Shadow

How can you define a shadow ? A shadow is the image of your body when the visible lights fall on it, you see them.Literally, it is defined like this, isn't it ?

That is very traditional definition of shadow. It is not the shadow but the image of your part of body that is visible. I have watched it several times and figure out that shadow is not only the image of our part of body but it is also of self. It is something that I mentioned in my earlier article about. It is the image of two souls which are present inside us. It is the non-speaking human body or clone or another copy of our body. It might be an women or men visible at any instant. I believe some times we see two shadows of our body.

The two shadows are the representation of two organ of a human body-Women and Men. I think this might be so we see two shadows. If you see three shadows then I do not have reasons to explain them.

Why shadow exists ? It is because we do not care about them or is it because they are their to exit. I think they exist only because it reminds us that we are looked after every moment, every second. It tells us that we are not alone. Even if you might live a lonely life but you are not alone because their is your shadow which speaks a lot about you.


Have you tried any time in your life talking with your own self ? Probably May be or May be not. I do it many times- It is because if you develop a habit of talking with your self then you do not look stupid but you are going one step closer to your self and realizing what you want, what are the most important things you need in your own life and what you should do. It will help you make decisions.

People do many mistakes daily and find it very difficult to make decisions. It is very difficult for them to make a simplest of decisions why ? It is just because we forget to know or talk to our own self. We are living a life for others, when will you think about your self ? It is good that you first know yourself and then start living for others it will help a lot in the process of helping others.

Experience is the best teacher, how can I expect to help or assist other person until and unless me, myself don't know what I am talking about. Whatever I write or whatever I do is based on my personal experiences not from others or may be from some body's else experiences and these experiences are knowledge or advice or suggestions or perception or info to boost your self.


As said by Sir Einstein- If I have one penny today and if I give that penny to you, I will be one penny poorer and you will be one penny richer but If I have an idea and if I give that idea to you , then you will have an idea and I will retain that idea too.

This is the way he lived his life, I am not trying to say that you should be his followers but you can learn the lesson from him. "Knowledge is multiplied not added". It is not added to your self, not to some else's mind or what so ever.

Take an example of 9+9=18 and also 9*9=81.

These are two numbers(same numbers), These two same numbers should also give the same result but some one in the past found out some calculation techniques in such a way that he made + and *

When we add these numbers we get 18 and when we multiply the same number we get opposite of the result of addition of two numbers.(18 or 81). If you will ask my son, Which one is bigger, He will blindly say-Father the second one.

You got to know one thing for sure in your mind, you can think you are one, alone and lonely living a life in depression and being in emptiness or darkness but you are not. Their lives a another person with you, that another person living with you is another number (9) and you (9). It is not the addition of knowledge you get from the person living with you but the multiplication of knowledge you get. You decide based on the knowledge he/she gives you.

However, Sharing is always loving but loving can never be sharing. We do not share what we love. We do not like to share the most important thing in our lives why ? We do not want to share because their is a human tendency to be afraid of loosing.

The topic of the article is not justified with just the name called "shadow". It might means

"Shade within defined limits; obscurity or deprivation of
light, apparent on a surface, and representing the form of
the body which intercepts the rays of light; as, the
shadow of a man, of a tree, or of a tower "

According to the dictionary but it is not a perfect definition some one should change it. I have tried to defined on my own way but it won't be valued because I am no Einstein and I am no Newton. I am an ordinary man who can think, think and just think.


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Are you only male or female ?

Last night I was walking down the lane, I come up with some thing weired in my mind and I thought well are we male or female ? I may be built up with the physical structure of being strong male genital organ with me but am I really male ? It may be also that I have female protective organ with me but am I really female only ?

The idea is that if we are just a male it is not just only male. We are also female and vice versa. I am not only female because what I believe is that we have two souls inside a human body. One is for the male and another is for the female. Let's defend my idea.

First thing, Let's say I am male. I see other male around me. The very first thing I will come up in my mind is that is this person good or bad ? We make the impression of another unknown person if we see him/her for the first time. It is very natural but often we do that. Their might be some exception to this but mainly people start to judge you by your first impression. It is saying like- First impression is the last impression.

Now, My point is when we make an impression about the person at that instant who judge inside us whether that person is good or bad ? Here is the main idea, The male person inside us will judge the unknown person you saw for the first time. If the person inside you will say, No- This person does not seem so good, is not good, is bad, is negative, ugly or so on. These impression will be transferred to our mind and we will decide on the basis of the message we got the male soul present inside us.


Ultimately, When I see the female passing by me- I do the same, their is a female soul inside us who will decide whether the female whom I am seeing for the first time is good, bad, ugly or what so ever. The message will be transferred to our brain of the impression that female inside us made. Therefore, the point is that we have both the soul inside us- Male and Female Souls.

Why to say that I am just male or I am just female. It is not one human we represent we are two species living in one. We are both male and female. We might look as a male or female but we are both inside us. This is the finding and mybheja ideas.

