Showing posts with label being strong. Show all posts
Showing posts with label being strong. Show all posts

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Some Blah Blah

A very good bright and sunny saturday morning with brightness and light all the way which brings smile to every one's face. It creates a joyous environment to people and the people around such that every body believes that life is to life fully, without any tension, sorrow and unpleasant moments.

Imagine being alone for 100 years. Without some one, without your love, without the sense of girl or scente of women you are alone. Every body is with their life, their partner living like they would live but when you are alone you are with yourself. You do not need anybody. It is you and your love for yourself.

The beauty of life lies not in death but it lies in the way you live a life. You should enjoy the moment do not try to enjoy the end. It does not matter the way you do your work only thing that matters is the way you do it.

The destination is the end. The destiny is findings, search for the end. When we search for the end we should concentrate first on the path we are taking. Concentrate on the path not the destination.

Like the oceans in the sky, like the clouds seen in the river and like the twins who seem very alike. We too are alike. We need to find out the real meaning about it.
Depression is not the answer for being depressed. The cause results it. The cause of any kind of depression is only because of the problem and unpleasant tackling with the problems. Let us see what would be suitable for each of us.

Like the Yesterday's picture which carries all the countries we are divided into two different parts but one thing is clear. Either we are male of female we are the same from the back.

See the person from the back side we all have common thing, similarly we are same from one corner of our mind, our life, our culture to others. We need to find it for ourselves.

People are now a days not in mood to find out the reality for it only because we are lacking the culture and the destiny we are lacking the path that creates the destiny we do not lknow aht is goin on in our mind but we are just dong it for the sake of doing it. We do not know aht we are doing, because we know that wqe are unknown. Wehn we are unknow about rhe thingsthat we are doing then how can we know aht we are doing ? We are living and we do not know what is sole purpose fo living.

Sometimes it piss me off, when we trie to find otu the rality behind the real, the virtuality behind the virtual and the nature behind the nature of nature itself. It is difficult but to se edxtent only. It might look absurb but it is not.

The blah and blah stories ends here. We will rather talk something intereresting later. Have ag odo weekend and do the rest what you ewant to do in your life with all the things that you feel doing, doing is now and you should do it now.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Oh my love.



Last night, I watched a good music recommended from a friends website. It was amazing. It somehow relates to my own life in different way. I do not want to explain it publicly. How good and beautiful that song is, The meaning I understood is some what I would like to tell you here. It is from the movie and I have not yet seen the movie.

The song has a deep meaning, meaning stating that do not forget the tears that flowed, do not forget the long nights that I remembered for you, do not forget all those moments that I waited for you.

The song asks for a love, just to see the glance or second of the person's love. The person wants to meet some one in love. She is far far from him. The gentleman is waiting and he says he will do anything for her, just to see her. The gentleman is in the state of dying, he could not live without her. He wants to meet her but he could not.

He says to his love that do not forget seas which has seen him crying, do not forget the day which separated them apart. Love grows with time, as the wine improves every year love become stronger like a wine.

Imagine a situation where you want to meet your love and you are in the stage of dieying, you are lieying in the deathbed, you have not confessed your love for her. You have not said even that "you love her". How would you feel ?

You last breath depends on it, you cannot die only because you want to say one lovely, statement to the person who is far far away from you. The person whom you never knew that you love. The person who always loved you.

Love is the beauty which is indescribable. As the world is changing, the way of doing love or being in love is also changing, we say even when we do not mean it. We talk even if we do not know what we are talking, we think we are in love even if we do not know what "love " is.

Aloneness is the first lesson of Love, it will take time for people to understand what is aloneness. Love is statement of question that has remained unanswered. It is something which cannot be touched, something which do not have smell, it is the beauty which my mind cannot describe.

You do not know you are in love, that is good in that case you are being with yourself, in such situation you know you are being truthful to yourself. It is always good to be truthful to yourself than to act to others that you are just being honest about yourself. Do not do what others want to hear from you. Do what your inner best friend ask you to do.

Oh my love, what wil happen if I am dead and I could not say that "I loved you". Oh my love how would you live without me ? Oh my love, , ,

how would you feel when you will see my dead body lieying besides you, what would i excuse myself of not saying those worlds which your ears always wanted to hear.

Oh my love, I am sorry, It is difficult to be man of words and man of deeds at the same time. Oh my love I am sorry that I would one day hopefully feel the "love " for you.

Their are times in my life where I have not said even once my love for you, I am sorry and please forgive me if i die without saying that "i loved you".

Oh my love, you are the most beautiful person that i have ever met, Oh my love without you life is just as empty as the sea without water, what would sea do if their is no water in it ?

Oh my love, in every steps of your life, My prayers are with you, my blessings are with you and my caring, memories are with you. Oh my love, without you I am without.


