place called heaven or hell. No way, Whatever we do and what ever we are doing in this mother earth should be categorized as heaven or hell.

Now, the big research question is who was the first person who created "Adam" and "Eve" in Christianity and who was the creator of a species called human ? Who did it ? Science do not agree on this concept and I do not believe it was the GOD who created it.

My thinking or my idea of creation of first human being in this planet is quite different.What I believe is that, "It was the nature and It is because of nature we are here." Nature has some basic elements- Water, Wind and Earth. These 3 basic elements mixed up to form first species in this planet. Again, I cannot prove it but this is how I think.

It is not right or wrong but I believe in Nature, I believe in the oxygen it is providing it to me, I trust in the wind that blows through me, I can feel the rain drops in my face when it falls and when nature needs some soil it will forget to give the oxygen that I want.

Is their any body who can escape the death ? Death is certain, death is feeling whenever we talk about it we feel danger within ourself because we do not want to leave our material world, we are afraid of loosing everything around us. We are imagining that we will loose our good old friends, our relatives, our family and our this and our that. Every thing that we are doing and everything we are trying to achieve is just well-written verse or script that nature has with it. We are followers of the nature and nothing happens by our wish.

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Life without you.

I am really depressed, sad and hollow. I am empty and blue. I am feeling bad about myself because I know you are not with me. I am alone, I do not trust anybody because I know nobody does trust to me. Some times I have the feeling that I should kill myself but again I remember that I am not alone anymore.

Who should I live for ? Is it for you who is very far from me or Is it my loneliness that possibly would be filled. I cannot imagine you in someone else arm because I am jealous about loosing you. I cannot say weather I love but I know I cannot live without you.

Are marriages made in heaven ? If yes, then where is this place ? I am stupid that I am asking so many questions but its not with some body else I am asking it to but with myself. I read an article about Osho today and he said that life is not about birth and death it is far more important and difficult to understand then it.

I do not want to know about life or love but I want to be close with you. How is it possible for me to quit everything and close to you ? I know the simplest solution is the most difficult to take. What is their in you that reminds me that I cannot live without you. What is that you can give it to me which I cannot live without.

People do thousand and one thing to impress their partner, girl friend and wife but what should i do to impress you despite the fact that i know you do not expect anything like me. Are we really destined to each other ? People might wonder and ponder after saying so many words about you I am asking the question are we destined for each other.

Why is that marriage fall apart and girl friend of many guys leave their boy friend ? Isn't it very difficult to answer. I like this word called difficult because everything that seems difficult to others is easy to me and everything that seems easy to others is very difficult for me.

The answer to the question is that every girl have one thing in common and that one thing is that they are jealous of other girl. Every women can either be very good to other women or either will be very god enemy. Most of the times women hate other women. They cannot see other women progress. Why ? It is because women are jealous and they are thinking too much. Sometimes they do not even think but they pretend they are thinking.

It is easy to say that they always expect the unexpected from their partners also. When their partner do not give or satisfy or could not some how satisfy her do not get me wrong with the word satisfy- it doesn't necessarily mean sexual satisfaction but the satisfaction of all kind then women start getting bored. They behave irrationally they will do something stupid which will irritate the man, boy friend and a husband. This phenomenon is usually happening therefore most of the marriages, relationship do not last long.

Do not believe me but try to learn those golden words what came just from the scratch. You will believe me when you will trust me and it is difficult to trust somebody so easily. Trust starts from the letter "t" which I have given the meaning "t"=truth and the ending of letter in word "trust" is "t" again which also means "t"=truth.

This is how I have understood and this is my philosophy of understanding the English words. I do not know history and I do not want to know them anymore. If you trust me then you will see the meaning of these words. To get an solution to an individual problem you have to have patience and wait because what I am learning is what I am presenting it.

Life without you is life without meaning, without any reason, without any climate and without any motive. I really don't know if i will be alive to see you. If I will be, I would like to die in your arms. Wish you were here to see what I am going through, everything we wish does not come true and with everything their is again nothing...Life without you...

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Eat, Sleep and Drink Cricket

For those like me, over-exposed to the old school tie, summers in heart of Chitwan and fascinated to hear latest news on Cricket commentary, cricket was always more than a game; it won't be wrong if I say we were eating, sleeping and drinking cricket, it was a way of life and the most worthwhile contribution of a much-reviled Empire.