I do not know if you think so but this is what I believe in. I hope you do too.If you do not believe in this then think once, think twice and then think well, its true. You will.


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Human Nature.

We are unique in way we think, we are different in our physical structure and our structure. We look different to each one of us. We look different to others around us only because we like to see them different.

Imagine a world where every body has same face ! To imagine such situation is very stupid idea. Did anybody ever thought why we look different ? Well, their are thousand writers who might have written about this phenomena with their perspective.
Whatever perspective they have taken into consideration and whatever they have done is based on their understanding, research and their findings. I appreciate their hard work and effort. Now, let us see my imagination on why we look different. The message which I want to deliver through this article is that we are not only different but we have something in our head which makes us think differently.

We are all humans. Perfectly OK.
We have different faces but their are some exception to this, People might have similar faces too (very few and limited). Now, What is that triggers us to do something differently every time.

We like one thing and that thing is "change". Everything seems boring when it becomes routine. We like change in our mind,brain( both are quite different) and in our social, personal and daily life.

Big question comes in this stupid mind is why change ? Why not others activities like is it possible to do one thing and continue it forever. As I am asking this question to myself, I would say "yes".

We can make our work as a routine but we can even make it funny routine. The funny routine will give us the change we like. It will tell our brain that this is what I ever wanted. It will bring you the pleasure, you will be passionate about it. How ? The answer to the question is- Change the way you see your life. Change can only be brought to yourself if you think differently not when you are free but when you desire to think, when your brain says I want to change, I want to do something different, At that very moment you got to listen to your brain and mind together. If you resist yourself at that time then you could not satisfy your intelligent brain. and If you could not satisfy you brain you will end up feeling boring.

Every thing, every object and every necessary component of this planet are assigned some task. Take for example clouds-assign to produce rain. Water-drink, provide food to animals and to us. Stars- twinkle in the night. flowers to blossom, wind to blow and so on.

Our brain is organized in such a way that we do not like to see the same stuff, same activities and we do not like do the same thing again and again. For e.g If I was going to one club or pub for a week then usually I will be feeling boring to see the same club or pub every time. What do I want ? Is that pub or club have something wrong ? Is the people in that club not humble and friendly ?

These questions are questions which we would not like to answer and we just need to change and visit new places. We are like in a line of ants. We are good at following the queue or be in the queue. We do not want to be leader in the queue or make our own queue.

Happy Weekend to those who need the happy before weekend. This is simple example of our human nature.

"Change is the only thing permanent in this world"

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God is Unknown.

How can you define a term called "GOD". We think God exist, yes he may exists but it is also the case that we do not have any proof to say that we have seen god. Take for e.g If I ask one man in the street, "Hey, Have you seen GOD and he says yes I have saw him, He was in the bar." Now, If I am an ordinary men I will surely say that I am asking him a stupid question and I am at the same time being stupid. Or I can even say that I am drunk and I am talking non-sense.

Some of the basic variables or terms are just the feeling in our life such as love for example or life and so on. God is similar to those feelings. We believe in God because we expect something from ourselves, We think he/she/it exits because we want to have blind faith on something unknown.

The million dollar question is now, Why do we believe in the unknown(GOD) because we are deep rooted to our religion, Christianity, Hinduism, Buddhism, Sikh,Muslim and so on. The person who we say are GOD such as Jesus, Buddha, Allah and Iswor etc are just the messengers, they were ordinary humans and they will always remain humans.

I am not saying that I do not believe in GOD and I do not have faith in GOD. As you know I am also simple, ordinary human as you are but I am thinking is different way. I am curious to find out that-GOD is just the concept by which we live our life.

Their is no heaven and hell, how can I say that their is the place called heaven or hell. No way, Whatever we do and what ever we are doing in this mother earth should be categorized as heaven or hell.

Now, the big research question is who was the first person who created "Adam" and "Eve" in Christianity and who was the creator of a species called human ? Who did it ? Science do not agree on this concept and I do not believe it was the GOD who created it.

My thinking or my idea of creation of first human being in this planet is quite different.What I believe is that, "It was the nature and It is because of nature we are here." Nature has some basic elements- Water, Wind and Earth. These 3 basic elements mixed up to form first species in this planet. Again, I cannot prove it but this is how I think.

It is not right or wrong but I believe in Nature, I believe in the oxygen it is providing it to me, I trust in the wind that blows through me, I can feel the rain drops in my face when it falls and when nature needs some soil it will forget to give the oxygen that I want.

Is their any body who can escape the death ? Death is certain, death is feeling whenever we talk about it we feel danger within ourself because we do not want to leave our material world, we are afraid of loosing everything around us. We are imagining that we will loose our good old friends, our relatives, our family and our this and our that. Every thing that we are doing and everything we are trying to achieve is just well-written verse or script that nature has with it. We are followers of the nature and nothing happens by our wish.

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Missing dot's.

