Give me Pain, Mother!

Give me Pain, Mother!
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Oh Sweet Mother, I beg you to trust me
I pray you to love me
I am your son, not a stranger
I belong to you, oh dear mother

Why do you make me cry?
Why do you give me pain?
When I am your only son,
I belong to you, only you
Oh dear mother

I am in pain; I am lost in my life
I need your care, I need your blessings
I am praying for your love
I belong to you, oh dear mother

Give me rain, Give me more pain
I understand now,
In your blessings for pain
There lies love, wisdom, caring
All that I have experienced

Oh sweet dear mother, I beg you to bless me
With pain, with sadness and wind of change
I don’t know god, I have never seen them
I know you, as you are my only mother
I belong to you, oh sweet dear mother
Give me pain, give me pain

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© Santosh Kalwar

Sorry mom !!!

I was not in any circumstances to kill myself or to do any harm to any animal or living being or to myself. I am a writer and I write. According to the studies I came to knew that in west suicide rate is very high but why? I myself wanted to feel this experience why people are more depressed here. There was not any intention to do any kind of test or something like that. Now, I think that I have two moms who are watching me, caring me and giving me all the love that I need in any circumstances. Thank you for taking care. Now I have learnt this lesson, the lesson is:

People only go mad when they try to escape from the routine. I took a risk of being different; it’s not my personal intention to attract the audience. Every human being is unique, each with their own qualities, instincts, forms of pleasure and desire for adventure. Have you ever met anyone in your entire life who asked why the hands of clock should go in one particular direction and not in the other?
If someone were to ask, the response they got would probably be:” you’re mad.” God did not create a single leaf the same as another. People go against nature because they lack courage to be different.
Why some one would want to destroy himself or herself why? The reason is according to me, every human being has a desire and with desire comes dissatisfaction, and a dissatisfied man is full of misery, even if he has at hand the pleasure that the world can give him. We act in order to be happy and then we are surprised that the happiness does not last, and we look for other things, and the same pattern is repeated. So,

All our pleasures are connected with our deeds. I promise to my mom that I would not write or do that mistake again in my entire life. It was just my visualization of the fact. And I am really sorry if it has done any harm to anybody. I am convinced that we people are destined to perform special task and it is up to us as to how efficiently we can perform them. I believe that hard work is the chariot to success and one should not undertake a task and if he does, one should perform it to the best of his caliber. I hope I have not done big mistake and even if I have Please forgive me mom. Thanking you with anticipation!