(Picture taken from: http://digikuva.yle.fi/
system/files/images/Love.jpg )

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Happy New Year 2065



Happy New Year 2065. We are humans from future. Many people in the world can learn a good lesson from us. HOw ? We can teach people how one can be very close to Nature and learn a lesson from the its environment and surroundings.

Nepal is soon going to write consitutency assembly which is vital for whole country. I would like to say that- Indians we are no longer, Chinese we do not want to become so Let us be true Nepali.

People generally kill the the things they love most. We like something so much that we cannot live without it but generally we do kill those things. It is easy. It is easy to kill the things that you love. We should kill the old political rule, autocratic rule of King and we all know the fact that Nepal was only Hindu Kingdom in the world but we kill that, Now we are secular kingdom.

That was just an simple example. Happy New Year 2065 to all the people in the country, May GOD gives you what you all people desire, want and deserve in life, in society and in country.

One thing we Nepali lack is we need to think beyond we can think. We should not be limited to our thinking. We like our friends, we like to gossip, do chit-chat, have fun with friends, drink, dope, smoke but are we doing any thing except just following the stupid trend ?

Why is it difficult for us to change ? It is very easy.If every Nepali citizen belives in "doing" Our country will surely become "developed". We like the way we are. We are lazy, we do not want to work, we do not want to fight and to some extent it is good not to do anything however it is only good when your brain really needs such moments. It is not good when you make such acitivites as your hobbie.

Playing politics is good but let us leave it to our leaders, we should not play politics among ourselves. It is not good practice. Their are people who do not want to accept the fact, do not want to liste, the biggest problem those people will face is that they will not be able to give. Which means that, It will be easy for them to fake.

People always wants to show off. When I was 15-16 years of age I too was going through the same phase. I liked to show to people that I am the best, Whatever I do are good and whatever I say is correct, whatever others are saying is not correct-I do not want to take what they are saying to me. When you will not accept what others are saying to you or some how you will listen for a moment and you will try to avoid it afterwards then you are being a victim of yourself.

Do not try to destroy yourself, do not be some body else. Just be yourself. Do what you like to do, talk with those whom you like to talk, whereas one thing you have to remember is that-Listen.

Learn from what others have to say. Always remember that we are following the path which has beeen already followed by some one else. The name of those who already have followed the path before might be different, their body, religion, caste, culture might be different but they already have achieved what we are trying to achieve.

Therefore Just don't try to be imitator. If you see Buddha in the street Kill him. Only because "do not try to become Buddha". Try to be yourself.

Nepal is my birthplace where I was born, the land which gave me my space to be what I am now. I like that land. Every body does. Only thing I am trying to say is that do not just focus on your own land. Respect others people land too. Every country is unique, every person is unique and every religion is unique. We do have to respect each other only then we will end war.

My opinions might seem stupid, might be absurd, might be useless but these are my own thoughts and I do not want to blame anybody for that. If you do not like it, do not read it if you like it read it. We all have freedom of speech, space, silence, whatso ever.


This new year let us change ourselves, our mind, the way we think and the way we behave. Let us be true Nepali only by beliving in "doing".


(Picture taken from: http://www.d-travel.com/
images/Nepal-01.jpg )

Friday, April 11, 2008

Unfortunate

Is it a person who is unfortunate.? Why do we use the word unfortunate does not it sound weired ? Why do we think we should use the negative word like un+fortunate. When some one says you that- You are unfortunatly ... How would you feel. Can our feelings be controlled with the word called unfortunate.

Does not it sound like, it was me who was born unfortunate, not getting any job unfortunately, or some times even was born unfortunate. Why is it difficult for us to accept the negative words like that. It is difficult only because we do not want to take it. It is difficult only because we do not consider that we are really unfortunate.

Think about the situation where you are very good at what you do and applied for the job and your recruiter says that you are unfortunately not given the specifici position you applied for. How would you feel ? It really demoralized one's will. Some times what I think is that either you select the person or do not send an email saying those stupid words like unfortunate.

How can you judge a person by seeing to their Resume, cover letter and make a statment like "a person is unfortunate".. It is not a person who is unfortunate never. It is always a company who do not want to take a fortunate people for them. It is their judgement which goes worgn. Many more things comes to play like racism, where you belong from, which languages you speak and so on.

It is difficult to accept those bitter words but one has to accept it. It is in the process of becoming strong. A man always has to face such hurdles many of the times in their life. It is not easy as women because women gets the job easily anywhere in the world.


Welcome to the world where race has not ended, it will not end. GOD sometimes created two color in the planet where Black and White. Later people combined it and made multiple colors. People still have not changed to see multiple colors in the person but they are still beliving that we should be judged by the color of the skin. Black and White is contemporary and opposite. It cannot be same, it will never be same and it won't be same in near future.