I got a good comment on my previous article stating that their are lots of ifs and buts why only ifs and buts, well responding to my readers point of view I would say that-it is because their are lots of ifs and buts in our own life, every decision we make and every decision we take is based on ifs and buts.

Take an example of waking up in early morning, either I should wake up or i should sleep more.Now after one wakes up then you decide to do your morning activities either I should do my morning activities or I should take my morning coffee this is why their are lots of ifs and buts in that previous article. Here I am not criticizing my dear reader but i am supporting his point of view and trying to defend, and convince him at the same time.

Now, Let me jump to todays interesting topic of learning Finnish in 3 minutes. I am just a newbie in the language of this country, and I would like to make an apology before teaching you Finnish that I am using English Keyboard so please do not use it for serious purposes, their will be missing dots . One special form of language where you have to puts dots in characters like a, o, etc.

Let's start with basic-

add dots in last two a's
Hyvaa - Good
Hyvaa Huomenta - Good + Morning

Add Hyvaa and dots in last two a's in these words such as,

Paivaa- Day
iltaa - Evening
amulla- morning
illalla- evening
yota - night (dots in o and a)

One of the most important word in Finnish is (Kiitos-Thank you)

paljon ! Ole hyva /Ei kesta
a lot you're welcome/ Not to mention.

Anteeksi, en ymmarra (dots in both a's). En(I don't) puhu(speak) suomea(Finnish)

Now, lets jump to hi and hello-

Mita(add dots in a)Kuuluu ?
How are you ?

samoin- same
anteeksi-sorry
ei se mitaan(puts the dots in a's)-I apologies

If you wish to say NO(Ei, En, Em) these are used depending upon the verbs used in Finnish.

viikonloppua- holiday
lomaa-christmas
joulua-summer

One of the basic question when you arrive to Finland in the Helsinki airport and somebody may ask you that

Minka(add dots in a) maalainen sina(add dots in a) olet ? that means-
Of which nationality are you ?

Olen suomalainen (Finnish)
amerikkalainen(American)

carry on and add "lainen" at the end of name of the countries.But their are some exception to this.

Do remember to say that if you are not Finnish then tell,

Oletko sina(add dots in a) suomalainen ?
Are you finnish ?
Joo, olen- Yes I am
En ole suomalainen- No I am not Finnish.
Olen italialainen- I am italian.

Now, Some more basics- Kuka sina(add dot's in a) olet ? which means who are you ?
Mina(add dots in a) olen mybheja. (I am mybheja)


One of the important word for both male and female is "han" it means both "he/she". This is one of my favorite. I like it because even two boys can marry in this country and that is legal. No proudly girls anymore !

Let's now learn some numbers-(Numerot)

yksi-one
kaksi-two
kolme-three
nelja(dot's in a)-four
viisi-five
kuusi-six
seitseman(dots in a)-seven
kahdeksan-eight
yhdeksan(dots in a)-nine
kymmenen-ten

yksi+toisa-eleven

Now add toista in those above numbers. Let's say you have to multiply(kerta) two numbers.

seven(seitseman) * seven(seisteman)= fourteen(neljatoista) and so on...

20= kaksikymmenta (add dot's in a)
27=kaksikymmentaseitseman (add dot's in a)

and add "kymmenta" at the end and so on.

These are some basic Finnish language, which are not enough but these will make you a bit comfortable when you come to visit in Finland for the first time and you do not have to be embarrassed like me. When I came here for the first time, I asked something with an old man and he did not replied anything. I was shocked and I thought well, It may be because either he is deaf or I am stupid. But later I came to realize that if Finnish people do not know anything they won't speak.

"you will succeed in every way, if you know what to say."

It is very fascinating and interesting to be here in Finland. If you are human-you must at least visit this country once in your life time because, here lives a nature god. I will talk about this later in much more detail. Now, Some of vulgar words also coming up which you will never forget. The missing dot's in the world is here. You need to have heart and courage to find it.

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Learn Language

Learning a language can be very difficult task. Suppose you visit to some different country and you do not know anything about that countries language, the people their also do not know a common language as we have "English" or some how they hate it. Imagine being in such situation !

What is your options ? Either you run away from that country or you have to learn the language of that country. What is the best for you ? It is a very good to learn something. The people of that country will appreciate if you can speak their language. Why ? Because it gives some kind of personal touch to their country, culture and feelings.

Some people find it very difficult to learn language, take an example of me. I am not very good at learning language. I hate it some how why ? What I think is you got to have some motivation, some level of deep motivation to learn a language plus the capability to learn a language. Why should I learn a language if we have one common language and we all should communicate in that common language. But I know many people will disagree with this attitude.

It is very good that at least we have one language in world which is common. Imagine a situation where their is no common language and you have to learn.How many language you can ask a person to learn ? The life is very limited. As life is limited and temporary everything else is temporary. It is good and positive sign that we share one thing in common and that common is the language called English.

