Both Kills

It reminds me of the day when I just wanted to show off. I wanted to hear from my friends that I am a play boy. I like when people called me "Santosh, This guy is crazy.. Girls are crazy for him. He can easily flirt any girls in this whole planet.." It really was fascination and kind of humorous environment when friends around you talk about it. We used to have loads of fun together. It seemed to me that I am cool and Whatever be the situation I used to smoke. I remember that I used to live without a food but I cannot live without smoke. I don't know why but It was just like that. One day everything change- Let's keep it as personal secret for a while. The picture will tell you why. When we are in relationship we are addicted to some thing. Even before being in relationship or after it or in relationship. I don't know about others people experience but mine was like this. Both kills ! Wow, Every man would love to see the naked women in his young age, Well if you would not like to see a naked women while you are young then you should join Some other group. But Every normal Man would like to see a nice beautiful girl with good boobs, and with great ass. If you ask Mr. X his first impression will directly go to either a girls ass or to girls boobs. Why ? Well, we are born like that. "The day we stop seeing them the day we wil die." One of the beautiful creature if god exist then he has made. May be it might be the case that God made a women and then he was vanished because he thought I do not need any body else neither me nor any one to control this planet. So, He went off or He resigned from his job and we were left in the beauty of women. Now The creator needs to destroy the creation. How ? Well we are all made by the same creation I am talking about and we are killing each other or being killed because of the same creature. Be prepared to be Killed. If you ask me I am now its your turn.

Who am I ?

The question is very interesting and very self asking one. It is very easy to ask this question on the basis of physical level therefore we usually say, "Who are you ?" and People will reply with this kind of answer- "I am doctor, I am engineer, I am an architect or I am a writer ...." but the true meaning of this question no body knows. It is same like saying what is love and what do you mean by life. There are thousands of book written by self knowledge, meditation and how to learn about your self. Every body has written it just because they have found something or they think they have found something about the question itself. The real problem is that when we say and expect that we have got the result that very time we do not have any result. We have not reached to the conclusion but it is an virtual conclusion. Why do we assume that we know the factor "x" ? Why don't we say truly that we do not know. or I do not know. Is it because we want to maintain the reputation of being smart, intelligent and very brilliant in whatever we do. Well, if we think so then we are doing no good my dear friends ! Let's be truthful of what we do and what we get. Many of us write something expecting that we will be rich one day with brilliant car and brilliant house and we will become world famous but those who write with this kind of attitude in their mind land up nowhere. It is not the success that makes the man special or intelligent for example it is the true value that man has or possess in the society. So, Why not to become a man of value then man of success ? Therefore, Who am I is the question of reality, it should be first asked with yourself, Sit in silent place for some 2 hrs and ask this question- remember your past and then from the very past come to the present; that means just trace what you have been doing in your life from the day you remember or from the day you remember anything in your mind and come to the present. Now, Write down the key words in some paper or you do not have to do this . You will now realize that the things what I have doing and the things long gone by were very interesting and funny or may be very boring or inspiring. Ask question with your own self. Ask as many times as you wish. Now you will come to know who you are. After experiencing this phenomenon for yourself you can explains who you really are. This is how you do it. This is the process and the process continues. I am not asking you to do it with strict time table but do this whenever you feel you want to know who are you. I hope you will come up with answers.