The difference is not because of color of skin or just color the difference is created in brain which is limited. Nobody wants to think beyond their limitation. No body wants to open the door for the stranger to come in. Nobody wants to accept other people in their room. Only because we fear.

When fear rules our body, our mind, our soul what can anybody think beside that. Once you overcome fear you will know that you are living a life of MAN. For now, I can tell you that we are living like cowards and we will die cowards.

We represents all of us. We is the symbol says that what we are doing has been done by some one else and we are following the path made by some body else who we call as GOD. We are doing that is good, we are living in "ing" at the end of verb that is good.

I would say that Unfortunate words should be banned in academics, or in real life to be used until and unless it is really required and unless some other human really thinks that other human is unfortunate to deserve the job or deserve to be in the world. We are not unfortunate.

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Human Behaviour

People are so strange and it is very difficult to understand other people. Why should we even care ? When it is needed it is again difficult to understand other around you. Their are many kinds of person and they have many indifferent behavior's.

We can take an example of one person who is very outgoing, friendly, wants to help others and always gives support, help to others and their is another totally opposite of the person I described. People like those who are outgoing, friendly and the first one kind of person but again their are those kind of people too who like later one.

It is proved that based on our thoughts, our feeling and our emotion we make our group and we want to share with them.It might be true to some extent. I do not know much about it. Playing a politics with other people is very easy.

One should always remember that when you play politics with other people or your friend for an example you may even fall in trap of being a victim some time around. It is just the matter of time. In the age of information where every individual wants to share the information or at least is happy sharing info to other around him, how would you feel if your close friends are not telling you the reality?

We can make loud cries and have thousand big thoughts on various topics that we like to such as politics, education, research but one should first realize its importance. People who cannot some how see the success of others are the ones who are full with ego hassles. The problem is not with their thinking but the level of thinking they posses.

Those people are not silent but they would not even tell you what they are doing with others around you. Being alone is not being loneliness or feeling loneliness, Being alone is the first lesson of love.

I can say thousand things on thousand different matters but why would i say if some one does not have any interest to listen it and if it is not beneficial to some one. We have to do good to those who does good to you.


Remember in live, we learn by knowing people by your own country men, by your friends, by observing the things they do around you, by observing any other people around you and by experiencing through events they create.

Learning is the best way to know what you are currently doing. It is an art, an act which is indescribable. It may have theory but it is not concept.

Their are times when you are depressed, feeling that you have not made right choice and thinking that you should pack your stuffs and return these all times tell us one thing- You are fighting.

When you fight with your-self you will know that you are becoming strong and when you will realize you are in process of becoming strong you will become alone, lonely and silent. Welcome to the land of thousand lakes just for the sake of experiencing it.

Sunday, April 6, 2008

In the name of Religion

In the name of religion, people are killing each other. We are easily motivated and get angry when some one says something in the name of our religion. We are like parrot in the sense that one person ask us to do something and we do it on behalf of him.

Let us not be parrot and be the real human being. We should behave properly and accept the message of all the religion. All the religions are different and they are worship in different ways. We belong to one community one society and follow what is done for the well-being of society and community.

The end result of the message of all the religion is "TRUTH", "PEACE", and "FOR THE WELL-BEING OF HUMAN AND SOCIETY". These are the core message of all the religion however they are worshiped and whatever they mean to others.

We all like to share about our own religion, we like to talk more about ours than others only because we know ours and we lack the knowledge of others. Even if we know little about other religion we do not want to talk about other religion only ours.

My country, my world, my religion, my life and my .. are all nonsense and useless. It is useful for some period of time. After that, it will be useless. We all are running in the race of what I call "my"... People hardly find time to go for "ours" Can any one or do you remember any one saying our world, our country, our religion, our life .. No it is difficult to say Ours..

A simple stupid word about the religion will create a havoc in the environment, people will forget who they are and what they are doing. They will start behaving like a wild beast. Soon you will see the fight, war and anger shown to another human just in the name of religion. It is easy. It is easy to create a problems when one can talk about the religion.

Presently their has been a lot of debate about Muslim religion and Christianity. I do not know who did it but whoever has created the difference that difference is dividing the world or let us say creating war and disputes in the mind, body, place, region and in many other places where we would not imagine it will be present.

We want to fight, Those people said something wrong about our great "Allah !" We will kill them, we are Terrorist ...." These are all the words now a days any Muslim will take it for granted. It is easy to fall in the trap without knowing that you are being controlled by some one else.

Another Person for Christianity would say-that black brown guy talked something stupid about Jesus ! Oh God, what the hell he knows about our religion.. these people ain't know anything about our religion ...."

These themes are common to start the fight between a person from Christianity and the person for Muslim community. Have you ever realized that After the end of war their is peace, their is deep silence and nothing is present except sorrow, guilt and depression of doing unhealthy act.