"Sharing is loving", Sharing one common language is good but learning different languages is not good. I am in the situation where I have to learn, I must learn and I will try my level best to learn new language because everything that is easy to others i am feeling it difficult to learn.
If Mr. X can do it, why not me ? Well, it depends on the level and the understanding but I will try to pass it this time, a new language.

If not, their is always next time !

Language is a form of code word people developed for the communication between their tribes, group or community in history. We live in divided world that is why we have so many different languages and different culture, religion. It is very interesting that we have different languages, culture and religion which can be termed as change.

Change is a cycle which revolves around the time. It cannot happen without the time or movement. If somebody will ask me what is time ? I would say that time is movement. We move and that will give us the very next second.

//Language algorithm, developed by mybheja.
//05th March, 08
//Use it, learn from it and pass-on but do not copy it

language(main)
{

if (you are a newbie and want to learn a language),
{
the first thing you need to know is- ask yourself.
}

else
{
Are you motivated for that country?
Are you going to stay forever in that country ?
Do you desire to get married and settle in that country?
}
if(your answer is yes),
{
you must learn a language of that country.
}
if (your answer is no),
{
learn little bit to escape from being shame of yourself and run away.But do appreciate what you have learn.
}

//end of language algorithm

The above algorithm is true in any case. Do remember you are not eligible to copy the algorithm without my prior consent. See the Disclaimer section in the end of the page. Therefore, you can do one thing-try, try and try until you die.


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Read my Mind

What is the necessity of reading my mind.? I am an ordinary human being living in ordinary earth with ordinary thoughts and vision. I am no VIP (Very Important Person), I do not belong to higher class, nor do i belong to middle class and nor to lower class because my mind says that i do not have class.

My friends, family and people near to me will say that i belong to one country in the north but my mind says i do not have any country. Every body is thinking about the profit in every things they do. I am not thinking about any profit at least my mind does not thinks on that but you will not agree on it, will you ?

My mind is a stupid mind. It is not a man's mind nor can I say its a women's mind. I know it because it is just a mind. People say i am jealous, proudy kind of human but my mind says i am perfect. If i says these words that also means that i say through my mind. Everything is temporary that is what my mind says.

We are random particle in motion their is always two things that is differentiating the whole world. For e.g. good Vs bad, right vs wrong and bad vs ugly, true vs lie and so on. Why are we biased ? What is the necessity of being biased as we are.

Once I wrote an article and showed to a teacher she said, "Kalwar, "you can write without breathing". Why can't you just put some paragraph in between and maintain the blog. As a obedient student I like her way of thinking about me so I am improving doing that. This is the process of learning.Learning never stops, till the last breath we take in our life we will learn and it won't stop there.

Today's world is creating the difference not in every body's mind but they are usually differentiating the whole world, world will not be better place to live until and unless we believe in change and we adopt to that change.

To sum up, Why should people read my mind ? People should read my mind because the mind you are reading is about the ordinary human who lives in ordinary world and a simple human mind will try to give you thousand and one lesson than a mind of a very important person. Know his mind you will find many things similar to your own mind.

Ideas are generated by imagination ...

We all are different, that is good.
We all act differently, that is good.
We all have our idols, good.
We all think, very good.
We all are humans. (Written by human)

Can a monkey write- We are researching on it.
Can a chimpanzee think-Research
Can male will give birth -Research
Can we survive for ever-Research

What is relationship ?
I would say a ship, which has relation with water. A water which has relation with the object called ship. They both touch each other. Can you find the keyword in above two sentence ? If you can then good but if you cannot don't worry. The keyword is "touch".

The water has no problems with the ship,when it touches it and so on. The ship also has no problem with water. They can touch each other but imagine when water suddenly say's that you cannot touch me.

What would ship think and do ? Ship will say please i beg you, i ask you and i really need your help, i want to touch you-let me do it otherwise i could not move. When ship begs or request or ask for permission then slowly water starts thinking that it is the most important thing. The ego is created in water, the ego which says without it nothing is possible.

Now, despite the fact that ship has to move on why could not it move. Either it has to leave the sea, or it has to be be stationary-which it cannot do.

Therefore ship leaves the sea and the door is closed for ship and water in that sea.
Now, ship is moved in the place where their is no water. what is the next solution ?
How can a ship be moved ? Gentleman, do you have any idea.

"Ideas never die."
"Ideas are generated by imagination,imagination is knowledge and knowledge is power."(Quote generated in 0.000079seconds in my mind).

Now, Suddenly what happens is ship is puzzled, surprised and starts behaving as if he is alive now. How ?. It feels the drop of rain in its body. From no where their is rain falling heavily. It pours for 1 month continuously and the ship where it was laying becomes sea.

This is brief description of what people called today as relationship. Try to understand putting two humans, two different sex partners or same and what so ever. You will get some idea because idea .....

