May be

There are the times when you do not feel to do anything, there are times when you just want to work and work. There are times when people will give thousand good lessons to you but all of these lesson could not be said useful ?

Can it be said as useful ? All of the information in the world is not useful. Only thing which is useful is how you are going to see all these information in your own life. How you are going to naturalize this in your life too.

Look for example in this blog I can write anything I want and that's why it is called Mybheja. I am not worried about the number of visitors neither I am worried about the number of people saying that "your blog was fantastic" or "It sucks". I am only worried about the information which is there in mind and desperate to come out. I do not know how much is too much. But I think there are plenty of these information which could be useful to one or another.

According to Socrates, he says,"I am the wisest man alive, for I know one thing, and that is that i know nothing."

Nothing means that you know something but you do not want to say what thing. When you say, you know something then you are not being wise or you are not capable of being wise and you do not know anything.

The statement "I do not know" are interpreted in many different ways around the globe. It also depends upon the human through which the word is being communicated. The message and the impact of the message to the other person is always vital.

May be there are thousand of rivers that I have to cross, I do not know how to cross this small lake.
May be there are thousand of journeys I will make but I do not remember the last one.

May be there are thousand of worries I would face but I still do not know what kind of satisfaction I will get.

May be there thousand of words in my mind but I do not know if they are really valuable.

May be in all these thousands I will find one journey, one lake, one worries and one word useful to me and my life.



Have a great weekend ! :)

Living with Sarcoidosis

A disease for which the cause is unknown. It is good that I do not have to blame my gene, or my parents or to anyone around me for the cause of the disease that has in me. Experts suggest that, it could be nothing and it could some time be everything. It will go automatically without needing any treatment or anything and it will some times in some cases remain more than 7-to more years.

What would you say when you have defect in your lungs ? A place where you are responsible for the breathing. Suddenly you have pain and it is hardly so difficult to take a breath easily. It is very difficult most of the times.

Self strong is an act of being strong. It does not matter to me if I live for today or I live for 70 years of my life. Most important thing is live a life. There are people who are living with HIV, there are people who are living a life with so much of pain, strugle, and prespiration. Why not me.?
It is not difficult but it is not easy to them, it would not be easy to me either.

Who want to have a disease and live with the disease every body wants a perfect health, a perfect wife, a perfect home and a perfect lifestyle with space and happiness. Who gets these pefectionism. Who achives it at the end ? Hardly anyone gets it. Even if I am a Prince of some country I would not easily get what I am looking for.

It is good to know that you are also effected in some way or another. It is good that we all are effected if not by disease then by the disease of lust, gain, richness, anger, sadness, anxiety, pressure,and many more.

A medical disease can be or has a cure. It occurs in the human body for some period of time and it goes away after medication or treatment but what about the disease that the world is occupying.A disease that cannot be cured easily or it cannot be cured at all. I am happy that I believe I do not have those disease less and medical disease more.

It is good to explain with the people around you that what you have been suffering with and what you have been going though. People will give you suggestions, advice and comments. It is good that you will find out the fact that you are feeling better once you explain the situation to everyone.

Doctor said that I still have to go through some procedure before to make it confirm wheather or not it really is Sarcoidosis. A disease explored some 100 years ago.A perfect treatment still is not found yet and it is really a subject for research for many medical practinoners. Well, I am ready to become their subject.

The act of living a life is not going to say that I am going to die but going to say that I have lived my life. Lived my life means that you have really done what you have wanted to do and you have really worked yourself into every bits and bytes of life.

Human wishes does not come true and all wishes if will come true, everyone will become rich and famous, King and Queens. Who wishes to be just like me-a simple ordinary human living in simple apartment paying bills every month, dreaming about a good fruitful life, imagining about the promises to make them fulfilled and remembering love of your life all the time.
A wish which becomes reality everyday. A wish of not becoming rich and famous or Kings and Queens but a wish to live a life of with joy and happiness.

Let us see how long I could hang on to it.

Writer

I do not know what this term means-"Writer", There are hundred and thousand of those people who call themselves as writer. I never got an idea what this word mean and what it socially does. Every body assumes that they are writer, Many of writers are very well appreciated and also are very famous. What makes some one writer ? Who is writer ? Can any one become a writer ? These questions are the question which remained unanswered even it may be true to one but may not be true to other. Once I was watching a movie and the actor said, Writing is something similar to shitting. The process of act of doing both things are same. The words come in our mind and it is delivered in the paper. The other act is know to every one (shitting). It may be true, to some extent. It might be different in other context. It might also be false if someone do not wants to agree with this. We should take the things as they are but not what we imagine it to be. But many of us don't. We take any aspect of things like words, expression, comments or any materialistic affairs the way we want to take it. The things we do not want to take we just leave them. The perception is different and it should be different. Coming to the second question which i do not have a clue. Who is writer by the way ? Are all the famous writers only the writers and the guy like me is not. There can be many different factors which make one person as a writer and other person as not. Why do any one get interested in writing ? What is the purpose ? If I take an e.g. of my alone- I do not do it for any special purpose-I do not even edit what I write. I just write because I feel to do so, my inner self says-Come on boy just put what you wish to put. Tell your readers the things that you have experienced in your life and the things that are going on in your mind right now. Do not hesitate. Feel free ! Fly like you never have. Just go with the current flow and get the end result which is very important to any human in this planet. "Satisfaction" ! Is their any possibility for anyone to become a writer ? Why not ? Every one has this talent and any one who wishes to write can writer-It is just the matter that some one likes it and some on do not but as long as you do not care about that factor you are writer.

One last aspect that I feel is that writers are very good at knowing people. They always want to figure out what is going on some one else's mind. Well, I do not know about other writers but to some extent the writer writing these words does. Welcome to the world of writing !