Their are bigger things to worry my dear religious friends, do not fall into trap of yourself by following or being a victim or religion just be yourself. Remember that you are human first, next you are "son, daughter, nephew or what so ever for your family" and then you are country men.. your country .. your culture... your religion comes in this order. If you will prioritize the religion before you are human and if you think my religion is my life.. then you are the victim of controlled.

Do not ever be controlled by some one else always control your mind, brain and body by yourself. Please do it you will realize then the power you can have or will give to this world. The bigger problems in the world are from Nature. Imagine the situation nature can create to you and to us.

Let us help each other to help your life, your country, your religion, your world. Let us get hand in hand to deliver the food for needy, job for jobless and smile to smile less. Let us just do it.

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Mr. X and Miss Y



Life, desires , women and our own values are very huge aspects and subject. What I believe is "Desire of men ends in between the legs of women whereas desire of women ends in between the arms of men."

Suppose, I want to talk with one girl let's give her name Miss Y. Now, Slowly and gradually we talk, we chat, we share our values, we share emotions, we laugh, we walk to get something from each other. Walk in a sense we progress in our relationship. Now, What happens if the desire of Men is unfulfilled, or even he things that it is no longer going to be fulfilled. Should he carry on with the relatinship ? Should he talk with the girl or should he just be in the relationship just carry on like that. Mr. X starts thinking. His feeling is of not what Miss Y might assume "want" of skin but "want" to have a relationship lasting till the end of life.


What will happen if either Miss Y or Mr. X is married ? I do not have answer to this question. Some people might even think that Love is all about giving, love is sacrifise and ... but To them if you think this as a love, My dear friend you don't know what love is. If you think "sex" as love what would define you ?

Why are we in a trap, Going back to story, What happens if Mr. X stops talking with Miss Y and Miss Y wants to talk with Mr. X. Miss Y will always think that she has done some mistake which might have hurted Mr. X but is it so ? Is that Mr. X is hurted. I think he is not. Miss Y will again think that he wants to escape from Miss Y. Is it so, well I don't think so.

If you like some one and if that some one is a Male, please be positive about it. Give him a call and say that "I love you"- If you do not like that Person and "want" to fulfill your desire then leave him. Do not worry about what will happen to that person. But again, if you just want to have simple relationship and do not want to have either desire or love then just be cool, normal and clear about it. If you do not have either of above then forget him.

Mr. X is not escaping from Miss Y, Mr. X is not trying to "avoid" Miss Y but Mr. X has got something that all men do. It is good to say "sorry" but sorry is just a word and "E should always stands for Efforts not for "Excuses". If you want to be in a relationship atleast.

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desire/photos/desire07a.jpg )

Friday, March 21, 2008

Easter, Holi & Eid Mailad u Nabi



From today onwards, Easter festival is going to be celebrated. The festival which is observed by christens, the main theme is to celebrate the resurrection of Jesus. The 2008 date for the celebration is on March 23 (Western) and April 27(Easter).The egg hunts and gift giving is especially celebrated in USA and Canada whereas the family get together, religion services are also celebrated.

Next Fesitval which is very common in Nepal and India is (Hindi: होली), or Phagwa (Bhojpuri), It is a popular, Hindu spring festival, also called the Festival of Colours. In West Bengal, it is known as Dolyatra (Doljatra) or Boshonto Utsav ("spring festival").





Another Occasion is Eid Mailad u Nabi is birth day of HOLY PROPHET HAZRAT MUHAMMAD (SAW), t is most happiest day for whole Muslim Ummah. it is in Muslim month of RABI UL AWAL from ISLAMIC CALENDAR and date is 12 RABI UL AWAL.

"we should be very careful about using some phrases like "All of the Muslims" or "The happiest day of the year". To be more clear, just for your information, I should say that the believers of a big branch of Islam don't believe in this day (Rabi o Aval 12th) as their prophet's birthday. they believe on Rabi o Aval 17th. In addition, there are many parameters that affect selecting one's happiest day of the year, for example some personal reasons like wedding anniversary or some national reasons. For example I also like today as one of the most happy day of the year not for any religious reason but as 21th of March that is ONE of the most historical celebration in human's history named Nowrouz. This is the biggest national Persian celebration. "

(Feeds from :Mohammadhadi Bordbar)



One thing is very common in all these occasions and they are celebrated during this time of year. Why are they celebrated during this time of year all of the three ? What is the reason that Prophet has to born on the same time or during the same period resurrection of Jesus. Why the Holi festival in Asia is celebrated during the same time when their is arrival of spring in west. It is not wrong or it is nothing negative in doing so but the million dollars question is it shows unlike our religion we are same.

We may have different religion, we may follow our own God and Goddess, religion, culture, festivals and so on however, we are the same ! We are same in a sense we are humans. Many of us have forgotten the fact that we are "First Humans" and then "Next-...." We are fighting for land, some one is fighting for money, others do not have peace, many of them do not have food to eat, no houses, buildings, poor deteriorating health etc. Why don't we group together and help each other some how. Why don't we give the help to those who are in need ? It is only because we think that If I have a one penny, when I will give this penny to other - that person will be one penny rich and I will be one penny poorer. It is not like that. If you have one penny that means you have many such penny.