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Extraordinary%20Relationships%20Pic%20I.JPG )

Drop your ego

Life is filled with truth, auspiciousness and beauty these are their major keywords or variable which drive our daily life but our self is filled with a false ego. Samael Aun Weor and Jiddu Krishnamurti in their book “The Revolution of the Dialectic” and “The Ending HarperSanFrancisco” Sated that an ego is often associated with mind, sense of time which thinks in order to be assured of its future existence, rather than simply knowing its own self and the present.

As long as the ego lives, we may not experience true beauty but our mind will be filled with dreams of expectations that define beauty in a subjective way. Ego is nothing but a self image of who we truly are. This self image projects a reality defined by the expectations of the ego. When these expectations are not fulfilled, it creates its own resentments and regrets. These create a life of deficiency called 'World' and life becomes a movement from incompleteness to incompleteness. If one increases one's awareness, which is a part of meditation, one realizes that resentment is nothing but a mental resentment to what has happened.

It is a negative emotional fight of some unalterable past. Like a broken record one replays, relives the past injuries. Then they become mental constructs which project a subjective reality and hence we never see the objective reality. This mental construct act as a thermostat. To change the temperature of the room one has to reset the thermostat, to change the temperature of the internal room one has to drop the ego. While listening to the chirping of the bird or music hear the foundation or the backbone of the sound. Look at the bird or the musician and see the formless presence in the form.

Every form exists in a formless presence. A form is defined by the formless. It is only in the contrast the forms gets defined. This formless is the backbone of the form. Thoughts are moving. Any movement is change. Change is the only thing that is permanent in this world. Change happens in the changeless presence. Thoughts are internal sounds. See the soundless space while noisy thoughts are moving. When one deeply "sees", then one sees a formless, soundless, changeless presence as the backbone or foundation of life. The Real Being is not the “I” but the intimate transcends any type of “I”. Being is the reality and this principle cannot be contained in any self image and hence self image is a prison in which most of us live.

To become a free of ego is not the big job but a very small one. It is our self decision. The decision which has to be done by owns self not with someone else even if some one is very attached or deeply rooted with us. It is like we are bounded by great prison and we need to find some passage to drop the prison or escape it therefore To drop this prison is enlightenment.

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Object near us.

When we are in one place, one country and one culture the main idea is that we get acquainted with the object around it. What I mean to say is Suppose we are in one country for some specific period of time then we start being close to that country, their people, culture and tradition.

We get used to the things we are close to us and some way we develop a mechanism where we talk with them. I know it is funny but this is what happens. We talk with these object and when we are alone these object will teach us many different things in many different ways.

When we go to the new places suddenly then it is difficult for us to get used to that place, the object close in that place and basically those objects thing that why to talk with this person ? Why to trust him ? What is that we will have common in us ? Therefore it is difficult for both us and elements present around us to communicate.

Now there is also many different issues,which are unnoticed. The main issue is it takes time to adopt, get acquainted and feel the environment or get used to it. But I would rather say Time is movement. When we move we generate or go step further and that is time.

Well, take an example of being alone in a room for some 1 year and suddenly move to another place and to another room. Will their be any difference ? The answer is given above. But you can surely argue this with me because we live in free world and every body has rights to express their opinion and we should value each of them.

Good Morning to you all.

Hyvä huoämentä ! Corrected one -after receiving a comment(Hyvää huomenta!)I don't know weather the two brave words that I am trying to use are correct or not but the meaning is Good Morning. Therefore A very good morning to me and to whole world waking up.

I am not johnny depp. No one would find any interest in reading my personal life. But the fact is I am not maintaining the blog because no one would read but to give the lesson that I am learning and that I have learn in my life to others through it. I am not going to tell you my story but the imaginative one.

Once in a beautiful land located Northern part of world was a person who was committed to what he spoke. He was so deeply rooted by his principals that he could do whatever he said. It was his principal and the way he lived his life. But the way of living a life was narrowed since people think, act and behave differently. His principal was whatever he said he will commit, do and deliver till his level best otherwise he would not say anything about it. Their were people who he was connected to but those people would not realize it. He was trying to convince them but very few of them understood what he was going through.

We are all ordinary human beings, we should live a life for others ....blah ..blah ...blah......... these are old way of saying and dealing day to day life. The new approach is...

I am rocking tonight at party, are you going to come in the gay suit today. You were looking so F&&¤ beautiful tonight. Me and my friends rocked the entire place. ........blah blah and blah... This is new approach of living a life in 21st century.

"Everything that is difficult for others is easy to me and everything that seems easy is difficult."

If I have written this quote it belongs to be because it was created some 7 seconds earlier in my mind and my keyword wrote it in this article. Creation is an art of mind which are randomly generated not collected.

But, these are boring to me again ! Welcome to the reality and the reality is very early in the morning so Good Morning to one and all. To the early sunrise which has touched its rays in the lake Saimaa stating that I am awake, I will provide energy and food to you all. To the chirping of birds which are getting ready to find some food for their baby birds and To the entire human beings who are getting ready to read, write, learn, make love,drink a morning coffee, see the beauty etc etc. My good morning to you all.