It was a self-fulfilling world which encapsulated robust values, from strategic thinking to fair play. My childhood cricketing heroes were those who combined skill and elegance with lordly amateurism - 'gentlemen' like Richie Benaud, David Gower, Sunil Gavaskar and Sachin Tendulakar.7 years ago, I even made a to National level competition held in the Kathmandu - the summer retreat of the redoubtable Kathmandu weather was awesome. It was a small homage to an age that is long gone, when money was never discussed in polite company and gentlemen who were involved in the game had private incomes.

It seems that we are developing together as a team; we are into news by the name of gentlemen game. Seeing at neighboring country India and its team it seems that in days to come, there will be more populist outrage at the effrontery of investing in Indian cricket Rs 6 crore in M S Dhoni when indebted farmers are committing suicide next door in their land. Eyebrows will also be raised at the logic of ignoring promising Indian talent for foreign has-beens. But Why, yet others will ask, are we not putting all our eggs in the cricket basket? Surely football, Karate and marbles deserve a break. Everyone has some gripe about a perfect free market. Pandering to popular tastes is held to be ''common''; it offends aesthetic sensibilities. A free-marketer I know, for example, was livid when great football players was awarded the National honors. Why can't we do the same for Nepali Cricket Players?

It is worth investing money on Nepali cricket as it takes the brand name of country and culture it presents in global world. We can even see the progress we are making by entering Final of U-19 Plate championship. What some people view as debasement, others regard as opportunities. Till the World Cup in South Africa showed the way, few people appreciated the potential of 20-20 cricket. Today, every impresario worth the name believes that this shortened version of the game constitutes the future in a hurried world. And if Mallika Sherawat doing an 'item number' to celebrate every lofted shot into the stands livens proceedings further, what's the harm? It's good capitalism.

The Cricket Association of Nepal (CAN) should actually only be tangentially about cricket. It is doubtful during my existence whether Wisden will even record the scores of the Kathmandu versus Chitwan encounter, nor will club loyalties develop instantly. We need to take the initiatives as soon as possible. Russian billionaires buy football clubs in Chelsea and mansions in Hampstead to signal their coming of age. In Nepal we have not done anything till date; as a cricket reactionary, I mourn the tinsel-isation of a way of life; as a nationalist I salute those who had the audacity to think big.

Who cares if the whole thing is very bling - the hallmark of the arriviste? What matters is that cricket now should belong to Nepal. Or at least we can think of making it our national pride, certainly in near future.

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Move on

Life is full of struggle, surprises, events unexpected and their are times in life when we will feel that we are going down, their are times in life when we are so depressed that we do not want to talk with anyone and do not want to share our feelings, their are times in life when we lack support, enthusiasm, effort to move forward.

It has nothing to do with the present but it has something to do with our self. Our image and our self consciousness that is why we feel depressed. We always assume that we have achieved something in our life but we have done nothing till date. We are just another brick in the wall. As Pink Floyd song goes "Another brick in the wall" Sometime we feel that Nothing is going to be done by us and nothing will make any change just because of us. But those feelings are not always the same. We fluctuate through the time and moment because we are just like a wind. We blow but we do not care about the obstacles we have to face we blow because our nature is to blow.

I remember today I was walking in very slippery road. I knew any time i may fall down. This was there in my mind that I may fall down. I slowly and gradually was moving but suddenly I started to fall at that moment I was not thinking that I am going to fall down or I was not cautious about it. I knew nothing that I am going to fall down. This is similar to our life. We are afraid of death and when we are afraid of death our death will not come but when we do not expect the death that very moment the death comes and we are gone from this whole earth. That is what I am trying to say from the very moment of my whole life. Expect the unexpected in life.

Do not agree with me but one day you will. I know what we expect we do not get often because this is how it is. Expect the unexpected in life, love and relationship.Therefore life is all about living the moments not living the entire age. I do not want to live my life just because I have to live for so and so years but I want to live my life because I have so and so moments that I cherish which I always like to rejoice and repeat, which reminds me that I am alive in present and I am living at this very moment.