Their are two types of phenomenon one is those types of humans who are "givers", next is those types of person who are only "takers". Especially the former one ,The person who likes to give, is outgoing, extrovert, do not care about any other things, very friendly and always wanting to do for others. "givers have heart full of love, their mind, and soul is some what similar to a vast ocean. A ocean where if you will take a glass of water it won't be empty. They think such a sense that they exit because they want to give whatever they could to this society, country, for their organization and for mother earth.

Next kind of people are those who are "takers", Those who wants to take from others. They are unfriendly, wants more than others have, introvert, not open, always want something from others such kind of people should not be mistaken with those who are in need. Those who cannot do anything by themselves. Takers especially represent to those elite group where we call them as terrorist, where we have a named them as "greatest threat of this time".

These all aspect whatever it might lead and wherever it might go- takes us to one end. Every individual in this earth knows the hard fact that we are born empty, naked and we will die empty and naked. That is why I always say that, "It is not the destination that matters, it is the path we take, a journey to the destination that matters".

To sum up, All these festivals, occasions or whatever you like to call it- Is some how connected is some way. I do not want to make any difference between any of them. We can celebrate these all together, separate as per our wish which results in one common theme. We should not forget that we are one. Some times we end up saying that "Ours is the best" ! In such case, think how far you want to expand the "ours". If you will expand "ours" limitlessly you will end up saying- "We all are best" !


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Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Presence of Over-Confidence in me



I am really some times over-confident. People have negative aspects and I think this is my negative aspect of becoming over-confident at times. It does not mean that we all are perfect but the fact is that we also have to learn from our negative effects.

People think they are perfect. When you think you are perfect and their is no one good or better than you at that very moment you are in verge of becoming egoistic. You are creating within you an ego hassle. If you will become a egoistic person then surely you are not going to listen what others are going to say about you.

I don't know what kind of impression people have for me. I do not care much about it. I do what I feel I should do and I leave the rest to the people around me to judge about me. If you treat person as they are you will make that person worse but if you treat them as they ought to be, then they will become a MAN.

In various aspect of science their are a lot of talk going on understanding the mind of human. It is not difficult topic. I believe (not being over-cofident) though that I can find some thing unusal in this aspect but again I always re-check before I make or do some task. The re-checking some times help and some time it hurts to other. I think I am capable of but again, I should admit the fact that I do not have job.

No one is hiring me. No one think I have the potential to work for their comapny or precious organization. Every dog has its day despite being a Man, I am really worried about my own days.

"Life is a journey where destination does not really matters because we all know where we are going to end it, but the process of reaching to the destiantion does matters".

I am trying to define the term called "life" but I am trying to put something which I think is suitable at present context, atleast for me. We are humans and our brain function in such a way that it has a capability to reach any place, any where in the world in less than seconds. We know this, we already have a background knowledge about it, but we need to prove it to the world that "Presence" of one person brain does not have geographical limit or is not bounded by the boarders.

Imagine a place where you wish to visit and you do not have to really take a journey of reaching to the place but you feel or your senses work in such a way that you are in the place you want to be.

Can this happen ? Yes ofcourse it will be. If I say that they need me, they represent those who are working on this field. They represents those scientist who have every facilites they can imagine, bread to eat and facilites to motive their work.

I am not promising anything but I will try my level best and I believe I can exceed their expectations. I believe in hard work and hard work is chariot of success. Even though sometimes I am over-confident. But My dear friends, to become over-confident you got to be confident first. You cannot become over- just like that.

It does not mean that I take it casual, every thing what I do is based on my logical thinking which seems illogical to many of the people around me. Every body think I am a Mad or physcologically disturbed. To those who think I am Physcologically disturbed they are absolutely correct and "thank you". I admit what I do, I do what I think and I am what I am not what others make of me.


I like to put words in these web page, People called it as blogging. My concept here is that we can talk or write about anything we wish but it should be informative, atleast it should tell about your daily experiences, the way you want to improve your life and the life of others, some thoughts on your mistake, your negative aspect, +ve too and so on.

Now, I have started to feel and headache, It was a long day for me ! See you tomorrow if I am alive. I will return to the new posting again but Imagine I am no more. Who is going to write these craps ? It will be un-noticed, un-touched and no one will view it. Why should they ? I am just an ordinary person, living in ordinary world, an ordianry life.

One day my chapter of life will also get over, this is the end and the best part. It will blink for the final time just like this cursor is bliking whenever I am writing but I am not worried about it. Why should I ? It is the truth understanding, knowledge, something which is vast.