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Closed

Life teaches you thousand lesson at every moment of the time. We do not actually realize it. It is just the matter of self-realization rather than asking with some one else about it. Every doors are closed for me. I am alone. I am empty and hollow.

I do not want to blame others because I know I have learn some lessons in life that is close to me and my heart. I really want to thank from the bottom of my heat to those who are helping me for my cause and will help me (as I need them badly).

Today I will give you an example of going to the shopping mall. Me and one of my friend we decided to go to shopping mall but the unfortunately the shopping mall was also closed. I think it was the time of evening at around 6pm and it was the closing time. Therefore It was closed. I was trying to connect my laptop to the local visible network available for all but it was also closed.

Everything that seems to me which was open is closed. No doors open for me anymore. I am alone and hollow, empty with me and my loneliness. I am being some kind of pessimistic because of my lack to maintain the relationship. I could not some how maintain the relationship with any one around me. I don't know any reason for it. I am not good at maintaining any sort of relationship Sometimes it makes me even more nervous and afraid.

I am going into deep silence because I know my problems would be with me and me alone. I am going into deep silence because the problems what i am facing is created by me and i am the one who has to find some solutions for it. Others around me will give me advice which are like giving lecture in boring Monday morning.

It does not mean that i am trying to focus or hurt on any body or any person but it means I am alone and i do not have anything to tell anyone. I am living in darkness and the sunlight yet has to show up to me. Only thing I know now is-" I don't know when ?"

M

The letter "M" can have thousand different meaning. If you see it, it is just a letter but once we start seeing it or longer than 2 sec then we start interpreting the letter to make words.

The mind will tell us not just to stop by seeing the letter "M" but to start thinking on our own and making the assumption based on the letter "M". This is how our mind works. We first see the things or object and then we start making our own views of that object.

No body tells us anything about it. It basically comes from the level of knowledge we have acquired and the level of our understanding and learning. It also depends on how fresh our mind thinks on various aspect of object or matter or things. It is our way of looking the letter M.

To some people M really means money, to some it might mean "Men" and to some it also can mean "Move" or what so ever. This is our interpretation and our way of thinking about it. When we are in need of money then the first thing we will think about the object M is Money. When we are in need of desire and we want to get wet we will think of Men and when we are in the state where we can help others it might also mean Morality. It also can be "Mess" when we are disturbed or more specifically when our mind is disturbed.

Their was one person named Veronica she was very beautiful and her mind was constantly changing all the time. She could not decide what she wants in her life. She asked to me,"I do not know what is that going in mind". Will you tell me what I want. I have everything, I have good job, I have good salary and I have very beautiful car but despite having all those things I am not feeling well. I could not figure out what I want in my life.

I told her that you have everything. You are completely fulfilled with all those things that you ever wanted but the main thing you are missing is love in simple terms and sex in real terms.Its not just sex you need but the satisfaction in sex. Do not get me wrong but the fact is I don't know if you had sex or not but if you had sex you are lacking that satisfaction in sex. What I think is their are always two level of satisfaction in the sex both from men and women perspective.

The person whom you are engaged with will surely is lacking something which is not making you satisfy or he could not satisfy you. It might be also the way you look at that person(object) or he looks at you(object). What we see lies in our way of thinking.

She asked again what should i do now ? I could not understand your speech, its very philosophical and boring. I said in simple terms- First concentrate, Second be silent and third take rest for a week or two. What do you mean to say ?, "Veronica asked". Do you ever remember when was the last time you visited the church ? She said, "it has been very long time". The places like church, temples and holy places similar to that are for all humans go visit and concentrate to know your self. So, The very first task you do is concentrate. She started visiting the church thereafter for couple of weeks regularly whenever she felt and slowly everything went fine with her. Couple of days back she called me and said- "Thank you".


This is the first phase of living a life. She got passed in the first phase so I do not have to tell her other phases and their are many different things in the first phase itself.Therefore "M" can stand for either "Men", "Money", "March","Moral" ...

It all depends on our way of thinking and realizing about any object or things.


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Life without you.

I am really depressed, sad and hollow. I am empty and blue. I am feeling bad about myself because I know you are not with me. I am alone, I do not trust anybody because I know nobody does trust to me. Some times I have the feeling that I should kill myself but again I remember that I am not alone anymore.

Who should I live for ? Is it for you who is very far from me or Is it my loneliness that possibly would be filled. I cannot imagine you in someone else arm because I am jealous about loosing you. I cannot say weather I love but I know I cannot live without you.

Are marriages made in heaven ? If yes, then where is this place ? I am stupid that I am asking so many questions but its not with some body else I am asking it to but with myself. I read an article about Osho today and he said that life is not about birth and death it is far more important and difficult to understand then it.

I do not want to know about life or love but I want to be close with you. How is it possible for me to quit everything and close to you ? I know the simplest solution is the most difficult to take. What is their in you that reminds me that I cannot live without you. What is that you can give it to me which I cannot live without.