Last night I saw a death accident picture in my friends place, Friend said, "What is the human life look, nothing !" I did noticed and care what he said or what one has to say about it but I realize and felt the expression he made. The expression said it all. We do not have to say or talk about it in detail or make an issue out of any other things. The expression says it all.

When we two human beings are close to each other- Expression is the best way to know what other is going through. Nothing else is needed.

Anyways as a wind we are, let's move on-I am not afraid of falling down because I know I will learn when I will fall down and start to move on again. I know that me falling down teaches me how to move again. I am not afraid to say something or write something that I like because I know if tomorrow I do mistakes their are thousand people like me who will teach me how to write. I am not afraid of hearing the sound of birds because I know those birds will tell me what to listen to and what not to. I am not afraid of falling down because I know if i remove "f" from "life" I am doing something wrong with my own self.

Move on... Move on and Let's move on ...



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Where is heaven or hell ?

If you ask this question then you will come up with some very funny answers and some totally vague. Well, what do you think ? Where is this place called heaven or hell ? What I believe is very much similar now what you might think.

Some of you might think that heaven is in some place where we will reach only after we are dead. After our death we will reach to this place which is called heaven. If we do great deeds in our present life we will surely see the place called heaven. This is also the concept we have in our Hindu culture. I remember my parents saying once to me that- There is no heaven or hell. Everything is here in this planet, here alone.

Forget about the place called heaven or hell ! It does not exits. What exist is just what you are seeing now. That is your heaven or hell. It is your interpretation of what you are facing now at present. We are very good at judging the place, country, religion or sex. Without experience whatever we judge or say something about is meaningless, useless- People want to see or hear more about your experiences then something which does not give any meaning to them.Tell about your experience do not tell or judge something just like that.

Coming to the point where is the heaven, Heaven is there where our heart is. Hell is there where our hatred is.

I don't know from where this line came in my mind.This is what I think. The heart full of love consists of heaven and the heart which has hatred lies the hell. It is our heart where these two words lies. Whenever we talk about love, life and about family we know what we are talking about and we mean it.

Heaven is there where our heart lies, where our heart wants to be always and most importantly where in our heart lies the mysterious word called "love". The place is hell if we do not have that capability to keep the word called "love".

Do not differentiate between anything either it is words or either it is country or culture or whatever. Every thing is good, every food you made is good, every bar you visit is nice, every girl you see is beautiful, every clothes you were is perfect, every smile you make is awesome, every writing you write is nice, every songs you sing is outstanding, every place you visit is beautiful, every acting you do is marvelous, every lectures you attend is exquisite, every movies you watched is perfect and nice movie, every boy or girl you see are intelligent only thing that you need is the way you see them !

"Beauties lies in the eyes of beholder". Yes it does ! Only difference that exist is how you see them. See the different pattern in the sky every day. They are just for you. To make you smile, to give you pleasure that you are alive and to say you that you are in heaven. See with clear vision and clear mindset you will get what you want.

Sound of Footsteps...

Tuck Tuck Tuck.....Tak Tak Tak......Tik Tik Tik... Tuk Tuk Tuk....

Dont laugh ! This is how the sound of Footsteps are when you listen very carefully to it. I have been watching the sound of the Footsteps of my own together with the footsteps of others. Have you ever paid any attention to the sound of Foot. There are very few people who will have time or do focus of the sound of their foot. We tend to forget these simple things in our life. We should remember that these simple things give lots of pleasure in our life. Try it once and you will feel total joy, and i am sure you will smile when you will here your own sound of your own foot.How does this happen technically, When the foot strikes with the object which is solid and then there is some kind of vibration in both the object and your foot which produces sound.

Isn't it very sweet to hear the sound of your foot and realize the speed or the behaviour of human. I personally think the behaviour of let's say these kind of gesture also determins how we think, and what we basically are looking or let's where we are heading towards.

Why should you believe in me ? Please don't, try to experience or try it yourself then you will come to know What I am saying. We live in free world where we all have freedom of speech and expression so please go ahead.


Sound is sensation which has to be felt with the realization that we are alive. This is what I think about the Sound of footsteps of mine. Now, Its your turn therefore Ladies and Gentleman, Go ahead..