Hope to see you with my new posting. I will write and will try to give you my own expereices of life, my brain, my mind, bheja ... I will try to tell you what am ordinary person like me feels ... I am not trying to attract attention but I am writing what I am currently feeling, what my senses are telling me and What my brain is asking me to do.

My brain is giving me orders- It says, "Just type the word, go to your past and write something ..." I am the slave of my Master. I am following his orders Nothing more.

When you start to loose control of your mind you will absolutely be the person what I will imagine. I can see the person and tell what he is typicall like. It does not mean again that I am over confident but I am confident. Good night ! See you soon in near future, or hope to see you soon !


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Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Read my Mind

What is the necessity of reading my mind.? I am an ordinary human being living in ordinary earth with ordinary thoughts and vision. I am no VIP (Very Important Person), I do not belong to higher class, nor do i belong to middle class and nor to lower class because my mind says that i do not have class.

My friends, family and people near to me will say that i belong to one country in the north but my mind says i do not have any country. Every body is thinking about the profit in every things they do. I am not thinking about any profit at least my mind does not thinks on that but you will not agree on it, will you ?

My mind is a stupid mind. It is not a man's mind nor can I say its a women's mind. I know it because it is just a mind. People say i am jealous, proudy kind of human but my mind says i am perfect. If i says these words that also means that i say through my mind. Everything is temporary that is what my mind says.

We are random particle in motion their is always two things that is differentiating the whole world. For e.g. good Vs bad, right vs wrong and bad vs ugly, true vs lie and so on. Why are we biased ? What is the necessity of being biased as we are.

Once I wrote an article and showed to a teacher she said, "Kalwar, "you can write without breathing". Why can't you just put some paragraph in between and maintain the blog. As a obedient student I like her way of thinking about me so I am improving doing that. This is the process of learning.Learning never stops, till the last breath we take in our life we will learn and it won't stop there.

Today's world is creating the difference not in every body's mind but they are usually differentiating the whole world, world will not be better place to live until and unless we believe in change and we adopt to that change.

To sum up, Why should people read my mind ? People should read my mind because the mind you are reading is about the ordinary human who lives in ordinary world and a simple human mind will try to give you thousand and one lesson than a mind of a very important person. Know his mind you will find many things similar to your own mind.

Saturday, March 1, 2008

M




The letter "M" can have thousand different meaning. If you see it, it is just a letter but once we start seeing it or longer than 2 sec then we start interpreting the letter to make words.

The mind will tell us not just to stop by seeing the letter "M" but to start thinking on our own and making the assumption based on the letter "M". This is how our mind works. We first see the things or object and then we start making our own views of that object.

No body tells us anything about it. It basically comes from the level of knowledge we have acquired and the level of our understanding and learning. It also depends on how fresh our mind thinks on various aspect of object or matter or things. It is our way of looking the letter M.

To some people M really means money, to some it might mean "Men" and to some it also can mean "Move" or what so ever. This is our interpretation and our way of thinking about it. When we are in need of money then the first thing we will think about the object M is Money. When we are in need of desire and we want to get wet we will think of Men and when we are in the state where we can help others it might also mean Morality. It also can be "Mess" when we are disturbed or more specifically when our mind is disturbed.

Their was one person named Veronica she was very beautiful and her mind was constantly changing all the time. She could not decide what she wants in her life. She asked to me,"I do not know what is that going in mind". Will you tell me what I want. I have everything, I have good job, I have good salary and I have very beautiful car but despite having all those things I am not feeling well. I could not figure out what I want in my life.

I told her that you have everything. You are completely fulfilled with all those things that you ever wanted but the main thing you are missing is love in simple terms and sex in real terms.Its not just sex you need but the satisfaction in sex. Do not get me wrong but the fact is I don't know if you had sex or not but if you had sex you are lacking that satisfaction in sex. What I think is their are always two level of satisfaction in the sex both from men and women perspective.

The person whom you are engaged with will surely is lacking something which is not making you satisfy or he could not satisfy you. It might be also the way you look at that person(object) or he looks at you(object). What we see lies in our way of thinking.

She asked again what should i do now ? I could not understand your speech, its very philosophical and boring. I said in simple terms- First concentrate, Second be silent and third take rest for a week or two. What do you mean to say ?, "Veronica asked". Do you ever remember when was the last time you visited the church ? She said, "it has been very long time". The places like church, temples and holy places similar to that are for all humans go visit and concentrate to know your self. So, The very first task you do is concentrate. She started visiting the church thereafter for couple of weeks regularly whenever she felt and slowly everything went fine with her. Couple of days back she called me and said- "Thank you".


This is the first phase of living a life. She got passed in the first phase so I do not have to tell her other phases and their are many different things in the first phase itself.Therefore "M" can stand for either "Men", "Money", "March","Moral" ...

It all depends on our way of thinking and realizing about any object or things.