People do thousand and one thing to impress their partner, girl friend and wife but what should i do to impress you despite the fact that i know you do not expect anything like me. Are we really destined to each other ? People might wonder and ponder after saying so many words about you I am asking the question are we destined for each other.

Why is that marriage fall apart and girl friend of many guys leave their boy friend ? Isn't it very difficult to answer. I like this word called difficult because everything that seems difficult to others is easy to me and everything that seems easy to others is very difficult for me.

The answer to the question is that every girl have one thing in common and that one thing is that they are jealous of other girl. Every women can either be very good to other women or either will be very god enemy. Most of the times women hate other women. They cannot see other women progress. Why ? It is because women are jealous and they are thinking too much. Sometimes they do not even think but they pretend they are thinking.

It is easy to say that they always expect the unexpected from their partners also. When their partner do not give or satisfy or could not some how satisfy her do not get me wrong with the word satisfy- it doesn't necessarily mean sexual satisfaction but the satisfaction of all kind then women start getting bored. They behave irrationally they will do something stupid which will irritate the man, boy friend and a husband. This phenomenon is usually happening therefore most of the marriages, relationship do not last long.

Do not believe me but try to learn those golden words what came just from the scratch. You will believe me when you will trust me and it is difficult to trust somebody so easily. Trust starts from the letter "t" which I have given the meaning "t"=truth and the ending of letter in word "trust" is "t" again which also means "t"=truth.

This is how I have understood and this is my philosophy of understanding the English words. I do not know history and I do not want to know them anymore. If you trust me then you will see the meaning of these words. To get an solution to an individual problem you have to have patience and wait because what I am learning is what I am presenting it.

Life without you is life without meaning, without any reason, without any climate and without any motive. I really don't know if i will be alive to see you. If I will be, I would like to die in your arms. Wish you were here to see what I am going through, everything we wish does not come true and with everything their is again nothing...Life without you...

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Some words on life.

Life is all about pain. It is similar like meditation or one can say it is a deep rooted meditation which ends with our end. Every individual has to face the pain. Every human entity living on this earth has to go through the pain.

If you are in love and your hands are not close with your partner despite that also you have to continue being loved or be in love with your partner. Life is smile where we cannot figure out how much pain we are living with it. "Heart has reason which the reason cannot know." Love is love and life is life.

Life is a guest and one day it has to leave this earth. It is full of pain and one day we have to laugh and pass it.

Eat, Sleep and Drink Cricket

For those like me, over-exposed to the old school tie, summers in heart of Chitwan and fascinated to hear latest news on Cricket commentary, cricket was always more than a game; it won't be wrong if I say we were eating, sleeping and drinking cricket, it was a way of life and the most worthwhile contribution of a much-reviled Empire.



It was a self-fulfilling world which encapsulated robust values, from strategic thinking to fair play. My childhood cricketing heroes were those who combined skill and elegance with lordly amateurism - 'gentlemen' like Richie Benaud, David Gower, Sunil Gavaskar and Sachin Tendulakar.7 years ago, I even made a to National level competition held in the Kathmandu - the summer retreat of the redoubtable Kathmandu weather was awesome. It was a small homage to an age that is long gone, when money was never discussed in polite company and gentlemen who were involved in the game had private incomes.

It seems that we are developing together as a team; we are into news by the name of gentlemen game. Seeing at neighboring country India and its team it seems that in days to come, there will be more populist outrage at the effrontery of investing in Indian cricket Rs 6 crore in M S Dhoni when indebted farmers are committing suicide next door in their land. Eyebrows will also be raised at the logic of ignoring promising Indian talent for foreign has-beens. But Why, yet others will ask, are we not putting all our eggs in the cricket basket? Surely football, Karate and marbles deserve a break. Everyone has some gripe about a perfect free market. Pandering to popular tastes is held to be ''common''; it offends aesthetic sensibilities. A free-marketer I know, for example, was livid when great football players was awarded the National honors. Why can't we do the same for Nepali Cricket Players?

It is worth investing money on Nepali cricket as it takes the brand name of country and culture it presents in global world. We can even see the progress we are making by entering Final of U-19 Plate championship. What some people view as debasement, others regard as opportunities. Till the World Cup in South Africa showed the way, few people appreciated the potential of 20-20 cricket. Today, every impresario worth the name believes that this shortened version of the game constitutes the future in a hurried world. And if Mallika Sherawat doing an 'item number' to celebrate every lofted shot into the stands livens proceedings further, what's the harm? It's good capitalism.

The Cricket Association of Nepal (CAN) should actually only be tangentially about cricket. It is doubtful during my existence whether Wisden will even record the scores of the Kathmandu versus Chitwan encounter, nor will club loyalties develop instantly. We need to take the initiatives as soon as possible. Russian billionaires buy football clubs in Chelsea and mansions in Hampstead to signal their coming of age. In Nepal we have not done anything till date; as a cricket reactionary, I mourn the tinsel-isation of a way of life; as a nationalist I salute those who had the audacity to think big.

Who cares if the whole thing is very bling - the hallmark of the arriviste? What matters is that cricket now should belong to Nepal. Or at least we can think of making it our national pride, certainly in near future.

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Falling

The word "falling" is totally negative. I don't want to perform postmortem on this word because I do not know grammar meaning of the word. Whenever we say that we are in love it means that we are falling in love or we have fallen in love. The falling is an negative approach. By falling in love we are not being positive but we are in negative land itself.

The idea here is very old and it may be traditional but the conceptual analysis of the word speaks a lot in itself. Why are we falling in love and not rising in love ? Why didn't we use the term "I am rising in love" rather than "I am falling in love" We only know how to use it we do not know how to create it. I may be wrong on this latter sentence but I think I am right on it.

Everything is given to us and presented in front of us, we are using them. Why cannot we create them instead of using them ? Well, if some English men is reading this he will surely be against my writings and might say i am crazy or i do not know how to write or even something absurd. Coming to my point, Why cannot we create the English words or modify them in our way in such way that we use them in our daily life ? We cannot we are not the creators of these words. Whoever the creator was and which ever country claims it belongs to them. It should be made easier to use and made comfortable to speak.


The idea here is that we are negatively using the term falling, may be in love we fall but why ? Why don't we rise in love ? Why is it so important than any other things is whole world ? It is important to maintain the stability in earth. It is important to maintain calm, peace and warmness in our heart, mind, body and soul.It is important every time, every where and any moment.

The day their won't be the love their won't be this earth we are living in. Their won't be existence of man kind. Their won't be you and their wont be me. It is because of this term called "love" we are bounded to each other and we like each other. It is two way process where one gives and one takes. Also, one takes and one gives and so on.

Falling of snow, falling of rain, falling of apple and falling of sun ray in the earth teaches me that we are in land where everything is going to fall one day. It is just the matter of time. How many of you fall asleep expecting you are going to rise tomorrow morning again. If you expect that you are going to rise tomorrow again then you are following the routine, if you do not expect anything then you are being yourself. Makers are men, Creators are leaders who do you wish to be ?

The whole concept of writing this article is to give you the inspiration about life, to know your self and to understand the concept of falling. Isn't it beautiful early morning-you wake up and see everything around you falling and you are dumbstruck. Imagine, Imagination is beautiful learn learning will give you knowledge to survive and struggle but never fall because falling is negative.

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Paulo Coelho

The combination of two words for one of the phenomenal great writer in this century is Sir Paulo Coelho. His writing are exceptionally very nice and wise. One cannot explain why I am writing these words on this man but I should appreciate what he is doing. He is multi talented human. You can see in his eyes everything that you are going to get from him.

Those written words by him will always remind us of wisdom and will help thousand others in their life some way or another. I just saw couple of videos of him. He has come up with new book called "The witch of portobello".

I hear him saying that writing is very lonely process where one become alone but when he comes out of that aloneness then he realizes that he has great impact in society, country and most importantly people's mind.

I really appreciate what he is doing for human kind, peace and prosperity of society and countries. He is exceptional writer and thousand people like him just because you can trust him, you can trust his words and you can learn from his words. Well done Paulo !

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Words

I do not want to speak, I am dumb,deaf and I do not know what are the values of these words. I am lazy, I am crazy and I have no words to express what I am going through. I do not have job,I do not have those thing that I wan to have. I do not care about them, as long as I know those things are temporary to me why should i care about them.

Life is like this and i like it the way is is for me. I am alone, I am freezing and I am cold. I do not want to see any sun because i know i do not get what i want and its not my wish that will bring the sun. I am depressed but i know that depression is temporary. I do not feel like walking but I know I have to because that will teach me something that i do not wish to learn.

What is wrong with me ? Am I going mad ? Am I acting like I have been to different world doing nothing. I have a beautiful life,why I am hating this life ? What is wrong that I have done ?

These are the symptoms of the depressed person. Whenever we get depressed we talk with ourselves and we talk something similar to these words but why ? Do not ever ask why because their is no answer to why ? Always ask to yourself that how can i make some difference in myself and my society, my organization and my country.

We have thousand golden moments but we do not use them properly. There are some people who live for just one moment in their entire life. There are such kind of people also. Why are we worried we have entire life ahead of us to worry. Let us cheer up ! Let us do some crazy things that we wish to do or that we have kept pending in our life. Do whatever you wish to do and act however you wish to act.

If you live the life for yourself you are smart enough to live a life but if you live a life for others then you are intelligent enough to yourself and if you wish to do the both then you are wise enough for others.

I don't know if you can understand what I have written but I do not care-its my nature to check or cross verify what I speak or what i write. Everything is words-do not get into the trap of words but do get into the trap of your self, your intellect and your passion to go ahead or rather look ahead. Keep up the spirit and move ahead.