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Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Do not use word "Deadline"


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Do not use the word deadline. It reminds me of the something negative. It is not good to use the word called Dead+Line. Is something that is not positive. I realize once that we quite often use this word in case of doing some assignments or some exercises or some major or any kind of work. Why do we use the word called Deadline ? Yes, It is quite true that one should use this word in case of the completion of the work but have anybody ever thought this word can also cause you more stress than anything else. Have anybody realize the fact that the word is negative. Dead represent end. End itself is negative and negative can never be positive. Why not use some other words instead of using the word called deadline. Why not to use completion date or something similar. What I think is whoever created this word should banned the word especially in Academic world.

Yes, you can do thousand research on this idea what I am presenting but you will come up with one conclusion at the end and that conclusion which I think is appropriate. Do not use the word called Deadline. Instead some other alternatives. Please. Why ? The word will cause stress in the mindset of every students around the world. There might be some exceptions, their might be some one who will surely disagree but What I think is its not good to use. It causes stress, demoralizes and it demands more. My experience do not tell me that these words should not be used but use it in some funny ways.

It depends on every individual personal interest's towards what he likes and what he do not but the word which is used in academic field a matter of concerns because change is required in this aspect also.

It is just the matter of time when we will completely change the way we speak. Everything we do and everything we are bounded with should be funny and interesting rather stressful and boring.

Monday, February 25, 2008

“Blessed are the peacemakers”


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We all want peace: peace of mind, peace in the family and community, between countries, peace with our environment. There is scarcely anyone who does not yearn for peace. But how many of us are prepared to pay the price of peace? We need to love each other; have compassion and be prepared to sacrifice for one another and work for togetherness and peace. Love and peace will see all people united by the bonds of brotherhood, moving onward, forward. For God and religion cannot and ought not to be kept out of this vision, even though people tend to discredit religion these days. For it is not religion that has failed us, it is we who have failed religion. We only speak of religion; we do not bear witness to it in deeds of daily living, to the teachings of the great prophets.

It is life that is needed, not words. You may recite prayers, chant hymns and sing songs of praise; you may read from the scriptures and frequent places of worship but if you do not imbibe at least some of the wisdom, are you any better than a tape recorder? You may write wonderful commentaries on the Bhagavad Gita or any other world scriptures, but if you do not reflect the wisdom of these scriptures in word and action, how are you any better than a desktop printer? "Blessed are the peacemakers", said Jesus. The world today needs peacemakers, not those who merely talk of peace but those who carry peace within and transmit it to those around them.

True love is selfless. And such love can bring about lasting peace. Why are we not becoming doers and just becoming talkers. Why is whole country in trauma, totally paralyzed, disabling situation. Who is to blame for this? Government, Political Parties, Madhes, Pahadi and who else?

We are suffering from a problems and that should be considered a problem for Nepalese not just Madhesis, Pahadi or any other parties or communities. The problem is common for all of us, and we should try to find a common solution for it instead of fighting with each other. When are we going to do this? I am certain that till the day I am alive, I am not going to see peaceful Nepal. I will not expect my country to develop as long as I am alive- I will not believe in any politicians because I know they do not speak the truth now what is that I am expecting from my motherland? I am expecting just a peace.

Am I asking too much for this? As a common Nepali citizens, denizens we all have right to ask for the term called peace but as Jesus said, “Blessed are the peacemakers” Let pray that we can soon see those peacemakers for our country, by our country and in our country.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Researcher Mr. X

"Give me a bread to eat, I will give you idea for research"

What do you think people of this quote ? Do you think Mr. X has potential of doing research, forget about the idea it comes secondary. There is a person say Mr. X and he has a capability to do the research. He knows he can go beyond any body's expectation he knows how a person can fly and he knows what he is talking about. Only thing is that he do not know how to survive. Take an example of Gautam Buddha he knew what he wanted in life he went beyond the word called love. He left his family, children and his palace. Why ?

Those people are great or become great who give sacrifices what has you done for the sacrifice ? Why do you call yourself as researcher if you have not done any sacrifices and you have not found something new. Researcher is very good tag given to many people in many world. It means that you are capable of finding something new and innovative, something beyond some one expectation, something or some useful info beyond any body's imagination.

There was this person called Mr. X once upon a time- He had a very good capability to find the new things but his capability was hidden. He could not found any solution to his problems. He was lonely despite being with thousands of his friends. He liked every body but every body has some different opinion about him. He regarded every one as the same but he was treated differently by every one. It does not mean that he didn't like how he was treated but he liked the way people treated him. He was very funny, some time very intellectual and sometime very boring to his friends but then he started to realize that whatever he does and whatever he is doing is actually good and It is his daily mood that makes a climate or let's say he thought something similar, it is his way of thinking that makes his world and so on. The story was the beginning of his era then after suddenly he has to struggle in the complicated world for his survival. He could not find the suitable environment where he can live up to his expectations and deliver what he is really capable of. Suddenly he realized that nothing is in our hand and we are bound by some imaginary force which i sour life. We just do what we feel doing, we just go if we like to go and we eat what we wish to eat but one thing that is not in our hand is the unexpected event that occurs in between what we think and what we achieve.

This is the reality. Let me give you one example. Suppose I want to go for shopping and I decide to go to shopping. Now When I am ready to go for shopping, I just start walking towards the shopping mall. Unfortunately I fall down in the road but don't know why ? Who is the creator of this event ? I never decided to fall down in the middle of road, but who did this ?

Another example I am preparing a food and I was chopping a potatoes but again while chopping a potatoes I chopped by own finger. Who decided to do this ?

Was it me who wanted to cut my own finger ? Of course not, as I am selfish of my life as all human beings are. Then the big question is who ? That big question is the mystery and we call that mysterious thing is done by some mysterious person called God, or Unknown or Some Vague concept or what so ever.This is what we need to find out ! Can you do it ? Just give a try ! If not, then Mr. X can but one problem is their with Mr. X and that problem is clearly stated in the quote.
(Mr. X is unknown, mystery and totally factious.)

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Both Kills


It reminds me of the day when I just wanted to show off. I wanted to hear from my friends that I am a play boy. I like when people called me "Santosh, This guy is crazy.. Girls are crazy for him. He can easily flirt any girls in this whole planet.." It really was fascination and kind of humorous environment when friends around you talk about it. We used to have loads of fun together. It seemed to me that I am cool and Whatever be the situation I used to smoke. I remember that I used to live without a food but I cannot live without smoke. I don't know why but It was just like that. One day everything change- Let's keep it as personal secret for a while. The picture will tell you why. When we are in relationship we are addicted to some thing. Even before being in relationship or after it or in relationship. I don't know about others people experience but mine was like this. Both kills ! Wow, Every man would love to see the naked women in his young age, Well if you would not like to see a naked women while you are young then you should join Some other group. But Every normal Man would like to see a nice beautiful girl with good boobs, and with great ass. If you ask Mr. X his first impression will directly go to either a girls ass or to girls boobs. Why ? Well, we are born like that. "The day we stop seeing them the day we wil die." One of the beautiful creature if god exist then he has made. May be it might be the case that God made a women and then he was vanished because he thought I do not need any body else neither me nor any one to control this planet. So, He went off or He resigned from his job and we were left in the beauty of women. Now The creator needs to destroy the creation. How ? Well we are all made by the same creation I am talking about and we are killing each other or being killed because of the same creature. Be prepared to be Killed. If you ask me I am now its your turn.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

What is the name of this country ?

Why I am feeling like this ? What is wrong with me ? I am in the developed country in the world came to study here. The facilities are good, infrastructure is mind blowing-never seen such kind of infrastructure ever before. The university itself is the highest recruiter in whole city itself, got it name from the name of the city. What is my task at the university ? Well, this is not a good question because every body knows what is my task at the university. I am the student and I have to come very morning 8 am in the university and do my duties and go back at the time which is appropriate to me. How many courses can I take ? I can take the courses as per my wish and How do I manage my time table-No answer. How do I do all my project ? No answer. How do I learn the skills required to complete the project-See the slides, Google it or ask the help from the friend. How do I travel to the university ? Bus, Car, and if you are facing the condition that I am facing "Walk". How much is the tuition fee taken ? The university do not take any tution fee. Why ? It is the benefit every student in this country is eligible for either native people or international people. Wow, So interesting ! Where is this place ? You have to guess yourself. What is this place famous for ? No answer.

Well my dear readers, probably you know till now that which place i am talking about. If you still do not know then you do not belong to this place and please do not think of this place either, until and unless you are a tough guy like me or like some of my friends. So, want to have fun and want to enjoy the weekend and also want your dream to come true- the dream to study free, the dream to learn the skills and knowledge that you want to upgrade skills through reading the slides and doing project all the time. Come ! You all are welcome.!


This was not what I wanted to write but what to do, I like doing one thing and that is writing-thoughts comes in my mind and automatically my hands starts pressing the keyword like the machine which already knows what this mind(bheja) is talking about. I am not saying that I am good or bad, I am just what I am... So, Why am I feeling depressed and what will make me happy. The best thing that will make me happy is of course my wife. How come I do not have my wife with me ? Well, You better take a guess again. A guy who came far far away from home country to learn, to study and to earn some thing so that he will have a good life is having one of the depressing life like never before. It is not just me, its the same with my friends. Life is very good and interesting when we face problems because then we think that are actually living (said by my friend-Teemu). Yes it is true and there is no doubt about it. When we do not have any problems then we should realize that we are soon approaching the death or there is no meaning to live a life. Welcome and Happy day !